𝐜ᴬ𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧,

𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙳𝙾𝚆   of   the   n i g h t -

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      [   #LTJG5HADOW   ]      “ my whole life,   i’ve always wanted to be at the farthest point...      AN INDEPENDENT,   HIGHLY SELECTIVE   &   PLOT - DRIVEN ORIGINAL CHARACTER CALLED   ELOISE CARPENTER   WITH INSPIRATION DRAWN FROM TOP GUN: MAVERICK.      “ ...from anything.   anything at all....      INFLUENCED BY LTDICE’S VISION FOR A SQUADRON.      “ and i thought that meant i had to go inside myself.      ESTABLISHED ON 09/21/2022.   TWENTY+.   MINORS DNI.      “ but what it really meant was above myself.   above the world.      AS SHADOWED BY BRI, 25, SHE/HER.

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lou will be over @4sakens​ <3

[perspectivestarters]

Perspective's Sentence Starters; MIDNIGHTS by Taylor Swift (Part I)

LAVENDER HAZE

"Meet me at midnight."

"You don't ever say too much."

"You don't really read into my melancholia."

"You handled it beautifully."

"All this shit is new to me."

"I feel the lavender haze creeping up on me."

"I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say."

"I just wanna stay in that lavender haze."

"All they keep asking me is if I'm gonna be your bride."

"The only kinda girl they see is a one night or a wife."

"I find it dizzying."

"You weren't even listening."

"Talk your talk and go viral."

"I just need this love spiral."

"Get it off your chest."

"Get it off my desk."

"I just wanna stay."

MAROON

"We lost track of time again."

"You were my closest friend."

"How'd we end up on the floor anyway?"

"I see you every day now."

"I chose you."

"So scarlet, it was maroon."

"How the hell did we lose sight of us again?"

"Ain't that the way shit always ends?"

"Carnations you had thought were roses, that's us."

"I feel you, no matter what."

"I lost you."

"Looked up at the sky and it was maroon."

"I wake with your memory over me."

"That's a real fuckin' legacy to leave."

ANTI-HERO

"I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser."

"Midnights become my afternoons."

"My depression works the graveyard shift."

"All of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room."

"I should not be left to my own devices."

"They come with prices and vices."

"I end up in crisis."

"Tale as old as time."

"I wake up screaming from dreaming."

"I'm the problem."

"I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror."

"It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero."

"I'm a monster on the hill."

"Pierced through the heart, but never killed."

"Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism?"

"I've realized all this time."

"Life will lose all its meaning."

"She's laughing up at us from hell!"

"It's me, I'm the problem, it's me."

SNOW ON THE BEACH

"I saw flecks of what could've been lights."

"It might just have been you."

"Life is emotionally abusive."

"Time can't stop me quite like you did."

"My flight was awful, thanks for asking."

"It's like snow at the beach."

"Weird but fuckin' beautiful."

"This scene feels like what I once saw on a screen."

"I've never seen someone lit from within."

"To hide that would be so dishonest."

"It's fine to fake it 'til you make it."

"I can't speak, afraid to jinx it."

"I don't even dare to wish it."

"Your eyes are flying saucers from another planet."

"Can this be a real thing, can it?"

"It's comin' down."

YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN, KID

"Summer went away, still the yearning stays."

"I play it cool with the best of them."

"He's gonna notice me."

"We're the best of friends anyway."

"You're smoking with your boys."

"I didn't choose this town."

"I dream of getting out."

"There's just one who could make me stay all my days."

"I waited ages to see you there."

"I search the party of better bodies, just to learn that you never cared."

"You're on your own, kid."

"You always have been."

"I picked the petals, he loves me not."

"Something different bloomed."

"I'll run away."

"I called a taxi to take me there."

"My dreams aren't rare."

"I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this."

"The jokes weren't funny."

"I took the money."

"My friends from home don't know what to say."

"I saw something they can't take away."

"There were pages turned with the bridges burned."

"Everything you lose is a step you take."

"You've got no reason to be afraid."

"Yeah, you can face this."

"You're on your own, kid. You always have been."

MIDNIGHT RAIN

"He wanted it comfortable, I wanted that pain."

"He wanted a bride, I was making my own name."

"He stayed the same."

"All of me changed like midnight."

"My town was a wasteland."

"But for some, it was paradise."

"My boy was a montage."

"I broke his heart 'cause he was nice."

"He was sunshine, I was midnight rain."

"But for him, it's every day."

"All the love we unravel."

"The life I gave away."

"I guess sometimes we all get just what we wanted."

"He never thinks of me except for when I'm on TV."

"I guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted."

"I never think of him except on midnights like this."

QUESTION...?

"I remember."

"We had one thing goin' on."

"I swear that it was somethin'."

I don't remember who I was before you."

"You painted all my nights a color I've searched for since."

"One thing after another."

"Fuckin' situations, circumstances, miscommunications."

"I just may like some explanations."

"Can I ask you a question?

"Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room?"

"Then what did you do?"

"Did you lеave her house in the middle of the night?"

"Did you wish you'd put up more of a fight?"

"She said it was too much."

"Do you wish you could still touch her?"

"It's just a question."

"Did you realize out of time?"

"She was on your mind with some dickhead guy."

"It was one drink after another."

"Fuckin' politics and gender roles."

"You're not sure and I don't know."

"I just may like to have a conversation."

"Does it feel like everything's just like second best after that meteor strike?"

"What's that that I heard?"

"That you're still with her?"

"That's nice, I'm sure that's what's suitable."

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐒𝐘  𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐊  𝐔𝐏  𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒.   (  since  i’ve  already  made  some  dirty  pick  up  lines,  let’s  have  a  few  tame,  more  romantic  ones.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  wouldn’t it be the perfect crime if i stole your heart and you stole mine ?  ❜ ❛  i just wanted to show this rose how incredibly beautiful you are.  ❜ ❛  falling for you would be a very short trip.  ❜ ❛  do you have a map ? i’m getting lost in your eyes.  ❜ ❛  i’ll be yours forever. just tell me when to start.  ❜ ❛  if you were a tear drop i would never cry for fear of losing you.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry, i don’t know your name. can i just call you mine ?  ❜ ❛  are you as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside ?  ❜ ❛  i think the gaps between my fingers were meant for yours.  ❜ ❛  there isn’t a word in the dictionary for how beautiful you look.  ❜ ❛  why would i want to look at the stars when i can look in your eyes ?  ❜ ❛  if beauty were time, you would be forever.  ❜ ❛  when i think of you i smile, and when i smile i think of you. i don’t know if it’s the thinking that makes me smile or the smile that keeps me thinking. all i know is i’m always thinking of you and smiling.  ❜ ❛  my heart forgets to beat the moment i see you.  ❜ ❛  is your dad in jail ? because he stole the stars and put them in your eyes.  ❜ ❛  you’re so beautiful that you made me forget my pick up line.  ❜ ❛  i just want you to know that when i picture myself happy, it’s with you.  ❜ ❛  you are my compass. without you i’m lost.  ❜ ❛  the only flaw in your entire body is your lips ― they’re not touching mine.  ❜ ❛  excuse me, i seem to have lost my heart. i think you must have it.  ❜ ❛  you make my life easier with your disarming smiles.  ❜ ❛  perfect will be making you mine forever.  ❜ ❛  i think we are made for each other.  ❜ ❛  you are a walking art exhibit. i could study you for days.  ❜ ❛  i now believe in angels. do you believe in fate ?  ❜ ❛  i’m not a photographer but i can picture me and you together.  ❜ ❛  do you have wi-fi ? because i am really feeling a connection right now.  ❜ ❛  well, here i am. what are your other two wishes ?  ❜ ❛  are you lost ? because heaven’s a long way from here.  ❜ ❛  you spen so much time in my mind, i should charge you rent.  ❜ ❛  if you are a fruit, you would be a fineapple.  ❜ ❛  i am not drunk honey, i’m just intoxicated by you.  ❜ ❛  i am a man of few words. you are beautiful. would you like to go out ?  ❜ ❛  you know you have the most amazing smile ?  ❜ ❛  i was gonna say something really sweet about you but when i saw you i was speechless.  ❜ ❛  you are deserving of masterful poetry, not mere words.  ❜ ❛  are you a magician ? because whenever i look at you, everyone else disappears.  ❜ ❛  i am not your first love, but i would love to be the last.  ❜ ❛  i was blinded by your beauty, so i’m going to need your name and number for insurance reasons.  ❜ ❛  i know i don’t have a chance, but i just wanted to hear an angel talk.  ❜

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[ltjg5hadow]

“barefoot in the kitchen, sacred new beginnings, that became my religion”

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓  𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.   (  some  random  sentences  for  your  angsty  needs.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  hey … it’s okay now. you’re safe here.  ❜ ❛  please don’t leave me alone again.  ❜ ❛  was it all just a lie ?  ❜ ❛  you have to trust me on this.  ❜ ❛  i didn’t mean it like that !  ❜ ❛  i can’t do this anymore.  ❜ ❛  promise me not to do anything stupid.  ❜ ❛  we’ll see each other again soon.  ❜ ❛  i can’t lose you , too.  ❜ ❛  this is how you wanna end it ?  ❜ ❛  whatever this is - it’s over.  ❜ ❛  i’m not gonna let you die !  ❜ ❛  we have to stop this before someone gets hurt.  ❜ ❛  i’m fine … it’s gonna be okay.  ❜ ❛  please don’t do this to me.  ❜ ❛  just talk to me , okay ?  ❜ ❛  don’t close your eyes. stay with me.  ❜ ❛  you’ll have to save yourself.  ❜ ❛  stop lying to me !  ❜ ❛  you have to do this for me or i’ll never be able to forgive you.  ❜ ❛  i deserve better than this.  ❜ ❛  just leave me alone.  ❜ ❛  we’re too late …  ❜ ❛  save yourself while you still can.  ❜ ❛  you’re gonna be fine. just stay awake for a little longer , help’s already on their way.  ❜ ❛  please don’t cry.  ❜ ❛  stop moving , you’re only making this worse.  ❜ ❛  does it hurt ?  ❜ ❛  if this is the end , i’m really glad i get to be here with you.  ❜ ❛  whatever you do , do not let go of my hand.  ❜ ❛  i’ve got you.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry for not telling you sooner.  ❜ ❛  this is all your fault !  ❜ ❛  we’re gonna survive this , right ?  ❜ ❛  we’re screwed.  ❜ ❛  just do this for me and we’ll never have to speak to each other again once this is all over.  ❜ ❛  i thought you were better than that.  ❜ ❛  one of us is gonna end up with a broken heart.  ❜ ❛  i’m scared.  ❜ ❛  so that’s it ?  ❜

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[ohisms]

𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 .    (  a  collection  of  100  nonverbal  action  prompts .   mature  and  potentially  triggering  themes  are  present .   add  “ + reverse ”  to  swap  assigned  roles . )

∗ o1﹕ sender  tucks  hair  out  of  receiver’s  face . ∗ o2﹕ sender  offers  receiver  a  bite  from  their  fork . ∗ o3﹕ sender  places  their  feet / legs  in  receiver's  lap . ∗ o4﹕ sender  offers  receiver  an  earbud  to  share  their  music . ∗ o5﹕ sender  comforts  receiver  in  the  aftermath  of  a  nightmare . ∗ o6﹕ sender  gives  receiver  company  in  the  hospital . ∗ o7﹕ sender  wraps  their  arms  around  a  hysterical  receiver  to  calm  them . ∗ o8﹕ sender  shows  up  at  receiver’s  home  late  at  night . ∗ o9﹕ sender  falls  asleep  leaning  against  receiver . ∗ 1o﹕ sender  wields  a  [ gun / knife ]  at  receiver . ∗ 11﹕ sender  runs  their  fingers  through  receiver’s  hair . ∗ 12﹕ sender  invites  receiver  to  dance . ∗ 13﹕ sender  takes  a  [ picture / video ]  of  receiver . ∗ 14﹕ sender  places  their  head  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 15﹕ sender  and  receiver  make  eye  contact  across  a  busy  room . ∗ 16﹕ sender  pushes  receiver  against  a  wall  to  kiss  them . ∗ 17﹕ sender  and  receiver  cook  together . ∗ 18﹕ sender  comes  to  receiver  after  being  injured . ∗ 19﹕ sender  sits  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 2o﹕ sender  lifts  receiver's  chin ,  invoking  eye  contact . ∗ 21﹕ sender  overtakes  receiver  in  combat . ∗ 22﹕ sender  finds  receiver  [ injured / bloodied ] . ∗ 23﹕ sender  straightens  an  article  of  receiver’s  clothes . ∗ 24﹕ sender  crawls  into  bed  with  receiver . ∗ 25﹕ sender  rolls  their  eyes  at  receiver . ∗ 26﹕ sender  lights  receiver’s  [ cigarette / joint ] . ∗ 27﹕ sender  is  caught  wearing  receiver's  clothes . ∗ 28﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  with  a  pillow . ∗ 29﹕ sender  writes  a  note  on  receiver’s  skin :  [ note ] . ∗ 3o﹕ sender  wraps  a  blanket  around  receiver’s  shoulders . ∗ 31﹕ sender  runs  and  jumps  into  receiver’s  arms . ∗ 32﹕ sender  shoves  receiver  out  of  anger . ∗ 33﹕ sender  hovers  over  receiver’s  shoulder  as  they  complete  a  task . ∗ 34﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  somewhere  they  shouldn’t  be . ∗ 35﹕ sender  curls  up  against  receiver  in  their  sleep . ∗ 36﹕ sender  is  found  drunk  by  receiver . ∗ 37﹕ sender  throws  an  item  of  sentiment  bitterly  at  receiver . ∗ 38﹕ sender  joins  receiver  in  the  shower . ∗ 39﹕ sender  is  caught  following  receiver . ∗ 4o﹕ sender  traces  one  of  receiver’s  [ scars / bruises ] . ∗ 41﹕ sender  twines  their  fingers  with  receiver’s . ∗ 42﹕ sender  barges  into  receiver’s  home  unannounced . ∗ 43﹕ sender  kicks  receiver’s  shin  beneath  a  table . ∗ 44﹕ sender  aggressively  shoves  past  receiver . ∗ 45﹕ sender  kisses  receiver’s  [ forehead / cheek ] . ∗ 46﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  out  of  harm’s  way . ∗ 47﹕ sender  is  found  sobbing  by  receiver . ∗ 48﹕ sender  locks  receiver  out  of  their  room . ∗ 49﹕ sender  brings  receiver  [ coffee / tea ]  in  the  morning . ∗ 5o﹕ sender  rests  their  forehead  against  receiver’s . ∗ 51﹕ sender  plays  a  song  for  receiver  that  reminds  them  of  them :  [ song ] . ∗ 52﹕ sender  takes  a  [ punch / stab / bullet ]  meant  for  receiver . ∗ 53﹕ sender  buys  receiver  a  drink  at  a  bar . ∗ 54﹕ sender  needs  receiver’s  help  getting  in  the  bath . ∗ 55﹕ sender  and  receiver  cross  paths  in  the  kitchen  late  at  night . ∗ 56﹕ sender  twists  receiver’s  arm  behind  their  back . ∗ 57﹕ sender  winks  at  receiver . ∗ 58﹕ sender  is  found  collapsed  by  receiver . ∗ 59﹕ sender  prevents  an  injured  receiver  from  getting  up . ∗ 6o﹕ sender  claps  a  hand  over  receiver’s  mouth  to  silence  them . ∗ 61﹕ sender  cages  receiver  against  a  [ wall / the floor ]  with  their  arms . ∗ 62﹕ sender  storms  away  from  receiver  during  an  argument . ∗ 63﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  sleeping  in  receiver’s  bed . ∗ 64﹕ sender  [ applies / touches up ]  receiver’s  makeup . ∗ 65﹕ sender  throws  receiver  into  a  wall  during  combat . ∗ 66﹕ sender  dances  sensually  with  receiver . ∗ 67﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  across  the  face . ∗ 68﹕ sender  places  their  hand  on  receiver’s  leg  while  driving . ∗ 69﹕ sender  pulls  a  chair  out  from  under  receiver . ∗ 7o﹕ sender  catches  receiver’s  wrist  when  they  turn  to  leave . ∗ 71﹕ sender  leaves  an  intimate  mark  on  receiver . ∗ 72﹕ sender  beats  receiver  in  a  video  game . ∗ 73﹕ sender  and  receiver  stand  in  stunned  silence  after  a  fight . ∗ 74﹕ sender  cares  for  receiver  while  they’re  sick . ∗ 75﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  on  a  hike . ∗ 76﹕ sender  is  caught  snooping  in  receiver’s  things . ∗ 77﹕ sender  and  receiver  cuddle  while  watching  television . ∗ 78﹕ sender  throws  something  aggressively  at  receiver . ∗ 79﹕ sender  creeps  up  behind  receiver  to  scare  them . ∗ 8o﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  shopping  together . ∗ 81﹕ sender  helps  receiver  [ dye / style ]  their  hair . ∗ 82﹕ sender  draws  receiver  into  a  kiss  by  the  back  of  their  neck . ∗ 83﹕ sender  is  discovered  having  a  panic  attack  by  receiver . ∗ 84﹕ sender  accidentally  injures  receiver  during  sparring . ∗ 85﹕ sender  grabs  receiver  roughly  by  the  hair . ∗ 86﹕ sender  brings  receiver  to  their  knees  during  combat . ∗ 87﹕ sender  shows  receiver  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ∗ 88﹕ sender  winks  [ seductively / mockingly ]  at  receiver . ∗ 89﹕ sender  yells  at  receiver  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air . ∗ 9o﹕ sender  helps  receiver  patch  up  a  wound . ∗ 91﹕ sender  holds  receiver  as  they  cry . ∗ 92﹕ sender  silently  and  angrily  points  receiver  towards  the  door . ∗ 93﹕ sender  gestures  for  receiver  to  sit  down . ∗ 94﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  into  their  lap . ∗ 95﹕ sender  cradles  receiver’s  face . ∗ 96﹕ sender  tackles  receiver  out  of  the  way  of  danger . ∗ 97﹕ sender  has  hidden  an  injury  from  receiver ,  and  receiver  finds  out . ∗ 98﹕ sender  confronts  receiver  about  their  unhealthy  behavior . ∗ 99﹕ sender  proposes  to  receiver . ∗ 1oo﹕ sender  has  just  died ,  receiver  finds  out .

[ltjg5hadow]

...   CALL SIGN:   S1RENSHE ,

her  body  falls  long  against  the  tarmac      (  —  a  short  drop,    having  already  been  sitting  )        𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚎  𝚞𝚗𝚏𝚞𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐  𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐  𝚝𝚑𝚎  𝚝𝚊𝚛.        she  can  feel  the  heat  of  it,    of  california  air  and  the  friction  between  tires  and  earth,    through  her  suit.      how  it  kisses  along  every  rung  of  her  spine.      laves  against  her  skin.        𝙰  𝚂𝙸𝚁𝙴𝙽  𝙷𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙸𝙻𝚈  𝙰𝚃  𝙾𝙽𝙴  𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷  𝚂𝚄𝙼𝙼𝙴𝚁.    𝙳𝚁𝙰𝙶𝚂  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙷𝚄𝙼𝙸𝙳𝙻𝙴𝚂𝚂  𝚆𝙴𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃  𝙾𝙵  𝙸𝚃  𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙾  𝙷𝙴𝚁  𝙻𝚄𝙽𝙶𝚂.    𝚃𝙰𝚂𝚃𝙴𝚂  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙾𝙲𝙴𝙰𝙽  𝙴𝚅𝙴𝙽  𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽  𝙰  𝙼𝙸𝙻𝙴  𝙰𝚆𝙰𝚈.        salt,    and  sea,    and  something  like  happiness.    broadway  laughter  and  the  scrape  of  roller  skates.    cotton  candy  twirled  in  preparation  for  tourists  eagerly  awaiting  the  opportunity  to  thrust  headlong  into  the  waves.      𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴𝚃𝙸𝙼𝙴𝚂  𝙸𝙼𝙰𝙶𝙸𝙽𝙴𝚂  𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃  𝚂𝙷𝙴'𝚂  𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴  𝙸𝙽𝚂𝚃𝙴𝙰𝙳  𝙾𝙵  𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴  /  𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴𝚆𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴  𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽  𝙰𝙽𝙳  𝚄𝙽𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙸𝙽𝙴𝙳.  𝙰  𝙵𝙰𝚁  𝙲𝚁𝚈  𝙵𝚁𝙾𝙼  𝙰  𝙲𝙾𝙲𝙺𝙿𝙸𝚃.  𝙵𝚁𝙾𝙼  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝚂𝚃𝙴𝙴𝙻  𝙹𝙾𝚆𝙻𝚂  𝙾𝙵  𝚆𝙷𝙸𝙲𝙷  𝚂𝙷𝙴'𝚂  𝚂𝙾  𝙵𝙰𝙼𝙸𝙻𝙸𝙰𝚁.    she  and  lou  both.      animals  loosed  from  the  same  cage.      beasts  of  a  similar  burden.    but  they're  good  at  it  —        and  so,  and  so,  and  so…   she  runs  a  hand  across  her  face  and  looks  upwards,    eyes  squinting  against  the  high  noon.    gold  ricocheting  off  of  every  surface.         “  you're  only  saying  that  because  you  love  me,  ”       it's  more  croon  than  accusation.      a  jest  trussed  up  in  a  smile.    she  sits  up  again  …  𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚗𝚜  𝚒𝚗  𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚛.      wisps  of  hair  dancing  in  the  meager  space  between  faces.    friction  felt  on  her  skin.    her  cheeks.    the  sweat  slick  space  of  her  temples.      “   maybe,  ”     gaze  wild  with  glee.         “   think  they'd  allow  it?    i  bet  we  could  manage  if  they  did.   ”

THE SKY IS BLUE ABOVE,      THE GROUND HOT BENEATH——      AND SHE UNDERSTANDS NOW WHAT HAPPINESS LOOKS LIKE.      RIGHT HERE,      BETWEEN THEM,      IN THEM.      * i feel contentment honeying me.     meets the haze of heat separating their bodies      /      tells it there is no obscuring this from memory.      you   capture   me   in   the   lapse   of   your   waves.      she feels herself continue to close the distance,      following diana’s lead,      and thinks:      this is why the shoreline welcomes the ocean home,      home,       home again.      no matter how many times it slips away.      the devouring of self is an old friend.      she met it at midnight in the rainy glare of her reflection.      (IN CONCLUSION!)      i knew you were the comfort in my bones for a reason.      the darkness wasn’t enough that night,      but what was there as i lost myself?      oh,      the rain.      t h e   r a i n,      t h e   r a i n,      t h e   r a i n ...      there was a piece of you in the water as it fell,      wasn’t there?      crystallized laugh echoes.      empty hallways of her vessel forgotten.       ❝   you got me there.   ❞      hear it here.      denial is black,      and she wears it well,      but the power of truth ...      lou hides in plain sight.       ❝   damn,      diana -   ❞      says it like a litany,      a manta,      a prayer.     tongue presses between the fine line of her lips as eyes trace the supple ones at home in diana’s face.      lou has to laugh again.      needs something else to do with her mouth.      i would drink you up.      it’s difficult to tear her gaze away but she manages for a second sliced in half,      as if truly contemplating it.       ❝   i don’t say fuck it very often,      but now i’m curious.      we could tell them it’s an exercise.      i mean,      they say we should be prepared for anything.      i don’t know about you but i like being prepared.   ❞

[ltjg5hadow]

@belayadeath to shadow   ( ... ) :      “where did you think i was all this time?”

DURING ANOTHER TIME,      AN INTERLUDE OF THE PAST,      THERE WOULD HAVE BEEN A FORKED TONGUE READY TO FEED ACRIMONY FROM THE TIP OF HER TONGUE.      THIS,      BECAUSE,      SHE HAS YET TO HANDLE LOSS WITH CARE.      * these hands of mine are withered and bruised.      but the space between them is monochrome now and there is a sound of weeping coming from the atmosphere.      is   it   me?      SWALLOW IT DOWN.      eyes blink,      turning off the faucet behind skin.      she adjusts her gaze from bianca to the wall just shy of her shoulder.      tell me,      is that a ghost you hear in her silence?      no,      it’s her heart.      it flutters in the breeze,      looks like a deflated balloon.      she doesn’t want to answer but surely  the eerie quietude which has settled between them is enough of a response.      always,      always,      always hiding behind something,      aren’t i?      she’s thinking about the echoing memory of laughter again.      mine and yours,      and i pretend it isn’t my poor excuse of a beating organ fluttering but us,      instead,      in the breeze.      like time did not roll over and in upon itself to bring them here to this moment.

❝   i didn’t think.   ❞      the admittance is weak.      shadows are always larger,      stronger,      when closer to the sun.      (LOOK AROUND!)      not a single blind is upturned.      the sun high in the sky,      but as good as beyond the horizon in this room.      she curses beneath her breath.      i do not thrive on the ground.      i am meant for the sky.      all this to say,      she is sorry you have to learn this now.      ❝   you were gone and there was nothing i could do.      right?   ❞      what’s that old saying?      ask and you shall receive.      s t o p ...      she wants to take it back.      she prefers combat from the home of a cockpit.      ❝   you can’t tell me you wanted to be found.   ❞      correction,      YOU CAN’T TELL ME THERE WAS SOMETHING I COULD HAVE DONE.

[ohisms]

↪     𝑴𝑼𝑺𝑰𝑪 ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ 𝑺𝑶𝑼𝑳 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted lyric starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   will be updated frequently .  )

i’m not sticking around to watch you go down .

i hope that you don’t suffer ,  but take the pain .

the truth is , i’ve never seen a mouth that i would kill to kiss .

we will be everything that we’d ever need .

you only listen to your fucking friends .

you made a few mistakes .  it’s alright ,  it’s okay .

i’m trying to get better , but i can’t do that when everything is about you .

i can name a couple ways this shit might go .

can you feel my heartbeat fuckin’ kickin ?

you were my everything and all you did was make me fuckin sad .

it’s kind of tripping me up , i’ve got it bad for you .

i’m on my own , i had some space to deal with it .

i’ve got it too good to cry .

i don’t know where i am or where i’ve been .

don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled .

finish up the bottle , then we’ll go .

this room is so suffocating .

motherfucker , don’t play with me .

there’s no doubt in my mind that if you could ,  then you would try .

i’m not the type to be out past dawn .

it’s been a long time since i felt this good on my own .

i really wish that i could say it to your face .

i kinda like it when you talk to me the way you do .

i’ve got something up my sleeve , i walk my talk .

i love you , but i know i’ve gotta let you go .

it’s getting hard to find a silver lining .

of course it hurt , of course it fucking hurt .

i know that you’re hiding something from me .

i don’t need to be loved by you .

trying to ignore it is fucking boring .

i tried to pretend ,  but it just doesn’t feel right .

i just can’t take it anymore .

i’m not trying to change your mind .

living in the city isn’t where it’s at .

don’t waste the time i don’t have ,  don’t try to make me feel bad .

i almost did it … glad that i didn’t .

you better run , you better do what you can .

yeah , i don’t really wanna be here .

pretty things should be seen and not heard .

can’t you bother someone else ?

now i’m sitting here wondering , when did this all start ?

i’m terrified but i can’t resist .

is there someone else or not ?

i’ve been around long enough now to know that good things never last .

i’d rather be the girl that got away than be under your thumb .

it ain’t so bad if i wanna make a few mistakes .

wish i could get some fuckin’ sleep without wasting all my weed .

you scared me to death ,  but i’m wasting my breath .

i feel like a kid again .

you were always taught to believe that everything you think is the truth .

nothing comes without a consequence or cost .

i don’t deserve someone loyal to me .

thought you were headed somewhere new .

touch me like tonight we’re gonna die .

can we go back to the world we had ? 

you should know right now that i never stay in one place .

i’d suffers hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight .

the games you played were never fun .

you said you’d stay , but then you ran .

if i can’t hold you like a lover , i won’t hold you at all .

you and i have history ,  or don’t you remember ?

i’ll be the one to deliver the news .

i’m better than this ,  i know my worth .

there’s something tragic about you .

you don’t know what it’s like , waiting up all night .

thank you for teaching me how i could live without you .

tell me what it is you wanna know .

you’re not a monster ,  you’re just human .

maybe i need better friends . or maybe i need a wake up call .

there’s so much to do , i’ll never have the wherewithal to do it .

i know i’d miss you ,  if i left right now .

i don’t like anyone better than you .

they told me once nothing grows when a house isn’t a home .

what makes you sure you’re all i need ?

i know you feel the way i do .

forever never really felt so right .

i overcommunicate and feel too much .

you say you’ve changed and you’re sorry ,  but i don’t wanna know .

i know i’ve got friends ,  i still get so lonely .

i’ve been doing greater good for a long time .

i’m no hero ,  but i can take a punch .

i thought it would all be great when i was older .

i used to be the one that was lying .

i can’t stand your condescending tone when you talk to me .

we’re still going cause we’re not quite dead .

i wanna scream ,  but what’s the use ?

i know what’s going on in your head .

you know ,  i never wanted to hurt you .

i don’t want to be a prisoner to who i used to be .

if we could stay this way forever , would it be enough ?

can’t you see that i’m getting bored ?

i hope you don’t think that shit’s fair .

i never knew you had such a dirty mind .

sometimes i don’t have a filter .

i’m the worst mistake that god has ever made .

you know i love you , but i’m still learning to love myself .

darling , you’re sick in the head .

am i someone you can’t live without ?

if you don’t come back , at least i’ve got nothing to lose .

did you think that i should listen to you ?

the meds aren’t working for me anymore .

goodbye to my good side ,  it only ever got me hurt .

you know ,  you’ve got a real smart mouth .

i know i’m where i belong .  deep down inside ,  i’ve known all along .

i’ve been putting myself on the sideline .

i was worth something , and it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food .

i know i took the path that you would never want for me .

my tongue’s gotten real tired of me biting it .

you’re acting like your deadbeat dad .  you’re better than that .

i swear i changed my ways for the better .

i hate it when dudes try to chase me .

when you’re in love ,  you get so cruel .

sorry , but i guess i’ve gotta let you down again .

just fucking leave me alone .

i walk through this world just trying to be nice .

i can’t be your savior ,  i don’t have the power .

will heaven step in ?  will it save us from our sin ?

follow my lead ,  take my hand .

you should’ve made some plans with me ,  you knew that i was free .

there are things that we’ll never say , but we know .

the only way you can know is to give it all you have .

i’m not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain .

you get me through every dark night .

i know that i’ve done some wrong ,  but i’m trying to make it right .

now you’re over there ,  and i’m way over here , what are we gonna do ?

think about what you believe in .

if i keep my eyes closed ,  he looks just like you .

i don’t wanna feel better .  no one’s ever gonna love me like that again .

there are things that you say ,  and you don’t say .

all my filthy life i loved someone i barely knew .

bless your soul ,  you’ve got your head in the clouds .

what did you say ?  you’re breaking up on me .

if you adore me ,   why do you ignore me ?

you’re not as brave as you were at the start .

it was a bad idea ,  calling you up .

i see it on your face ,  you’ve had a bad day .

people are so fake ,  this world is a cruel place .

i’d rather be hunter than the prey .

someone’s gonna hate ,  it’s never gonna change .

you used to be so kind .

never gonna be easy ,  was it ?

every day’s another shot but all i do is fuck it up .

i can take the hate and all the pain .

it doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right .

tell your baby that i’m your baby .

they’ll kick you and they’ll beat you ,  and they’ll tell you it’s fair .

i wanted to pretend that this time was the end .

no one around me knows who i am or what i’ve done .

i would’ve gave it all for you .

i won’t run ,  i’m not afraid .

same way that they come ,  that’s the way they go .

somehow ,  i just want you more .

i never regretted the day that i called you mine .

i don’t want to get over you .

take it out on me .  i don’t mind if we fight if you make me bleed .

you look better in that dress than i do .

i know i let you down ,  didn’t i ?

it’s a cruel ,  cruel world .

i know i don’t want to live without you .

i’m always tired ,  i just can’t fight it .

i’m too consumed with my own life .

you didn’t think it’d be so much fun .

i won’t let you go ,  so don’t let go of me .

darling , you’re so pretty it hurts .

how’d i ever get so off my rocks ?

tell me where i went wrong .

what’s a king to a god ?  what’s a god to a non-believer ?

they’re out to get you ,  better leave while you can .

i know i’ll never know just what to say .

goddamn it ,  i was worth something .

we don’t need to be enemies .

should’ve kept my ass in bed .

i tried to love you ,  but you’re not my type .

there’s something here that i just can’t explain .

baby ,  is that really what you want ?

i’m not good at making friends .

i keep a close watch on this heart of mine .

i’m obsessed ,  i’ve never met someone like you .

can’t you see that you’re lost without me ?

when i’m like this , you’re the one i trust .

i was born into this , won’t hesitate to use my fists .

i always get my revenge .

the world thinks i’m a mess .

there’s something wrong with me ,  cause all i wanna do is get high .

it’s been a long time since i gave a shit .

sometimes i have these thoughts , they leave me all confused .

when i said take me home ,  that wasn’t what i meant .

oh my god ,  why are you sad again ?

you have to show them that you’re really not scared .

i don’t have many friends .  most of them are pretend .

i had my cake ,  and i ate it too .

i’m too afraid about the things i might say .

shit wasn’t real ,  it was all in my head .

it’s too late to apologize .

i know my disposition gets confusing .

you’ve gotta be so cold to make it in this world .

satisfaction is a distant memory .

no one can ever know .

there’s you in everything i do .

i wish i could say that i’m sorry ,  but i’m over that now .

you’re playing with your life ,  this ain’t no truth or dare .

fool me twice ,  and i know that’s all i need .

i hope if everyone leaves ,  you choose to stay .

i was afraid to leave you on your own .

where along the line did we stop seeing eye to eye ?

if they laugh ,  then fuck them all .

i’m sick and tired of everyone in this place .

i miss the way you made me feel .

he’ll never stay . they never do .

take a dose of something to forget .

aren’t we too young for this ?

i’m not the type to admit i’m wrong .

i shouldn’t think the things i’m thinking .

i don’t wanna know where you’ve been ,  or where you go .

[ltjg5hadow]

just a lil psa,   and this goes for all of my blogs -   i typically always send memes from the prerogative that the characters already know each other.   depending on the meme,   it can be a bit more personally but it doesn’t HAVE to be and i never want anyone to feel like that has to be the case.   i just send them and it’s totally up to you what you do with it   ( if anything at all ! which is also 100% okay too ! )   and you can always feel free to message me for plotting if that makes it easier.   i’m just ??   not big ??   on first interactions.   they can be fun,   especially if they are pre-plotted and have a purpose or whatever,   but generally ...   i steer away from those.   if this isn’t okay with you,   please feel free to tell me tho.

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@saycred​​ to shadow   ( ... ) :      “it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with.”

THERE ARE FEW TELLTALES TO THE CANVAS THAT IS HER FACE,      MINOR DETAILS,      LIKE THE STROKE OF WHITE TO MIMIC FROST ON A TREE BRANCH OF WINTER SCENE,      THAT GIVE WAY TO THE WOMAN WHO STORES JOY IN THE POCKETS OF HER RIB CAGE INSTEAD OF INSIDE BELLY LAUGHS.      * i keep them for those i’d wear in a locket.      like a reminder,      to never give too much of herself away.      if   you   peer   at   me   like   a   painting   then   maybe   you’ll   see   all   of   my   mistakes   and   leave   in   a   darkened   gallery   all   by   myself.      she never claims to be a shiny thing but doesn’t everyone like to feel brand new?      the story digresses:      it’s in her face.      the northward pull of her brow.      the hint of mona lisa’s smile.      ❝   i have no idea what you’re talking about.   ❞      this is a lie shaped jest,      and she brings the beer bottle to her lips to masquerade it.      ❝   you should have a beer with me and jog my memory.   ❞

[ltjg5hadow]

casually BARGING IN HERE to say that your writing is absolutely breathtaking?? like bri?? hello??? always stunning. always immaculate. i can't help but devour it all because i'm so fucking obsessed (with it and you) so here is your daily reminder that you are a GODDESS OF WORDS and i adore you !!!!

SHUT UP?!?! 🥺🤍   this means everything to me because you're so incredibly talented like straight up uno reverse card.   i am obsessed with u ok i love u so much thank u

[ltjg5hadow]

@ltdice​   to   shadow   ( ... ) :      PROTECT

THEY ARE NOT CROWS,      UP HERE,      NOT FLYING IN STRAIGHT LINES,      AVOIDING POWER LINES.      IT IS NOT SOARING ABOVE THE WORLD IN SILENCE BUT CAREFULLY ORCHESTRATED GUIDANCE.      * i never let you stray too far.     ❝   i‘m right behind you,      dice.   ❞      nose to tail.      tell   me,       can   you   feel   my   chest   pressed   to   your   back   as   it   struggles   to   expand?      BONE CRUSH.      with her tongue held between the sharpened edges of her teeth——this is concentration——she can taste the salt of sweat.      thinking too much   /   not thinking at all.      imagine the wind in your hair and something sweet.      focus on the latter and know she’s flying right ahead of you.      lou increases speed.      if pedal to the metal was the way of a plane,      well,      it would’ve given out beneath feet many knots ago.      the countdown is a moving quiet on the edge of her peripheral.      it makes no sound,      but there’s a ticking of a clock somewhere.      maybe it’s in her head.      t i c k,      t i c k,      t i c k ...      it’s coming,      she can feel it.      she’s loomed in the shadows for too long,      always waiting for the first sign of———— this   is   where   the   narrator   would   announce   it   was   only   a   simulation,      the   danger   was   never   real,      and   now   that   they   are   ground   level   they   can   stop   telling   themselves   it   ever   was.      any smoke in the air or enemy approach existed only for the sake of testing the pilot’s manoeuvres.      t i c k,      t i c k,      t i c k ...      the clock never stopped though.      lou has spent many days and many nights disguising her difficulty in telling her heart to ignore her head.      (SOME SAY THIS IS HOW SHE GOT HER CALL SIGN!)      she is a separate woman,      separate fighter jet,      separate strategy,      but when the sun hits!      she is nothing but darkness,      and shadow;      attached to you.      i go home,      you go home.      you fly,      i fly.      except,      apparently,      for the rest of the day.      ❝   i’m not going back up today.   ❞      in other words,      she’s grounded.      it sits heavy in the cavern of her mouth.      tastes like the gravel beneath jet tires on the runway.      ❝   for not fucking using my call out’s—   ❞      helmet hits ground.   she could have warned her,      could have:      ❝   ‘flew the line instead of breaking left.      i knew better.’   ❞      knew better than to take the metaphorical smoke that wasn’t meant for her.      their training told her evasion was more than successful yet she continued to fly the shadowed path.      ❝   guess this is their way of saying i planned my own funeral.   ❞      gloves ripped off of hands.      lou’s eyes turn up to meet car’s,      as if she knows the words that lapse in her mouth before they leave her lips:      ❝   it wasn’t real,      i know.      but if it was ...      i said i was right behind you.   ❞      i go home,      you go home.      * I NEVER SAID THEY WERE THE SAME PLACE.

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all i’m saying is if i had an audio play in my pinned post here it would be what’s up by 4 non blondes