Gods, Holidays are slowly ending and i still don't know if I am even happy with how I managed my time durning those few months.. I mean, I just feel like I could had done a lot more if I didnt had those addictions (fuck them Fr). But i am pretty grateful for the events i attended and concerts i have seen. Music started to be my one of few boosts that can get me through this life and seeing a band life is like a dream for me. Music is something that I know I can lean into and eventually get comforted by it, no matter what emotions i am struggling with. I don't know if thats normal or its just like a coopying mechanism for me.. But I aint complaining. I hope u guys are alright. Remember to pause your life for a moment and think of a few things u are grateful for. Love ya