[luvrgal]

i love doing nothing and rewarding myself by masturbating

[luvrgal]

fuck

[luvrgal]

it hurts. it feels like i have no one. i’m exhausted. i’m sad. i’m so empty inside. how could you do this.

[luvrgal]

i’m feeling bad again

[luvrgal]

was feeling super down tonight and wanted to hurt myself but i got so many signs to stay. thank you universe

[luvrgal]

i want to feel again

[luvrgal]

i feel sick to my stomach

[spi-ltmilk]

[luvrgal]

get a boyfriend who watches what you eat and makes u wanna start an eating disorder because he makes you feel fat and you’re the heaviest gf so far because he’s only dated a fucking twig and cheated on u with another twig even tho he’s a big fat piece of shit himself

[catharinethegreat]

[annasfridge]

[luvrgal]

jan 29.

i have this huge weight on my chest and everytime i exhale it gets heavier and heavier. everyday i’m slowly realizing that i don’t believe in love, not the dreamy sweet love anyways. i feel like im broken and im angry about it. truthfully, i’m angry at him. we’ve been dating for almost two years and i’ve realized that although we’ve shared great memories together... he’s been the main character in all my nightmares. i know he’ll probably read this and feel sad but i want him to understand that i do care for him, but i know now what i wasn’t ready to admit before was that hes my trigger.

i fell in love with him, blindly. i let my world revolve around him and he completely swallowed me and spit me back up. i‘ve never experienced the type of hurt he caused me before and i think that’s why i haven’t been the same since. he’s trying to learn and grow as a person, which i know he’s doing good at but again i’m angry. i’m angry that he will change for the better but i will remain damaged and will continue to struggle with trust issue and insecurities that were crafted by our relationship.