Lucas arrived from prep school. Everything had been so wrong for the past couples of weeks. His grades weren’t the best, every day was the same as the one before it; prep school, quick trips to the store for groceries, home. Always the same routine and he was getting tired of it. But the worst of all is that he's feeling like the spark between him and Eliott is slowly dying off…
The first two years with Eliott were amazing. Mostly. They had their problems but they always come back to each other. However, there's one thing they never had: communication. Eliott lied to him a lot and Lucas sometimes did the same. They never really properly talked. They just shout at each other. They both knew that this wasn't proper communication, but they were too afraid. Afraid to talk.
But now Lucas had just reached a point. With prep school, with Eliott, with everything. He tried to calm down but it didn't work. He was pacing around the living room, feeling like he was about to burst into tears.
He was going to do it; he was going to break up with Eliott,
After thinking about what he was going to say, he sat down on the couch and began to cry.
Half an hour later, Eliott arrived at the apartment, tired after working overtime at the videoclub. He was working extra hours to save money. He and Lucas needed a vacation. He knew that Lucas was tired from prep school and everything. A rest will do some good to both of them.
When he walked into the living room, he found Lucas on the couch with his hands in his hair, looking down. Eliott couldn’t see his face but he knew that something was really wrong
“Lucas?” he asked quietly, but lucas didn’t even move.
Eliott tried again but this time he stepped closer to Lucas.
“Lucas? Baby. What's wrong?”
Lucas finally raised his head and the sight broke Eliott's heart. Lucas' eyes were red and filled with tears. Eliott was even more worried now so he reached out, trying to cup Lucas' cheek but he pushed away his hand. Now, Eliott was terrified.
“Lucas! Please tell me what's wrong!”
Lucas tried to talk but the words wouldn't come out. How do you tell your boyfriend of almost three years that you want to break with him although you still love him?
“I-I“ he tried, his voice cracking but he cleared his throat and continued “I can't do this anymore, Eliott!”
Eliott shook his head, half in confusion, half in fear.
Lucas remained silent for a minute, a minute that seemed to last an eternity for Eliott.
“We are going in circles. We have the same routine everyday. I think that spark between us isn't there anymore and I’m tired of this. I’m not doing well either in prep school. Eliott, I think is over for us”
Eliott just stood there, staring at Lucas. He couldn't think straight, so many things were going through his mind. He didn’t even notice that his eyes were filled with tears.
“No,” Lucas said. “Don't call me like that, please.”
Eliott couldn’t believe what was happening. He loved Lucas more than anything. He couldn't do this without him. He couldn't live without him.
“Lucas, wait! Please wait! We need to talk. To talk properly”
Lucas tried to protest but Eliott spoke first.
“Listen, I know you're tired of the routine, me too but please, we can figure it out. I know we can do that! We can get out of this apartment, take some time away from everything but together. I know I wasn't honest with you a couple of times but we have to communicate from now on. Please! But-“
His voice was thick with emotions and the tears ran down his cheeks.
“But if you-if you really take this decision, I will let you go. Even if it hurts, even if it destroy me, I will let you go because I would never decide for you and I will never force you to be in a relationship that you don't want to be in, but just know that I still love you and I always will, no matter what! I love you as much as I did the first day, and if you feel like that that spark is not here anymore, if you let me, I will show you that it's still here, at least for me!”
He finished with all the tears coming out and he lowered his head. He didn’t look at Lucas but suddenly, arms were around him, hugging him so tightly.
And Eliott could cry at that moment. Both pulled away from the hug, looked into each other's eyes and then they kissed. It was short but for them, it was like breathing again.
“We can do this, okay? Step by step, minute by minute and with communication, we can do this!” Eliott said and Lucas nodded before hugging Eliott tightly.
Well so this is my thoughts about what happened when lucas tried to break up with eliott, this story is also in ao3, I hope you like it
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