我爱你

At first I didn't know why nobody liked me. Now I understand. Because frankly, I hate myself too. I write down how I feel, what is on my mind and random shit. I'm also low key obsessed with cats. (^._.^)ﾉ

[perrfectly]

[lyfeisgr8rn]

i hurt myself from day to day,

thinking of everything you’d say.

i puke over toilets, to get thin,

maybe this way i’ll finally win.

but i’ll always wait for you,

and i hope you will too.

[geographyofrobots]

Splintered timeline | IG: geographyofrobots

[lyfeisgr8rn]

you.

i guess you lied,

when you said you’d stay.

maybe it’s for the better,

maybe you’ll come another day.

but every time there’s a knock on the door,

i pray that you’ll be standing there.

but it never is,

i guess life isn’t that fair.

[abduction]

[laksmi-corredor]

Cosmos. 

[pir-ado]

x

[lyfeisgr8rn]

my mother doesn’t love me anymore,

as i watch my blood spill on the floor. 

on, two three, four, five six, seven,

how many drops til i’m in heaven. 

[wangsap]

[ethancutkoskyisablessing]

I’ve been idolizing the light in your eyes💙

[coral]

[lyfeisgr8rn]

it’s funny how life doesn’t wait,

for you to catch up.

it doesn’t care if you’re ready,

it goes faster.

and once it’s gone

you won’t catch up.

[thoughtsfromawallflower]

[lyfeisgr8rn]

maryjane

It hurts. To watch the person that you cared about so much just throw their life away. It’s not like a heartbreak because I knew that I had no chance with you. It’s an indescribable feeling. I knew I had no chance with you and that’s what made it so great, there was nothing holding us back from being only ourselves. I was completely open with you and you with me.

They say that you should only focus on the good times, the happy moments. Like when we ran around town singing because we didn’t care who heard us, we didn’t care how much we voice cracked, we would laugh it off. It was just you and me. I guess I should be happy about that, about those times. I should, and I do try. Oh believe me, I try. I try so hard but now whenever I see that smile on your face I think about how now you need to have narcotics flowing through your veins to smile like we did.

You were beautiful, your personality was strong. You didn’t back down. You never changed for anyone no matter how hard they pushed you. You stayed strong. You would tell them to fuck off when they tried to put you down. You stayed strong. And that’s why I can’t be happy. That’s why I can’t think about you without crying. I tried so hard to be like you, but there you are overflowing with bhang just to smile like we did. I try to talk to you. I try to be okay.

How can I be okay when my other half is already gone? How can I be okay when I watched you throw yourself away and did nothing? I blame myself. I always have but now here I am saying it out loud for the first time. I stood by you, I thought I was being helpful, I thought I meant as much to you as you did to me. I guess not. I guess that you don’t need me. Now you will find another clueless person to open up to you, to help you destroy yourself. But I will still be here. I want to say that I won’t help you again but then why is it that everytime my phone rings I hope that it’s you? Why is it that after everything I still want us to be those kids that sing as loud as we could even though we didn’t know the lyrics. I want us to go back, I want things to be simple. I want to go back to before I started loving you because I can’t watch you throw away your beautiful life. The life that wouldn’t give up in a fight, the life that stayed by my side through thick and thin, the life before all the dope. My god I miss you. Damn I guess I love you. I told myself I would stop but the truth is I will never stop loving you. After all, you are my other half.

[thinkphilo-unactive]

everytime i make a mistake i want to breakdown because i feel like all i ever do is mess up and for once i just want to do something and not feel like a huge fucking failure

[lovesickkk-deactivated20170203]

[craving-for-cuts]