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What if I’m fucking up right now and I just don’t know it yet?

What if there’s something I’m not currently doing or saying that I need to be?

What if I’ve already made a mistake, and now it’s only a matter of time before the universe lets me know?

I like that “morning baby” kinda relationship. The no games, great communication, lots of sex, lots of kissing, lots of cuddling, lots of flirting, lots of being goofy kind of relationship. That makes you want to run 100 miles, read books, clean up your bad habits kind of love.

I’m weirdly experienced with having awkward conversations with female friends about the nature of our relationship.

Is that like a normal thing? Or am I demi or something?

I’m an accessory of a human being. I’m only a main character in my own story, and that’s barely even a story. The only thing I’m really good at is thinking of sad ways to describe my life.

at some point there’s gonna be a girl who thinks if I can dance I can fuck and oh boy is she gonna be disappointed

When I watch porn before bed I think about sex the next day.When I think about think about sex I get anxious.

When I think about sex it reminds me of every time I've heard someone talk about a guy who "needs to get laid" or every time someone talks shit about sexually frustrated white guys.

And then I remind myself that they're not shaming based on sexuality, they're shaming guys for not going and getting what they want out of life. For not feeling like they deserve the things that might make them happy and chasing them down and giving them a shot. It's not about sex.

And then I get anxious that I don't value myself enough instead. But then that doesn't feel right. I'm the shit.

She looked at me and said “we don’t have to do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable.”

But that’s the point. I want to do what makes me uncomfortable. I want to do what makes me scared. All of my favorite parts of life are things I was once afraid of.

“You tryna break me, do it safely, why the fuck is you playin”

this song is a total banger, but also safety first everyone

when I was 18 I was sexually frustrated, didn't have many friends, and grew up in a town with 95% white people. Which is basically the alt right's target demo, and I'm thankful I didn't get sucked in

every time someone claims a white supremacist or a murderer is sexually frustrated or mentally ill I'm like

jfc stop you're gonna make them relatable

I should put a line item in my budget that's just called "Get A Life, Loser" that maybe might possibly eventually someday get replaced by a "Dating" line item

“apparently I’m an asshole”

me: “hey now everybody’s an asshole sometimes”

sleeping in until noon and then jerking off and looking at memes all day isn't self-care, it's the problem

I used to have good conversations with people, now I just get drunk and overshare

harness all my love, harness all my power, to be perfect on the surface, the surface cracks and I

I've listened to so much Metric and LCD Soundsystem over the years I'm basically planning to have a tumultuous love life into my 40s

I've said it before but I feel it again.

I haven't really been loving myself lately, but I'm determined to win me back.

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