Blackbookofsecrets

Just some thoughts of a kid with a broken heart, and a jaded soul.

[cosmonautroger]

End Of Evangelion

[tokyostreetphoto]

Limousine, Shinjuku 新宿

[mac-ion]

I enjoy a good cigar.

[mac-ion]

Social theory: (deconstructive conformity)

Step 1: public education reconstruct

-How?

To destroy a society the first way is to destroy social norms through public education. By question morality and repurposing children’s thinking. What was once wrong is now right, and it always starts with the gray area. Propagating an innocent mind. Confusion is the first step into taking down society by the masses. Communication is the key here. Forms of communicating that seems “family friendly” is always inviting. Nazi propagating started in the schools. Lack of awareness by sheeple allows for such things to happen

Cause: lack of awareness

[ssleepline]

congratulations.

[mac-ion]

I miss the night vibes of the Japanese streets.

[mac-ion]

I’ve been caught up in my hate, that it has turned me jaded. I am depressed and lost in the constant thought of “I wish I wasn’t here.”

I am still young never had a place to call home, and recently I had to move away from home. I want to go back I long to be back.

Days have been getting hard and thoughts have been getting darker. Now I’m caught up in the fundamental thought of “why am I here?”

There is no place like home, it always seems like I’m being torn away from places I finally settle in.

In the end do we really have free will?

[mac-ion]

I miss the Japanese street ambience at night

[mac-ion]

Some one had once asked me; “who are you?”

I couldn’t answer the question. I was lost in my thoughts of “who I am.”

I look at myself in the mirror and I see something. Not a person, not a human, not a man, not anything. I’m simply just existing. Is it hate? Discontent? I’m not sure.

I’m simply lost in the fundamental nature of “who I am.”

[wherethestuffgoes]

Toyota - Fun To Drive 1984

[mac-ion]

I’m often lost in my own dark fantasy wondering whether or not life is just an illusion. Caught in the egotistical distraught that I am nothing. I am a worthless being. I have to constantly remind myself I’m okay, but in reality I will just die. In the end I will be the same as the person who stole and the person who lived with benevolence; dead and 6 feet under rotting.

[mydarkenedeyes]

esauk_immersion

[simanxd]

[perfectfeelings]

[mac-ion]

Really love this photo of my car.

[philosophybits]

“An illusion can never be destroyed directly, and only by indirect means can it be radically removed… A direct attack only strengthens a person in his illusions, and at the same time embitters him.”

— Søren Kierkegaard, The Point of View

[clown-father]

Optimistic Nihilism

Time ends all things, there are things we will never know, and the future couldn’t have happened without us, but it will happen without us, but why worry? If all of us fade away, if we never learn all we can, if nothing matters, does that matter? we have one life that we know of, why not make the best of it? why not help others despite the chaos and constant change of the universe? if life has no meaning, we create it’s meaning, we may not control everything, but even that doesn’t matter, we have more power when we realize we can’t control this river of life. no need to feel small in the universe, we are made of what everything else in the universe is, we are as much of the universe as the largest stars.

[mac-ion]

It’s crazy how much optimistic nihilism is just a huge paradox. In essence it’s the universes way of saying your life is a joke.