when you wake up next to him and you realize that you want all of this, everything, everyday. it's one of those mornings when you wake up, knowing that maybe in few days you go apart for a while and your heart breaks. you turn your head over and watch him sleep. last few days were quite a mess, everytime you spoke to each other with rage you felt sorry and ashamed for being harsh, or pointing at his mistake. you realize that it's the good over bad what matters. he may be uneasy, he may sometimes acts wrong and you go crazy but you always keep on your mind all the things you love him for, all the things that make him good, all the things he does good due to the demons he is carrying with himself. he may be rude sometimes or mean, he has his dark days when you just don't know how to handle it. there are things that take a lot of patience to accept and you feel like quitting. but you saw him as maybe no other did. you noticed the things that others didn't. you knew there are marks, scars and things haunting from the past. and from the first moment you felt the need to give him relief, to care about him everyday, to show him the kind of love he needs. to show him the love he probably never felt. to love him the way only you love. to make him feel, that with you he can start again. to make him feel whole. you would give up your whole life, for building a new one with him. and this terifies you to the bone, because it all crosses with everything you are, you are in war with yourself.scared of not being enough for his life. scared of not being good enough for his son in the time of help. you want to leave. because you don't want to fail. you don't want to make it worse. you want to leave, before you would loose him. but you cant and you wont. you look at him and you know you have chosen and you dont even ask anymore why him. you think of the last night, when your bodies colided into one in extasy and you wanted to be his slave and burn his name into your skin. it's one of those mornings when you wake up next to him and you know that you don't want to wake up with anyone else anymore. you look at him and you feel home.
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