[makethisalifetime]

Get over it.

[thoughtkick]

“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

[makethisalifetime]

I wish my mind would stop and stay quiet

[makethisalifetime]

You can label me as the worst and meanest kind of person all you want. It just shows me what kind of person YOU are for trash talking me on social media when all I’ve done is communicate for 2+ years, tried my best and put in all the effort. If you can’t see your own true colors then you have no right to speak & judge me. I’ve been nothing but transparent. It is on you for not listening and ignoring what I was telling you.

[florescentlcvesickness]

[perfectfeelings]

“If I have learned anything over this last year it’s that you have to live your own life too so that if something we hoped for doesn’t work out, you still have two legs to stand on, you still have your own path.”

— T.S. Krupa

[remanence-of-love]

[makethisalifetime]

I understand it’s two different worlds and merging the two is strange and uncomfortable for some. I can see that. I just wish that they could understand how much they mean to me and they’ve seen all my other relationships that I want to show them that this one is better. They are family to me and I want to show the one person I picked the rest of my family.

[makethisalifetime]

Is it so wrong of me to wish that those who have been there during my most horrible times and crucial moments in my life meet someone I hope to live the rest of my days with? Is that too much to ask?

I know they don’t have to be excited about it or jump for joy or anything. I just ask for a little effort. I just want to share my life.

But I guess that’s too much to ask.

[makethisalifetime]

Sometimes I question myself and wonder if I really am such a horrible person. I know I’m not always a ray of sunshine to be around but I also know I’m not a god awful human being that people spit on and wish disgustingly rancid things about.

But I sometimes wonder: “what if they’re right?” When it comes to that one person who is awfully bitter and cold towards me and I have no idea why.

Am I just dramatic? Do I just live and breath chaos? Do I enjoy watching those around me burn to the ground?

I know I don’t enjoy those things, I know I care deeply about those around me and truly only wish the best. But there’s that little hint of doubt in the back of my mind that wonders- maybe I am just an awful person.

[makethisalifetime]

Wtf did I do that makes you think I’m a crazy unhinged ex? bruh I’m literally just living life?

[makethisalifetime]

How tf am I unhinged?

[makethisalifetime]

people can be so bitter about things sometimes lmfao

[makethisalifetime]

I wasn’t going to settle for the bare minimum. I wasn’t going to settle for negligence, I wasn’t going to settle for always picking up after you.

I was communicating. I was trying to work it out. I was trying- I was putting in so much damn effort. And if you can’t see that- then that’s on you.

Stop being so petty and feeling sorry for yourself. You say you’re emotionally intelligent but the fact you cannot see everything that was going wrong and what I was putting down- then I think you need to take a second look at the situation.

I put everything right in front of you. Said why, told you everything and you still can’t figure it out.

That’s. On. You.

[remanence-of-love]

[makethisalifetime]

him .

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

{Words by José Olivarez from Citizen Illegal /@fatimaamerbilal , from even flesh eaters don't want me.}