idkk

welcome to my hell

[moonchildfourtimes]

i turned 20 i want to hit myself with a truck

[kalmeria]

fellas is it gay to tell your childhood friend to go ahead and kill you because your idealogies are incompatible and you cannot imagine a world in which you stay out of each other's way and don't collide, and you don't want to kill him, so he has to kill you

[moonchildfourtimes]

im watching terrace house because im a trash TV lover and im on episode 2 where Shohei is being questioned by Haruka about his work ethics etc. im a lot like Shohei, my interests are scattered and I like to do all of those things. i personally don't believe in limiting myself but ofcourse it's cool when people have their passion their 'thing' that they focus on. he was expressing that he doesn't care about the society who judges him and people with that mentally will grow old and die. he said he likes tempura but he wouldn't like it if he ate it everyday and it makes sense to me?

it cut to the panel completely misunderstanding him and them being said people who are judgemental. shohei never said people who believe in dedication are old and will die literally, he meant they are narrow minded people who will never understand where he's coming from so they just don't exist for him? it makes me so upset how they insulted him and asked for authentication of whatever he does and only if he excels his point is valid. they are not being lazy or "wishy washy" like Haruka said. both of these people are valid and there is no need to subject people who haven't found that ONE thing to constant judgment. the work you do doesn't become redundant if it doesn't recieve success. people are different, they will view life differently. it is okay not to have dreams, it is okay just to live <3

[moonchildfourtimes]

it physically hurts me when I think about how soon it'll be Friday again and I'm not going to be sitting in my room with my friend on call watching a bad buddy episode

[moonchildfourtimes]

this whole episode was blue and sad colored to me because they knew they were biding time and had to slowly let go

[moonchildfourtimes]

HEY I FROM THE FUTURE DON'T WORRY PAT AND PRAN ARE DISGUSTINGLY IN LOVE AND THEY STAYED TOGETHER PLS DON'T SPEND THE WHOLE WEEK CRYING

[moonchildfourtimes]

THESE TWO MFS, DO U KNOW THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL I WAS SUBJECTED TO FOR THE PAST WEEK

[moonchildfourtimes]

this whole episode was blue and sad colored to me because they knew they were biding time and had to slowly let go

[moonchildfourtimes]

"have you ever pictured what it'd be like if our families weren't enemies?"

"if our families weren't enemies,-"

"they'd be cool if we're friends"

"they wouldn't ask me how well you did in school, I'd be able to enter your house without having to climb through the roof"

"my mother would welcome you with Madam Dissaya's seafood sauce"

"yes. your mom's food smells so damn great. do you know that?"

"you must try her Tom Yum Soup. I'm sure you wouldn't want to go home again"

[moonchildfourtimes]

lmao we all said bad buddy will break the episode 11 curse DID IT DID IT BREAK THE CURSE DID IT

[moonchildfourtimes]

ᵗⁱʳᵉᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵖʳᵉᵗᵉⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ʰᵃᵗᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ʷʰⁱˡᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᶠᵃᶜᵉ ʰᵃˢ ᵗᵃᵏᵉⁿ ᵃˡˡ ᵒᵛᵉʳ ᵐʸ ʰᵉᵃʳᵗ

ᵃʳᵉⁿ'ᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗⁱʳᵉᵈ ᵗᵒᵒ?

ˡᵉᵗ'ˢ ˢᵗᵒᵖ ᵗʰⁱˢ

ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ᵖˡᵃʸ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵍᵃᵐᵉ ᵃⁿʸᵐᵒʳᵉ

ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ˡⁱᵉ ᵗᵒ ᵖᵉᵒᵖˡᵉ ᵃⁿʸᵐᵒʳᵉ

ʸᵒᵘ ᵃˢᵏᵉᵈ ⁱᶠ ʷᵉ ˢᵗⁱˡˡ ʷᵃⁿᵗᵉᵈ ᵘˢ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ᶠʳⁱᵉⁿᵈˢ?

ʷʰᵃᵗ ⁱᶠ ᵐʸ ᵃⁿˢʷᵉʳ ⁱˢ ⁿᵒ?

ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵈᵒ ʸᵒᵘ ˢᵃʸ?

if I love you I will always let you win

[moonchildfourtimes]

can someone hold me because I am not okay after this episode of bad buddy I have so many things to say but I will make a playlist because that is how I deal with my emotions like always but it is not painful like last episode but more hopeful and happy? this episode was my favorite by far I am just so full of emotions and feelings from the beginning till the end, there was something tugging at my heart and by the end everything exploded into bundle of feelings I cannot explain because this show just means so much to me

here is my playlist, hope u listen to it and think of pat and pran or anyone u have in your life that you feel like this about <33

[moonchildfourtimes]

pran wishes he hated pat he wishes but till he does he will just look at him with longing and pain while pat is asleep next to him

[moonchildfourtimes]

pran's pov

i made a playlist for all of us to process whatever the fuck this episode was

[moonchildfourtimes]

bad buddy is not enemies to lovers it is

# we are supposed to be enemies because circumstances brought us here but we have been in love with each other for years and all we do steal a few moments to be each other's presence and yearn

[moonchildfourtimes]

bad buddy is slapping so hard I cannot tell you the hold it has over me

[moonchildfourtimes]

happy birthday namjoon my forever beloved <3 🌱

[moonchildfourtimes]

dear Tokyo,

thank you, you have been the most human of them all, it was not easy to love you but it's never easy to love anyone. i love you so much. I hope you're with Nairobi. playing with lambs. i will miss you. you were so insanely flawed but you're so strong I looked up to you every second. i hope you're free because you deserve to be.

go run away