I've decided to write this instead of just disappearing from here all together. I am leaving the AKB and family fandom. I've been thinking about it for a long time and today I have made my final decision about it. Yes it does mean that by leaving this fandom i will giving up on my favorites. And more painfully.. Kojimako. But i just can't continue on here anymore. But it's for the best. I'm not gonna go on about the exact reasons why I'm leaving, but I'll say that one is this fandom is too crazy and emotional. I'm on a emotional rollercoaster ride everyday because of this fandom. I honestly can't take it anymore. All the stupid management decisions, mean fans and their rude comments about others oshis. It's just too much for me. I want to say that I'm deeply sorry i have to erase everything about them from my life, but my heart can't take it anymore. I can't just ignore it or get over it. I hold on to things and it could ruin my whole day. I don't feel the same way about this group like I use to. It's just too much for me. I need to get out now or it'll hurt more later. I say good luck to all the 48 family members and i hope they get their dreams. And to the fans who I've met here. I hope you'll continue to enjoy this group more than me and not come to this. And a very special goodbye to my dear sweet Mako... please continue to smile. It breaks my heart the most to walk away from you 3 I'll delete this tumblr in a few days. Please don't look down on me for this. Just know not everyone can handle this fandom.
