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Hi! Welcome to the peaceful part of the forest. Sit by the campfire and sit a spell.

🪺About Me🪺

🐻Mom friend

🦉28 years old

🫎I love thrift shops, YouTube & music, the movie theater and some video games

🦫I collect books (old and new) plushies, antiques and anything quirky and odd

🍄About My Blog🧚🏾‍♀️

This is a safe space. No toxic positivity or reporting uncensored thoughts and feelings. I post positive things throughout my blog because I want my blog to feel real, yet comforting.

I acknowledge the pain and horrors life can bring however so I want folks to be able to freely vent about the sad & scary parts of trauma and EDs without being shut down here. Trauma isn't unicorns and sprinkles yet people like me get reported a lot for not being positive about horrific events which isolates us from folks like us who care and understand or want to try. So I wanted to created a space for folks to come by.

In Memory👼🪽. I made this safe haven because my friends and I created a safe community among each other. Now that they're in a better place, I wanna take the love we had for each other and spread it around a bit. (Most have since went to their everlasting peace). 🕯️🌹

I hope this page makes folks feel not alone, maybe cheers up the defeated or tired to keep going despite the pain or if not ready to heal at least find some peace and community here.❣️

🌠Welcome!🌠

ED safe space (whether in recovery or choosing not to)

i love both holy and unholy places, hallowed and cursed. I think there's a beauty to both of them. and a sadness to both of them.

mamabearwonders

god help me if I was ever in the military. I absolutely detest the radios at work with a burning passion and I refuse to be near one. I can't hear anything over them first of all. second of all I'm loud you don't need a radio to hear me even if you're across the building.

I like to listen into gossip. but there's no way to turn the radio volume down at least I don't know how to do it and it's the most crackly loud noise. and it's funny because some people at work are all professional about it like roger that and copy that and then some people are like yep. or mhm.

I just say my piece when I need to and I listen for static I don't know what they're saying, but I know that they acknowledged it and then that's good enough for me and then I tossed the radio as far away as I can. I cannot hear well in general like with processing and stuff.

I don't hear words. I just hear loud crackly noise. the only loud crackly noise I like is popcorn microwave popcorn. that ain't popcorn.

one of my coworkers in a nice way always tries to give me a radio because he just wants to be helpful and I take it every time to be nice, but then just slide it over to his side slowly.

thank you. but no thank you.

mamabearwonders

if you have something to say if it's that urgent please come talk to me. even when people are in front of my face sometimes I have to ask them to repeat the most clear sentence they have probably ever said in their life like three times before I register it.

like, nothing urgent like ever happens it's just like communication church if the building is burning down I will hear smoke alarms or something that I can hear. or I'll see people running in panic and probably figure something is happening. I can hear enough. I don't need to hear more. I'm good. I don't want to be tuned in. tune me out. no thank you. I don't need it I don't want it.

I don't hear words. I just hear loud crackly noise. the only loud crackly noise I like is popcorn microwave popcorn. that ain't popcorn.

one of my coworkers in a nice way always tries to give me a radio because he just wants to be helpful and I take it every time to be nice, but then just slide it over to his side slowly.

thank you. but no thank you.

german, spanish and russian 'r' rolls 🤩

russian and german tend to sound operatic to me. and italian sounds like a prayer, something holy when sung. but italian is also one of those languages where people are getting loud it's like how do you explain to people that they're not mad at each other, they're just communicating and having fun. 😂😭

i LOVE these new headphones. there's a mode called transparency mode. so when you're out and about, it still plays music, but you can hear ur surroundings better as opposed to noise cancelling mode or both off.

i can't process sound well in general and i always have my music blasting. but i could hear bikers call out strolling by just fine same with sneaky cars barrelling out of NOWHERE. i always look a million times too coming around the corner just to be safe.

government sends people off to war, but then when they come back traumatized, physically injured, 'not easy to deal with', they're just tossed aside. quick to send em' off, quick to dismiss the care they need. also just - war, war, war everywhere. there's still a bit of hippie in me. u can argue if war is 'necessary' in some cases, but from my pov it's like - do we rly need ANOTHER war? what about the veterans already forgotten about? and what about all the innocent casualties of civilians? im just rambling.

oh I'll still eat a hotdog today or whatever woo! freedom america's birthday okay. but do i support our government? absolutely not.

you can be as free as you wanna be. I just ordered the most vibrant colourful 1980s jacket that somebody said to the person posting it is giving rainbow brite (pictured below). it literally looks like hello? this is the 1980s calling ☎️. it looks like a popsicle and crayola factory exploded on the jacket to be honest.

but at the same time, I'm ordering my halloween perfume you know like carnival of lost souls which apparently smells like popcorn and screams and horror. because my music is spooky all year round and I am forever dreaming that it is eternally fall.

my friend on here also dresses like a cool 1980s uncle or he kind of looks like a time traveller from the 1980s, but a dad in the modern day. but he also likes to wear tropical fragrance that smells like bunches of bananas and woodsy brazil. he looks like the type to say let's rock and roll guys! or let's blow this popsicle stand! but everyone still thinks he's a cool cat.

you can have both. live ur best life. there's no rules. have fun!

mamabearwonders

tw ~ animal d!ath

"💔 A sketch inspired by the event in Beebe, AK, where an estimated 3,000 to 5,000 Red-winged Blackbirds died due to professional-grade fireworks.

The sound startled them into mass flight, causing them to collide with buildings, trees, and other objects in the dark.

🎆 Fireworks not only cause intense stress which can be lethal, but injuries like burns, debris ingestion, and nest abandonment.

I would be grateful if we at least considered the consequence of our festivities. 🙏

I want to believe with awareness, we can do better.

Ppl often seem to care about harm caused to animals, let's find fun ways to celebrate that don't result in harm. 🐦‍⬛" ~ birdhism

mamabearwonders

have fun! just please be mindful of the other beings on this planet here with us. someone mentioned in the comment section sometimes the sound of fireworks scares parents away from their nests and then that could be dangerous for their fledglings who might try to fly and can't yet and may fall out of the nest. 🐦

tw ~ animal d!ath

"💔 A sketch inspired by the event in Beebe, AK, where an estimated 3,000 to 5,000 Red-winged Blackbirds died due to professional-grade fireworks.

The sound startled them into mass flight, causing them to collide with buildings, trees, and other objects in the dark.

🎆 Fireworks not only cause intense stress which can be lethal, but injuries like burns, debris ingestion, and nest abandonment.

I would be grateful if we at least considered the consequence of our festivities. 🙏

I want to believe with awareness, we can do better.

Ppl often seem to care about harm caused to animals, let's find fun ways to celebrate that don't result in harm. 🐦‍⬛" ~ birdhism

no matter HOW much of a rush im in (and i walk slow anyway 💀), i always stop to smile at the birds.

'enya' is a new age irish singer probably best known for 'sail away, sail away' and 'only time'. even composed for the lord of the rings soundtrack. she has never toured once. has a net worth of $150+ million dollars, bought a castle (it's completely hers not open to the public) and likes her privacy.

a lil trope fans came up with is she has 12 cats, but actually she's had at least 12 - maybe 20 cats throughout her life. how many she actually has now, we don't know because she likes to keep that under wraps, but it is a cute theory. now that's the life im talking about lol.

i forgot i got an ear piercing and almost pulled it out 💀 ouch

mamabearwonders

i bought a new jacket. trying to get into the scene & emo style, but who could pass up a colourful artsy 1980s throwback jacket. it literally looks like the 1980s called on a piece of clothing - think food courts, malls, hairspray - it makes me wanna go rollerblading and volumize my hair more than it already naturally is. and it's also PERFECT for pride though won't be here in time! my hair isn't necessarily voluminous, it's just fluffy.🌈

it was a tad expensive, but i didn't even make an offer - i snagged it because it was getting TONS of compliments in the comments and i knew i had to act fast. someone says it gives rainbow brite. also the material looks like SENSORY HEAVEN. i don't like coats or a lot of clothing textures, but i love fall and this is perfect for it. the wind had nothing on those 1980s windbreakers. i'll be toasty and warm all fall. picture is rainbow brite (hey, well before my time).

just picture a crayon box on a jacket. like crayola put all its colours in one jacket. with a bit of checkered print. it's so cute - it's giving icon, it's giving PEAK '80s. i love it. i bought this jacket while putting halloween perfume in my online shopping cart to wear all year round - balance. a little spooky, a little colourful. you can have both.

not trying to toot my own horn, but i love it - i don't think i've ever seen one like that before and probably won't again! i'd love to put some pride things and rainbow brite stuff on it. but it already has SO much colour - you would be visible from outer space. the jacket just gives so much joy. makes me wanna pierce my ears and put little vhs tape earrings or rainbow earrings or little rollerskate earrings. who knows!

mamabearwonders

i turned off my night filter a minute to look at it again and it's even brighter than i initially thought. i usually wait overnight to purchase something until the next day - but i knew something this fun and wild though that is a trademark of the 1980s - this jacket is special. it's 40+ years old - i can't BELIEVE the '80s was that long ago - and it's SHINY. it looks brand new. i really want to take good care of it. it's so fun!! there are small little flaws on it, but i expect that with a piece from the '80s. and like the person who sold it to me said, with all the business, you can't really notice it. it's giving - popsicle. it's giving like - summer treat vibes. it's giving just pure joy. we need joy in these trying times in the community!!

uggh i can't wait til she's here!! honestly, it's cute - but it's a piece you just gotta rock it with confidence. going to put on my walkman and blast some tunes rollerblading down the street. if people are going to be staring a mile away from all the colours, might as well own it! no cares in the world! just dancing on my rollerskates. if 'funky' was a piece of clothing, this fits the description. i just wanna make dramatic music videos to my 1980s songs playlist in that 'fit.

mamabearwonders

now that i think about it - if i wanted to rollerblade to work, i could. it's not far at all. i could just slide straight on down to the train, slide onto the train, ride on down, roll like a block and boom, i'm there! and i can listen to tunes the whole way! i have terrible balance and hips and problems with standing and posture, but that's not going to get in my way. well - until i crash land into a bush, but hey - that's what helmets are for.

growing up, i wanted to be like my friends. i still remember standing on one of their skateboards standing still - not moving at all - and falling off. but we don't need to talk about that.

there IS a crossover with the lgbt community and roller derbys here. might fall around a few times on the rink before I go out on the streets who knows knowing me I'll just want to jump right into it and probably again jump right into a bush, but it'll be okay.

mamabearwonders

listen when I see my feet are bad I mean I remember when I was young back in my day we had a rollerblading unit and my class would cheer me on because my hips don't work the way that they're supposed to.

and then my coworker and I we're pretty chummy or what's the word these days friendly and we have feet pain. so we let the train we needed we take the same one whiz on by because we have sore feet so we would rather wait for the next one 20 minutes down the road so we can rest and sit before sitting on the train and just talk. we didn't even have to say it we just knew.

and it's getting into the point where my coworkers both them and my managers like yell at me when they see me walking around even when I'm feeling okay at work because they know that I sit everywhere I possibly can like on the sidewalks, all this jazz so I keep myself planted. I do like to get around a little bit and walk around, but I have to like not wear myself out.

got my emo 2010 playlist queued up!! 🖤

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