[mandagmorgonont]

I dont feel hurt anymore. I smile when I see your face. That face I used to be so close to, how I used to lay my hands on those cheeks, how I used to stare into those sweet eyes. It makes me smile, remembering how kind you were. You were smart and silly, you held my hand and took pictures of my breasts, you dried my tears and drove me wild. You saw I was scared of the thought of being in love. You said that you already were. In love. It makes me smile how I grew with you, and how i grew without you. How I grew after I lost you. For nearly three years seeing your picture made my heart jump, it made my eyes tear up. The thought of you made me scream into my pillow. Looking at you now, I feel warm. I feel good knowing, that those eyes have watched me love you, those lips have called me beautiful, those ears have listened to my secrets, those hands have touched my soul. I am glad I let you. Seeing your picture makes me smile because I am no longer regretful. I am glad that I had you, and I am glad that I also lost you.

[mandagmorgonont]

It had nothing to do with him. I came over you by myself. I survived. You're still the one I will always care about, the one I will tell my daughter to have been my first love. I will always open my door to you but I am no longer in love with you. And it took me over two years to get here. And I think this is the biggest achievement I have ever had.

[mandagmorgonont]

Seeing your picture and smiling because I can see that you are happy with her. I guess you really do survive anything.

[thebambiblog]

9.7.2020

I dont miss you anymore. I smile when I see your face. I used to be so close to that face, i used to lay my hands on those cheeks, i used to stare into those eyes behind those glasses. It makes me smile, remembering how kind you were. You were smart but silly, you held my hand and took pictures of my breasts, you drove me wild with the thought of being in love with you. You said you were. It makes me smile how I grew with you, and how i grew without you. How I grew after I lost you. For 2 and a half years seeing your picture made my heart jump, it made my eyes tear up. The thought of you made me scream into my pillow. Looking at you now, I feel warm. I feel good knowing, that those eyes have watched me love you, those lips have told me all those kind words, those hands have touched my soul. I am glad I let you. Seeing your picture makes me smile because I am no longer regretful. I am glad I had you, and then I lost you.

[thelovejournals]

“You’re not in love with me, not really, you just love the way I always made you feel. Like you were the centre of my world. Because you were. I would have done anything for you.”

— Abby McDonald, Getting Over Garrett Delaney

[poetbitesback]

“I saw her again today and it could have been 30 years with all the change her soul has seen, but we are not as old as our eyes or our nightmares tell us to be when I let her go, she still did not understand what I meant when I said we were both still learning to bloom, that being beautiful was as simple as letting yourself unfurl and not thinking and like a child, I pulled her off a petal named ‘she loves me not’ so that the wind could take her somewhere that has never known a drought, never known a fallow season today, she is the loveliest flower I have ever seen, the long spring has clearly been good to her and I can almost smile at the way she now knows blooming, even when I am still waiting”

— midsummer sights || O.L.

[poetbitesback]

“I saw her again today and it could have been 30 years with all the change her soul has seen, but we are not as old as our eyes or our nightmares tell us to be when I let her go, she still did not understand what I meant when I said we were both still learning to bloom, that being beautiful was as simple as letting yourself unfurl and not thinking and like a child, I pulled her off a petal named ‘she loves me not’ so that the wind could take her somewhere that has never known a drought, never known a fallow season today, she is the loveliest flower I have ever seen, the long spring has clearly been good to her and I can almost smile at the way she now knows blooming, even when I am still waiting”

— midsummer sights || O.L.

[wordsthat-speak]

“what i miss most is how you loved me. but what i didn’t know was how you loved me had so much to do with the person i was. it was a reflection of everything i gave you. coming back to me. how did i not see that. how. did i sit here soaking in the idea that no one else would love me that way. when it was i that taught you. when it was i that showed you how to fill. the way i needed to be filled. how cruel i was to myself. giving you credit for my warmth simply because you had felt it. thinking it was you who gave me strength. wit. beauty. simply because you recognized it. as if i was already not these things before i met you. as if i did not remain all these things after you left.”

— Rupi Kaur (page 138: milk and honey)

[mandagmorgonont]

11.1.2020

[memoryslandscape-deactivated202]

“This poem is the poem about how I lost you before I even had you.”

— Karese Burrows, from “After We Kissed,” L'Éphémère Review (no. II, November/December 2017)

[dephus]

“I loved a man who had opened up a world to me but hadn’t loved me enough to stay in it.”

— Jojo Moyes, After You

[mandagmorgonont]

22.4.2019

[thebambiblog]

“When you love someone so much, you’ll have to let go of them at some point for them to be happy.”

— And you’ll be happy, because they are too // R.K (via siilentthoughts)

[mandagmorgonont]

13/9/2018

A year later

[ksubiu-deactivated20240110]

[sunsetico-deactivated20250705]

i continued to love you, even after you broke my heart because you were my first love and i didn’t know what it is that you’re supposed to do with all that love resting in your hands when you cannot give it  to the person you first fell in love with.

first love. (via sunsetico)

[coral]

I’m here waiting for you, waiting you to come back. I still love you more than anything else.

I wish I could do more, believe me. (via coral)

[books-n-quotes]

Feelings aren’t sensible. Sometimes you fall in love with people who don’t make sense. And the ones who do make sense turn out to be the wrong ones.

Danielle Steel, Legacy (via books-n-quotes)

7.4

[coral]

I’m here waiting for you, waiting you to come back. I still love you more than anything else.

I wish I could do more, believe me. (via coral)

30.3

[letters-from-alex]

Your lips were the first cigarette I pressed against my lips.  I knew once I tasted them, I would crave them forever.

now i’m suffering from withdrawals   (via letters-from-alex)