So Much Bad Art

INFP/She/Bicurious/Yaoi garbage

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Please, help me prove my parents wrong.

I hate whining about my personal life, but this has been scraping at my confidence for years so I’ll keep it short.

I’m currently living with my very controlling parents because my current job isn’t stable enough to sustain a life on my own. Everyday for about a year now (no exaggeration) they’ve been telling me to change my career, or else either I’ll become homeless or they’ll kick me out themselves. I’m determined to prove to them that not only can I survive but I’ll prosper as an artist. 

Begging for money sounds dumb AF. If I’m going to take your money, I’ll have to earn it. So starting today I’ll be updating at least four times a week as opposed to once every week. I’ll be giving away LOADS of free art and sharing progress shots on Patreon. Want your favorite character in a bunny suit? Sure. Want hardcore smut of your rarepair? Done. 

Every penny will be going towards my funds to move out and live independently; no booze, no parties. I’m giving up some to earn a lot back.

If you wanna help me live my dream, here’s my Patreon. Reblogs would be appreciated too. Thanks for reading and supporting me, I love yall.

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Signal boosting for a friend! Even if you can't donate, reblog if you can please, and check out her blog!

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GoH chapter 14 stabbed me so HARD In the feels I've never been stabbed so hard by a story before goodnight I'm gng to sleep :'))

I”M SORRY! Thank you for reading GoH though ;;; if it makes you feel better I was punking? lol

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I LIED!!! Chapter 15 of Garden of Hades is UP! Thanks for reading!!!!

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That chapter killed me. I lay and stare at the celling thinking about life and how I NEED TO KNOW HOW YUU AND MIKA WERE ACTING TOWARD EACH OTHER BEFORE YUU'S DEATH. Did he cry? Did he silently plead Mika to help him? I DEMAND ANSWERS

...I suppose you got them now xD Yuu.... hm... he might have teared up. Mostly from the loneliness. He tried to be strong the entire time though, by telling himself to just keep waiting, just keep waiting. He would have died believing Mika would come for him.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

IT’S FINALLY DONE!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO HAS SUPPORTED AND ENCOURAGED ME THIS COULDN’T HAVE BEEN DONE WITHOUT EVERYONE BEING SO SWEET AND KIND THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH AHDSFJK

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Also... I really love your writing. I tend to be really picky with fanfiction actually;; but AAA!!! I love the way you wrote GoH it was SO GOOD. AMAZING I SAY. Its sad to hear you're so hard on yourself, but if you come back to GoH I'll support you!!

AAHH HH  TH A NK YOU!! GOH14 is actually done now, I”m just doing some last editing. Hopefully it will be up by tonight in my time zone. HTANK YOU FOR READING AND Coming to my dark corner of the internet to see me!

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OMG YOU'RE BACK! I seriously thought something happened to you, don't scare me like that...

Well, a lot of things happened over the summer, and I had to drop everything for the entire season. Thanks so much for worry that’s so sweet AHHHH!!! The sweetest of peaches, this one here.

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do you have a selfie tag/post selfies? :D

Haha, no, sorry xD my face isn’t very pleasant to see.

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happy fic writer appreciation week!! I love your mikayuu fics! ur so amazing!!

oMG that was a thing while i was gone??? Omg!! thank you so much!!

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Hi, I just wanted to ask, how are you doing? You've been offline for so long, it makes me wonder something happened

Actually, a lot of things happened, and I was offline for a long time because it was all very busy and difficult over the summer. Thank you for asking about me! That’s very kind of you ;;w;;

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Helloo! I know you probably get asked this a lot, but I was wondering if your still planning on updating Garden of Hades? Btw I love your work, it's absolutely amazing!

I do! Thank you so much for being so sweet and for sticking by GoH despite my absolutely horrifically sporadic updates! Sigh, you guys deserve sooooo much better than me. Goh14 will be up very soon!

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Hi Lily, I wanted to ask how is the 14th chapter of GoH going? I miss the story so much and 13th chapter ended with such a cliffhanger, I'm in need to know what's going on. It's one of the best fanfictions I've ever read, so please don't drop it 🙏😄

Thank you @lanafair You’re eternally the sweetest of the peaches!! Thank you so much for always being so kind to me, haha, even though I’m such a terrible writer. I’m constantly gone and I don’t give my fans the attention they deserve.I don’t really plan on dropping GoH, though I’ve come close a couple times over the summer. Lots of family problems made everything seem hopeless and pointless. Chapter 14 is done, currently, I’m just doing some last minute edits. Hopefully it’ll be up by tonight, in my time zone!Thank you so much for sticking by me ashjdknf all my fans are just the best they’re all so sweet!!

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//ROLLERBLADES IN HELLO I HAVE FOUND YOU THE GREAT AMAZING WRITER OF GARDEN OF HADES. I would like to tell you how much I love you fic and the number one reason i check the owari no seraph ao3 is to see if you ever update because i love you, you're writing, and the entire story! You're such an amazing writer. The way you write and portray is practically my writing goals. You can do it!! Have a nice day~!

You can rollerblade?!?!?! The heck! Last I tried I just kept falling down, haha.AHSJDKFGLH WHOA!!! WHOA THERE! Don’t check ao3 just for my semi-garbage!! There’s really great stuff from much better writers! Like @oxourry and @kittehbs and @hannaadi88........ tons of people honestly HAHAHA. PLEASE DON’T MAKE ME YOUR GOAL PLS HAHAAH.Thank you for the kind words, you’re so great ;;u;; I’ll do my best with GoH!!

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I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE FINALLY BACK AND YOU'RE OKAY OMG, we had missed you so much believe it or not :'D And omg don't ever think we'll ignore your fic GoH I literally spent so many days checking daily to see if there was an update like gosh!

Yowza!! That’s dedication I don’t deserve!! o//u//o Thank you so so much!!

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GoH is such an amazing story and you're such a kind soul so you don't need to worry about people forgetting you or the story at all !!<3 all these times, I love to re read fics like GoH when I'm down because really, it's so good (*whispers*and I really love height differences too).The way you portray Mika is actually quite legit because I mean, he's a literal vampire for a long time now and Yuu as such an adorable individual gives me life as well, esp when he and Mika interacts!! ahh these 2 <33

Aww, thanks man! Sorry for the delayed response. I’ve been off tumblr for forever and off social media in general because of family problems.

I dunno if you’re still interested in GoH and mikayuu, but thank you very much for the kind words! 9 times out of 10 I'm very harsh and down on my writing. There have been many moments where I genuinely hated GoH, but i’m glad I have so many supporting readers like you that encourage me.

GoHMika is the definition of a cranky old man, haha! He’s definitely very jaded and cynical, meanwhile Yuu is really cute because he’s earnest and energetic, and because he contrasts to much with Mika. Again, shamefully belated thank you so, so much for the words of encouragement!! Ahh, I don’t deserve awesome people like you in my life.

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Scenes of Garden of Hades by @6lilystrings9

Chapters 8: Purple Lilacs and 11:Hyacinth

Ahhh thanks for clearing me the positions, Lily. I hope you like it bc I love u and I love your work, thanks for the update! 

Everyone! Please read this fanfic is amazing!

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SHIT WHY DID I FORGET TO REBLOG THIS IM SUCH A SHITTY PERSON FUCK FUCK. I’m so sorry Cole! Between work and family problems, I haven’t been paying enough attention to my wonderful fans to give them the thanks they deserve! The art from you is beautiful as always! I dunno how, but they really do look like Yamamoto’s art style! Ahhhh, I don’t deserve this!

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapter 13 of GoH is UP!

AHHHHH IM SO SOSO SO SOSOS OSO SOO SORRY FOR THE DELAY!!!!

If it’s not too much trouble, please signal boost this a little? I don’t wanna sound selfish asjkdf but I was gone for so long... I was getting anxiety all summer about people forgetting about me or not giving a shit anymore. Maybe that’s just me being paranoid again le sigh.

Thanks for reading!! Seriously the love and support I’ve gotten so far is just--- i dunno how to handle y’all.