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On the way to a sociology exam, I am awake at a time everyone shares their daily commute to a cubicle, counter or desk- an occasion rarely forced upon me. Standing, arms relegated to my sides, the only posture I can afford in such a tight space, my mind cannot help but wander. So in order to prepare for the paper, the first and last chance I get to do so, I observe society: their heads bowed down- another monday gone by and they've made it without killing themselves; their one true regret. Their eyes close- everybody's; they can't bear to look in the eyes of the weary standing before then. Embarrassed, ashamed of their complicity. I do believe this is the worst time to be awake; a zone I'd prefer not to exist. Atoms hover territorially and everything spins perfectly on their own axis. Nobody can see beyond their own locus, concentrating on the perimeter and within. Drown themselves in dark and selfish noise. Conflated into 20 square metres: Twilight. Nobody smiles.

i should be happy i should shine today. and i should be rested. it shouldn't be that difficult, be a darling, smile , enjoy, i tell myself i will be fine. this is what i do best. freedom comes with such cost. but is it even freedom? one could get numb living like this. pretty things. comfort. vanity. decadent nights to make up for losses. but this endless loneliness there must be something wrong from the core. i worry as i take the courage to sleep

#DAULKIM

how can you be smart when its love i already accepted that i relate to nothing past is heavy but past is past and i can only try to understand egoism too much self importance perhaps luxury of time perhaps just series of bad events which were only beautiful the irony the facade we put on penetrating time. but not egoism. it is relative but different. i just know the more i gain the more lonely it is but when people grow together its something that is not easy but is nice and that is something, relative. staying relative is hard staying honest is hard i know i'm like a ghost i have nothing but myself and potential, to me is the question of will thats why i am present to you

#daul kim

Distorted within, beyond a place to begin I'm so shrouded in sin, I can't win Take me back to the start, that has burdened this heart We've moving so fast, we're missing so much Is this far enough? Is this far enough? Now the rain's falling in, greasing your skin The fear of drowning, again Imagine the water, closing over your head Shadows on the surface, forcing you to forget How far we've come How far we've come Washing over me now, the immaculate sound Of living life without taste, or beauty And not the folly of love, can change my distaste I ask you is this enough, I wonder is this the place Is this far enough? Is this far enough?

moldavia

ph. Naoko Kumagai

nevver

Nothing is everything

What a night for a dance, you know I'm a dancing machine With a fire in my bones and the sweet taste of kerosene I get lost in the night so high I don't want to come down To face the loss of the good thing that I've found

In the dark of the night I could hear you calling my name With the hardest of hearts I still feel full of pain So I drink and I smoke and I ask you if you're ever around Even though it was me who drove us right in the ground

See the time we shared it was precious to me But all the while I was dreaming of revelry