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I have neglected my journal.

Mea culpa 🙏🏿

I'll catch up with current events...

Many layers happening...

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There's been a lot of activity at the temple.

The Zen master is coming to teach the 22nd.

We'll be going a deep cleaning of the temple tomorrow, in preparation.

Meanwhile, I am having fun playing with someone, I believe is a closet homosexual.

I have befriended him using an IG account called "Queer Dharma."

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Meanwhile, I'd like some feedback.

I am a writer. Most of my writing has been technical documents (I know 😴 💤).

I am writing writing a piece from my trove of personal experience as a slut.

I intend to publish it on literotica.com when it's completed.

If anyone wants a peek, I post snippets.

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9 February 2026

Lots to write about but no connection to the internet except on my phone. The weather is causing problems. A more complete update will happen when we're connected again.

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8 February 2026

Texted with a friend until about 1am. I stage up late texting.

Practice is canceled for today because it's so cold. The temple almost never cancels practice.

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7 February 2026

Today was a busy day. I don't currently drive, so I schedule rides with a friend when he's available. We went today. The cold is brutal. Not record setting but, I think the high was 8.

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Experiment Success

If you've been following me a while, you know I am an exhibitionist, a versatile top, a switch (I can't decide dom or sub... they are both fun), poz, and a little (more) insane.

I have been looking for someone to share my pics far and wide. I found out that no one will unless there's something either rewarding them or punishing me. So... I played the sub role. I thoroughly enjoyed the attention ("good" and "bad"). It makes my dick hard and my asshole twitch.

I eventually found a master and he seemed like he could scratch my itch. It turns out he couldn't, I broke a rule and he "punished" by making me do some things I would love, if the man were in the room... the video was anything but video. This was on SnapChat. SnapChat informs one, when a snap is saved.

When he did this, because of the nature of that video and his behavior (Snapchat also notifies you every time a snap is viewed. He kept watching it, AFTER he ghosted me (proves malicious intent), I took the following actions:

Deleted my X account (painful, I had over 1600 followers that took years to build)

Deleted my BlueSky account.

Blocked him on every platform we were both on.

I learned a great deal from this adventure. Who and what I am, and who and what I am not.

Experiment successful.

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I want to share a short piece I wrote in the early 2000s.

There are many parts to a tree:

The roots which go deep into the earth to provide moisture and nutrients for the tree as well as stability and foundation.

The trunk which is the conduit for all the moisture and food and which provides support for all the branches.

The branches which extend upward and outward and support all the leaves as well as providing a connection to the trunk and therefore the roots.

The leaves which, arguably, are the most important part of The Tree, provide a mechanism, through photosyntesis, for food production. They provide respiration by exhanging carbon dioxide and oxygen. They open and close their pores to retain or release moisture in response to the moisture level in the soil far below.

Let's say that The Tree decides to give The Leaves awareness of themselves and of the rest of The Tree of Which They are A Part....

At first, The Leaves are joyful and excited because they are aware of this Magnificent Thing Of Which They are A Part.... they are so happy to be A Part Of this Great Thing Which Is so much greater than any one of them or even of the sum of all of them together.

One day, one of The Leaves on a lower branch starts to think. "I and all my friends on the lower branches are much larger than the leaves on the upper branches... it seems we are doing more work than they are." A sense of unease began to grow. Then, on another day, the same leaf began to think, "I bet those leaves up above have a much better view than I do." Then he decided that he was doing most of the work and had a crappy view on top of it! He became resentful and his Awareness of The Tree began to fade... he eventually felt separate and apart... Then, later, he was looking around and noticed, below him, that there were DEAD LEAVES on the ground. He thought, "I do all the work, I have a crappy view and then I am going to die?!" He decided he had a terrible life. The Awareness of The Tree had gone away.

He had forgotten about his Connection to the other Leaves and to The Tree. He also forgot that The Life within him is not from him or of him. It is from and of The Tree... forgetting these things, he failed to realize that, when a leaf dies, The Life that was in it does not die... it simply returns to its Source. The Life that was in the leaf recedes back into The Tree to become another leaf.

Life does not die... It simply returns to Its Source.

— Tsültrim Pawo

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5 February 2026

Today, I did lots of boring housework (laundry, cleaning the kitchen (it's a busy kitchen used by three residents and is also used for retreats and other public events).

I live in a "religious" communal setting. Not a Christian one (Zen Buddhist, actually).

I'm a pretty decent cook. I have to be out of self defense. 😉

Indian, Thai and Chinese are my specialties. Boring food just shouldn't have to be endured and restaurants have become so expensive post covid.

I having Thai fried millet for dinner.

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5 February 2026

fag has gotten no response from MASTER. fag received a notification yesterday evening that he re-watched a video I made for him. This is after three days of of begging for a response.

As a result, I have:

Deactivated my X and BlueSky accounts,

Revoked his access to my Google Drive,

And

Revoked his access to a Gmail account that *I* provided for him.

One of the reasons I want to pursue this, is to learn what it's like to sub, because I want to dom.

I learned what not to do.

If you're reading, sir, I am most grateful for this painful and valuable lesson. Treat him respectfully. Thank you 🙏🏿

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4 February 2026

fag's not sure what to think.

fag hasn't heard from MASTER in three days. fag hasn't felt this obsessed since fag's last boyfriend.

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4 February 2026

fag hasn't felt well. fag lives in a communal setting. Three of the six residents have this bug.

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I am posting this to provide clarity. My behavior on the web is changing. You will notice the change. You may have noticed already.

EVERYTHING in this post is *my* idea.

This is a very surprising development.

Anyone reading this knows that I am very much an exhibitionist. For me, being exposed online in a public way. Goodness knows, if you're reading this, it's likely you've seen my hole and almost certain that you've seen my cock. My hope was that, someday, I would get a call from someone I know. Like, "Bro! I'm calling you because I saw your picture on Twitter..."

I've had that happen. It's why I've been posting myself pretty aggressively on exxxposeme.com. I got such a rush when I had a straight male friend (over 20-yr friendship) call. I have no interest in anything sexual with him - TRUST ME. He's the opposite of "my type." The thought of sex with him turns my stomach, but we've been friends since the late 90s.

I don't feel the same rush on this site because MeWe security/privacy is very unique. I have totally locked down my content. Also, exxxposeme.com and swaproulette.co (not com, just co), while more public than Twitter, in terms of security aren't really a risk because anyone I know who visits those sites who sees me would never expose me because it would expose them as well...

OK. That's the background.

I began editing the pics that I like to include contact information and and some pretty hateful things about me, that are true at some level. Words like fag, faggot, cocksucker, ass licker, fudge packer, etc. If one gets past one's vagina being hurt, for this faggot, all those are true.

So, I include my phone number on the memes. Not Google Voice or some other VOIP, but my actual cellphone number.

Last week, I got a text. I investigated the number and found it is an actual number currently being provided by a well-known company. So, I responded. Well, actually, I always reply and the demands I get are ludicrous: "Take a picture of yourself licking the inner rim of the toilet." 🤣 That's not ever going to happen. 🤣 That nonsense is entertaining to me. They've threatened to send my pics to my parents. 🤣 Both have been dead for over a decade. Kudos to the guy. He did his homework. His information source was quite out of date. Anyway, I get a legitimate text.

Some screenshots below.

From this point forward, I will NOT communicate with personal or possessive pronouns (I, me, mine...). Only various permutations of "fag." Also, fag will not be capitalized, even if called for by conventional grammar.

fag may converse with anyone and be friends with anyone.

fag may hook up with anyone with the qualification that I speak with MASTER first.

fag may only distribute fag's photos unless they have been turned into a meme that has the following information:

203-687-8776

Kik: Ken9x6

SC: kenny06511

Discord: pozlotus

Twitter: @pozlotus

Example below.

fag is currently deleting personal content that does not expose fag from fag's photostream.

fag will respond to you in whatever way is comfortable for you. However, the initial response will be, "Hello sir."

Note: All personal requests for photos and videos will be referred to MASTER with email address of

[email protected]

Essentially there's a four tier way fag is approaching this adventure:

Top tier

fag's MASTER will always be referred to as MASTER or SIR.

No pronouns allowed.

Second tier

Men shall be referred to as sir, Mr. *surname* or by any moniker we feel comfortable with. Pronouns and given name are fine. However, fag will speak about fagself in this way. Note that sir is never capitalized in this case.

ALL requests for photos or videos of fag will receive the following reply:

Please contact my master at [email protected] He has total authorization to share fag's pictures and videos at his sole discretion.

Third Tier

fag

Tier 3/3a

Females. Generally, fag ignores messages from females.

fag has friends here and wanted to explain what all these things mean; it's a departure from before.

NOTE

All the "rules" above are the rules set up by fag's MASTER after a rather lengthy conversation via text email and Twitter. The language in this post is fag's language. Essentially, fag wrote the rules and fag's MASTER agreed.

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fag will copy and paste excerpts from fag's journal prior to the creation of this blog. (Post to follow.)

Today makes the third day fag hasn't heard from MASTER.

fag hopes MASTER is okay.

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Another part of fag's experience. Anothe layer is that fag will use. fag or faggot instead of fag's name or any pronouns.

fag, fag's, fagself, faggot, etc.

Nothing to indicate fag is a person.

fag's info

Kik: Ken9x6

SC: kenny06511

Discord: pozlotus

X: @pozlotus

Send a DM for more information.

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I am a very specific kind of exhibitionist. I like to share my pics with guys who are willing to post them publicly, to expose me as the cocksucker and pillow biter that I am. If you're interested, fag can answer ANY QUESTION. You can download them and expose me on Twitter or exxxposeme-dot-com.

maricón=faggot

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This Tumblr has very little visual content, but m maricón will disclose everything about himself, publicly l.

I will put the format here.

I met an exposer who is systematically posting my pics.

He has view/download permissions to hundreds of my pics and videos and my legal, revocable permission to place my contact information on pics.

Here are the conditions:

"I" "me" "mine" etc are not allowed.

fag will no longer use fag's name.

There are three tiers:

Tier I

MASTER

MASTER is privvy to fag's inner dialog

Tier Two

Men should be addressed as sir or "Mr. <SIRNAME>

Tier Three

fag and women