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rindeservedbetter-deactivated20

don’t even fucking talk to me unless you’ve watched this.

lapanona

Damn people got paid to do VA for this?

rindeservedbetter-deactivated20

bold of you to assume they had more than one voice actor for this show.

ancientalienofficial

why is the audio quality so good and everything else isnt?

marlboroicetastesnice

LMAO WHAT IS THIS

closet-keys

One of the things about trauma in general (and abuse specifically) is that, sometimes, the parts that were the most traumatic to experience don’t seem that notable to other people, and parts that seem the most “credible” or understandable to other people as A Traumatic Experience™ isn’t what destroyed you at the time.

It creates this weird dynamic where, when you’re trying to convince people to believe you that the situation was traumatic, you end up just listing the experiences that sound the most fucked up when summarized rather than the parts of the experiences which were the most fucked up as you lived them, in all of their nuances and complexity.

And sometimes, especially after gaslighting (which almost always involves the symptom of constantly feeling like you will never and can never be trusted), it feels like maybe you’re lying and manipulating people by talking about the parts that aren’t what you’re really thinking about, and so you feel guilty and ashamed of hiding the truth in the retelling. You learn to be terrified of people believing you and terrified of people not believing you. And it makes it that much harder to tell the next person, because the act of telling makes you question yourself on a fundamental level.

& I also think that dynamic is a factor in why it’s so hard to explain “unusual” triggers to other people, or why certain things that seem like they should be triggering aren’t, when other things that seem unrelated to your trauma are.