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JOSHUA new_ encore day 2 (260405)
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The Tides of Chaos
Pairing: Pirate! Choi Seungcheol x Princess! F. Reader
Themes:Â Smut | Angst | Enemies to Lovers | Opposites Attract | Forbidden Romance | Based on the movie 'Sinbad: The Legend of the Seven Seas'
Wordcount: 23.0K
Playlist: 'i always kinda knew you'd be the death of me' - Artemas | 'Swim' - Chase Atlantic | 'Sirens' - Nylo | 'do you really want to hurt me?' - Nessa Barrett | 'Taste' - Ari Abdul
Smut Warnings:Â Explicit sexual acts - Foreplay (F. and M. receiving) - Fingering - Nipple play - Slight body worship - PIV - Unprotected intercourse - Soft Dom! Seungcheol - Use of petnames - Praise kink - Slight choking
This story is intended for an adult audience only. Minors do not interact.
The Chimera cuts through the water like a dagger, her mahogany hull gleaming beneath the fading sun, sails taut with the Eastern wind. Just beyond the curve of the horizon, the city of Syracuse glimmersâa golden crown on the edge of the world, encircled by high cliff walls, bustling piers, and a towering lighthouse whose peak pulses faintly with a strange, ethereal glow.
Seungcheol leans against the railing of the upper deck, arms crossed over his broad chest, sleeves rolled to the elbows. The salt wind tousles his dark hair as his gaze settles on the lighthouse in the distance, its beacon like a slow heartbeat in the night. Behind him, the ship creaks and hums with lifeâhis crew, his brothers, scurrying about with the chaotic energy of those who have lived too long on the edge of the law.
âYouâre staring at it like itâs a woman,â Mingyu drawls behind him, arms folded as he climbs the short stairs to the quarterdeck. His long coat flaps behind him, half open over a sweat-stained shirt, hands already working a coin between his fingers. Seungcheol smirks but doesnât look away. âThat lightâs worth more than any woman Iâve ever met.â
âYouâve clearly never met the wrong kind.â Soonyoungâs voice chimes in as he lifts himself up from below deck with a musket in one hand and a half-peeled orange in the other. âI knew a girl in CĂĄdiz who nearly robbed me blind. Took my boots and my dignity.â
âDidnât you say she married you first?â Wonwoo murmurs, barely glancing up from the map heâs unrolling on a barrel by the mast. His long fingers smooth the parchment with the reverence of a monk handling scripture. âDetails,â Soonyoung mutters, plopping down beside him and tearing into his orange with more aggression than necessary. âAre we really doing this?â Chanâs voice cuts through the banter. Heâs perched on a crate, still a little wide-eyed, grease smudges on his cheek from fiddling with the rigging, a wrench still tucked into his beltâthe youngest of the crew, but no less capable. Seungcheol finally turns. âAye,â he says. âWe are.â
He strides down the steps, boots heavy on the deck. The crew naturally circles aroundâthe Chimeraâs heart pulsing with anticipation. Seungcheol plants himself in front of the map, stabbing a finger at the intricate image drawn in careful ink. âThis is what we're after. The Book of Peace. Itâs not just treasure. Itâs practically holy. It was created before recorded time, by the first kings to seal an accord between the cities. Some believe it holds the very soul of harmony. That book is peace... and peace has a price.â
âThat sounds like a curse waiting to happen,â Mingyu says. He glances at Seungcheol with a lazy grin. âHow exactly do you steal a symbol of universal peace without pissing off every crowned head on the continent?â
âEasy,â Seungcheol replies without missing a beat. âWe do it fast.â The others chuckle, but itâs Soonyoung who leans forward, his eyes glinting with excitement. âYouâve got a plan, then? Tell me it involves explosions. Please tell me it involves explosions.â
âNot this time,â Seungcheol replies. âWe canât afford chaos. We need timing. Precision. Grace.â
âSo⊠not our speciality,â Chan pipes up, âGot it.â The crew laughs, and even Seungcheol lets out a low chuckle. Then he turns, his tone shifting. âThe Book of Peace,â he begins, drawing a curved dagger from his belt and using it to trace lines in the map Wonwoo laid out, âis being moved from the Lighthouse of Syracuse to the Castle of Twelve. Thatâs our window. Security will be splitâhalf guarding the docks, the other protecting the Kings. Itâs the only time that the relic wonât be behind divine iron and twenty feet of stone.â
Minghao, who has been silent up in the crowâs nest, swings down with effortless grace and lands beside him. Heâs quiet by nature, eyes sharp as a hawkâs, his tunic stitched with foreign symbols no one else can read.âWe canât storm the procession,â Minghao says softly. âTheyâll expect trouble from outside the walls.â Seungcheol grins, full of teeth and madness. âWho said anything about storming?â
He flicks open a hidden compartment beneath the map barrel and pulls out a stack of folded garmentsârich silks, polished buttons, embroidered vests. âWe go in.â A beat of silence. Thenâ
âYou want us to waltz into a Kingsâ gala dressed like noblemen?â Mingyu laughs. âNot like noblemen,â Seungcheol says, rolling his eyes. âLike honoured guests. The guest list includes ambassadors from the outlying islands. And thanks to a certain barmaid in Messina who owed me a favourâŠâ He produces a sealed envelope, the red wax glinting in the lantern light. âWeâve got their names.â
âAnd how, exactly,â Wonwoo says dryly, âare we supposed to impersonate nobility without anyone noticing our lack of... I donât know⊠manners, refinement, the general ability to not stab someone over a spilt drink?â
âSpeak for yourself,â Soonyoung snorts. âIâm extremely refined.â Chan groans. âYou eat soup with a fork.â Seungcheol lifts a hand. âEnough. Weâll split roles. Mingyu and I go in first and distract the royal guards at the reception point. Minghao sneaks around back to unlock the secondary gate. Soonyoung guards the exit with Chan. Wonwoo will track the bookâs movement from above using his maps and signal system. The moment they break from the lighthouseâŠâ
He slams his fist on the map. ââŠwe take it.â
âAnd thenâFiji.â Mingyu stretches his arms above his head and exhales like heâs already there. âWhite sands, sun for days. And no more jobs.â
âAnd umbrella drinks,â Soonyoung sighs. âPineapple ones. With little swords.â
âI just want to sleep on a bed that isnât swaying,â Chan groans, stretching his back. âOr full of rats.â The crew falls quiet at that. The waves slap against the hull like a ticking clock.
Then, Seungcheol leans in, breaking the silence. âLetâs steal a goddamn relic, then.â
Seungcheol adjusts the collar of his brocade jacket, resisting the urge to pull at the itchy fabric. Itâs too fine, too clean, too stiff. Heâs used to salt-worn shirts, wind-swept pants, and freedom. This? This feels like a noose in expensive thread. Beside him, Mingyu looks just as uncomfortable in his dark green doublet, but damn if he doesnât wear it well. His hairâs swept back, a little neater than usual, and a ceremonial sword hangs at his hipâpurely decorative, though it makes him look every inch the prince he isnât. They move through the palace gates seamlessly, their falsified credentials passing without question. The guards donât look twiceâtoo distracted by the dozens of nobles arriving in droves, chatter echoing through the marble halls like waves against stone.
Inside, itâs another world.
The ballroom is lit with crystalline chandeliers that hang like captured stars. Gold trim glitters along the walls, every edge carved with symbols of the Twelve Cities. Platters overflow with delicaciesâpomegranate-glazed roast fowl, lavender cakes, spiced lamb skewers, and enough wine to drown an army. Nobles and royals in gem-coloured fabrics swirl across the floor to the hum of lyres and flutes. Seungcheol walks slower than he should, taking it all in. âYou seeing this?â Mingyu mutters beside him, voice low as they stroll past a statue of a god holding scales and a sceptre. âI see it,â Seungcheol replies, voice harder than expected.
Itâs obscene.
The kind of wealth heâs never touched. The kind that could feed five villages for a year, but instead sits here, polished and powdered and perfectly indifferent. His jaw tightens. He grew up scraping fish guts from barrels. He knows the taste of hunger and the thirst for water. And now heâs in a palace where gold lines the plates and no one has calluses on their hands. Seungcheol inhales, the scent of roses and patchouli almost choking. âWealth like this could feed every dockside orphan from here to Argos,â he mutters. âYou getting sentimental on me, Captain?â Mingyu asks, his voice teasing but quiet, careful. Seungcheol shakes his head. âJust remembering what itâs like to be hungry.â He forces a smirk, scanning the room.
âEyes on the guards,â he says. âWe donât have much time.â They move casually, pausing at tables, offering nods to passing nobles, and exchanging a few pleasant lies. Seungcheol countsâtwelve guards inside the ballroom. Four more at the main door. Two by the arch leading back to the gallery where the Book will be displayed. Another pair flanking the massive marble stairs.
Twenty. And those are just the visible ones. Mingyu taps the rim of his goblet, a silent signal. Heâs seen the same. Seungcheolâs eyes flicker to the high windows, where he knows Wonwoo is perched somewhere above, watching with hawk-like precision, drawing every detail into that steel trap of a mind. Farther behind the palace, Minghao slips along the gardenâs edge like a ghost, searching for the latch to the side gate. And Soonyoung? He waits in the alley, blade hidden, eyes alert. Chan watches from the exit path with his nervous heart in his throat. Itâs all going smoothly.
Untilâ
âSeungcheol?â
The voice stops him mid-step. No. It canât be. He turns. And for the first time in ten years, he comes face-to-face with a ghost from a better time.
Joshua.
His childhood best friend. His brother in all but blood. And the reason he once believed in goodness. Dressed in ceremonial blue and gold, sword at his hip, medallion at his chestâhe looks every bit the crown prince Seungcheol knew he would become. Joshuaâs face lights up. âGods, it is you.â Seungcheol stares for a second too long, then quickly pulls on a grin. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
Joshua laughs, stepping in and wrapping him in a firm, brief hug. Seungcheol hesitatesâjust for a momentâbefore clapping his old friend on the back. âHead of the royal guard now?â Seungcheol asks as they pull apart. âDidnât think youâd still be chasing rules.â
âSomeone has to keep Syracuse from crumbling,â Joshua replies with a chuckle. âAnd you? Still chasing trouble?â
âChasing myths,â Seungcheol says with a smirk. âHeard the Book was real. Had to see it with my own eyes.â
Joshua perks up with pride. âYouâre in luck. Tonight, it passes through the city before it returns to the vault. And Iâve been entrusted with its protection.â
Seungcheolâs stomach twists. Of all the people. He doesnât let it show. âI feel safer already.â Mingyu appears at his side, ever punctual, ever perceptive. His eyes flicker from Joshua to Seungcheol in quiet curiosity. âJoshua, this is Mingyu,â Seungcheol says quickly, voice light. âOld friend. One of the few people who still puts up with me.â Joshua laughs. âHe must be either brave or stupid.â
âDefinitely stupid,â Seungcheol replies with a smirk. Joshua looks like heâs about to make another joke, when suddenly, his eyes light up. âYou have to meet someone,â he says, excitement bursting across his features. âSheâs here tonight. I canât believe I didnât think of it sooner.â
You turn at the sound of Joshuaâs voice.
You already know youâll have to be gracious. Youâve done this beforeâsmiled for visiting nobles, curtsied for fussy kings, exchanged pleasantries with fat, red-faced merchants smelling of cloves and greed. The mask is familiar. Comfortable. Tonight you wear it again.
Your gown is seafoam blue, embroidered with silver thread along the bodice and sleeves, fitted perfectly by your handmaidens hours before. Your hair is swept back in elegant waves, fastened with pearls and a diadem from your late motherâs collection. You look every inch the Princess of Mdinaâpolished, serene, composed.
But your eyes betray you. Because as you turn fully, you see him.
Heâs tall, broad-shouldered, effortlessly handsome in the most unruly wayâhe doesnât look like a nobleman. His coat is fine, yes, tailored and dark, but it fits him like it resents him. His sleeves are too tight around his biceps. His hair, though combed, has clearly fought back. His jaw is cut from something unrelenting, and his eyesâgods, his eyesâdark and assessing, settle on you like youâre a storm he saw coming and ran toward anyway.
Joshuaâs voice is warm as he goes to stand beside you. âThis is Seungcheol. My childhood best friend.â Your spine straightens just a little more. The pirate, you think, though, of course, he isnât introduced that way. No one would dare. Not in this room.
Still, youâve heard the stories. Joshua told you over candlelight, in those rare moments between duties. A boy from the slums of the lower districts. A dreamer, a fighter. Wild. Loyal. Fearless. And foolish. You tilt your chin, expression practised and polite. âSo youâre the infamous one.â
He grins slowly, like your words are a flirtation instead of a challenge. âInfamous? I was under the impression Joshua painted me as heroic.â
âHe did,â you say. âBut heroes donât usually get chased by guards on rooftops.â He laughsâfull-bodied and warm. âThatâs when I was young. Iâve grown into a respectable man.â You arch a brow. âIs that what theyâre calling it now?â His smile doesnât waver, but you see the flicker in his eyes.
A spark you recognise because youâve had it yourself beforeâon the rare nights you snuck out through the servantsâ corridors and climbed the cliffs alone. When you looked at the stars and wondered what the rest of the world tastes like. Intrigue, curiosity, recklessness. He looks like all of those things combined. And you hate him for it.
âSeungcheol,â Joshua says with a grin, âthis isââ
âThe Princess of Mdina,â Seungcheol finishes for him, his eyes never leaving yours. âyou must be the one who stole Joshuaâs heart.â You hold his gaze. âIt wasnât a difficult theft. He left the gates open.â Joshua chuckles beside you, his hand resting lightly on your back. Seungcheolâs smile tightens at the corners. âWell, I suppose every treasure finds its keeper eventually.â You raise a brow. âI didnât realise pirates cared for court gossip.â He chuckles. âI didnât realise princesses believed everything they were told.â
âYou donât seem as particularly impressive in person as in the stories,â you say. His voice is lower now. âDonât worry, Princess. I donât find you all that impressive either.â Joshua barks a laugh between you, oblivious to the tension blooming like storm clouds. He pulls you closer to his side.
âGods, I forgot how quick you both are with your words,â he says, clearly entertained. âI might regret this already.â You smile at Joshua and let your hand rest lightly on his arm. He leans in and kisses your cheek, and you respond with practised affection.
Seungcheol feels something shift in his chest at the sight of Joshua so at peace. Guilt that tastes like bile on his tongue. He canât do it. He canât steal the Book.
He covers the turmoil with a smile and steps back. âItâs good to see you, Joshua. Really.â
âAnd you, old friend,â Joshua says sincerely. âItâs been too long.â
Suddenly, the horns sound across the ballroom, breaking the moment. âThe Book is on the move.â
The room shifts. The mood tightens. Guards begin to take position along the corridors, and the music slows to a ceremonial cadence. Seungcheol turns, walking away without another word. Mingyu hesitates for a beat, watching the expression darken behind his captainâs eyes, then follows.
You watch him go.
The celebration carries on behind them like a fading dreamâlaughter echoes, glasses clink, music fades into a low hum. Outside the grand ballroom, the city of Syracuse holds its breath. The crowd has shifted, no longer drunk on wine but on wonder.
Seungcheol and Mingyu step into the open air, blending into the velvet-clad nobles and wide-eyed onlookers gathered along the procession route. The night is still, save for the rhythmic march of guards escorting the artefact.
A floating platform glides along the ancient path from the lighthouse to the palace, suspended by hidden mechanisms and lit from within. The Book sits in its centreâradiant and pulsing, casting light like liquid silver across the cobbled streets and alabaster towers.
It is beautiful. Too beautiful.
Seungcheol watches it come closer, not moving. His jaw is set, arms loosely crossed, and his expression unreadable. Mingyu doesnât take his eyes off him. âYouâre quiet,â he says. Seungcheol doesnât answer right away.
He watches the Book. Watches how people react to it, how they fall into silence, how they reach out as if basking in divinity itself. Then, quietly: âJust thinking.â Mingyu studies him for a moment longer, then nods. âWeâre not doing this, are we?â Itâs not a question. Itâs a truth spoken simply. Seungcheol lets out a long breath, his eyes never leaving the procession.
âNo.â
Mingyu doesnât ask why. He doesnât need to. Heâs known Seungcheol long enough to read him like a compassâwhen his needle shifts, you follow the pull. He claps Seungcheol on the back with a dry smile. âIâll get the others. Weâll be at the Chimera by the time you make peace with whatever existential crisis youâre having.â Seungcheol huffs a laugh despite himself. âThanks, Gyu.â Mingyu turns, disappearing into the crowd.
Seungcheol walks away, through alleys bathed in soft torchlight. Through winding streets that once knew his bare feet as a boy. The energy of the city presses in around himâgasping citizens pointing at the glow of the Book, songs half-sung from balconies, little children perched on crates to glimpse history. And yet, he feels utterly apart from it all.
He doesnât know where heâs going. Maybe nowhere. Maybe homeâif he still had such a thing. The cobblestones glisten faintly under the magic light. Somewhere distant, the platform continues to float, its precious cargo slowly making its way to the palace vault.
Thatâs when he hears it. A voice, low and smooth, curling like smoke around the silence. âYou look troubled, Captain.â
He stops.
A woman stands in the alley ahead of him, just beyond the reach of the lanternlight. Her gown is dark, glinting only faintly, like ink catching fire. Her hair spills down her back, long and black and impossibly still despite the breeze. But itâs her eyesâunblinking and shimmering silverâthat set every nerve in Seungcheol on edge.
He immediately straightens. âWho are you?â he asks, cold but calm. The woman takes a slow step forward, lips curling into something thatâs almost a smile. âIâm someone who sees more than most.â Seungcheol narrows his gaze. âThatâs not a name.â
âCall me Cordia.â
The name rings no bells. Still, there is something about herâitâs as though the shadows themselves lean in to listen when she speaks. She circles him now, like a vulture, and he turns to keep her in his periphery. âItâs a beautiful thing, isnât it?â she muses, tilting her head toward the distant glow of the Book. âSuch a curious little artefact. Sacred, yes. But mostly forgotten. The Kings worship it, lock it in a tower, drag it around like a trophyâbut do they use it?â
Seungcheol says nothing.
âOf course they donât,â she goes on, âbecause to use it would mean sharing. And power, real power, is never shared freely.â
âWhatâs your point?â
She stops in front of him and tilts her head. âMy point, darling Seungcheol, is that there are menârare menâwho remember what itâs like to have nothing. Who understand what it means to claw their way from the gutter. Men who might look at that Book and think: why not me?â He narrows his eyes. âI donât know what you think you know.ââOh, but you do.â Her smile turns razor-sharp. âI know about the Chimera. I know about your map. Your crew. The side gate. The window between guard rotations. I know about your plan.â
His blood turns cold. She steps closer, eyes gleaming. âAnd I know... you abandoned it.â He stands his ground, steel in his voice now. âSome things arenât worth the risk.â Cordiaâs mouth curls, displeased. âShame. I thought you were different.â
She starts to walk again, circling. âI thought, perhaps, the tides had sent me a man with a little spine. A little hunger. But no, just another good boy with a guilty conscience and a lost heart.â Seungcheolâs temper flares. âSay what you came to say. Then leave.â She stops behind him. He can feel her breath on his neck.
âI only came to say this, CaptainâŠâ Her voice drops. âYou may not want the Book anymore. But someone else does. And now? Thereâs no stopping whatâs begun.â
He whirls aroundâBut the alley is empty.
He exhales, shaking his headâAnd then suddenly, the light vanishes, plunging the city into darkness. An unnatural shadow floods the streetsâcloaking the buildings, extinguishing the torches, silencing the celebration with fear. Screams echo faintly in the distance. Metal clatters. Hooves strike stone.
Seungcheol stands frozen, heart hammering.
And then he hears itâboots. Fast, heavy, purposeful. Down the hill they comeâtorches flaring now, drawn swords gleaming, the Royal Guard flooding through the street.âThere! Thatâs him!â one of them shouts. âThe thiefâget him!â
âWhat?â Seungcheol growls, but itâs too late. Theyâre on him. He runs. He vaults over a barrel and ducks into a corridorâbut there are too many. They circle him, corner him against a wall, blades drawn.
He draws his sword, breathing hard, furious and confused. âI didnât touch it!â They donât care. Steel clashes. Seungcheol fights hardâbut itâs four against one. Then six. Then eight. A strike to the ribs. His sword knocked from his hand. A kick to his knee. He stumbles towards the ground.
As the guards pin his arms behind his back and shackle his hands, Seungcheol spits blood and glares up at the guard in front of him. âWhat the hell is going on?â he growls.
âYouâre under arrest,â the guard snarls. âBy order of the King of Syracuse. For the theft of the Book of Peace.â
Inside the war room, panic simmers beneath the opulence. A great round table rests at the centre, its surface carved with the seal of the Twelve Cities. Candles burn low, flickering against the emerald drapery and golden tapestries, their light now feeble, as if even fire itself is uncertain.
The Kings sit in their ornate chairs, a storm of arguments building with each breath.
âItâs unthinkableâhow could the Book simply vanish from under our noses?!â
âWas it magic? Sabotage? We had twenty men on the procession!â
âThis will break the Accord if word gets outâour cities will riotââ
The voices blur, colliding into each other like waves in a tempest. Joshua stands near the edge of the table, fists clenched behind his back, doing everything in his power not to explode.
You sit beside him, your hands folded neatly in your lap, your face carefully composed. Youâve done this beforeâwatched politics unfold like plays, each man posturing louder than the last. But never like this. Never with someone you knew on trial. And never with someone you have come to care about standing in the crossfire.
Joshua opens his mouth to speakâagainâbut the King of Syracuse slams his ringed fist against the marble, making everyone go silent. âDonât defend him, Joshua. Not him. Not that piece of dockside scum you dared to drag into our home.â
Joshua flinches ever so slightly.
The Kingâhis fatherâis red in the face, spit gathering at the corner of his mouth as he begins to pace around the table like a lion whose pride has been insulted.
âFrom the moment I laid eyes on that gutter-born child, I knew heâd be trouble. Following you like a stray dog through the streets. Filling your head with rebellion, dragging you into fights, sneaking you out of the palaceâscandalising you. I should have banished him from Syracuse then and there. But no. You begged me to spare him.â
Joshuaâs jaw tightens, but he stays quiet.
âAnd now you see what heâs done. Ten years he vanishes, and suddenly he returns not with apology or shame, but with deceit. He hides behind fine clothes and false names. He slips into our palace, mocks our hospitality, and steals the holiest artefact this continent has ever known.â
Across the table, one of the older kings from the Southern Isles clears his throat, trying to interject with a calmer voice. âPerhaps we should focus on recovering the Bookââ
âThe Book is gone!â the King of Syracuse roars. âAnd you want to waste time on a scavenger hunt? Our alliance means nothing now that the artefact is lost. That light protected us allâand now the skies are dark, and we are vulnerable. This is war. This is sabotage. And we must punish those who betray our trust.â
You steal a glance at Joshua. Heâs barely breathing. The tension in his shoulders has locked him in place. The King slams his hand on the table again. âHe is guilty. If that criminal does not return the Book himself, then he will be executed by the terms of the Accord. As will any who shelter him.â
Joshua finally speaks, quiet but firm. âHe didnât take it.â
The King turns on him, sneering. âYouâre still deluded. Still loyal to some childhood fantasy. But this isnât a boyhood story, son. This is treason. And if he doesnât bring the Book back, he will die for it.â
Joshua takes a step forward. âThen let me speak to him.â
âWhat?â
âLet me speak to him,â Joshua repeats, louder. âIâll find out what happened. Iâll get the truth. And if he has itâif thereâs any chance he can return itâIâll make sure he does.â
The chamber is deathly silent. Then the King narrows his eyes, his voice dripping with disdain. âAnd what if he doesnât? What if youâre wrong? What if he vanishes again, like he did ten years ago?â
Joshua doesnât hesitate. He stares his father down, unwavering. âThen you can execute me in his place.â Your breath catches.
The room erupts in chaosâshouts from multiple kings, cries of outrage, murmurs of disbelief. You donât hear them. All you can hear is the pounding of your heart in your ears.
Joshua, the man who always carried duty like a second skin, just signed his life away in defence of someone he hadnât seen in over a decade. Someone the rest of the realm would see hanged without blinking. You canât make sense of it.
The King leans back, stunned by his sonâs rebellion. The air shifts. You see it in Joshuaâs faceâheâs made peace with it. Without another word, he turns and walks out of the chamber, pushing open the heavy oak doors and vanishing into the stone corridors beyond.
You rise instantly. âPrincessââ one of the older kings starts. But you donât hear him either. Your legs are already moving, your silk skirts flittering over the stone as you rush out of the room and into the shadows that chase Joshuaâs retreat.
Heâs halfway down the torchlit hall when you catch up. âJoshua, waitââ He doesnât stop. You jog to match his stride, reaching out to catch his arm. âPlease. Just talk to me.â He stops at the end of the corridor, finally turning.
His face is tired. Not physically. But in the soul-deep way, that only comes from being forced to choose between love and loyalty. âYou donât understand,â he says softly. You stare at him. âThen help me. Help me understand why youâre ready to die for a man whoâs been nothing but a ghost in your life for the past ten years.â
His mouth parts slightly. His voice is barely above a whisper. âBecause he saved my life once, too. When we were boys. When no one else did.â You blink. âThat was a long time ago.â
âAnd I still owe him for it.â Your lips press together, heart twisting painfully. You want to argue. You want to shout that this is foolish, that heâs risking everythingânot just his life, but yours too. If he dies, you are nothing.
Not just by custom. But by contract. No husband. No alliance. No worth. Your father will disown you. Youâll be sent back to Mdina in disgrace. You will be a daughter who failed to become a queen, a woman with no crown and no value. Joshua is not just your fiancĂ©. He is your freedom in a different form.
But you also see it. The conviction. The man heâs become. The same loyalty that made you believe in him in the first place.
The very reason you agreed to marry him at all.
Your voice is quieter now. âThen what happens if youâre wrong?â Joshua looks at you with eyes that seem older than they should be. âThen I die for someone I once called a brother. And I die knowing I didnât abandon him when the world already had.â
You stand there, frozen, as he turns again and disappears down the corridor, heading for the prison wing buried beneath the palace. You canât let him go through with it. You canât let him risk your future, and his. Not without doing something.
So you make a decision.
The walls are damp. Cold seeps through the cracks in the stone, curling into Seungcheolâs skin. The cell is smallâjust large enough for him to stretch out his legs and feel the edges of his confinement. The air smells of iron, mildew, and rot, like time itself has decayed in here, and no one bothered to notice.
A single candle flickers near the far wall, its stubby wax body melting slowly into the cracked floor. Its light barely touches the edges of the darkness, casting long, restless shadows on the walls. But Seungcheol doesnât move. He sits slumped against the back wall, legs drawn up and arms resting over his knees, the thick iron shackles around his wrists still biting into the raw skin beneath.
His lip is split. Thereâs a bruise blossoming along his jaw. His ribs ache when he breathes too deeply. But the pain isnât what bothers him. What bothers him is the silence. The silence and the impossible question he canât stop asking himself:
How did it come to this?
He closes his eyes, letting the weight of everything press in. He hadnât even done it. He hadnât lifted a finger toward that damn Book, hadnât stolen it, hadnât broken a single lock or cast a single shadow in the direction of the artefact. Heâd walked away. For once, heâd walked away. And still, the world managed to throw him in a cell for a crime he didnât commit.
A dry, humourless breath escapes him. He lifts his gaze toward the barred window, narrow and high up the wall, no bigger than a shipâs porthole. Through it, far in the distance, across the quiet water of the harbourâthere she is.
The Chimera. Docked and still.
Even from here, he can make out the curve of her hull, the low-slung sails folded neatly, the faintest flicker of a lantern swinging on the quarterdeck. His boys hadnât abandoned him. If the Chimera still waited, it meant Mingyu, Wonwoo, Minghao, Soonyoung, and Chan were out there. Planning. Watching. Trusting him. Andâmore importantlyâit meant none of them had done it either. That truth is the only thing keeping his chest from caving in.
The sound of distant boots echoes in the hallway, but he ignores it. Another guard, maybe. Another jeer. A muttered insult. Theyâve been taunting him all night, calling him âthe thief of peace,â laughing about what the gallows will feel like. He doesnât rise to it.
Thenâ
The candle sputters violently. Its flame dances, then vanishes, snuffed out by an unnatural gust of wind that seems to creep under the door and swirl around him. The darkness swallows the room whole. His head snaps up. And thereâwhere there was once only shadowâstands her.
Cordia.
The same dark gown. The same honey-slick voice. Her eyes gleam faintly in the black. Seungcheolâs mouth twists. âOf fucking course.â Cordia smirks, unaffected by his bitterness. âYou always did have excellent timing, Captain.â He doesnât move, but the muscles in his shoulders coil like a drawn bow. âIt was you.â
âYou catch on quick,â she purrs, circling him with leisurely steps. He stares up at her, fury churning under his skin. âYou set me up.â
âI encouraged fate.â
âYou framed me!â he growls, pushing himself upright despite the shackles and pain. âWhy?â Cordia lets out a laugh that is far too amused, far too pleased. âBecause this is what I do, Seungcheol.â
âThatâs not an answer.â
âItâs the only one that matters.â
She walks along the edges of the cell, trailing her fingertips along the wall like sheâs admiring art. Seungcheol watches her every movement, every tilt of her head, trying to find something human behind that smirk. But thereâs nothing.
âYou play the martyr well,â she says suddenly. âBut letâs not pretend you were some innocent lamb. You were going to steal it. You were going to take the Book and sell it to the highest bidder.â Seungcheol falls silent. Because sheâs not wrong. Cordia raises a brow. âNo rebuttal, Captain?â
âPlans change.â His voice is low.
She laughs again. âNo. You changed.â Her tone is mocking now. âIs that what this is? A pirate with a heart? Spare me.âSeungcheol clenches his jaw. âYou got what you wanted. Why are you here?â Cordia stops pacing. She steps toward him, close now. Closer than he likes. âBecause, darling,â she whispers, âthe game has only just begun.â His brow furrows.
âWhat?â
âYou can fix this. You can clear your name. Redeem that soft little soul youâre pretending not to have.â He laughs dryly. âFrom this hellhole I'm currently in? Yeah, right.â She slips a dagger from somewhere beneath her bodice and holds it lightly, like a lover. Then, in one smooth movement, she presses the tip to her chest and draws a cross over where her heart would be.
âCross my heart,â she says with mock solemnity. âIâm not lying.â
Seungcheol stares at her, unimpressed. âAnd you expect me to believe anything that comes out of that mouth of yours?â Cordia tuts. âYouâre not very trusting for someone about to die.â He growls. âThen say it. Whatâs the deal?â
She leans in, her smile curling like smoke. âTen days. Thatâs what you haveâten days to retrieve the Book and return it to Syracuse. Youâll travel to the edge of the world. Youâll face challenges along the wayâbut a sailor of your talents should manage.â He narrows his eyes. âAnd whatâs the catch?â Cordia pauses.
Her tone drops into something colder. Harder. âIf you failâif you donât return in time, or if you fail to return the BookâPrince Joshua dies in your place.â
The silence in the cell deepens and becomes almost physical. Seungcheol stares at her, stunned. âWhat?â
âHe vouched for you,â she says, almost gleeful. âHe stood before the kings. Put his life on the line. Said heâd die if you didnât come through.â Seungcheolâs chest tightens painfully. âThat idiot...â Cordia shrugs. âItâs touching, really. But the clockâs ticking.â
He looks down at his shackles and his bruised wrists. Then back at her. âWhy does any of this matter to you?â
âIt doesnât,â she says breezily. âBut a dealâs a deal. And now, itâs yours. If you want it.â Footsteps sound not far away. Steady. Familiar. Cordia turns toward the shadows, lips curling into a wicked grin. âSounds like your prince is coming.â
âWaitââ Seungcheol steps forward.
She laughs one last time. âMake the right choice, Seungcheol.â
And then, just like before, she vanishesâdisappearing into the darkness like she was never there.
The Chimera rocks gently in the harbour; her sails still furled but alive with anticipation. The sea, always humming, feels quieter tonightâlike itâs waiting.
On deck, boots pound against worn planks as Seungcheol climbs aboard, battered, bruised, and brooding. The moonlight spills over his shoulders, highlighting the blood on his shirt, the dirt on his skin, and the fire still burning behind his eyes.
The moment his feet hit the main deck, his crew swarms him.
âWhat the hell happened?â Soonyoung is the first to pounce, eyes wide. âWe heard the commotion from the alleyâthen guards running everywhereâthen you vanished!â
Minghao leans against the mast, arms folded, but his voice is sharp. âYou didnât follow the plan. We were ready, and then, nothing.â
âWho stole the Book?â Wonwoo asks, stepping down from the rigging. His map still clutched in one hand. âIf it wasnât us, then who beat us to it?â
âHow the hell did you get caught?â Chan blurts, not even trying to hide the worry in his voice.
âAnd more importantlyââ Mingyu cuts through them all, arms crossed, jaw tense, âhow did you escape?â
Seungcheol raises a hand, his voice calm but with an edge of finality. âEnough.â
Silence falls like a wave. Seungcheol scans each of their facesâtheir loyalty, their questions, their expectations. Heâs not ready to speak. Not on everything. Not yet. âIt doesnât matter anymore,â he says. âItâs not our problem.â Murmurs stir again, but his following words silence them entirely.
âMingyu,â he says, voice low and clipped. âSet sail for Fiji.â Seungcheol begins walking toward his quarters without a glance back. âItâs about time we retired.â
The door to his private quarters creaks open, the warm scent of cedar and sea salt welcoming him back to the only space that still feels like his. He exhales, slow and sharp, his shoulders slumping with the weight of everything he hasnât said as he closes the door.
Cold steel presses to his throat from behind. His entire body stills.
âMove, and Iâll open your neck from ear to ear.â
He exhales through his nose, more annoyed than surprised. âWhat is it with women trying to kill me tonight?â he mutters. You shove him back a step, enough for him to turn without disarming you, though the dagger remains raised between you.
He looks you over, unimpressed. âHello, Princess.â
âYouâre going to find the Book of Peace,â you say, voice low and hard, âand youâre going to return it. Now.â He blinks. And then he laughs. A humourless, deep, exhausted laugh that makes you want to punch him. âIâm not doing anything, sweetheart,â he says. âItâs not my problem.â
âNot yourâ?!â you snap, stepping forward. âJoshua took your place! He stood before the kings, before his father, and gave his life to buy you time!â The change in him is instant. His jaw tightens. His posture straightens. But his anger matches yours.
âI didnât ask him to do that!â
âBut he did, Seungcheol. He did. He stood up for you, and if you walk away now, heâll die for it.â
Youâre shouting. You didnât mean to. But you canât help it. The words claw their way out of your chest. âAnd if the Book is not returned, the Accord falls apart. Chaos will follow. Syracuse will burn. What then? Do you sail off into the sun with your crew and let your city fall to pieces behind you?
He glares up at you. âMy city? The same city that threw me to the streets as a child? A city that branded me trash and turned its back the first time I stumbled? I owe Syracuse nothing. I owe the kings nothing. They were ready to string me up the second the lights went out.â
âThen prove them wrong!â you scream.
âWhy?!â His voice booms now, rising with his frustration. âSo I can play the hero while they spit on my name anyway? You want me to die for honour? For duty? Those words are worth nothing to people like me!â
Your chest is heaving, and your voice cuts sharper now. âBecause some of us donât have the luxury of running away!â His head snaps toward you.
âI grew up hearing stories of men like youâpirates who stood against kings, who fought with honour, who chose courage over cowardice. And now I meet you, and all I see is a man who wants to quit. Who hides behind excuses instead of doing the right thing.â
He scowls. âYou donât know me.â
âOh, I do.â You glare at him, stepping toe-to-toe now, chest burning. âI saw it the moment I met you. That cocky grin? That swagger? Itâs all smoke. Youâre not a hero. Youâre a coward. A selfish man who hides behind charm so no one sees the empty core.â
He says nothing. You spin on your heel, turning your back to him as you look over your shoulder, disgusted.
âI wonder what your crew would think of you if they knew the truth.â
And thatâthatâsnaps something in him.
In a blur, he crosses the room and slams his hand against the wall, blocking your path. You whirl around, dagger raised, but he doesnât flinch. âYou talk about sacrifice like you know it,â he says lowly. âBut youâre not doing this for Joshua. Youâre doing this to save yourself. Your position. Your title. Because if he dies, you lose everything.â
Your breath hitches.
âDonât act like youâre better than me. Youâre just like me, Princess. Two sides of the same damn coin.â
âNo,â you say, swallowing the lump in your throat. âBecause at least Iâm doing something about it.â He steps closer to you, cornering you, his breath hot against your cheek as his eyes lock on yours.
âAnd if I agree,â he murmurs, âif I bring back the Book and save your darling little fiancĂ©... what do I get in return?â
You donât break eye contact as you reach slowly into your pouch and withdraw the small bag tied to your hip. You loosen the knot and let the contents fall into his palm.
Red diamonds. Dozens of them.
He stares at them for a long moment. Then his lips curl. A grin spreads across his faceâferal, cocky, and very much alive. âWell, Princess,â he murmurs, âyou shouldâve just said you were hiring a pirate.â
He spins and bursts out of the cabin like a storm unchained. You follow him, stunned, as he bounds up to the deck and shouts over the wind. âChange of plans!â he bellows.
The crewâall half-lounging, half-arguingâwhip around in confusion. âWeâre going after the Book.â
Soonyoungâs mouth drops open. âWait, what?â Mingyu steps forward. âWhere is it?â Seungcheol grins.â At worldâs end.â
Chaos ensues.
âAre you serious?â
âHow the hell do we get there?â
âWhy are we listening to you again?â
Soonyoung finally shouts over the din, pointing behind Seungcheol. âUhâCaptain? Whoâs the lady?â
Seungcheol turns back, and all eyes follow his gaze as they land on youâstill standing a little stiff in the centre of the deck, the dagger now sheathed under your cloak. âThis, is our newest passenger.â
Then his eyes glint with something darker. Something amusing and very inconvenient.
âSheâll be joining us on the voyage.â
Youâve only spent two days at sea, but it feels like a different life entirely.
Gone are the corseted dresses and laced bodices, the polished silver combs and pearl-dusted shoes. You wear loose breeches nowâweathered, a little too long, rolled at the anklesâand a white shirt you stole from a chest in the hold, sleeves tied up above your elbows. Your hair whips freely in the salt air, unbound for the first time in years.
Thereâs grime beneath your fingernails. Rope burns on your palms. A sun-kissed glow settling into your skin.
Youâve never felt so alive.
The ship rocks beneath your feet, wild and rhythmic, the sails groaning with each gust. The wind is a constant companionâslapping, roaring, tangling your hair. And while youâre still finding your footing (literally and figuratively), the crew has embraced you far more quickly than you expected.
Soonyoung, the loudest of them, has resorted to clinging to you like an overeager puppy. He insists on calling you âMy Ladyâ in the most dramatic, theatrical tone possible, and makes a great show of saluting you every time you pass him on deck.
Chan, the youngest, practically beams every time you ask him a question about knots or sails. He follows Soonyoungâs lead in treating you like royaltyâbut with a kind of awe that makes you smile instead of bristle.
Minghao and Wonwoo are more reserved, both of them often keeping to themselves or murmuring quietly in the shadow of the sails. But they nod when you speak, sometimes offering calm corrections or quiet insight. Minghao surprised you yesterday by handing you a fig heâd somehow smuggled on board, simply saying, âYou looked homesick.â
But not everyone has been welcoming.
From the wheel, Seungcheol watches you like a storm brewing on the horizon.
Every time you laugh with the crew, his brows pull tighter. Every time you roll up your sleeves to help scrub the deck, he mutters under his breath. Every time Soonyoung teaches you something new and ridiculousâlike the hidden flamethrowers rigged beneath the starboard hullâSeungcheol sighs dramatically and mutters something about âidiots with too much enthusiasm.â
You try to ignore him. Most of the time, you succeed. But when you donâtâyou argue. Loudly.
So loudly, the entire crew stops what theyâre doing to listen. And now, on the second day, you find yourself once again at the centre of their amusement.
âPrincess, let me show you how the harpoons work!â Soonyoung had grinned this morning, gripping your wrist before you could protest. âTheyâre hidden in the front of the ship. Serrated, retractable, brilliant.â
Chan, walking close behind, had added, âWe rarely use them unless something with teeth comes after us.â
You had blinked at that. âWhat kind of something with teeth?â
âYou donât wanna know,â Soonyoung had said brightly. âCome on, my Lady! Youâll love this!â
They seem to delight in your confusion and wonder at every new piece of the ship, and they show you everything. Every trapdoor. Every hidden blade. Every half-working cannon.
Even the ones Seungcheol hasnât touched in years.
Youâre standing on the forecastle of the ship now, leaning over a concealed loading mechanism as Soonyoung animatedly describes the best way to ignite the twin-fire barrels whenâ
âYouâd break your wrist trying to fire it like that.â
You glance down sharply.
Seungcheol stands at the bottom of the steps; one hand braced on the wooden beam, his brow arched like heâs just caught a child lying. Soonyoung snorts and mumbles something about checking on the sails, practically skipping down the stairs to leave you alone.
You roll your eyes. âItâs not like Iâm trying to shoot it.â
âYou said it was ready,â Seungcheol replies, ascending slowly. âAnd itâs not. If you load the powder before locking the rotation pin, it misfires and tears the recoil plate clean off.â
You cross your arms, squinting at him. âYou must be a joy at parties.â He steps into the space beside you, inspecting the weapon with a critical eye. âYouâre the one who wants to play sailor. Donât complain when someone points out youâre playing it wrong.â
âI wasnât playing anything,â you say coolly. âI was listening. Which is what you could try doing once in a while.â Seungcheol scoffs, straightening. âHard to listen when you never stop talking.â
You take a sharp breath, and just like thatâyouâre off. âYou could just say thank you. You know, for me, trying to help.â
âYou could stay out of things you donât understand.â
âIâm learningââ
âThen learn quietly.â
The crew is practically holding their breath. Mingyuâs behind the wheel, keeping the shipâs course steady, smirking like this is the best entertainment heâs had in months. You step closer. âWhy donât you just admit you donât like that Iâm here?â
He scoffs. âWhat gave you that idea? The way you flirt with my crew every chance you get or the way you pretend to know everything after only two days on the water?â
âIâve done no such thingââ
âOh right, and Iâm blind.â
Youâre about to shoot backâsomething scathing, probablyâwhen Mingyu raises his voice and interrupts flatly:
âNot to ruin the foreplay, but you might want to look ahead.â
You and Seungcheol whip your heads simultaneously.
A narrow opening in a line of towering cliffsâgrey, jagged, and half-submerged in churning waters approaches you. Mist curls along the rocks, and sunken ship masts jut from the waves. The cavern walls are just wide enough for a ship to pass through, maybe.
Wonwoo squints from his perch near the quarterdeck. âShipwreckâs Grotto.â
âPlace gives me the creeps,â Chan mutters. âIt should,â Minghao says. âHalf the legends say no one makes it out the other side.â
You glance towards Seungcheol.
His jaw is tight. He turns, addressing the crew as he makes his way towards the wheel. You follow behind him silently. âAlright, boys,â he calls, voice clear and hard. âDrop the sails. Ready the rudder. We go in nice and easy.â
You swallow hard, the wind catching your hair. Soonyoung murmurs, âWeâre going through that?â
Seungcheol nods slowly. âOnly way forward,â he says.
The ship moves slowly under the measured hand of its captain. Her mahogany hull cuts carefully through the water, threading between reef and rock. Above, seagulls cry, but even their calls seem distant, swallowed by the dense fog coiling through the cavernous stone walls. The only real sound is the rhythmic drip of condensation falling from the overhangs, the occasional creak of rope, and the splash of waves against splintered wood.
Minghaoâs voice rings out, low but steady. âReef to port. Five meters. Sharp shelf ahead.â
His silhouette perches from the crowâs nest, legs hooked around the crossbeam, his spyglass flashing with the faintest light as he scans ahead.
Seungcheol stands behind the wheel; his entire body braced with tension. The lines of his jaw are tight, his grip white-knuckled. You stand to his right, your fingers brushing the hilt of your dagger at your hipâmore for reassurance than necessity. Mingyu is on his left, arms folded, eyes flicking between the rocks and the horizon.
No one speaks.
The grotto is sacred in its stillnessâa graveyard of ships and stories.
You pass the first wreck after fifteen minutes. A small cutter, no name visible, her mast snapped like a twig. The hull is cracked in half, one side suspended on a jagged stone, the other submerged. Torn sails drift like ghostly banners beneath the surface.
âGods,â Chan whispers from the lower deck, eyes wide.
âThereâs more,â Minghao calls again. âA whole fleetâdead ahead.â And indeed, as the Chimera crawls forward, the graveyard reveals itself. A merchant ship, barnacle-crusted and canted sideways. A war galleon, its cannons rusted and useless, ribs broken open like a carcass. A half-burned skiff tangled in the limbs of another, their final collision frozen in time.
You feel it in your bonesâthis place is wrong.
Seungcheol barks an orderââTrim the foresail, two degrees starboard. Watch the reef under the bow.ââand the men obey. His voice cuts through the fog with precision, and the ship shifts just in time to avoid a jagged outcrop lurking beneath the surface.
You watch him. For all his scowls and grumbling and sharp-edged arrogance, heâs in his element here. As he charts the way through a corridor of destruction, his presence pulses beside youâcommanding, tangible, frustrating.
The air grows heavier. The mist thicker.
And thenâYou hear it. A whisper, tucked beneath the creak of the hull and the lapping of waves.
A melody.
It doesnât make sense at first. It could be the wind. The groan of old wood. You brush it off. But it comes again.
A few soft notes, drifting upward like bubbles from the deep. Itâs not music exactly, but something closeâa kind of calling.
You turn slowly, looking out across the water.
Mist clings to the surface in swirling patches. Light plays tricks hereâturning shadows into shapes and reflections into illusions. You narrow your eyes. Just beneath the waves, something moves. A shimmer of silver, gone as quickly as it came. You blink.
The musicâif it is musicâis louder now. Itâs still not clear, but itâs beautiful. Ethereal. It pulls at something in you, something distant. You shake it off.
You turn back to the helmâand freeze. Seungcheol is slumped over the wheel. His hands no longer hold the handles, and his posture is slackened. His eyes are far away. Unfocused. Glazed with a sheen of awe, as if heâs staring into a dream, not the rotting shipwrecks ahead.
âSeungcheol?â you ask, your voice low. He doesnât respond. You step closer. âCaptain?â Still nothing. You reach out, placing a hand on his shoulder. Itâs rock-solidâtense and unmoving.
Voices. Singing. Soft, lilting harmonies that weave into one another, are beckoning. Your blood runs cold.
You run to the rail, lean over, and thatâs when you see them.
Figures in the water. Pale, otherworldly, gliding just beneath the surface. Long hair fanning out behind them like ink in water, eyes glowing faintly beneath the waves.
Sirens.
You donât think. You act.
The only thing you can hear now is your own breathâragged, quick, almost desperate. The melodies rise in waves, crashing over the crew in pulses. And they fall, one by one. Not physically, but mentally. Pulled under the spell.
You reach for the wheel, grabbing it with both hands, the polished wood slick beneath your touch. The ship has already veered off-course, inching dangerously close to a spire of rock waiting like a fang to tear through the hull. You spin the wheel hardâyour shoulders scream with the forceâand the ship groans in protest. The hull misses the stone by a breath, scraping along the jagged edge with a deafening screech.
Your pulse hammers in your ears.
âGet it together,â you mutter to yourself, blinking the sweat from your lashes. The ship pitches under your feet as it glides forward. You grab hold of the spokes for balance as you scan the deck.
The crew is driftingâtowards the edges.
You spot Soonyoung first, eyes glazed, a hand outstretched as if reaching for something just out of view. You grab the nearest length of coiled rope and sprint toward him. âNot today,â you hiss, looping the rope around his waist and yanking it tight, tying it off to the mainmast. He doesnât fight you. He doesnât even see you. He just keeps humming to himself, leaning with the sway of the song like a child in a lullaby.
You do the same with Chan, catching him just as one foot lifts onto the railing. He stares into the water with such adoration it makes your stomach turn. A siren surfaces a few meters off the starboard side, her mouth half-open in song, her eyes eerily void of life. You tie him off. Tight. Firm. You shout his name to wake himânothing.
Wonwoo is slumped near a barrel, his book forgotten, his fingers twitching faintly to the rhythm of the melody. Mingyu is halfway to the prow, his hands limp at his sides. You tug him back by the loops of his pants, and he stumbles with a surprised gruntâbut doesnât react.
You secure them all to the mast, fashioning a web of knots in the chaos, your fingers bleeding against the rope. Thereâs no time to feel it.
The ship shudders again, scraping another submerged frame. You turn back and race to the helm. You spin the wheel again, the wood grating beneath your grip. The bow turns slowly, but it turnsâavoiding a splintered mast impaled on a reef.
And thenâA shadow moves beside you.
Seungcheol.
Heâs walking down the stairs of the quarterdeck towards the side railing, his steps slow but sure, his eyes empty.
âSeungcheol!â you shout, but he doesnât hear you. He moves like a man being called home. You leap down the steps two at a time and reach him just as his hands touch the rail, and he starts to hoist himself up. You grab his collar and yank him backwards.
He stumbles, surprised, blinking. But the trance still lingers. He stares at you like youâre not quite real.
âSnap out of it,â you grit out, pushing him against the wall of the cabin. You turn to head back to the helmâthereâs no time to wasteâ
But his hand shoots out and pulls you back. Before you can react, his lips crash on yours.
You gasp, the surprise of it ripping the breath from your lungs. His mouth is fierce, desperate, all wild edges and instinct. His hands are at your waist, his mouth claiming yours. And despite yourselfâdespite everythingâyou melt into it. Your fingers curl into his shirt. You lean in. And gods help you, you kiss him back.
Itâs fire. Heat. Tongue. Teeth. Unspoken fury. Unspoken want.
But suddenly, you remember where you are and who youâre kissing. You rip away. Your fist flies on its own accord, and it lands square on his jaw.
Seungcheol drops like a stone, knocked out cold.
Your breath is ragged as you stare down at him, trembling. What in the godsâ namesâ
But thereâs no time.
The bow misses another reef by inchesâbut the hull clips it. The ship lurches, wood cracking. You run to steady her, but sheâs wounded.
Suddenly, a scream rings out. You spin, eyes flying to the crowâs nest.
Minghao. You see the rope slacken. Then his body falls. âNoâ!â
You race to the rail as he crashes into the water with a splash. For a second, heâs stillâthen heâs flailing. Awake. But a siren is already approaching, gliding fast, her eyes locked on her prey.
You remember Soonyoungâs harpoon.
You dash to the foredeck, fingers flying over the latches of the weapon. You aim, inhaleâfire. The harpoon slices through the mist, striking the water just as the siren reaches Minghao. He sees it and grabs the rope.
You throw your whole body weight onto the crank, activating the recoil system. The rope whines under pressure. Inch by inch, you pull him back toward the ship. The siren lashes out, claws raking through the water, just missing his leg. With a final pull, Minghao crashes onto the deck, gasping, eyes wide with fear and clarity.
You collapse beside him, your heart beating so loud it drowns out everything else. For a moment, you just lie there, winded, soaked, and shaking.
Then, your eyes find the wheel again. âShit.â You stagger to your feet, dragging Minghao with you. âCan you stand?â He nods, coughing. âYeah. Yeah, I can steer.â
Together, you limp to the helm. He takes the wheel while you shout directions, dodging the last gauntlet of stone and wreckage. The Chimera slams through the remnants of an old galleonâs hull with a crack, the wood splintering against the bow.
You burst out of the grottoâs mouth, the water opening up wide again, blue and endless. The ship is damaged. Her hull is scraped, and her sails are torn. But she floats. You lean over the rail, sucking in air as your lungs finally relax.
And somewhere on the floor, Seungcheol groans and stirs awake.
The men awaken slowly. One by one, groggy and confused, they blink into the sunlight.
âUgh⊠what happened?â Chan mumbles as he wrestles with the rope tying him to the mast. Soonyoung blinks up at the sail, completely unfazed by the fact that heâs trussed like a holiday ham. âWas it rum? Did we hit the good casks again?â
âWait,â Wonwoo mutters, tugging free. âWhy are we tied up?â
Minghao leans weakly against the wheel, drenched and pale, but heâs breathing, and thatâs all you care about.
The crew untangles themselves in a chorus of grunts and confusion, stumbling across the deck. Mingyu, dazed, rubs the back of his neck and looks around. âWhereâs Seungcheol?â
The man in question is sitting up against the wall near the stairs, touching his jaw gingerly. His brows are furrowed, clearly trying to make sense of whatever fragments the sirens' spell didnât erase.
Soonyoung squints at him. âHeâs not tied up. Was it him who saved us?â
âWould make sense,â Chan adds, already beaming. âHeâs the captain, after all.â
Then, a voice cuts through the rising chatter, calm but loud, carrying the weight of quiet authority. âIt wasnât him.â Everyone turns.
Minghao clears his throat and pushes off the wheel. âIt was the Princess.â
You blink. You werenât expecting him to speak upâas far as you knew, he is pretty reserved, comfortable in the shadows, not speaking unless spoken to.
Soonyoung gawks at you. âPrincessâyou. You saved us?â You nod slowly, not quite ready for the way they all light up at that piece of information.
âYou tied us up?â Chan exclaims, both horrified and awed. âThatâsâwow. Amazing.â
âShe shot a harpoon at a siren,â Minghao confirms. âPulled me out of the water. Just in time.â
âDamn,â Soonyoung whistles, clutching his heart. âI think Iâm in love.â You let out a breathless laugh, brushing a wet strand of hair from your cheek. âPlease, it was justââ
ââheroic,â Chan cuts in.
âBrilliant,â Wonwoo nods.
They swarm you in a chorus of praise, clapping you on the back, asking questions all at once. You smile, flustered but proud.
Until, of course, the storm cloud re-enters.
âMy hand-carved railing,â Seungcheolâs voice suddenly booms from the starboard side. âGone. Shattered.â
âWhat theââ You mumble.
âAnd the hull,â Seungcheol barrels on, stalking the deck with his arms thrown up. âMy beautiful mahogany hullâscraped! Do you know how long it took me to sand that by hand? Chan, did you see the gouge?!â
âOh boy,â Wonwoo mutters, exchanging a look with Mingyu. Mingyu folds his arms and smirks. âTen silvers says she doesnât let him finish his next sentence.â
âYouâre on,â Wonwoo says.
You step forward, arms crossed, not hearing the murmurs of the crew. âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â Seungcheol spins to face you. âWhat?â
âYouâre seriously yelling about cosmetic damage when youâd all be fish food if I hadnât stepped in?â
âIâm yelling because my ship looks like it got chewed up and spit out by a Kraken!â
âAnd yetââ you gesture dramatically, âsheâs still floating. Youâre welcome.â
âI never asked you to save me,â he growls, jaw tense.
âNo, you were too busy trying to kiss a siren to ask me for anything! Oh, but it wasnât a siren, was it?â That shuts him up for half a second. His eyes narrow, and the muscle in his jaw jumps. âI didnât know what I was doing.â
âThat much was obvious,â you snap.
âYouâre lucky I donât throw you off this ship myselfââ
âFor what? Daring to be useful?â you shoot back, stepping into his space. âGod forbid the delicate balance of testosterone on this ship gets upset by a woman actually doing something right!â
âYou crashed through a royal galleon!â
âI saved your life!â
Youâre nose to nose now, practically vibrating with rage. His eyes are molten, dark and burning with the same fire that sparked the first time you met. You hate how handsome he is when heâs angry. You hate that he kissed you, and you felt something.
âHonestly,â you snap, âyou are the most boorish and pigheaded man I have ever met!â His eyes flash.
âPrincess,â he mocks, âIâve seen the high-born boys your type hangs around with. Iâm the only man youâve ever met.â
You let out a shriek of frustration and stomp your foot. âUgh!â
You spin on your heel and march toward the cabin door, slamming it shut behind you so hard the wood rattles in its hinges.
The silence on deck is deafening. Seungcheol turns back to face his crew, fists still clenched from his outburst. Six pairs of eyes are locked on him with unimpressed expressions ranging from judgmental to deeply disappointed. He blinks. âWhat?â
Soonyoung crosses his arms. âYou could say thank you, Captain.â âYeah,â Chan adds. âShe saved us all. You could at least act like you have manners.â Minghao sighs. âUnbelievable.â
Seungcheol mutters something under his breath that sounds suspiciously like âgoddamn woman,â and stalks toward your cabin.
He knocks once. You fling the door open. âWhat?â He scowls. âThank you.â
âDonât mention it.â
âFine. I wonât.â
You slam the door again.
Back on deck, Seungcheol breathes out once through his nose. âWell?â he asks, throwing his arms up. Minghao shrugs. âCouldâve used a bit more sincerity.â
Seungcheol glares at them all. âWhatever. Mingyu, find the nearest island. We need to fix the damn ship.â
As Mingyu steps toward the wheel, Soonyoung sidles up to Chan. âI ship them.â
âSame,â Chan nods.
âTheyâre gonna kill each other first,â Wonwoo adds.
âWanna bet?â
âAlways.â
Youâve never seen a ship come back to life so fast.
After a quick stop at a small, uncharted island to gather wood, sealant, and rigging parts, it only took two days for the Chimera to look almost as good as new. The hull still bears scratches, and the sails have a few new tears, but morale is oddly high. Everyone is doing their partâscrubbing, sawing, hammering, knotting, sealing. And you? Youâre elbow-deep in tar, laughing with Soonyoung as you try to patch a crack in the starboard railing.
âYouâre not bad with your hands, Princess,â he teases, handing you a brush. You raise an eyebrow, dipping it into the thick black tar. âAnd youâre not as annoying when your mouth is shut.â He barks a laugh, utterly delighted. âOoh, sheâs spicy today.â
Across the deck, Chan lets out a long whistle. âCareful, hyung, she already survived sirens. You might not be so lucky.â
You grin at them both, trying your best to ignore the weight you feel behind your back. That brooding, glowering, impossible weight in the shape of one Choi Seungcheol.
Ever since the grotto, since that kissâand the furious argument that followedâheâs barely spoken to you. Avoids you like the plague. Unless heâs making some smart-ass remark, of course.
But thatâs fine. Youâve got better things to focus on.
Wonwoo actually asked for your opinion yesterday on a course routeââYouâve got a sharp eye, might as well use it,â he said, shrugging like it wasnât a big deal. Minghao taught you how to tie a bowline knot. Chan insisted on bringing you extra water rations as you scrubbed the deck. And Soonyoung, gods help him, has taken to calling you Captain Princess.
You pretend itâs annoying. Itâs not.
Which makes Seungcheolâs reactions all the more confusing. Heâs been sniping at the crew left and right like a wounded bear.
âSoonyoung, if youâve got time to flirt, youâve got time to check the damn ropes.â
âWonwoo, sheâs not your first mate, she doesnât need your damn charts.â
Itâs exhausting. And worse, none of them even take him seriously anymore. They just roll their eyes and laugh him off.
What you donât know is that while youâre still patching up the railing with Soonyoung, Mingyu sneaks up on Seungcheol, his voice low and teasing. âYouâre jealous,â
Seungcheol scoffs. âIâm irritated. Thereâs a difference.â
âSure there is.â
âTheyâre not focused. Weâre sailing into unknown waters. This isnât a game.â
Mingyu turns toward him, crossing his arms in front of his chest. âYouâve had your crew flirting in taverns and stealing ladiesâ hearts for years, and now youâre mad because Chan called her pretty?â Seungcheol glares. âSheâs not part of the crew.â
âSheâs the reason any of us are still alive.â
That shuts him up. Mingyuâs voice softens. âWhatever this is⊠deal with it. Before it consumes you.â
But Seungcheol doesnât answer. He watches the horizon.
You, meanwhile, are cleaning your hands off with a rag when something shifts in the air.
Where the sky was painted in warm gold and soft blue, it now bleeds grey. Fast. Clouds roll in. The wind picks up so sharply you nearly lose your footing.
âHeyââ Chan shouts from across the deck. âIs anyone seeing that?â Thunder cracks overhead. The water darkens. You squint at the sky. âThat wasnât there five minutes ago.â Soonyoungâs smile falters. âFeels... wrong.â
Minghao climbs down from the crowâs nest, eyes narrowed. âThere was no storm indicated this far south. This isnât natural.â
You see Seungcheolâs figure, already moving into action, barking orders in that deep, commanding voice. âTighten the ropesâdrop half the sails. Minghao, check the compass. Chan, prepare the storm rigging.â
Everyoneâs rushing now, hands on sails, feet racing across the deck. You grab a rope and instinctively help Soonyoung fasten it. âIs this another challenge?â you ask, breathless.
He nods grimly. âIt has to be. Storms donât rise like that unless something calls them.â
The sky rips apart.
Thunder explodes above your head, and the Chimera lurches violently beneath your feet as the first true wave of the storm crashes into her hull. You stumble, catching yourself on a rope, heart racing in your chest as the wind screams around you.
âHold the sails! Batten down everything that moves!â Seungcheolâs voice cuts through the chaos, barely audible over the howl of the wind. âBrace yourselves!â
You look to the othersâMinghao already scaling up the mast, Chan clinging to the rigging, Soonyoung barking orders and running lines. Everyoneâs in action, fluid and fierce. You mimic their movements, tying knots, steadying loose items, and gripping any anchor point you can find. But panic prickles at the edges of your throat.
This storm isnât natural. You feel it in your bones.
A hand lands on your shoulder. You whip around to see Mingyu, rain slicking his hair flat against his forehead, concern etched into every line of his face. âYou should go below deckâride it out in your cabin. This isnât just a squall, Princess.â
âIf they can handle it, so can I,â you shout back, voice trembling slightly despite your resolve. Mingyu hesitates, eyes flicking toward Seungcheol. His jaw tightens. âAlright. Just stay sharp.â You nod once and return to the chaos.
Rain begins in earnest now, slicing sideways through the wind, soaking every inch of you in seconds. Youâre drenched, shivering, boots slipping across the deck, hair sticking to your face.
Still, you stay.
Seungcheol is still at the wheel, knuckles white around the handles, shirt plastered to his chest, jaw locked tight. His gaze flickers to you, once, twiceâhis expression unreadable in the flicker of lightning. But it lingers.
Then, the unthinkable happens.
âMaelstrom!â Soonyoung shouts as the sea splits open.
Your eyes follow the direction of his trembling hand.
A great swirling vortex opens just aheadâ deep and wide, churning with impossible violence. The water doesnât move naturallyâit spins with an eerie cadence, as though summoned by something ancient, something furious.
âHard to starboard!â Seungcheol yells. He spins the wheel violently, trying to angle the ship away from the pull of the current.
Itâs not enough. The ship begins to drag sideways, inch by inch, into the spiral. âThrow everything we donât need overboard! Weâre too heavy!â
Mingyu leaps toward the mainsail. You rush to help the others who have moved below deckâboxes, crates, barrels, anything not bolted down is passed along and hurled into the sea with panicked shouts and splashes that vanish into the stormy swirl.
The ship jolts again, water flooding over the railing. You sprint across the deck, nearly slipping, carrying what you can and tossing it over the edge.
And then it happens. One of the cratesâa heavy box of scrap metalâcatches on your foot. The rope slithers around your ankle and then tightens with sudden force as the crate slides across the deck, pulled over the railing by the shipâs tilt. Before you can cry out, it yanks you off your feet, face slamming into the soaked wood, pain blooming across your cheekbone.
You scream as your body is dragged backwards, feet first, the deck rushing by beneath you until your arms latchâbarelyâonto the railing. Your body already half overboard, legs dangling above the abyss.
âArghhh!â
Seungcheolâs voice pierces the roar of the storm. âPRINCESS!â
And then heâs moving.
You see him abandon the wheel, Mingyu diving in to take his place without hesitation. Seungcheol barrels across the deck, boots skidding, eyes locked on yours with something that looks far too much like fear.
âI canât hold on!â you cry, your voice breaking. The railing is slippery. Your strength is fading. âDonât you dare let go,â he growls, dropping to his knees beside you. He grabs your arm and tries to pullâbut the rope tugs you again, your hand slipping. âYouâll go over too!â Seungcheolâs eyes flash. âLike hell, I will.â
Thenâwithout hesitationâhe grabs his dagger, clenches it between his teeth, and climbs over the side of the ship.
Rain is slamming into his back, the waves crashing over him, but he reaches you. âIâve got you,â he shouts, pulling the dagger free. Your voice breaks. âIâm scared.â Seungcheolâs movements falter for half a second. Then he growls, âI know. But Iâve got you. Iâve got you.â
Seungcheol cuts the rope, over and over, until it finally snaps free. The sudden release sends your body plummeting as your fingers lose their grip.
But you donât fall into the sea. Seungcheol reaches out and clutches you to him, one arm locking around your waist, the other gripping the ladder in front of him. You wrap your arms around his neck instinctively, sobbing now.
âItâs okay, darling,â he mutters roughly, mouth by your ear. âYouâre safe.â You pull back, just slightly, your eyes meeting his in the torrential downpour. âThank you,â you whisper. His gaze softens. And for the briefest heartbeat, he whispers back, âAnytime.â
He hoists you both upward, muscle and willpower carrying you until you crash onto the deck once more. The two of you collapse in a heap of limbs, gasping, drenched, rain battering down.
But youâre alive.
You stare at him for a long moment, his face so close to yours, the adrenaline still pumping in your veins. His hair is soaked, brow creasedâbut heâs looking at you with something akin to relief.
Then Mingyuâs voice pierces the haze. âCheol! We need you!â
You both snap out of it.
The storm dissapears as quickly as it came.
The roar of wind and water settles into a hushed murmur. Rain trickles to a stop. The sky peels open, dusky purple bleeds into soft orange and navy at the edges.
You stand on legs that barely feel like they belong to you. Shaky. Damp. Numb. The wood beneath your boots creaks and shifts with the gentle sway of the ship, no longer at war with the sea. No more maelstrom. No more screaming.
Around you, the crew slowly reorients themselves. Soonyoung rests his hands on his knees, panting. Wonwoo slouches against the railing. Chan leans back and exhales one long, broken breath. Minghao is seated on the deck, soaked through, running a hand through his wet hair. His eyes meet yours briefly. He gives you the faintest nod.
Youâve never seen men so strong, so wild, suddenly look so... human.
On the quarterdeck, Seungcheol is holding the wheel like it might still rip from his hands. Mingyu claps a hand on his shoulder. âYou alright?â Seungcheol nods once, sharp. âWeâre out.â
âYou did good,â Mingyu says, and thenâbecause heâs Mingyuâhe adds, âTold you she wasnât just a pretty face.â Seungcheol gives him a sidelong glare, his jaw working before he huffs through his nose. âDonât start.â
âIâm not starting. Iâm just sayingâif this is you pretending not to care about her, youâre doing a piss-poor job of it.â
Seungcheol grunts, but doesnât argue. He turns his gaze back to the deck. At you. And you feel it like a tether tugging at your chest. You meet his gaze. He doesnât look away. Everything else blurs: the crew, the remnants of the storm, the creaking ship.
Itâs just you and him.
You, standing with seawater still dripping from your hair, your shirt sticking to your skin, your lip sore from where you bit it in panic. Him, forearms tense and shoulders set, chest rising and falling in slow, heavy breaths, eyes unreadable, but softenedâa storm in his own right.
Mingyu steps in, subtle as always. âIâll take over. Go.â Seungcheol raises a brow. âGo where?â Mingyu just smirks, hands already moving to the handles. âGo.â Thereâs a beat of resistance. But then Seungcheol pushes away, descending the stairs.
He stops just in front of you. Close enough that the heat of his body, still radiating from adrenaline and effort, warms your chilled skin.
You lift your hand. Itâs steady, palm open, and fingers stretched toward him.
He stares at it for a moment, brows knitting together, as if itâs a puzzle he doesnât quite know how to solve. You raise your eyebrows, the barest edge of a smirk playing on your lips. You wiggle your fingers slightly, urging. He blinks once before chuckling low in his throat.
Then, he takes it.
His hand is warm. Calloused. Larger than yours, his grasp firm but soft. His palm envelops yours, and for a moment, your breath catchesânot from fear, not from shock, but something else entirely.
âHello,â you say with mock formality. âIâm the princess who doesnât know how to stay below deck, apparently.â That draws a real laugh from him. His smile is a little too pleased. His fingers tighten just slightly. âSeungcheol,â he replies, the word dipping low in his chest. âCaptain of the Chimera. Horrible temper. Worse manners.â
âYes, I noticed.â His mouth twitches. Your fingers linger in his. Just a bit too long. You look up at him, and you see none of the biting, brooding edge he usually shows. Just Seungcheol. Just the man who saved you from the sea like you weighed nothing. You cough lightly, clearing your throat as you gently extract your hand. Your face is hot. âI should clean up.â
âRight,â he says, still smiling. You nod and turn.
The men are suspiciously quiet as you passâChan nods his head softly, Soonyoung smiles brightly, and Wonwoo mutters something half-intelligible about âstormproof royalty.â
You flash a quick smile their way, half-formed, half-distracted. But your mind is still reeling. Your boots squelch as you approach your cabin. Your hand wraps around the brass handle, ready to go inside, but somethingâsomething instinctiveâmakes you glance back.
There he is.
Still standing in the middle of the deck, watching you like youâve unravelled something inside him. Like he canât stop looking, even if he tried. You inhale deeply and slip inside, the door shutting softly behind you.
And your heartâtraitorous, fluttering thingâwonât stop pounding.
You canât sleep.
Not from the cold, not from the rocking of the ship, not even from the aches that linger in your body after the storm. Itâs something deeper. Something woven into your chest and bones and memory. The kind of thing that no amount of time beneath a blanket can soothe. So you dress quietly, wrap a shawl around your shoulders, and slip out of your cabin.
The deck is slick from the rain, shining faintly under the glow of the starsâmore brilliant than youâve ever seen them. Clear and cold and endless. You make your way toward the foredeck, your bare feet almost silent against the planks as the soft snores of the crew travel upwards from below. The wind is cooler out here, brushing through your hair and tugging at your shawl. You let it.
You close your eyes and⊠breathe.
The sea tonight is nothing like the one that tried to kill you earlier. Tonight, itâs still. Endless. The sky meets the horizon in a velvet embrace, and for a moment, you forget the chaos. The Book. The weight on your shoulders.
You donât hear him until he speaks. âCanât sleep?â You jolt, spinning toward the voice. But your tension eases the second you recognise him.
Seungcheol.
He stands a few feet behind you, hands tucked into his pockets, his hair slightly mussed from sleepâor the attempt of it. His voice is low, quiet enough to let the silence breathe between his words. You nod faintly, offering a ghost of a smile. âYou either?â He steps closer, just enough to stand beside you as he leans on the railing, mirroring your stance. âNot tonight.â
His voice carries a kind of tiredness that extends beyond physical exhaustion. You recognise it. You feel it, too.
For a while, neither of you speak. You donât know why you say it. Maybe because he saved your life. Maybe because you saw something behind his eyes when he held you. Maybe itâs just the hourâthe strange truth of midnight, when secrets donât feel so heavy.
âI fell in love with the sea when I was eight.â
He glances at you, curious. You keep your eyes on the endless abyss. âThe palace walls in Mdina were too high to see the water. But there was one tower, this crumbling old thing the guards had stopped patrolling. I figured out how to climb it. There was a ledge on the roof. And from there⊠I could narrowly see the sea.â
You smile faintly, remembering. âI used to watch the ships. They looked like tiny ants, just dots. But I made up stories about them. I used to pretend I was on one of them. That I wasnât a girl in a dress being groomed for court. I was a sailor. A pirate. A hero.â
He nods, slowly. âFor me, it was the docks.â You look at him again. His voice is softer than usual. âI grew up in the lower district of Syracuse. Slums, really. My mother cleaned houses. My father died young. I used to scoop up fish guts at the port to make ends meet. Smelled like rot every damn day.â
He chuckles, a little bitter.
âBut the sailors⊠they were different. They had stories. Gold teeth. Worn hands. Laughs like thunder. I used to watch them and think, âMaybe I could be like that.â Maybe I didnât have to stay where I was.â He smiles, but itâs a sad thing. âI wanted that life. Not the guts and coinsâthe freedom. The idea that you could leave. That you could choose who you wanted to be.â
Your heart twists.
âThen I met Joshua.â His voice drops further. âHe was different. He didnât treat me like I was something stuck to the bottom of his boot. He taught me how to read. I taught him how to climb walls and steal apples.â
That makes you laugh, even though your throat is tight.
âBut the king hated me. Always did. Thought I was corrupting his perfect son. I guess in his eyes, I did.â
You want to say something. But you donât. You let him speak.
âOne day, we did something stupid. There was this abandoned building near the marketâa half-finished palace, supposed to be part of some expansion. We climbed it. Dared each other to go higher. Joshua fell. Part of the roof caved in.â
His hands flex on the railing. âI pulled him out. But someone had to answer for it. The building collapsed. They blamed me.â He exhales slowly. âThe King wouldâve ruined me. Maybe worse. So I left before he could.â
You step closer. His eyes flick to you, but he doesnât move. You can see the weight in themâthe shadow of old scars heâs never let anyone see. You reach out and gently take his hand in yours. He tenses, just for a second. But then his shoulders ease. You lift your other hand to his face, fingers brushing lightly along his jaw, turning him to face you. He lets you.
âAfter the book was stolen,â you say quietly, âThe King said horrible things about you. I didnât understand it at the time. I thoughtâmaybe you deserved it.â His brow twitches, but you go on. âBut heâs wrong.â Your voice is firmer now.
âYouâre not what he says. Youâre good, Seungcheol. Youâre brave. Youâre strong. Youâre the most infuriating man Iâve ever met, yesâbut you didnât hesitate to save Joshua all those years ago. And you didnât hesitate to save me.â He huffs a small laugh. âEven when you were annoyed with me.â You smile softly. âEven then.â
Thereâs silence again, but itâs warm now. Comforting. Seungcheolâs eyes flutter closed for a second, his face leaning slightly into your touch. When he opens them again, theyâre locked onto yours. âI donât know what youâre doing to me, Princess.â His voice is low, hoarse. âBut I donât want you to stop.â
Before you can speak, he closes the space between you. His hands wrap around your waist, pulling you flush against him. You donât resist. You donât want to.
And then his lips are on yours.
It's nothing like beforeânothing like that trance-induced kiss during the sirenâs song. This one is real. All-consuming. It feels like every second of tension, every argument, every half-glance, and silent heartbeat between you two has built up to this moment.
You clutch him, fingers tangling in his hair as his hands slide around your waist, drawing you closer until thereâs no space left between you. You gasp into his mouth just as his hands slip lowerâdown your sides, over your hips, and finally, they settle on your bare ass. His breath hitches at the feel of your skin, his fingers tightening reflexively as he realizes what youâre wearing.
Or ratherâwhat youâre not. No pants. No underwear. His groan reverberates through his chest, and it sparks heat through your core. You nip at his bottom lip, suck on it lightly, and feel the slight tremble in his breath.
But then, he pulls away. Not completelyâhis forehead still brushes against yours, his hands are still on your skin, his breath fanning across your lips. But something has shifted. You feel the hesitation before he speaks, the uncertainty tucked behind his usual bravado.
âI want you, Princess.â His whispers hoarsly, his thumbs rubbing small circles over your tailbone. âGod, I want you. Butââ
You blink up at him. âBut what?â you whisper, your voice breathless from the kiss.
He sighs. âIâm notââ He swallows. âYouâre promised to someone else. Iâmââ He trails off. âIâm not what you were supposed to have. I donât want to be the thing you regret. The man who ruins your perfect little royal life.â His words are quiet, but you can feel the weight in themâthe insecurity.
You lift your hand and press your fingers to his lips, silencing him. His eyes flicker up to yours, uncertain, soft, searching. âThat marriage,â you say, âwas arranged five years ago. I never had a say in it. It was politics. An alliance. A duty.â Your eyes don't leave his. âI care for Joshua, I do. I donât want him to die. But I donâtâŠâ Your voice lowers. âI donât long for him.â
He stares at you, unmoving, his hands gripping your hips like you might slip away. You lean in closer. âBut I do, with you. I want you.â You kiss him again, and thatâs what finally breaks him.
He growls softly against your mouth before gripping your thighs, and lifting you effortlessly. You gasp, giggling at the sudden motion as he carries you toward his cabin. The door swings open with a bang as his shoulder knocks it open, then slams it closed behind him with his foot. Inside, the space is dim and warm, filled with the scent of salt and leather, and something uniquely him.
He kisses you like heâs been starving, pressing against you, devouring every sigh and gasp you release. He spins you both before lowering himself onto his bed, you straddling his lap.
The room is cluttered with maps, artefacts, weaponsâchaotic but oddly personal. You donât care. It feels like him.
Your shirt is the only thing concealing your naked flesh. He unbuttons itâone, two, threeâleaving kisses along every patch of newly exposed skin. His mouth lingers at your collarbone, dragging open-mouthed kisses along your neck. And then your shirt is open.
You shiver as the cool air hits your skin, but the feeling disappears the second his mouth wraps around your nipple. Your head tips back, a soft moan escaping your throat as your fingers tangle in his hair again. He groans as you arch into him, and his hands begin their slow, reverent pathâskimming your thighs, your hips, your waist. One hand cups your breast, the other trails lower.
He finds your pussy and hisses through his teeth. âYouâre soaked.â
You grind against him in response, your heat pressing against the hard length of his cock, straining through the fabric of his pants. âSeungcheol,â you whimper, shifting your hips. âPleaseâŠâ He looks up at you, chest heaving, lips red and swollen from kissing. âYouâre sure?â he whispers, his mouth a breath away from yours. âYes,â you breathe. âGod, yes.â His mouth claims yours again, rougher this time. Needier.
And finallyâfinallyâhis fingers press against your clit. You moan into his mouth. Two of his fingers slide inside your wet heat, slow but deep. The stretch to your walls steals your breath, your body clenching around him instinctively.
âFuck, Princess,â he groans against your neck, âyou feelââ He cuts himself off with a growl as he thrusts his fingers again, and again. His mouth returns to your abandoned nipple, suckling, licking, his teeth grazing the sensitive skin until youâre writhing in his lap.
Your hips grind in rhythm with his hand. One of yours is still in his hair, but you slip the other past the waistband of his pants. Your fingers find him thereâhot, hard, throbbing in your palm, his tip leaking precum.
âShitââ He moans into your skin when you wrap your hand around his cock, matching your movements to the rhythm of his fingers inside you. The sensations overwhelm youâhis mouth on your breast, his fingers working inside you, your own hand wrapped around the length of him, the quiet, desperate sounds he makes just for you. You donât last long. Your body begins to quake, your hips stuttering.
âIâmâSeungcheolââ you gasp. His other hand grips your thigh as he presses his thumb firmly to your clit, rubbing short, hard circles over it. âThatâs it,â he breathes. âLet go for me.â
And you do. You come with a sharp cry, the world shattering around you. Your grip on his member fluttering slightly.
Your body clenches around his fingers as you tremble, shaking in his lap while he continues to move his fingers inside you slowly, helping you ride it out. His mouth finds its way to your shoulder, murmuring something you canât quite hear over the blood roaring in your ears.
Seungcheolâs fingers slip out of you slowly, and the sound is obscene in the quiet roomâa slick, wet squelch that makes your body shudder. He brings his hand up without hesitation, the pads of his fingers glistening with your juices, and thenâhe sucks them into his mouth.
You watch, breath caught in your throat as his eyes flutter shut, a low groan vibrating in his chest. His cheeks hollow slightly as he licks them clean, dragging his tongue between his fingers.
âDelicious,â he mutters hoarsely.
You stifle a moan, biting your lower lip. Heat burns at the base of your spine. Gods, this man.
Your hand is still wrapped around his lengthâthick and throbbing in your palm, his tip slick with precum. He twitches in your palm, the veins on his shaft pulsing.
Slowly, you give his cock a firm stroke from base to tip. Then another. You pause at his tip, run your thumb along the slit, gather the moisture there, and spread it down his shaft. He groans again, his hips twitching slightly, breath hitching.
âShitââ he hisses.
Your strokes become firmer and more deliberate. Your other hand drifts up his stomach, exploring every inch of his skinâfeeling the way his abs clench and how his skin jumps beneath your touch.
His mouth leaves a trail of fire along your skinâdown your collarbone, along the swell of your chest, up your neck. When he pulls back, you can see the flush painting his skin, the way his jaw trembles with restraint.
âYouâre going to make me come,â he pants, looking at you like heâs never seen anything more devastatingly perfect. âFuck, baby, you areâunreal.â You donât stop. You just smirk. âThatâs the idea.â
You grip his cock tighter, twisting your wrist slightly at the end of each stroke, dragging your palm over his head with calculated pressure. His hips start to buck, chasing the sensation. His breath is ragged. His forehead falls to your shoulder.
Suddenly, his hands shoot out, grabbing you by the hips. You yelp, breathless with laughter, as he flips you both over, laying you flat on the mattress under him. His hair is mussed, his chest heaving, and his cockâstraining against his pantsâis nestled between your thighs, pressing hotly against your entrance.
He chuckles breathlessly as he looks down at you. âYouâre evil.â
âYou love it.â
Your shirt is tossed somewhere over your head. You reach for him, fingers slipping under his waistband, shoving his pants down with a little too much urgency. He chuckles again, sitting up briefly to kick them off the rest of the way.
âImpatient?â
âDesperate.â
Your legs wrap around his waist, pulling him closer. His cock slides along your folds, slick and hot, and it makes both of you stutter, gasping against each otherâs mouths, as his tip catches on your clit.
He pulls back slightly, his chest heaving, just enough to line himself up at your entrance. His eyes search yours, asking the question againâbut not with words. And you answer him with a nod, small but certain.
Thenâhe pushes in.
The rhythm he sets isnât gentle. Itâs deliberate. Powerful. Deep, rolling thrusts that send jolts of sensation ricocheting through your spine. You gasp, your head falling back against the mattress as he fills you, again and again, harder each time. His breath is warm against your neck, his body tight above yours, every muscle in him working to give you pleasure.
âGod, baby,â he growls against your ear, voice raw. âSo tightâso fucking good.â
You whimper beneath him, your nails digging into the hard planes of his back as you cling to him, every thrust making you feel like youâre unravelling.
âCheolââ
âThatâs it,â he hisses, kissing your jaw. âSay my name. Say it again.â
âCheolâfuck, yesââ
His hips slam into yours again, harder this time, and a loud moan escapes you. He swallows it with another kissâitâs messy, perfect.
He adjusts his angle, one hand slides upwardâfirst across your ribs, then higher, until his palm wraps gently around your throat. He squeezes gently. His fingers press against your vein, his thumb brushing your jaw, your pulse beating steady beneath his palm. The gesture is tender and possessive all at once.
âToo much?â he asks.
You shake your head slowly, biting your lip. âNo,â you whisper. âDonât stop.â
His other hand slides down your body until heâs between your thighs again. His fingers find your clit, rubbing tight, fast circles that counter the pace of his thrusts. You shudder beneath him, crying out his name again, and he groans in return.
âThatâs my girl,â he murmurs against your lips. âFuck, baby, youâre driving me crazy.â
His fingers circle in rhythm with his thrusts, the pressure building unbearably fast. Itâs too much, too goodâthe heat of his body flush against yours, his breath on your skin, his cock sliding in and out of you with aching precision.
âYouâre so good,â he groans, his voice cracking as he starts to lose control. âYou take me so well. Look at you, wrapped around me like you were made for this.â
You canât help itâyou cry out, a desperate sound from deep in your chest. Heâs hitting every place inside you that drives you wild, and his fingers are moving faster now, chasing the climax thatâs rising too quickly.
Suddenly, his other hand grabs your leg, lifts it, and hooks it over his shoulder. He thrusts again, and the new angle makes you see stars. His cock is even deeper, stretching out your walls.
You swear aloud, a high, choked moan, as your hands fly to his biceps, clutching him like a lifeline. He fucks into you hard, deep, relentless, hitting that spot inside you with every powerful stroke.
âRight there, huh?â he pants, eyes locked to your face, drinking in every expression like itâs salvation. âYou gonna come again for me, baby?â You nod frantically, incoherent with pleasure. Heâs everywhereâhis mouth on your neck, his hand on your clit, his body pounding into yours like heâs trying to fuse you together.
âPleaseâCheolââ
Your voice breaks on a sob of pleasure. He doesnât stop. âCome for me. Let me feel you, Princess.â And you do. It crashes into you like a tidal wave, your back arching off the bed, thighs trembling, mouth parting in a silent scream. Your vision blurs, the breath ripped from your lungs as your climax pulses through you, wave after devastating wave. Seungcheol groans low in his throat as your walls clamp down on him like a vice.
âShitâfuckââ He stutters inside you, his rhythm faltering as the tight squeeze of your pussy sends him hurtling after you. His hand clenches your thigh tighter. One last thrustâand he comes with a guttural groan, spilling deep inside you, his whole body shuddering with the force of it.
For a moment, thereâs only the sound of your breathing, the quiet tremble of your bodies still clinging to the aftershocks. He lowers your leg from his shoulder gently, his palm stroking down the back of your thigh. Your hands find his face. You run your fingertips along his jaw, tracing the line of it, soft and slow. He turns his face to kiss your palm, eyes fluttering shut as he kisses your digits.
Then they open againâand you look at each other. You both chuckle at the same time.
âHey,â you whisper, brushing a damp strand of hair away from his forehead.
âHey,â he replies, and kisses you again.
You donât know how long youâve been talking. Hours maybe. The sun has long since gone up, and youâve laughed more in the last stretch of time than you have in years.
âWait, waitââ you say, still laughing, grabbing the wrist thatâs been stroking your side so his fingers stop distracting you. âYouâre telling me you got your entire crew banned from a tavern... for winning too much?â
Seungcheol smirks, scratching the back of his head as if caught red-handed. âIt wasnât my fault they didnât notice Minghao was using marked cards. I just happened to collect the winnings.â
âYouâre the worst.â
âYou say that now, but youâd have taken your cut too.â
You scoff, pushing at his shoulder, though your smile doesnât waver. He catches your hand easily, presses a kiss to the inside of your palm, and doesnât let go. The touch makes your breath catch.
âAlright then, your turn.â He leans back again, watching you with that unreadable glint in his eye. âWeâve covered your rebellious rooftop climbs and your hatred of court shoes. What else donât you like?â You hum, pretending to think. âHmm. Peaches. Overrated. Sweet and slimy. They remind me of Duke Alberonâs awful moustache.â
Seungcheol bursts out laughing, his whole body shaking beside you. âI am never going to eat a peach again without seeing that manâs ratty little face, thank you for that.â
You bite your lip to keep from laughing too loud, smug at his reaction. His hand slides from your stomach to your thigh, lazily stroking the skin again, and you donât stop him. âI like this,â you murmur after a moment, your voice quieter now. âTalking. With you.â His expression softens. âYeah. Me too.â
The silence that follows isnât awkward. Itâs full. That is, until the door slams open.
âHey, Capââ Soonyoungâs voice booms into the room before his body does, stomping in without knocking. âThe mistâs rolled in heavy, and Mingyu adjusted course, Wonwoo says if we keep east by southeast, weâllââ
Soonyoung blinks once. Then again. His eyes dart from youâ naked and lazily sprawled across the bedâto Seungcheol, shirtless, clearly dishevelled, and unmistakably not alone.
âIââ His jaw opens, but no sound comes out. You raise an amused eyebrow and tuck the blanket a little higher over your body. Seungcheol, on the other hand, is not nearly so composed.
âGet out!â he barks, grabbing a nearby pillow and hurling it with precision at Soonyoungâs head. The poor man yelps as it smacks into his face.
âI didnât see anything!â Soonyoung squeaks, hands flailing as he turns around hastily. âI swear! Nothing at allâexcept her legs, and maybe a bit ofâokay, Iâm going!â
âSoonyoung!â Seungcheol snaps, now using his hand to shield your chest like his body alone could restore your modesty.
âIâm going! Iâm going!â Soonyoung yells back, already halfway through the door. âBut Mingyu said he needs you at the helm like now. Thereâs fog and a current andâand Iâll just go!â
The door slams shut behind him. For a moment, the room is still. Then your laughter bubbles up. You canât hold it back even if you try. âThat wasââ you start between breaths, âthe most mortified Iâve ever seen anyone in my life.â Seungcheol groans and slumps back against the headboard, dragging a hand down his face. âHeâs gonna tell everyone, isnât he?â
âOh, without question,â you say, nudging his side. âThe betting pool has probably reopened already.â
âBetting pool?â
âPlease. They were definitely wagering when weâd fall into bed.â
Seungcheol drops his head against your stomach, groaning dramatically. âThis crew is going to be unbearable.â
âHmm.â You run your fingers through his hair slowly, scratching lightly at his scalp. âYouâre just mad they were right.â You feel the warmth of his smile pressed against your belly, even as he pretends to sulk. âI canât believe Soonyoung saw your boobs,â he mumbles. You grin. âAnd Iâm pretty sure I traumatised him.â
Seungcheol exhales a quiet laugh through his nose and shakes his head as he sits up. The warmth of his body leaves your side, but you donât mindânot when you get the view thatâs in front of you. You watch him stretch lazily, muscles flexing as he reaches up before grabbing his shirt and pulling it over his head. Then he steps into his pants, tying the drawstring with practised ease. His back muscles ripple with every movement, and you donât hide the way your eyes roam freely across the expanse of his torso.
He catches your gaze and smirks, glancing at you from over his shoulder.
âYou staring, Princess?â he taunts, the smugness practically dripping from his voice. You smirk, stretching languidly on the bed. âObviously. Wouldnât want to waste the view.â That earns you a laugh. He finishes fastening the last button of his shirt and turns back to you, raking his gaze down the curve of your body, still on full display under the lazy fall of the blanket.
Then, without warning, he strides over to your side of the bed. His hand comes down with a swift, playful smack against your bare ass cheek.
âUp,â he says, voice low and commanding but tinged with amusement. âIf I have to go face Mingyu and the crew after last night, youâre not getting out of it either.â
You yelp more out of surprise than pain, narrowing your eyes at him as you sit up. âI was perfectly content right here, actually.â He grins, stepping back as you swing your legs over the edge of the bed. âWell, now you can be content getting dressed. And preferably before Soonyoung bursts in again.â
You scoff but move to your feet anyway as he tosses you some undergarments from the floor without even trying to hide the smirk on his face. You catch them midair. âThanks, Captain.â
He steps closer again, slower this time. One hand catches your chin, thumb brushing along your jawline as his eyes flicker over your face. âTry not to look too smug out there,â he murmurs, leaning down to press a soft kiss to the corner of your mouth. âOr theyâll start placing bets on when Iâll marry you.â
You raise an eyebrow, heart skippingâbut you smirk instead of answering. âThen maybe you should kiss me goodbye properly.â Seungcheol stares for a beatâthen grins like a devil before pulling you into him, crashing his mouth to yours.
âGet dressed, Princess,â he rasps, eyes lingering. âBefore I change my mind.â And with that, he walks to the door, grabbing his coat. Heâs halfway through opening it when he glances back.
âFive minutes. Or Iâm coming back for you.â
The door clicks shut behind him.
The mist swallows everything.
You donât even see it at firstâjust a soft shift in the air as you step out of Seungcheolâs cabin. Youâd expected teasing whistles or knowing grins, maybe a few sly comments from Mingyu or Chan. Instead, silence meets you. A quiet so thick it pulls the breath from your lungs. The Chimera is cloaked in a pale grey fog, dense and unmoving, the deck slick with dew and the sails limp in the breathless air.
Your eyes move quickly, scanning the ship. No one is looking at youânot because theyâre being polite, but because every man is on edge. Focused. Alert. Like somethingâs about to happen.
Above you, Minghao stands in the crowâs nest, his thin frame just barely visible through the thick veil of mist. Heâs rotating slowly, scanning with a spyglass in one hand and a compass in the other. Every few minutes, he mutters something, too quiet to carry. Soonyoung and Chan move carefully near the weapons stash, inventorying each item with tight mouths and nervous hands. Their usual playfulness has been swallowed whole by the fog.
You walk further along the deck, your boots quiet on the wood, until you spot themâSeungcheol and Wonwoo near the main mast, crouched low over a spread of maps and books. Wonwoo is muttering frantically, his fingers darting between pages, eyes wild with thought. Seungcheol is tense. His broad shoulders are hunched, eyes narrowed, and jaw tight.
You move beside him quietly, and when your hand grazes his bicep, he startles before looking up. The hard line of his shoulders eases at the sight of you. His hand comes to rest on your waist, the weight of it grounding. He squeezes softly. You do the same in return. âMorning,â you say gently. âAfternoon,â Wonwoo corrects immediately, eyes not leaving the yellowed page heâs turned to.
You smile faintly and lean in to study the map, tilting your head as you glance from it to the thick book in his other hand. The letters are unfamiliarâtwisting, ancient shapes carved in what looks more like inked bone than any written language.
Wonwooâs voice picks up. âIt doesnât make senseânothing doesâbut itâs all here, I know it is. Iâve read the entire Codex of the Four Winds twice now, and all the references to Tartarus, to the ferrywayâQuod est superius est sicut quod inferiusâitâs all pointing here. But I canât decode the meaning of it. Itâs like, like the pieces are there, but the puzzleâs missing half its edgesââ
âBreathe, Wonwoo,â Seungcheol says quietly, trying not to snap. Wonwoo exhales sharply through his nose, flipping another page. âDo you know what the poets of Andelos called it? The place beyond the fog? The Cradle of the Dead. And every single account, no matter how fantastical, mentions a waterfall. But not a normal one. A falling of stars. Water going up and down, as if the sky and sea mirror each other.â Your brow furrows. âAs above, so below.â Wonwoo snaps his head toward you, eyes sharp. âYes.â
You kneel beside them now, brushing your fingers lightly over a different page. âThere was a book in Mdina. An old one. Verses of the Vanished. I read it when I was nine and had nightmares for weeks. It mentioned a veil of silence, a place past the final sea where time collapses, and stars sink beneath the water.â Wonwoo is nodding quickly. âThatâs it. Thatâs exactly it. But how do we find it?â
âMaybe,â you murmur, âyou donât. Maybe it finds you.â The mist swirls closer around the ship, like it heard you. Mingyu leaves the helm and strides toward you, his boots thudding heavily. âItâs getting worse,â he says. âVisibilityâs almost zero. The currentâs off tooâsubtle, but itâs pulling.â
âWeâre near it,â Wonwoo mutters. âI know it.â
Mingyu looks down at the pages, then over at you and Seungcheol. âHeâs been at this since dawn.â Seungcheol reaches out and flips a corner of the map. âWonwoo, you said something about the water falling up. What if itâs not a place we sail into, but something that pulls us in?â
âLike a gate?â you ask. âOr a crossing,â Mingyu adds. Wonwoo slams his book shut. âIt could be anything. Thatâs the problem.â
Silence falls again.
You glance up toward the crowâs nest. Minghao hasnât moved, but now heâs gripping the rail tighter. You hear his voice float down, quiet and unsure. âCaptain?â Seungcheol looks up. âWhat is it?â
Minghao slowly turns his spyglass. âI⊠donât know.â
Wonwooâs breath catches. âItâs beginning.â
The sound hits first.
A low, guttural rumble that shakes the air. It begins deep below deck, in the bones of the ship, before rolling up through the planks and ropes and sails. You freeze, eyes narrowing toward the horizonâor what should be the horizonâbut the mist is too thick, the light too dim.
Then, as if guided by some unseen hand, the mist begins to pull away. It unfurls slowly at first, like curtains parting on a stage, but it quickly gives way to something utterly impossible.
There, ahead of you, rises a waterfall. Not falling. Rising.
A great column of water, impossibly wide, impossibly tall, rushes skyward, curling into the clouds above. Spray bursts from the base of it in violent gusts, catching the late afternoon light in prismatic flashes. You blink. âWhat theââ The words are half-formed before theyâre lost in the roar of the ocean.
Seungcheol moves instantly.
âRaise the sails!â he shouts, already sprinting toward the helm. âTo your stations! Man the lines! Chanâget those sails ready for shift, now!â Mingyuâs already right behind him, racing to the helm. âWeâll be in it within minutes if we stay this course!â The crew explodes into motion. Minghao descends swiftly from the crowâs nest. Soonyoung and Chan tear across the deck. Even Wonwoo doesnât look up from the open book on his lap, only flips another page with frantic energy.
You remain frozenâjust for a heartbeat.
Until Seungcheol turns toward you. âPrincessâ, he points, eyes blazing. âTo the port lines. Watch the tension; call if weâre drifting!â Heâs giving you a task. For the first time since youâve boarded the Chimera, heâs treating you not as cargo, not as a complication, not even as a loverâbut as crew.
You nod firmly. âAye, Captain.â
You run, the wind lashing your hair around your face. Your feet are sure beneath you, heart pounding, and you grab the rope with firm hands, joining Soonyoung and Chan without hesitation. You glance once over your shoulderâSeungcheol is watching. And when your eyes meet, he doesnât look away. Pride. You see it in his eyes.
âSteady!â he shouts. âWeâre almost at the pull!â
The wind screams louder. The sound of the waterfall is deafening. The closer you get, the more the air warps and howls. Hair and clothes whip around every which way. Sails strain under pressure. The Chimera groans beneath you like itâs fighting not to be torn apart.
âItâs not just a waterfall!â he yells over the sound. âItâs a threshold! A crossing pointâbetween realms! As above, so belowâitâsââ âWonwoo!â Seungcheol cuts in sharply. âWhat happens when we go through?â
âI donât know!â Wonwoo shouts back, desperation in his voice. âNo one ever has!â You donât hear the end of that sentence because thatâs when it begins.
A tendril of smoke.
Noânot smoke. Something darker. Slick and slow, it creeps across the surface of the sea, winding around the hull of the Chimera. More followâdozens. Hundreds. They rise like grasping hands, curling toward the deck.
âCaptainâŠâ Chan breathes, stepping back from one of the ropes, eyes wide. Minghao calls out from above. âSmoke! From the water!â
âCordia,â Seungcheol breathes, barely a whisper.
âSeungcheol?â you call out, your voice trembling now.
His head snaps up. For the first time in this madness, his expression fractures. âGet to me!â he yells.
You donât hesitate. You runâbut before you can reach himâ The mist turns black. The tendrils strike.
And the world goes dark.
You wake to the taste of ash in your mouth.
Your body feels heavyâevery bone weighed down, every muscle groaning in protest as consciousness claws its way to the surface. The air is cold and wet, and the first thing you feel is a strange texture under your hands: gritty, soft, but wrong. You open your eyes.
Black sand.
You blink against the dim light. A haze clings to the air, the world around you coated in an eerie hue between shadow and flame. Ancient ruins loom ahead, crumbling columns and broken statues half-sunken into the sand. A river pulses in the distanceâthick, dark, and slow, like black ink. The air hums with something foul and powerful.
You turn your head. Seungcheol is lying beside you. He groans softly as he sits up, running a hand through his hair before his eyes snap to you. âYou okay?â His voice is hoarse. âI think so,â you murmur, looking around again. âWhere are we?â
But you already know. You feel it in your bones.
âTartarus,â he says, confirming it.
You sit up with a wince. The black sand clings to your skin. Seungcheol instinctively pulls you closer, shielding your body with his as you both rise to your feet. The riverâs distant pulse echoes like a heartbeat. And then the smoke returns. It billows from the earth, curling and creeping toward you until the very air feels thick with it. From it, she comes.
Cordia.
She glides forward, her form half-shadow, half-woman. She circles the ruins before settling on a broken, throne-like seat made of obsidian stone. Her long fingers drum against the armrest as she regards you both with a smile too wide, too cold.
âCongratulations,â she purrs. âYou made it.â
Her voice is sickly sweet. âNo one ever has before. Well⊠not alive, anyway.â
Seungcheol squares his shoulders. âGive me the book,â he demands. âI fulfilled my end of the deal.â
Cordia blinks at him once. And then laughs. It is a terrible sound, echoing off every ruin, slithering into your skin. âOh, darling,â she coos. âWhat makes you think I have it?â
Seungcheolâs expression tightens. âYou stole it. You framed me. So you could have me executed.â Cordia interrupts with a smirk. âYou?â Her voice turns mocking as she slinks closer. âIt was never about you.â
Realization dawns on his faceâhorror blooming in his eyes.
âJoshua.â
Cordia grins. âNow youâre catching up.â
She circles you both like a vulture. âThe golden prince. The next king of Syracuse. So noble. So predictable. I knew heâd take your place, just as I knew youâd run. And thenâchaos. Twelve cities. No heir. No peace. No order. Glorious, isnât it?â
She trails her fingers over a broken statue, sharp nails dragging against the stone. âHe couldnât help himself, could he? Defending you without hesitation. And youââ she turns to Seungcheol, ââyou couldnât help but betray him.â
Seungcheolâs voice is sharp. âI didnât betray Joshua. I came for the book.â Cordia chuckles, walking toward you. You feel her presence behind your back.
âOh, but you did betray him,â she hums. âYou stole his fiancĂ©e.â
With a sharp motion, she pushes you forward, making you stumble into Seungcheolâs arms. Cordia tilts her head.
âLook at her, Seungcheol. Joshua isnât even in his grave yet, and youâve already claimed her.â Her voice is gleeful. âOr did âthatâs my girlâ not mean anything to you?â
Seungcheolâs jaw clenches. You can feel the tension radiating from him. Cordia steps closer, her voice now a whisper. âFace it, pirate. Your heart is as black as mine.â
âNo,â you finally speak up. You face her. âYouâre wrong. You donât know whatâs in his heart.â Cordiaâs eyes flash. She chuckles once. And then her smile fades. âOh, but I do,â she says, her voice cold as stone. âAnd most importantly⊠so does he.â
Seungcheolâs voice is low when he finally speaks. âYouâre wrong.â Cordia rolls her eyes. âFine. Want to bet?â
And then it appearsâthe book. Suspended in midair, cradled by smoke. Glowing faintly with ancient magic.
âTwo choices, Seungcheol.â Her voice cuts through the air like a blade. âOne: Take the book. Return it to Syracuse. Save the heir. Save the alliance. Watch her marry Joshua, as promised. You restore your honour and lose the girl.â
You freeze.
âOr,â she continues, âTwo: Refuse the book. Let Joshua die. Watch Syracuse fall. And sail away to paradise with the love of your life.â
Your eyes lock with Seungcheolâs. The look you give him is a plea and a promise all at onceâdonât leave me. He stares at you for what feels like an eternity, agony etched into every line of his face. The war behind his eyes. The sorrow. The weight.
He loves you. But his heart is cracked open for the first time.
Then he turns to Cordia. And speaks. â...Let her marry Joshua.â
Cordiaâs eyes narrow. Her smile fades. âLiar,â she hisses. âYou could never let go of a treasure once it was yours.â
The book disappears.
âNoâ!â you cry, stepping forward, but Cordia is already fading, her face twisted in triumph.
Seungcheol grabs your hand just as the smoke rushes in again, tendrils wrapping around your legs, your waist, and your arms.
Cordiaâs voice echoes as the world goes black again: âYouâll see⊠we always are what we choose.â
You gasp as your feet hit solid ground, stumbling forward as the world stops spinning. Black sand is replaced by cobblestone, and pulsing smoke is traded for stagnant city air thick with tension. You blink upârecognising the narrow curve of the harbour road, the looming cliffs, and the ancient colonnades of Syracuseâs port.
Seungcheol lands beside you with a grunt, steadying himself with one hand on the uneven stone. His eyes dart around, taking in his surroundings, the shadows, the distant sound of a crowd gathering near the square.
You both realise what day it is as you hear the bellâJoshuaâs execution day.
âOh gods,â you whisper.
You grab Seungcheolâs wrist and pull him into the narrow alley between two warehouses, pressing his back against the wall. The city might be grieving, but the guards will still be outâespecially today. âYou canât be seen,â you whisper urgently. âWe donât have the book. If they find you nowââ
âI know,â Seungcheol murmurs. His voice is calm. Too calm.
âIâll talk to them,â you push. âIâll go to the kings myself. Iâll tell them everything. That it was Cordia, that we got to Tartarusââ
âThey wonât believe you,â he cuts in, voice cracking.
âThey will. They have to.â You step closer, chest heaving. âThey wonât kill Joshua if I tell them what we saw. If I tell themâif I make them understand.â
He looks down at you. And you feel it. A shift in the air between you.
âNo,â you breathe.
âI canât let you take the fall for this.â
âAnd I wonât let youââ your voice breaks. âNo. No. Donât you dare. Donât you fucking dare, Seungcheolââ
His hands come up, gently framing your face, thumbs stroking beneath your eyes as he places his forehead against yours. âYou have to leave the city,â you whisper quickly, desperately. âWeâll go. Wherever you want. Right now. Justâjust, please. Letâs run. Iâll follow you anywhere.â
He smiles softly, and thatâs what undoes you. That smile. Tender. Wistful. âI canât do that either,â he says, almost too quietly to hear.
You shake your head. âNo. No, please. Youâre not doing this.â Tears burn behind your eyes. But heâs already pulling away. And you know. You know.
Seungcheol has made up his mind. Heâs going to take Joshuaâs place.
Your body reacts before your mind can catch up, fists grabbing the front of his shirt. âPlease, donât do this.â
âI have to,â he says, barely above a whisper.
âNo, you donât.â Your hands fist in his shirt. âI love you. I love you, and if you walk out of this alley, I will never be whole again.â
His breath shudders. And then he whispers: âBut could you love a man who would run away?â
You want to scream yes. You want to say I donât care, that love should be enough, that youâd throw Syracuse to the gods if it meant keeping him safe.
But you know what he means. He couldnât live with himself if he ran. Heâs never been the kind of man who takes the easy road. He never could.
The tears spill over your cheeks. âDonât do this,â you plead, broken. âDonât leave me. I belong with you.â
His face crumples, his own tears finally falling. And then he lets go. He takes a step back. Another.
You try to grab him, but heâs already out of reach. Already walking out into the gloom-filled street, into the path of soldiers making their way toward the square.
And thenâhe stops. He turns back to you, tears streaking his face, mouth curved in the saddest smile youâve ever seen.
âFor the first time in my life,â he chuckles emptily, âI wish I was someone else.â
Your breath catches.
âI wish I was someone worthy of you.â
The sharp clatter of boots echoes down the cobblestones.
âHeyâ!â
Three guards spot him immediately. Recognise him.
Seungcheol lifts his hands slowly, not resisting as they rush him. You scream his name, but itâs drowned out by the sound of steel and shouting.
They seize him and drag him away.
Your legs give out from under you, the grief slamming into you like a wave. But just before your knees hit the cobblestonesâStrong arms wrap around you.
Mingyu.
His chest presses against your back, one arm around your middle, holding you upright, the other around your shoulder, shielding your trembling frame. You feel him shush you gently, but itâs broken, because he is crying too. Silent tears streak down his face as he watches his captainâhis brotherâbeing dragged away like a criminal.
You sob, your hands clutching his arms, unable to speak. Unable to breathe. Mingyuâs voice is thick. âIâve got you,â he whispers. âIâve got you, Princess.â
But nothing can stop the image from burning into your mind. Seungcheol, dragged into the fog of a city that forgot him. Head held high. Heartbroken.
The square is deathly still when they drag him in.
You see the moment he steps onto the squareâhis hands bound in chains, his jaw locked in that stubborn defiance youâve come to know too well. He walks with that same confident gait, even though thereâs no wind in his sails anymore. Even though heâs walking toward death.
Mingyuâs arm presses around your shoulders more tightly. Chan and Soonyoung hold their ground beside you, and even Minghao and Wonwoo have joined now, the five of them forming a silent, protective wall around you. But your focus is only on one man.
The crowd ripples with whispers as he passesâthe pirate returns. The traitor dares to show his face. Whereâs the Book? Did he come to beg for mercy?
But Seungcheol isnât begging.
His eyes are fixed ahead, never faltering. Not even when he spots the platform of the Twelve Kingsâgilded thrones stacked in a crescent high above the square. Not even when his gaze lands on Joshua.
He stands shackled near the edge of the platform, clothes rumpled, his shoulders hunched from the weight of days in captivity. You can see the flicker in his eyes when he spots Seungcheol. First confusion, then rising hopeâBut then his gaze drops to Seungcheolâs hands. No book in sight. Joshuaâs expression crumbles.
But Seungcheol doesnât stop. Heâs led to the centre of the platform below the Kings, behind the ornate shadow of the execution block. The chains at his wrists clink as they force him to stand alone, surrounded by guards.
Then, the King of Syracuse rises.
He stands before his throne, draped in deep blue ceremonial robes, his silver crown catching the light of the pale, cloud-choked sky. His face is sternâno, cold. Cruel. And his voice cuts through the silence like steel.
âChoi Seungcheol,â he begins, voice echoing across the square, âyou are brought before the Crowned Council of the Twelve Cities, accused of treason most foul. The theft of the sacred Book of Peace and the attempted destruction of our alliance.â
The King steps closer, looking down at him like one might a rat scurrying in the gutter. âYou were given a pardon once, pirateâa chance to walk among kings. You spit on it. And now, you crawl back here in chains like a dog seeking a masterâs mercy.â
Still, Seungcheol says nothing.
The King sneers. âHave you nothing to say for yourself?â
He looks up then. Seungcheolâs voice is quiet, but it carries. Measured. Steady.
âI take full responsibility for the course Iâve chosen,â he says. âI accept whatever sentence the Council deems fit.â
Gasps spread through the crowd, but the King only laughsâa cold, humourless sound.
âAnd what course was that, pirate?â he snaps. âMy son claims you didnât steal the Book, yet it vanished the moment you returned to the city. And now you return without it. Do you expect us to believe in your honour?â
âI expect nothing,â Seungcheol says simply. âI donât ask for forgiveness. Only that you let the innocent walk free.â His eyes flick to Joshua, just once.
âHe wasnât part of this. Let him go.â
Across the square, Joshuaâs eyes widen.
He steps forward slightlyâchained though he isâand looks down at Seungcheol with something like dawning realisation.
He came back for me.
The King narrows his eyes.
âHow noble of you,â he says, sarcasm dripping from every word. âYou who fled in the dead of night like a coward. Who let your blood brother be imprisoned while you wandered free. You think claiming responsibility now will wash you clean?â
The King sneers. âThere is no redemption for you, Seungcheol. Youâve already chosen your fate.â
Then he lifts a hand. âRelease the prince.â
A pair of guards move to Joshuaâs side. The chains fall from his wrists with a dull clatter, and for a moment, Joshua just stands there, stunned.
Then he sees you.
He sees the clothes you wearâstill half-pirate, half-Seungcheolâs. He sees the tears on your cheeks. The way your entire soul seems pinned to the man at the block.
He smiles sadly.
The guards seize Seungcheol again, forcing him to kneel.
Your breath hitches violently as they press his chest against the worn wood of the chopping block.
The executioner steps forward, masked and silent, a massive blade in his gloved hands.
The King raises his voice for the final time.
âSeungcheol, former captain of The Chimera, for the crimes of treason, betrayal, and sacrilege against the Twelve Cities, you are hereby sentenced to death.â
Seungcheol closes his eyes as the executioner lifts the blade.
The blade is coming down.
Chan grips your shoulder. Mingyu holds your waist tighter. You bury your face into Soonyoungâs chest, unable to look.
But thenâ a sound like thunder.
You open your eyes just in time to see it â the blade, fractured mid-air, split into a thousand pieces. The metal clatters uselessly across the stone. The executioner stumbles back, horrified.
Suddenly, the smoke comes. It spills over the steps, hissing as it touches the ground. Shadows twist in unnatural shapes. She steps from it.
Cordia.
Seungcheol stumbles to his feet, eyes locked on her as the guards around him recoil in instinctive terror.
âCordia,â he breathes. Her lips curl into a smile, sharp as a blade.
âWell, well,â she purrs, circling him. âSo it worked. A last-second rescue. Just in time for the drama. Quite the scene, wouldnât you say?â
Seungcheolâs jaw tightens. âWhy are you here?â
âWhy?â she echoes, spinning lightly until she perches on the wooden base of the executionerâs platform. Her fingers steeple together. âBecause, unfortunately for me, you held up your end of the bargain.â
He stiffens.
âYou came,â she continues, teeth gleaming. âYou fulfilled your impossible task. And now, by the rules of the oath I made to you in that wretched cell, I have to keep my word.â
Seungcheolâs eyes flicker downwardâto the faint, glowing cross on her chest. The mark. The promise.
His mouth parts slightly. Realisation dawning. âYou canât let them kill me.â
Cordia scowls, her lips thinning into a vicious sneer. âNo, pirate, I canât.â
The silence is deafening.
Cordia stands, flinging her arms open as black smoke bursts from the ground around her, swirling once, twice â and then condensing.
The Book of Peace.
Floating in the air like it was never lost.
Gasps echo through the square. Even the Kings are on their feet now.
Cordia glares at Seungcheol.
Seungcheol lifts his chin, watching her.
âDo you have any idea how close I came?â she spits. âOne more day. One more lie. One more little betrayal, and the cities wouldâve crumbled like dominoes. Syracuse wouldâve fallen. Joshua would be dead. And you? Youâd be just another pirate with blood on his hands and no compass to guide him.â
Her eyes flick to you in the crowd, narrowing.
âBut no,â she says, quieter now. âYou had to change. For her.â
Seungcheol takes a step forward slowly.
âAnd now youâre here,â he replies, eyes never leaving hers. âBecause a promise is a promise.â
Cordiaâs head tilts. âDonât flatter yourself. Youâre no hero. You still betrayed your friend. You stole his future. You might not have stolen the Book, but you took her.â
Her hand sweeps toward the crowd, towards you.
Seungcheolâs gaze snaps to where you stand.
You donât need to speak. Everything you need to say is in your eyes.
Cordia snarls. âYouâre no different than me, Captain. Just another liar clutching at something that doesnât belong to him.â
Seungcheol turns back to her, a small, tired smile curving his lips.
âYou know,â he says softly, âI think this might be the first time Iâve ever beaten someone like you.â
Cordia freezes.
âI survived your challenges. I entered Tartarus. I gave up the girl. I faced the blade. And here I stand,â he murmurs. âLooks like I outplayed you.â
Her eyes flash. But she knows. The mark glows brighter now, a divine seal binding her to her word. With a snarl of fury, the smoke whips around her again, and the Book floats forward.
Seungcheolâs arm reaches out, his fingers wrapping around it just before it drops. Cordiaâs eyes are pure fire. âEnjoy your little victory, pirate. Iâll get my chaos somewhere else.â
And in one last swirl of smoke â sheâs gone.
The silence that follows is absolute.
Then Seungcheol turns. Joshua, still nearby, approaches slowly.
Seungcheol looks at the Book in his hands, then at him.
âItâs yours,â he says, extending it.
Joshua takes it carefully, his expression unreadable.
Thereâs a long moment where he just stares at it, running a thumb over its carved edge. Then he glances back at Seungcheol.
âYou got your treasure back,â Seungcheol says, trying for a smirk, but it lands crooked. Joshua looks past himâto you, before turning his gaze back to him.
âLooks like you found some, too,â Joshua replies quietly.
Seungcheol doesnât answer. He looks down, overwhelmed.
âThank you,â he says quietly. âFor believing in me.â
Joshua only nods. âItâs the least I could do.â
Seungcheol glances at the artefact. âUse it well,â he murmurs. âWhen you become king someday⊠make it worth something.â
Joshuaâs grip tightens. Then, with a breath, he steps forward and opens the Book.
The light explodes. Blinding, radiant, pure.
It pours over the city like a tide, driving out the shadow, painting stone and sky in colours so vibrant it feels like the first day of creation. The clouds scatter. The sun returns. Flowers bloom in cracks along the walls.
And all you can do is stare as the world comes back to life.
And the man who saved it stands at the centre of it all.
The Chimera sways gently in the harbour of Syracuse, her sails rolled tight and her hull gleaming with a fresh coat of tar. Dockhands and palace servants had swarmed the ship earlier that morning, unloading barrels of salted meat, crates of fruit and wine, bundles of new linens, and enough gold to make a dragon blush.
The King of Syracuse, for all his pride and disdain, had come through in the endâJoshua made sure of it. A debt repaid in coin, jewels, and an official pardon carved into parchment and sealed in royal wax.
Seungcheol walks across the deck with sure, measured steps, hands tucked behind his back as he surveys his men and his ship. Heâs never seen her look better. The wood gleams, the ropes are neatly coiled, and his crew is laughing. Alive.
Mingyu leans lazily against the helm, tossing a peeled orange slice into Chanâs open mouth. Soonyoung is checking the tension in the sails with exaggerated flair, and Wonwooâunsurprisinglyâis sitting cross-legged near the gunwale, rereading a book they all swore heâd already memorized.
âOi, Chan!â Seungcheol calls, pointing to the uneven crates. âIf you stack that any higher, youâre going overboard with them.â
âRelax, hyung!â Chan chirps. âI tied them.â
âLike you tied the dinghy last time, and it floated off?â
Laughter echoes. Soonyoung snickers while Mingyu shakes his head, lounging smugly.
Just as Seungcheol opens his mouth to continue scolding, something thunks heavily onto his head.
He flinches, already turning with a scowl. âMinghao! I thought I told youââ
âWasnât me, Captain,â Minghao replies from near the foremast, barely glancing up from his map as he smiles. âTry higher.â
Seungcheol squints and cranes his head back.
Up in the crowâs nest, a familiar silhouette grins down at him, hair tousled by the wind, one arm looped around the mast. Your shirtâs tucked in lopsided, and your boots have seen better days, but youâve never looked better.
âThought you might need someone competent keeping lookout,â You call.
Seungcheolâs face breaks into a full smile, sunlight warming every line. âThat so?â
Before he can say anything else, you swing effortlessly down the ropes. You land squarely in front of him with a thud and a slight bounce, and before he can even steady himself, you jump up in his arms.
He catches you easily, hands firm around your waist. âYou always make an entrance,â he murmurs.
You smirk, hooking your arms around his neck. âYou always look like you need one.â
He laughs, leaning in close. âYou think youâre ready to join my crew, sweetheart?â
âThat depends,â you tease, pressing closer. âWhat are the dangers of sailing with the infamous Captain Choi?â
âOh, letâs see,â Seungcheol hums, trailing his hands up your back. âTerrible food. Terrifying storms. Occasional gods of chaos. And a captain who gets distracted by pretty girls in crowâs nests.â
âSounds thrilling.â
âUnforgiving waters.â
âIâm a strong swimmer.â
âUnruly crew.â
âIâll whip them into shape.â
Seungcheol grins, pulling you flush against him. âYouâre hired.â Your eyes sparkle. âThat easy?â He leans in, voice low. âIâve seen what you can do.â
Your lips meet before another word can be saidâslow, smiling, deep. The kiss is full of promise and freedom and all the things you havenât had a name for yet, not until he almost died. Around you, the crew lets out a round of whooping cheers.
Chan whoops the loudest. âAbout damn time!â
Soonyoung claps his hands. âSo, whenâs the wedding?â
Mingyu shouts down from the helm, cutting through the noise, âAlright, Captain! Where to now?â
Seungcheol looks down at you, arms still around your waist.
You tilt your head thoughtfully. âI thought we were going to Fiji?â
Seungcheol raises a brow. âFijiâs nice...â
âBut?â
He smirks. âWhat about another adventure instead?â
You donât even hesitate.
âI say lead the way, Captain.â
A/N: Another idea I've had in my head for a very long time. Took a bit longer to write but I'm really proud of it. Thank you to those who joined in the poll and chose Seungcheol as the MMC. Hope you enjoy! đ
Send me your thoughts - feedback/fangirling is always welcome.
(Collage created by me. Credits to owners of the pictures taken from Pinterest)
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âž S01E01: THE ONE WITH THE MONTHLY FAMILY LUNCH.Â
The bane of your existence arrives like clockwork every month, complete with a three-course meal, polite conversation, and the insufferable presence of Kim fucking Mingyu.
You love the Kims. Really, you do.Â
His mother is an absolute angel, his father tells the best stories, and his sister is one of the few people in this world you can actually stand. But Mingyu?
Mingyu is a menace. A thorn in your side. A perpetual migraine dressed in a soccer jersey and an overinflated ego.
And yet, because your families are close, youâve had the misfortune of growing up with him. There has never been a time in your life when he wasnât there wreaking havoc, getting on your nerves, making these monthly lunches a test of patience and endurance.
You barely step through the Kimsâ front door before he spots you, and the smirk that spreads across his face already has you bracing for impact.
âYou spend all your money on clothes, donât you?â Mingyu drawls, gaze sweeping over your carefully chosen outfit. This monthâs best attempt at dressing to impress. âDo you ever buy anything useful, or is it just fabric and brand names at this point?â
You flash him a saccharine smile, one wide enough to make your cheeks hurt. âI would ask if you ever spend money on anything besides soccer cleats, but then I rememberedââ You snap your fingers. âYou donât. Trust fund baby, right? Still trying to deserve that, Kim?â
He clutches his chest dramatically, as if wounded. âLow blow.â
You step past him, muttering, âNot low enough.â
The act drops at the dining table, of course. Because despite the mutual irritation that fuels your every interaction, you both have the social awareness to play nice in front of your parents.Â
Mingyu is seated next to you, and it takes every ounce of willpower not to roll your eyes when he oh-so-helpfully pulls a serving dish closer. To himself, obviously.
âLet me guess,â you say, resting your chin on your hand. âYouâre carb-loading for a game?â
Mingyu, mid-scoop of mashed potatoes, doesnât even blink. âNah, just loading up so I donât wither away listening to you talk about⊠what was it last time? The âpsychological complexity of lipstick shadesâ?â
His mother lets out a dramatic sigh, though thereâs no real dismay behind it. âMingyu, be nice.â
âI am nice,â he says easily, flashing his mother an innocent smile before turning back to you, tone all too sweet. âAnd personally, I think youâre more of a soft pink girl than a red one.â
Itâs a direct dig at your choice of makeup for the day. You know heâs just speaking out of his ass; he doesnât know the first thing about shades, and red is definitely your color. You take a slow sip of your drink before matching his tone. âThatâs funny. I was just about to say youâre more of a benchwarmer than a starter.â
His father chuckles, far too used to this by now. âOh, come on,â he chuckles. âYou two have known each other since you were in diapers. When will you stop with the little jabs?â
âMaybe theyâll finally get along,â your mother says amusedly, ânow that theyâre graduating.âÂ
You and Mingyu exchange a look, one perfectly in sync despite how much you loathe the idea of ever being on the same wavelength.
Nose scrunch. Head shake.
Not in this lifetime.
There was a timeâ brief, fleeting, and foolishâ when you thought you might actually be friends with Mingyu.
You mustâve been, what, eight? Nine? Young enough to still believe that people could change overnight, that rivalries were just a phase, that some friendships took time to bloom.
Back then, it was silly competitions: Who could swing higher at the playground, who could run faster in the backyard, who could stack the tallest tower of Lego before the other knocked it over. It was childish, harmless, even fun at timesâ until you saw his real colors.
And now, over a decade later, nothing has changed.
He still finds new and inventive ways to drive you up the wall.Â
Case in point: Your familiesâ traditional group photo.
You donât know why you still expect him to behave. You shouldâve known better.
Just as the camera shutter is about to go off, you feel something tickle the back of your neck. You tense immediately, but itâs too late. Mingyu, standing behind you, has flicked the ribbon of your dress like an annoying schoolboy pulling on a pigtail.
You whirl around, shooting him a sharp glare.
âDonât,â you warn through gritted teeth.
He gives you a wide, infuriatingly innocent grin. âDonât what?â
You turn back, forcing a pleasant smile for the next shot. And yetâ there it is again. A slight tug, barely noticeable, but just enough to let you know heâs doing it on purpose.
The camera clicks.
This time, you whip around so fast he actually takes half a step back.
âI swear to God, Kim Mingyuââ
âKids,â your mother calls, barely looking up from her phone. âLet it go.â
âWeâre not kids,â you shoot back.
Mingyu nudges your side with his elbow, leaning down ever so slightly to murmur, âYouâre right. Weâre adults now. Which means you can use your words instead of glaring at me like youâre trying to set me on fire with your mind.â
You retaliate by elbowing him in the ribs. He squeaks and begins to whine to his mother.Â
There is no universe in which you and Mingyu will ever get along. No amount of family lunches, no shared childhood history, no forced photo ops can change that.
And youâre perfectly fine with that.
âž S01E02: THE ONE WITH SOCCER PRACTICE.Â
Mingyu is having a good practice sessionâ until Seungcheol ruins it.
âYo, loverboy,â the team captain calls out, grinning as he jogs up beside him. âYouâve got an audience today.â
Mingyu frowns, breath still heavy from his last sprint across the field. âHuh?â
Seungcheol subtly tilts his head towards the stands.
And there you areâ looking as out of place as a flamingo in a snowstorm.
Youâre sitting as far from the field as possible, like being too close might infect you with âsportsâ. Your arms are crossed, your pink-clad form nearly swallowed by the ridiculous sun hat and oversized sunglasses shielding you from the very concept of nature. A frilly umbrella is propped up beside you, even though there isnât a single drop of rain in sight.
The sheer disgruntlement on your face is almost impressive.
Mingyu groans. âOh, come on.â
âWhoâs that?â Vernon asks casually, appearing beside Mingyu and Seungcheol like a curious puppy. Heâs the newest, youngest guy on the team, so he canât be blamed for knowing the semi-constant fixture in Mingyuâs life.Â
Wonwoo, stretching nearby, lets out a knowing hum. âThat,â he responds, âis Mingyuâs one true love.â
Vernon blinks. âOh.âÂ
Seungcheol laughs, slinging an arm around Mingyuâs shoulders in a way that always ticked the latter off. âThe love of his life. His childhood sweetheart. The Juliet to his Romeo,â the older boy sing-songs.Â
Mingyu scowls. âShut up.â
Vernon looks at you again. The way your expression barely changes as you sip from an offensively fuschia thermos makes him squint in confusion.
âShe doesnât seem too happy to be here,â the youngest notes, and Mingyu holds back the urge to snort.Â
Youâre fidgeting now, glaring at a single blade of grass thatâs found its way onto your lap, as if deeply offended by its existence. Heâs half-tempted to dump an entire barrel of dried leaves on you, just to see you screech.Â
For now, though, Mingyu settles with shoving Seungcheolâs arm off him. âYou guys are so annoying,â Mingyu grumbles.Â
Wonwoo pushes his glasses further up his face. âWeâre just stating facts.â
âTheyâre not facts,â Mingyu snaps. âAnd sheâs not here because of me. Trust me, if she had any choice, sheâd be anywhere but here.â
Vernon looks between Mingyu and you again, then back at Mingyu. ââŠSo?âÂ
âSo, what?â
The younger player shrugs. âWhy is she here?â
Mingyu rolls his eyes. âSheâs waiting for me.â
Seungcheol lets out a dramatic gasp. âOh? Waiting for you? Just how deeply are you entangled with this woman, Kim Mingyu?â
Itâs a story that Seungcheol and Wonwoo already know. Mingyu knows theyâre just being difficult for the hell of it, trying to goad him into reacting. He focuses on indulging Vernon, knowing the longer he avoids it, the longer heâll be picked on.Â
âI owe her family,â Mingyu says through his teeth. âItâs not some stupid love storyâ her parents basically helped raise me when mine were busy working. You think I want to drive her places? I donât. But my mom guilt-trips me into it every time.â
Seungcheol and Wonwoo share an unimpressed look.
âUh-huh,â Wonwoo says. âPoor you. Forced to chauffeur a beautiful girl around in your nice car. Sounds awful.â
Mingyu fights the urge to sulk. âIt is. Sheâs unbearable.âÂ
âShe seems pretty quiet,â Vernon grunts as he double knots up his cleats.Â
âThatâs because sheâs sulking.â Mingyu isnât sure why, but once the explanation starts, it just keeps going. âNormally, she never shuts upâalways going on about useless crap, complaining about things normal people donât even think about. Like, oh no, her new nail set doesnât match the vibe of her outfit, or God forbid a restaurant uses the wrong kind of parmesan.â
He realizes heâs said too much when he notices Wonwoo fighting back a smirk, and Seungcheol biting the inside of his cheek. The latter pushes it further with a drawl of, âSo, what Iâm hearing is⊠you listen to her. A lot.â
Mingyu groans, rubbing his temples. He really had to learn how to keep his mouth shut. âNo, I suffer through her,â he insists. âThereâs a difference.â
Wonwoo folds his arms. âYou know, itâs funny. You talk all this smack, but I donât think Iâve ever heard her rant about you.â
âThatâs just because sheâs stuck-up. Always has been,â scoffs Mingyu.Â
His mind flashes back to childhoodâ when he was seven and you were six, and you turned your nose up at his scraped knees, saying, Only boys who donât know how to run properly get hurt like that.
When he was ten and you were nine, and you refused to eat a slice of pizza at his birthday party because you only liked the fancy kind with real mozzarella, not whatever that was.Â
When he was fifteen and you were fourteen, and he caught you scoffing at his old sneakers, telling your mom some people just have no concept of âaesthetics.â
And yet, despite everything, your families had always forced you together.
Mingyu was never given the option to just avoid you. Your parents and his were practically inseparable, and since childhood, heâs had to deal with your high standards and exasperated sighs and perpetual disapproval over whatever nonsense you deemed worth being mad about that day.
âI promise you, sheâs the worst,â Mingyu mutters, stretching his arms behind his head.
Vernon, still watching you, tilts his head. âSo, what does she think of you?â
That oneâs easy.Â
âShe hates me,â Mingyu says simply. Like itâs a fact. The sun is warm, the sky is blue, and you hate Kim Mingyu.Â
Seungcheol grins, his smile a little too sharp and knowing for Mingyuâs liking. âOh, well. At least thatâs mutual, right?â
Mingyu doesnât answer, but he does glance back at you just in time to see you struggling to shove your umbrella back into its case. You catch his eye and stick your tongue out at him, the act so childish that Mingyu can only roll his eyes and flip you off.Â
The feeling was most definitely mutual.Â
The practice goes as usualâ drills, passing exercises, a scrimmage where Mingyu manages to nutmeg Wonwoo (which earns him a half-hearted shove after the play). By the time theyâre finishing up with cool-down stretches, the sun is dipping low in the sky, casting the field in warm golds and oranges.
Mingyu runs a hand through his sweat-dampened hair and chugs the last of his water bottle before chucking it at Seungcheolâs back. âCaptain,â he calls mockingly, âwe done?â
Seungcheol catches the bottle before it can hit him. âYeah, yeah. Go, be free.â
Mingyu doesnât need to be told twice. He grabs his bag from the bench and jogs off the field, presumably heading toward you, who is still seated cross-armed, looking thoroughly unimpressed with the entire practice.
The three boys watch the interaction from a distance. Mingyu says something; you scowl. He nudges your knee with his foot; you swat at him.
Wonwoo rolls his shoulders. âYou think todayâs the day?â
Seungcheol lets out a low chuckle, shaking his head. âNot yet. Give it another few months.â
Vernon furrows his brows. âWhat?â
âThe bet,â Wonwoo says simply.Â
Vernon blinks. âWhat bet?â
âWeâve had a running bet for years about how long itâll take those two to get together,â supplies Seungcheol.Â
Vernon looks between them, then at you and Mingyu again. The two of you now seem to be engaged in some sort of bickering match. Mingyu pulls at the edge of your pink cardigan, and you swat his hand away with increasing irritation.
How long itâll take the two of you to get together?Â
âYou guys are insane,â Vernon says flatly.
Wonwoo snorts. âTell me something I donât know.â
âI mean, look at them.â Vernon gestures vaguely in your direction. At this point, youâre looking like youâre five seconds away from pouncing Mingyu. âThey hate each other.â
Seungcheol and Wonwoo do it again. That shared look, that quiet understanding.Â
âLook again,â the team captain urges, and Vernon does.Â
He as Mingyu steps back, laughingly avoiding your physical assault. Youâ despite your obvious frustrationâ fight a smile before rolling your eyes.
Thereâs something there. Some spark of familiarity, of knowing each other too well, of a connection that might just be a little too deep for pure hatred.
Huh.Â
A beat. And then Vernon digs through his pocket and procures a couple of loose bills.Â
âBefore the year ends,â he declares, making Seungcheol and Wonwoo chuckle.Â
âž S01E03: THE ONE WITH THE JANKY ELEVATOR.Â
You donât know why you always end up here.
Actually, no. You do know why. Because your parents insist you wait at Mingyuâs place whenever theyâre running late to pick you up, since apparently his apartment is safer than a cafĂ© or a mall. Nevermind that the biggest threat to your wellbeing is standing right beside you, scrolling through his phone with a self-satisfied smirk.
âWas a functioning lift too much to ask for when you were looking for apartments?â you say, eyeing the rickety metal doors of his apartment buildingâs elevators.Â
Mingyu doesnât even look up. âOh, sorry, princess. Next time, Iâll make sure to move into a high-rise penthouse with gold-plated buttons just for you.â
You make a noise of disgust, jabbing at the button with unnecessary force. âAs if Iâd ever step foot in your place again after today.â
âYou say that every time.â
You open your mouth for a comeback, but the elevator doors groan open just then. The lights flicker ominously. Thereâs a suspicious stain on the corner of the floor. You step in with a sigh, Mingyu following behind you.
The doors shut. The elevator lurches upwards with a wheeze.
âYou know,â Mingyu says, âif you hate coming here so much, you could always just Uber home.â
âOh, believe me, if I didnât have to be here, I wouldnât. But my mom insists youâreââ You pause, making air quotes, âââtrustworthy.ââ
He smiles like heâs some God-given gift. âI am trustworthy.â
âYou once stole my fries in front of my face and claimed I was hallucinating.â
âOkay, butââ
Before he can finish, the elevator gives a violent jolt.
And then everything goes black.
For a moment, thereâs silence. Just the quiet hum of the emergency light kicking in, the faint creak of metal settling.
Then, Mingyu takes a sharp inhale.
âUh.â His voice is suddenly tight. âNo. Nope. No way.â
You blink, eyes adjusting to the dim lighting. âOh, great,â you grumble. âFantastic. This is what I get for stepping into this death trap of a building.â
âI thinkâ I think I need to sit down,â Mingyu mutters, lowering himself to the floor.
You huff. âBe so for real right now, you lumbering idiot.â
But then you actually look at him.
The usual cocky tilt of his head is gone. His fingers are gripping the fabric of his joggers, his breathing coming in short, uneven bursts. His eyes are darting around the elevator, as if checking for an exit that isnât there.
Oh.
Oh.
Heâs genuinely scared.
A new, unfamiliar kind of concern settles in your chest. âWait,â you say, kneeling beside him. âYouâre not actuallyââ
âI justââ Mingyu swallows. âI hate elevators. And small spaces. And, you know, the whole getting stuck thing.â
And then it clicks.
You remember being kids, when the power went out at the Kimâs summer house during a thunderstorm. You remember little Mingyu, barely taller than you, sitting stiffly on the couch with his knees pulled to his chest, tryingâ and failingâ not to let his fear show. You remember the way his face twisted when the room was swallowed by darkness, how his mother had to light candles and sit beside him until the power returned.
He never admitted he was scared, of course. Mingyu never admitted anything.
But you knew.
Looking at him nowâ his face pale, his jaw tightâ you realize some things donât change.
Without thinking, you place a hand on his arm. âHey. Breathe, okay? Itâs fine.â
Mingyu exhales shakily. âI am breathing.â
âYeah, like a terrified chihuahua,â you mutter. âDeep breaths. In through your nose, out through your mouth.â
He gives you a look, squinting at you through the darkness, but he obeys. Inhale, exhale.
You squeeze his arm. âSee? Not so bad.â
He closes his eyes, focusing on his breathing. You sit beside him, fingers still on his arm, grounding him. After a few beats, his breathing evens out. His shoulders relax.Â
â⊠Donât tell anyone,â he finally says, voice barely above a whisper.
âOh, Iâm definitely telling the team.â
âI will murder you.â
An unbidden laugh escapes you. You nudge his knee with yours. âSee? Youâre fine.â
âStill hate this,â Mingyu exhales, rubbing his face.Â
âYou are kind of pathetic.â
âYeah, yeah.â He leans back against the wall. Then, like it pains him to say it, he adds, âThanks, though.â
You roll your eyes, but you donât remove your hand from his arm.
With a sudden jolt, the elevator whirs back to life. The overhead lights flicker before settling into a steady glow, and the quiet hum of movement returns beneath your feet.
Mingyu exhales the biggest sigh of relief youâve ever heard. âOh, thank God.â
Heâs on his feet before the doors have even fully opened, practically leaping into the hallway like heâs just escaped certain death. You follow him with a disbelieving huff.Â
It isnât until youâre several paces into the hallway that you realize youâre still holding onto him.Â
Your fingers are curled around his forearm, right where theyâd been when you were calming him down. Mingyu, ever the opportunist, notices right before you can subtly let go.
He tilts his head. âAww, you care about me,â he coos, but thereâs a hint of something in his tone. You think it might be genuine appreciation; youâre not about to dwell on it, though.Â
âShut up,â you snipe. You want to shove him back in the elevator and see just how cocky he can be when it crashes out again.Â
âAdmit it,â he sing-songs, trailing after you toward his apartment. âYou were worried about me.â
âI was trapped in an elevator. I was worried about myself.â
âUh-huh. Sure.â
You choose not to dignify him with a response, striding ahead until you reach his door. Mingyu unlocks it with a beep, stepping aside to let you in.
As soon as you enter, you do what you always doâ make yourself at home. You toe off your shoes, toss your bag onto his couch, and march straight to his kitchen. The years of forced proximity have made this something as good as a routine.Â
âYou got anything to eat?â you ask. The question is rhetorical; youâre already prepared to rob him of whatever he has in his pantry.
Mingyu scoffs as he kicks off his sneakers. âThis is not a restaurant.â
âClearly,â you huff, swinging open his fridge. The contents are bleak. A few eggs, a half-empty carton of orange juice, a suspiciously old container of takeout, and at least three protein shakes.
You make a face. âBe serious.â
He sprawls onto the couch. âWhat?â
âYou live like a caveman.â You shut the fridge with an exasperated sigh, turning to scan the apartment. Your gaze lands on a new decorative shelf against the wall, filled with an assortment of mismatched trinkets. Theyâre all atrocious and generic.Â
Youâre inclined to tease him that itâs why heâs bitchless, this sheer lack of consideration for aesthetics. You reel that in, though, opting instead for a lighter, âSince when did you care about home decor?â
Mingyu props his feet on the coffee table. âItâs called having taste,â he shoots back.Â
âYou donât have taste.â
âExcuse youââ
âThis,â you gesture at the shelf, âis ugly.â
Mingyu grabs the nearest throw pillow and chucks it at you.
You barely dodge it. It whizzes past your head, and once again, you think this is exactly one of those things you shouldâve expected from Mingyu. Heâs immature, and obnoxious, and unbelievably rude.Â
âDid you justââ youâre gaping, but then another pillow flies your way.Â
You snatch it out of the air, and then you catch the way heâs already scrambling for another âweaponâ. âYou are such a child!â you screech, except youâre not above retaliation.Â
What follows is a semi-violent pillow war that neither of you are willing to concede. Itâs ridiculous, and loud, and it feels exactly like every argument youâve ever had with him. Full of unnecessary dramatics and zero real malice.
Just like that, the moment in the elevatorâ the quiet, vulnerable, human side of him youâd glimpsedâ disappears into the back of your mind. A moment of weakness, never to happen again.
Because Kim Mingyu is still the same as heâs always been.
âž S01E04: THE ONE WITH THE NIGHT OUT.Â
Mingyu swears heâs going to kill you.Â
Heâs probably made that threat dozens of times in the past years, but tonight, heâs fairly sure heâll actually do it.Â
He should be in bed right now, getting some much-needed shut-eye for tomorrowâs game. Itâs the type of do-or-die match where scouts will be in the audience, after all, and while Mingyu doesnât really give two damns about going pro, he wouldnât mind the validation.
Alas, instead of being in his bed, heâs stuck in traffic en route to wherever the hell youâve gone drinking tonight.Â
If it had just been you that asked to be picked up, Mingyu wouldâve ended the call without question. Probably would have told you to get off his case and book a cab yourself.Â
But itâs your mother whoâs asking, who has entrusted your safety and well-being in Mingyuâs allegedly capable hands. Heâs not about to turn down the woman who practically helped raise him.Â
Disgruntled, Mingyu pulls into the parking lot of where you said youâd be drinking. Some swanky club with thumping music and neon lights.Â
âSo help me, God,â Mingyu grumbles underneath his breath as he stomps out of his car and toward the establishment. When the bouncer charges him an entrance feeâ an entrance fee!â Mingyuâs urge to cause you bodily harm only triples. He coughs up the fee and marches into the club, fully prepared to give you grief for this little stunt.Â
The club is alive, full of sweaty bodies pressing against each other and questionable house remixes that everyone is pretending to like. Itâs an assault on the senses, and Mingyu absolutely loathes it.
He wasnât about to act holier-than-thou. Heâs had his fair share of drinking escapades, had even been to this very club himself once or twice. Still, itâs different when youâre ready for a night out and when youâve been forced out of your restful evening because of a person you can barely even consider a friend.Â
It takes him all of three minutes to find you.Â
Take away the history, the tension, and fine. Mingyu would willingly admit: Youâre gorgeous. Sometimes. When you tried.Â
Itâs more than the sinfully short dress, more than the ankle-length boots that no one else would pull off. Itâs that laugh of yours, so bright and open and loud as you let one of your friends twirl you around on the dance floor. The sound reaches Mingyu over the din of debauchery, and he feels a muscle in his jaw tick.Â
He hates it. He hates you.Â
He wants to be home, back in his bed, instead of standing five paces away from a stunning you. A you that he will have to drag down because of responsibility, because of his blasted pride. Whether or not he cares to admit it, he hates that, too.Â
Mingyu weaves through the crowds of dancing people until heâs reached you. Heâs just about to call your name when the DJ plays a song that you seem to like, because you let out a loud squeal and try to jump.Â
Key word: Try. Youâre just a little off-balance from your choice of shoewear and the alcohol running through your veins, because your attempt has you stumbling.Â
Instinctively, Mingyu reaches out to catch you. His palms land on your waist as your back falls against his chest, and it nearly kills himâ the sound of your drunken giggle. You tilt your head back to look up at him.
It starts off as a half-lidded, hazy expression, one that shows off just how intoxicated you already are. But thereâs something different there, too. A heat. A hunger. One that shows youâre out for something, someone tonight. Mingyu hates that the most.Â
He hates how that look on your face disappears when you realize who caught you. Immediately, your unchaste expression gives way to something more akin to sulky discontent, like Mingyu is the bearer of bad news.Â
And he is, really, because his fingers squeeze at your waist as he glares down at you.Â
âItâs past midnight, Cinderella,â he says, pitching his voice just loud enough above the music. âTime to head home.â
Your reaction to him is always a good litmus test of how intoxicated you are. When you jut out your lower lip and whine out a petulant âMingyu!â, that gives him the idea that youâre pretty damn gone.Â
âYouâre no fun,â you whine, trying to wriggle free from his grip. âThis is my favorite songââÂ
âAnd itâs one in the fucking morning. Letâs go.â
Somehow, you manage to peel away from him. One of your friends links arms with you, the two of you bursting into laughter of giggles. Mingyu is tempted to leave you then and there. Thereâs nothing funny about this situation, and heâs already planning to tell you off for how this might affect how he plays tomorrow.Â
âOne more song!â You put up one finger, practically shoving it up to Mingyuâs face. âPleaseee?âÂ
Heâs only halfway through saying something like no, letâs go before your friend is dragging you further into the throng of dancing people. Mingyu can already feel a headache blossoming beneath his temple.Â
Resigned to his fate, he steps to the fringes of the crowd. He isnât in the mood to scream to All I Do Is Win with all of these strangers; the least he can do is keep an eye on you.Â
You, scream-singing the lyrics. You, whose dress rides up with every little sway. Youâ laughing, dancing, still several paces away from Mingyu.Â
He crosses his arms over his chest and briefly closes his eyes, exhaling through his nose. A voice snaps him out of his reverie.
âHey, handsome. Want a drink?âÂ
Mingyuâs eyes flutter open. He hadnât noticed the girl sidling up to his side. Sheâs a bombshell, sure, with a lecherous gaze and a barely-there dress, but Mingyu trips up over the fact that the two of you kind of smile the same.Â
âNo, thank you,â he says curtly. âIâm driving.âÂ
The girl throws her head back and laughs. Mingyuâs headache feels like itâs worsening.
âYouâre too good-looking to be the designated driver,â the stranger purrs. When she reaches out to run an innocent finger over Mingyuâs crossed arms, his lips tug into a slight frown. Heâs no stranger to girls coming on to him. Heâs entertained a couple, even, in settings exactly like this.Â
Tonight, heâs not in the mood. Thatâs it. Thatâs all there is to it, he thinksâ as if heâs trying to convince himself.Â
Thatâs how he builds the courage to lie through his teeth.Â
âIâm here to drive my girlfriend home, actually.â
In the morning, he will justify it like this: He wanted the stranger to leave him alone. He wasnât exactly lying. You were a girl, and you were⊠kind of his friend. And he was driving you home. That much was true.Â
In that very moment, though, his heartâ the treacherous fool that it isâ skips a single, infinitesimal beat at the prospect of calling you his âgirlfriendâ.Â
The stranger is undeterred. Itâs a common throw-off, after all. The lie about having a significant other.Â
âWhereâs this girlfriend of yours?â she asks, one eyebrow cocked upward in amusement.Â
Mingyuâs eyes flick over the throng of dancers. Right. He had been watching for you. He opens his mouth, about to mention some notable feature of yours, when the words stick in his throat. Because heâs looking right at youâÂ
You, with your arms over the shoulders of some guy. You, tilting your face upward to kiss said stranger.Â
The strobe lights cut Mingyuâs vision into strips. He sees each moment like a flashbulb blinking on and off: Your eyes fluttering close. The strangerâs hand slipping to the small of your back, right over the curve of your ass. Your body, arching upward a little bit more.
Mingyu, still paces away.Â
By the time youâre pulling away from the man, Mingyu is already at your side. Heâs still ever so gentle as he yanks you away from the strangerâs grasp.
âWeâre going,â he announces.
The guy you had just been kissing lets out some strangled sound, something to the effect of âwhat the hell, man,â but Mingyu canât be bothered to stick around and clarify. He focuses on hauling your ass away, even as you begin to kick up a fuss.Â
âBut he said I was prettyââ youâre whining, the tone of your voice grating on every single one of Mingyuâs nerves.Â
âBecause you are pretty!â he snaps as he guides you through the crowd. âDonât go around making out with anyone who compliments you. Jesus!â
Somehow, the two of you manage to spill out of the club. Mingyu has a white-knuckled grip on your shoulders as he attempts to push you forward, towards his car.Â
You only add to his mounting annoyance when you dig the heels of your boots into the ground, keeping him from going any further.Â
âFor fuckâs sakeââ Mingyu grumbles. âI swear to God, I will leave you. Iâm going to leave you to your own devices in this parking lot, you leech.âÂ
âYou wouldnât,â you say shrilly. âYou would never leave me!â
âI would,â he shoots back. He contemplates just throwing you over his shoulder and being done with it.Â
That train of thought is swiftly interrupted by you spinning around to face him. You plant your hands on your hips, speaking surprisingly evenly for someone who looks drunk out of their mind. âI was having fun,â you sniffle.Â
âAnd I was supposed to be asleep four hours ago,â he seethes. âInstead, Iâm dealing with your bratty assââÂ
âI didnât ask you toââÂ
âYour mother asked me toââÂ
âWell, she can go andââ
âPlease!â
Mingyu huffs out the word with his whole chest. Honestly, at this point? Heâs not above begging. He runs his hands over his face before wringing them together.Â
âCan we just go home already?â he pleads. âI have to be up by six, and the student manager will have my neck if Iâm late one more time. Please, please, please just get in my car already.âÂ
You only stare him down with that steely expression of yours. Once again, Mingyu toys with the idea of manhandling you into his backseat, until you speak up.Â
âHe said I was pretty,â you repeat, like thatâs somehow the most important fact of the night.Â
âYou are,â he responds exasperatedly.Â
âYouâre lying,â you insist. It might be a trick of the light, a fleeting moment in the darkness of the otherwise empty parking lot, but Mingyu swears he sees a flicker of insecurity in your eyes.
You go on, âYouâre just saying that. Unlike the guy back there, you donât actually thinkââÂ
âOh my God. Fine. Fine. I donât think youâre pretty!â Mingyu throws his hands up in the air in a gesture of defeat.Â
You look like youâre about to deflate, but then he barrels on, going absolutely insane over this whole stupid affair. âI think youâre breathtaking. I think youâre the most gorgeous girl in the world,â he bites out. âBut, holy shit, are you the most annoying one, too!â
If youâre surprised, thereâs no indication of it in your expression. But your hands do drop from your sides, and youâre looking at Mingyu with a little less disdain than a couple of seconds ago.Â
A beat. And thenâ
âYou think Iâm breathtaking?â you ask, the ghost of a smirk on your lips.Â
To hell with it. Mingyu surges forward and wraps his arms around your waist, hauling you off the ground.Â
Youâre squealing and raining punches down his back the entire way to his car.Â
âž S01E05: THE ONE WITH THE MORNING AFTER.Â
You wake up to the distinct smell of something warm and buttery wafting through the air, the scent tugging you out of your heavy slumber.Â
Your head is pounding, and your throat feels like you swallowed a gallon of sandpaper, but worst of all, thereâs a familiar sense of displacementâ the kind that comes with waking up somewhere that isnât your own bed.
Cracking one eye open, youâre met with the soft glow of morning light filtering through unfamiliar curtains. It takes you a second, but then you recognize the room instantly: Mingyuâs apartment.
The realization doesnât startle you as much as it should. In fact, you sigh, rolling onto your back and rubbing at your temple. It isnât the first time youâve found yourself here after a night out, though itâs usually because of some family event that went on too long rather than Mingyu being forced to drag your inebriated ass home.
Still, the headache and vague memories of last night are enough to sour your mood. You groan, sitting up and taking in your surroundings. Your shoes are neatly placed by the door. A bottle of water and a pack of painkillers sit on the nightstand, which youâre quick to grab.Â
And then, thereâs the smell. The one that pulled you out of sleep in the first place.
You shuffle out of bed and into the kitchen, where you find an actual, plated breakfast waiting for you on the counter. A plate of eggs, toast, andâ because you assume Mingyu is still an insufferable health nutâ a side of fruit. Stuck to the rim of the plate, a bright yellow Post-it with the worst handwriting known to mankind.
Stop drinking. -KMG
You find yourself staring at the plate longer than necessary. No matter how crude the note is, the fact remains: Mingyu cooked this. For you. Before his game.
Thereâs an uncomfortable flutter in your chest that you quickly stomp out.
Because sure, Mingyu cooked for you. Sure, he bought you medicine. But he also had the gall to leave you a rude Post-it note like the patronizing asshole that he is. You grab the note and crumple it in your fist before popping one of the painkillers in your mouth. You mutter âfuckinâ bitchâ to no one in particular, but it lacks real venom.
Your thoughts are interrupted by your phone ringing. You frown before spotting Mingyuâs charger plugged into the wall, your phone attached to it. You donât have time to unpack whatever that means, because your motherâs name flashes across the screen.
With a sigh, you answer. âHello?â
âWhere are you?â she asks, voice sharp with concern. âI tried calling last night, but your phone was off.â
âI wasâŠâ You hesitate, glancing at the breakfast on the counter. âWith Mingyu.â
Thereâs no need for your mother to know where you really were dancing, who youâd spent the night flirting with. Hell, all of that is pretty much a blur at this point. The only thing left in your alcohol-addled mind is Mingyu calling you Cinderella, Mingyuâs hands on your shoulders, and⊠Did he carry you to his car? Youâll have to wheedle that information out of him later.Â
Your motherâs reaction to your white lie is immediate. Her sigh of relief is so loud you have to pull the phone away from your ear. âOh. Thatâs good,â she breathes. âAt least I know you were in good hands.â The food in front of you suddenly looks much less appealing. Of course. Of course thatâs all it takes for her to drop her interrogation. You could have told her you spent the night at any of your friendsâ places, and she still would have had a million questions. But mention Mingyu, and suddenly sheâs appeased.
âYeah,â you say flatly. âGreat hands.â
You donât like it. You donât like feeling indebted to him. You donât like that he has that effectâ not just on your mother, but on you, too.
As much as you want to brush it off, you canât help but glance at the plate again, at the neatly arranged breakfast that he didnât have to make, at the medicine he didnât have to buy.
And that flutter? That stupid, tiny, treacherous flutter in your chest?
You shove it deep down where it belongs.
Meanwhile, Mingyu fights his own battles. On the field, heâs a wall. A force of nature.
His muscles burn. His mind is sharp. Every time the ball nears his goal, heâs already two steps ahead. The opposing team is relentless, throwing every tactic they can at him, but it doesnât matter. Not today.
Today, Mingyu is untouchable.
The scouts on the sidelines are nodding, murmuring to each other with increasing interest. His teammates are exhilarated, feeding off his energy. Seungcheol is the first to voice it, panting as he jogs past the goal. âYouâre playing like a fucking monster.â
Mingyu doesnât answer, just adjusts his gloves and keeps his gaze locked on the field. Wonwoo watches him a beat longer, brow furrowed. âYouâre not usually this aggressive.â
Mingyu exhales sharply. âGotta keep the scouts entertained, donât I?â
Itâs a good enough excuse. No one questions him after that.
But the truth is, he knows exactly why heâs playing like this.
Because across the field is himâ the guy from last night. The guy who got to kiss you, to touch you while Mingyu watched.
And the jerk looks perfectly fine. Well-rested, even. Ready to play.
Mingyuâs jaw tightens.Â
When the next shot comes, he doesnât just block it. He slaps it out of the air with enough force to send it soaring toward midfield. The sound of his palm meeting the ball echoes across the stadium. The forward who took the shot looks stunned; the murmurs from the scouts grow louder.
Seungcheol lets out a low whistle. âI donât know whatâs gotten into you, but I like it.â
Mingyu exhales, flexing his fingers inside his gloves. His heartbeat pounds in his ears, but heâs locked in, focused. He doesnât care how many more shots they take. None of them are getting past him today.
Youâre not even here, but you might as well be by the way Mingyu thinks of you the entire damn time.
And if, after the final whistle blows and his team secures the win, he happens to walk past him with just a little too much shoulder in his stride? Well.
Thatâs just the cherry on top.
He feels proud. Vindicated. He revels in it for a full minute beforeâ much like youâ shoving the feeling as far away from him as possible.Â
Now itâs even. Now, he doesnât owe you a thing.Â
âž S01E06: THE ONE WITH THE PERFUME.Â
Mingyu isnât sure how he ended up in the fragrance section.Â
The trip to the mall had a purposeâ find a birthday gift for their student manager, someone patient enough to handle their chaos. Seungcheol was atrociously down bad for the girl, and was still trying to prove himself worthy of her time.Â
Seungcheol, Wonwoo, and Vernon debate between a sleek planner and a wireless charger.
âThe planner will help her deal with us,â Wonwoo pushes, âweâre always bombarding her with our schedules, anyway.âÂ
Vernon butts in. âGetting her a gift that benefits us is a shitty thing to do.âÂ
The man of the hourâ Seungcheol, who is balancing the two gifts in his handsâ gives the worldâs shittiest suggestion. âLetâs just get both!â
As the three try to argue the merits of the gifts, Mingyu wanders off. For some reason, he finds himself drawn by the gleam of glass bottles and the faint hum of different scents in the air.
He has no business being here. Cologne isnât something he puts much thought into; he has his one bottle, the same one heâs used for years, and it does the job.Â
Still, his fingers ghost over the display, picking up a tester bottle without much thought. The label is understated. Minimalist design, black serif lettering against a frosted background. Expensive-looking. He presses down on the nozzle, sending a fine mist into the air.
The scent unfurls slowly. First, thereâs a burst of something citrusyâ bright, crisp, and fleeting. Then it settles into softer notes, something warm and clean, like white musk and fresh linen.Â
But underneath, lingering just at the edge, is something else. Something vaguely floral, but not overpowering. A hint of jasmine, maybe, softened by vanilla.
His grip tightens around the tester. Heâs suffered through this scent before.
It clings to his couch cushions, stubborn even after airing out his apartment. It lingers in his car, filling the spaces between his words when you're in the passenger seat. Itâs in his hoodie the morning after you crash at his place, making his head turn before he remembers youâre already gone.
Mingyu frowns, inhaling again, as if the scent will offer up an explanation for why it pulls at something deep in his memory.Â
Could it be your own perfume? Could your shampoo have the same notes?Â
He debates it for a second. Buying the bottle, testing if it really does smell the same. If it would fade the same way, settle the same way. If it would remind him of you just as much.
And thenâ what the hell is he doing?Â
Mingyu sets down the tester bottle, clicking the cap back on. He tries to chalk it up to curiosity. That has to be it. Heâs a man of logic, someone who likes to confirm hypotheses like whether this inconspicuous bottle of perfume is the same as his arch rivalâs.Â
Thatâs all there is to it, he thinks, as he stalks back over to his teammates. A verdict has been reached: Seungcheol will get her the planner. The charger will be halved three-way by Mingyu, Vernon, and Wonwoo.Â
âWhereâd you go?â Wonwoo inquires.Â
âNowhere,â Mingyu answers, even though his mind is still on the stupid smell.Â
He wipes at his wrist like that might help him get rid of the thought of you.Â
(In the other side of the mallâ)Â
âž S01E07: THE ONE WITH THE SHOPPING TRIP.Â
You love shopping.Â
Not just for the thrill of it or the satisfaction of walking out of a store with a new find, but because itâs part of your studies. As a business major with a minor in fashion design, you donât just see clothes. You see craftsmanship, marketability, trends, and the little details that separate the exceptional from the ordinary.
Which is why you donât take it lightly when a saleslady looks down on you.
It starts with the way she barely glances at you when you step into the boutique, her gaze flickering from your casual outfit to the more expensively dressed customers lingering by the racks. She doesnât offer a greeting, doesnât ask if you need help, just wrongly assumes that youâre not worth her time.
You brush it off at first. Itâs not the first time someone has made a snap judgment about you, and it wonât be the last. But then, as you pull a dress from the rack, inspecting the stitching along the seams, you hear her scoff.
âThat oneâs a little out of budget, donât you think?â she says, her voice coated in artificial sweetness.
You arch a brow, turning the dress over in your hands. Itâs a designer piece, sure, but itâs not about the price. Itâs about the construction, and this one? Overpriced for what it offers. You could name at least three brands that do a better job at a fraction of the cost.
Instead of rising to the bait, you hum thoughtfully. âThe stitching here is uneven,â you muse, holding the fabric up to the light. âAnd the lining? They cut costs with synthetic blends when they should have used silk. The structure wonât hold up after a few wears.â
The saleslady falters, clearly unprepared for an actual critique. You donât stop there.
âFor the price, Iâd expect better craftsmanship. If youâre going to charge this much, at least make sure the dress can justify it.â
A beat of silence. Then, another voice chimes inâ a stranger, another customer, who suddenly looks interested in what you have to say. âThatâs actually a good point,â she murmurs, inspecting her own dress more closely.
The salesladyâs expression tightens, and she suddenly looks less inclined to speak. You hide a smirk, setting the dress back on the rack.
You love shopping. But more than that, you love knowing exactly what youâre talking about.
The next store is quieter, more minimalist, with racks of clothing spaced out deliberately to give each piece a sense of importance. You skim through them idly until something catches your eye.
A shirt. Simple, well-tailored, the kind of thing that would sit well on broad shoulders.Â
Mingyuâs shoulders.
You wrinkle your nose at the thought. The idea of picking something out for him makes your stomach turn, and yet⊠you keep looking at it. Itâs a nice color, something that would complement his skin tone. The fit would be flattering. Itâs practical, stylish, something he could wear effortlessly.
You chalk it up to habit. Itâs the same as when you find a cute piece that would suit a mannequin perfectly. Just another exercise in styling. Nothing more.
Besides, if you bought it, it wouldnât be for him. It would be for the sake of aesthetics. Like dressing up a doll. Orâ better yetâ like charity.
Yes. Thatâs all it is. You like knowing what youâre talking about, and this is just a manifestation of it.Â
You grab the shirt, holding it up for a final once-over before tossing it into your basket. If anything, you can pass it off as a Christmas gift. Thatâs reasonable. Normal, even. No big deal.
But then you see a sweater that would pair well with it. And a jacket thatâs undeniably his style. And before you know it, your basket is full.
Itâs only when youâre standing in line to pay that it truly hits you.
What the hell are you doing?
Your grip tightens around the handle of the basket, heart hammering in your chest. You stare at the pile of clothesâ clothes for Mingyuâ and feel a wave of unease creep up your spine. This is not normal. This is not something you do.
You were supposed to get one thing. One. Now youâre standing here like some deranged personal shopper, about to spend money on a man you claim to tolerate at best.
No. Absolutely not.
You step out of the line, return to the racks, and unceremoniously dump the basketâs contents back where they belong. One by one, you rid yourself of every last piece until thereâs nothing left.
Your heart is still racing by the time you exit the store. You need a spa day. Desperately.
âž S01E08: THE ONE WITH THE GAME.Â
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â
Mingyu stares from across the field, frozen in place as his teammates jog past him. The pregame warmups blur into the background because there you are, sitting in the stands. Willingly.
It shouldnât be a big deal, shouldnât mean anything, but it does. Because in all the years heâs known you, youâve never voluntarily attended one of his games. Not without some level of coercion. Not without at least thirty minutes of complaining.
And yet, here you are.
Unfortunately, you also stick out like a sore thumb.
He sees you draped in obnoxiously bright colors, layered in mismatched school merch like someone who got dressed in the darkâ or someone trying too hard to look like they belong. The cap, the oversized hoodie, the scarf, all of it is excessive.
The worst part? It works.
Because even from across the field, even as his teammates stretch and the crowd chatters, Mingyu sees you. And now he canât unsee you.
He ignores the cheerleaders calling his name. Ignores the people waving at him, the fans holding up banners with his number. Ignores the way his coach is probably going to yell at him later for getting distracted before the game.
Instead, he heads straight for you.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â he demands, stopping just short of the stands.
You lower your phone, where youâd clearly been snapping photos, and peer down at him like heâs the one acting weird. âYour mom asked me to take photos of you,â you reply, voice maddeningly nonchalant. âDonât lose.â
Mingyu scoffs. âDonât tell me what to do.â Then, a beat later, he petulantly adds, âAlso, I never lose.â
You roll your eyes, already angling your phone for another shot, but Mingyu doesnât move just yet. The fact remains; youâre here, looking infuriatingly good, and heâs going to spend the next 90 minutes fighting for his life. He canât decide if thatâs a good or bad thing.Â
Either way, he knows one thing for sure: He really, really canât afford to lose.
But he does.
Itâs a hard-fought game, and Mingyu plays like a man possessed. He dives for impossible saves, yells orders at his defenders, and shuts down shot after shot. The crowd roars every time he denies the other team, and for most of the match, it looks like his team might just scrape by with a win.
Then, in the final minutes, everything falls apart.
A miscalculated pass. A stolen ball. A breakaway that happens too fast.
Mingyu sees it unfold in real-time, feels the moment slip through his fingers before it even happens. He charges forward, determined to cut off the angle, to make himself big, to stop the shot. But the ball soars past him, hitting the back of the net with a deafening thud.
The stadium erupts. The other team celebrates. And Mingyu, chest heaving, fists clenched, can only stare as the scoreboard confirms it.
A one-point lead. Game over.
He barely hears the whistle. Barely registers his teammates patting his back, muttering things like You did great and Weâll get them next time. None of it matters. Because he lost. Because he let that shot in.Â
Because somewhere in the stands, you saw him fail.
He drags his gloves off, jaw tight, shoulders tense. He doesnât want to look up. Doesnât want to see if youâre still watching.Â
Against his better judgment, his gaze lifts toward the stands anyway.
There you are, camera in hand, expression unreadable. Of all his losses that day, that was the one that inexplicably ticked him off the most. The fact that you werenât smiling, werenât frowning. You were just⊠watching. Heâs never been able to read your mind, but he despises that inability the most today.Â
Mingyu exhales sharply, looks away, and storms off the field.
He doesnât expect you to wait for him outside the locker room. Youâre there anyway when he steps out, your arms crossed and your lips pursed. He doesnât slow down, doesnât acknowledge you beyond the look he shoots your way; you have to take large steps in your ridiculous heels just to keep up with his pace. He feels like a hurricaneâ one thatâs about to sweep through your stoicism, about to leave significant collateral damage.Â
âCome on, then,â he mutters, shoving his duffel strap higher onto his shoulder. âTell me just how shitty I am.â
âExcuse me?â
He lets out a humorless laugh, shaking his head. âYou must be dying to rub it in my face. Go ahead. Get it over with.â
You frown. âWhat the hell is your problem?â
That sets him off.
âMy problem?â he snaps, finally stopping in his tracks to glare at you properly. You follow suit, and it amuses him for a fraction of a secondâ just how easily he towers over you. âI just lost a game, in case you missed that part while taking your stupid pictures.â
You scoff, fully displeased now. âAre you serious? You think I came here just to laugh at you?âÂ
âWouldnât be the first time.â His voice is sharp, low. âYouâve never had a problem making fun of me before.â
Your jaw clenches.Â
âNo need to make me your punching bag, Kim.â In turnâ your tone is piercing, almost hurt. âI came here to comfort you. Iâm not the fucking devil you make me out to be.â
The words hit harder than they should.
The weight of the loss still clings to him, frustration simmering beneath his skin. His hands are still balled into fists, his shoulders locked up so tight they ache. But the way you say it, the unexpected offense in your voice, makes something in him falter.
He rubs a hand over his face. The hurricane in him quiets, runs out of rain. âYeah.â His voice is quieter now. âSorry.â
You roll your eyes. Really, you have every right to give him more shit; he knows he deserves it. âYou I should just leave you here to wallow.â You make a grand show of turning awayâ really, you have every right to give him more shit; he knows he deserves it.Â
But then you glance at him over your shoulder. âSince Iâm feeling benevolent, Iâll treat you to a meal.â
Mingyu stares at you like youâve lost your mind. âYou?â He gestures vaguely between the two of you. âTreating me? Are you dying?â
âMaybe,â you deadpan. âFrom secondhand embarrassment.â
He lets out a sharp exhale, something between a huff and a chuckle. âWow. Real comforting.â
You shrug. âI never said I was good at comfort,â you snipe, and he knows that much is true.
Somehow, thatâs how he finds himself behind the wheel of his car, hands gripping the steering wheel. Heâs still mildly dazed as he glances over at you in his passenger seat. He doesnât remember actually agreeing to this. He doesnât remember deciding to take you to his favorite restaurant. And yet here you are, scrolling through your phone like this is the most normal thing in the world.
For the first five minutes, the drive is quiet. Mingyu fiddles with the AC, rolls his shoulders, frowns at the road ahead. But the longer you sit there, humming under your breath, mindlessly playing with the hem of your sleeve, the more it starts to sink in.
This is the first time the two of you have willingly shared a meal together.
Not because of mutual friends. Not because of a group project or an event neither of you could get out of. Not because your parents forced you into it.
Just⊠because.
Itâs the strangest possible way for Mingyu to have possibly ended the night.Â
He spares you another glance as he pulls into the parking lot. âYou better not complain about the food,â he warns, âor Iâm leaving you here.â
Of course, that gives you the leeway to complain, bitching about things like sanitation and standards for cuisine. He tunes it out like he often does, instead trying to figure out how the hell he ended up here.Â
Here, sitting across from you in a restaurant that he usually only visits with his teammates. It felt like a fever dream to approach the host stand and ask for a table for two; his voice had come out a little too uncertain, like he couldnât quite believe the words himself.
The host had seated you without question, handing you both menus before disappearing, leaving Mingyu to sit there and take in the absurdity of the situation. You, sitting across from him, elbows on the table, flipping through the menu like this is any other meal with any other person.
His mind flickers, unbidden, to a thought: Are you like this on all dates?
Then, he scowls. No. This is not a date.
âAlright, what am I getting?â you ask, still scanning the menu. âYouâre the one who dragged me here, might as well give me a solid recommendation.â
Mingyu raises a brow. âI dragged you here? You were the one who insisted on treating me.â
âTomato, tomahto.â You shoot him a sharp glare, as if his insolence was something that caused offense. âJust tell me whatâs good.â
He studies you for a second like heâs waiting for the punchline. When you just blink back expectantly, he sighs, resigning himself to whatever surreal alternate reality this is. âGet the beef stew,â he finally says. âAnd the garlic rice. Youâll thank me later.â
To his surprise, you actually listen. He half-expected you to ignore him just to be difficult.
The conversation that follows is easy in a way that confuses him. You bicker, naturally, but itâs mostly over trivial thingsâ your tragic lack of appreciation for his taste in sports documentaries, the way he insists that pineapple on pizza is a crime against humanity. Nothing about the game, nothing about his loss, nothing about the way frustration still lingers in the tightness of his jaw.
Instead, you seem content commenting on the restaurant itself, mentioning how you like the warm lighting, how the playlist is surprisingly good. And then thereâs the way you eat. Without rush, without any of the absentmindedness he sometimes sees when youâre multitasking with your phone. You actually appreciate the food, nodding approvingly after each bite like youâre mentally scoring it.
Somewhere between your satisfied hums and the way you swipe an extra spoonful of his rice when you think heâs not looking, Mingyu realizes something strange: Youâre actually enjoying this.
And, maybe, so is he.
Itâs disorienting, how quickly the irritation from earlier has faded.
He tries to remind himself of the reasons youâre infuriating. That youâre picky about things that donât matter, that you have a bad habit of being late, that you roll your eyes too much, thatâ
But every thought is immediately met with another. That you actually care about things enough to be picky. That you only run late when youâve lost track of time doing something you love. That you roll your eyes, sure, but you also laugh, also banter, also make things more interesting.
Mingyu stares at you for a moment, something warm settling into his chest.
By the end of the dinner, heâs forgotten why he was so upset in the first place.
âž S01E09: THE ONE WITH THE HIGH SCHOOL REUNION.Â
The party is already in full swing by the time you and Mingyu arrive.Â
Itâs the usual reunion sceneâ too many people packed into a house slightly too small for the occasion, music loud enough to drown out the conversations but not enough to stop them altogether, and a lingering smell of something fried mixed with overpriced cologne.
Youâre still annoyed. Annoyed because Mingyu had, with all the grace of a wrecking ball, insulted your outfit on the drive here. Something about how your skirt was too short and your heels were impractical for a house party. As if he was some kind of fashion authority.
âThanks for the unsolicited advice, asswipe,â you had snapped back, crossing your arms and staring out the window. He only scoffed in response, muttering something about not wanting to be responsible if you tripped and broke your ankle.
Now, hours later, youâre still disgruntled about it. You refuse to think about how, deep down, it had been less about disapproval and more about the way his gaze had lingered.Â
That would be a problem for another time. Maybe never.
You make your way to the kitchen, eyeing the assortment of drinks lined up on the counter. A bottle of something expensive-looking catches your attention. You grab it, twisting the cap with determination, but it refuses to budge. You try again, gripping it tighter, but all you manage is an embarrassing squeak of effort.
âSeriously?â you mutter under your breath, frustration bubbling up.
Before you can attempt another futile try, a large hand appears in your periphery. The bottle is plucked effortlessly from your grip. In one swift motion, Mingyu twists the cap open like it was nothing. No struggle, no hesitation, no unnecessary flexing. Just pure efficiency.
He doesnât even smirk. Doesnât gloat or tease you like you expect him to. He just hands the bottle back to you before turning away as if it had never happened.
You blink. Then blink again.
The room suddenly feels a little warmer. Must be the alcohol in the air. Or the heater. Orâ
Oh, God.
With absolute horror, you realize Mingyu was kind of hot for that.
You take a generous swig from the bottle, hoping it burns away whatever ridiculous thought just took root in your brain. Unfortunately, the warmth spreading through you has absolutely nothing to do with the alcohol.
You take another sip, then another, letting the burn of the drink ground you. Itâs fine. Itâs whatever. Youâll drink and have fun and not think about the way Mingyuâs hand had so easily dwarfed yours when he took the bottle from you.
You wander back toward the living room, where clusters of people are chatting, laughing, reliving the glory days. Just as you settle into the buzz of the atmosphere, you catch Mingyuâs name being thrown around in a conversation nearby. You donât mean to eavesdropâ okay, maybe you do a littleâ but something about the way his voice carries through the room makes you pause.
âNot drinking tonight?â You hear someone ask him.
âNah,â Mingyu replies, nonchalant. âIâm her designated driver.â
Your stomach does a weird little flip.
Well, then.
If thatâs the case, if Mingyuâs already consigned himself to the role of responsibility, then thereâs absolutely no reason for you to hold back.
You tilt your head back, take another sip. Then another.
A warmth spreads through your limbs, but whether itâs from the alcohol or the fact that you now have free rein to drink without consequence, youâre not sure. You tell yourself itâs definitely the alcohol, though. Because the alternativeâ the thought that it has anything to do with Mingyuâ just isnât an option. Not tonight.
The alcohol has settled comfortably in your veins by the time the dancing starts. The living room has been cleared to make space, furniture pushed against the walls. Now the music pulses louder, the bass vibrating through the floor.Â
Youâre laughing with old friends, moving with the rhythm, when you feel a sharp tug at the hem of your skirt.
You whirl around, already prepared to snap at whoever dared, only to come face-to-face with Mingyu. Heâs standing there, a frown on his face. He leans in slightly, voice low but clear over the music. âI told you it was too short.â
You blink at him, thrown off by the way his fingers had just been on you, tugging fabric downward like it was some sort of personal mission. Something fizzes beneath your skin, something that has nothing to do with the alcohol and everything to do with the fact that Mingyuâ annoying, overbearing Kim Mingyuâ is looking at you like that.
Itâd been such a boyfriend move. You force yourself not to dwell on it.Â
You donât know what compels you, but maybe youâre just tipsy enough. Maybe you want to make him suffer.Â
You suddenly reach out, looping your arms around Mingyuâs neck. His whole body goes stiff, his eyes widening in immediate suspicion.
âDance with me,â you say, tilting your head, voice syrupy with tipsiness and mischief.
Mingyu shakes his head, already taking a step back. âAbsolutely not.â
You grin and pull him right back in. âYou sure? âCause I know things, Kim. Lots of things.â
âAre you blackmailing me?â he squeaks.Â
You sway closer, pretending to consider it. âItâs more of a⊠strategic incentive.â
A battle wars in his eyes. But then, with a low âtchâ and a mutter of âYouâre insufferable,â Mingyu lets your grip pull him in.Â
The moment is bizarre.Â
His hands find their placeâ one cautiously at your waist, the other hovering near your shoulder like heâs afraid to touch too much. You move to the beat, feeling the heat of him through his shirt, the solid press of his frame against yours.Â
Itâs ridiculous. Itâs stupid.
Itâs also the best decision youâve made all night.
The song shifts into something heavier, the bass thrumming through your chest, the kind of music meant for bad decisions and blurred memories. Mingyu hasnât bolted yet, which is a miracle in itself. Heâs actually keeping up with you, moving in sync, matching your rhythm with ease. Itâs unexpected, the way he doesnât seem like he hates this, like heâs maybeâ God forbidâ having fun.
You scoff at the thought, but the amusement lingers. The insults come easy, natural, tossed between the two of you like a ball neither wants to drop.
âYou dance like an old man,â you tease, voice warm with liquor.
âAnd you dance like youâre trying to summon a demon,â he shoots back.
You laugh, tilting your head up to meet his eyes. Maybe itâs the dim lighting or maybe itâs the alcohol, but Mingyuâs gaze doesnât seem as sharp as it usually does. His grip on your waist is firm but not forceful, like heâs not entirely opposed to being here, to this, to you.
Itâs too easy to forget that this is Mingyu, that this is the same guy who has made a sport out of getting under your skin. Because right now, heâs just a tall, ridiculously handsome man who happens to be an unfairly good dancer.
The thought sneaks up on you before you can fight it. If he wasnât Mingyu...
The words slip out before you register them. âI wonder what Iâd do if you werenât you.â
Mingyuâs eyebrows raise. âWhat?â His voice is a little rough around the edges, and far too sober.
Shit.Â
You blink rapidly, force a laugh, and shake your head as if you can brush it off. âNothing. Ignore me.â
But the thing isâ you canât ignore it.Â
Because somewhere, in the back of your mind, youâre already picturing it. A world where Mingyu isnât Mingyu, where heâs just some stranger with sharp eyes and broad shoulders who smells good and dances well, who looks at you like heâs actually seeing you.
A world where you wouldnât have to fight every instinct telling you to lean in.
Eventually, your feet start to protest. Youâre wearing heels that were never meant for this much standing, much less dancing. You havenât even said anything about it, but your expression must be reflecting your discomfort and your frustration. Mingyu sighs like youâve personally ruined his night before crouching down and unlacing his sneakers.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask laughingly as he kicks them off, right there on the fringes of the dance floor.Â
âGiving you my shoes,â he says, like itâs obvious, shoving them toward you. âIâm not carrying you to the car.â
You snort. âYouâd probably drop me anyway.â
âExactly.â He watches as you swap out your heels for his much-too-big sneakers, which make you feel ridiculous but are, admittedly, a godsend.
You donât realize until youâre halfway to the car that Mingyu is walking in only his socks, completely unbothered. You slide into the passenger seat, tipsy and warm and just self-aware enough to realize something terrible is happening.
You are warming up to Mingyu.
It hits you like a truck.
Mingyu, your mortal enemy. Mingyu, who has annoyed you since childhood. Mingyu, who insults your outfits and steals your food and opens your drinks without a second thought.
Your head lolls against the seat as you stare at him in horror, combing through the memories, trying to pinpoint exactly when this started going wrong.
By the time he pulls up in front of your house, youâve made a decision.
You need to stop being too nice to him.
âž S01E10: THE ONE WITH THE TEAM LUNCH.Â
Mingyu is halfway through his second helping of rice when he hears itâ the unmistakable sound of his personal hell approaching.Â
He doesnât even have to look up to know itâs you. The dramatic click of your heels, the way the conversation at the cafeteria table shifts just slightly, the exasperated sigh that escapes Wonwoo before you even arrive.
And then, as expectedâ
âKim.â
Mingyu exhales sharply through his nose. He doesnât know what you want, but if the past few weeks have been anything to go by, itâs nothing good. Ever since the high school reunion, youâve been nothing short of a menace.
He still doesnât know what changed that night, but suddenly, youâve taken it upon yourself to be the most irksome person in his life. There was the time you texted him an obnoxious amount of links to ugly sneakers after heâd lent you his at the party. The time you âaccidentallyâ swapped his shampoo for some floral-scented one that lingered in his hair for days. The time you sent him a video of him losing his last match, edited with clown music in the background.
He finally looks up from his food, expression already set in a scowl. Youâre standing at the edge of their table, arms crossed, a shit-eating grin plastered on your face. Seungcheol, Vernon, and Wonwoo all look between the two of you like theyâre watching a horror movie unfold in real-time.
âWhat do you want?â Mingyu asks, voice flat.
You feign offense, placing a hand over your chest. âCanât I just stop by to say hello?â
âNo.â
Vernon snorts, covering his mouth with his hand. Seungcheol nudges him under the table, but heâs grinning, too.
âYou wound me, Kim.â You pull out the chair beside him and sit down like you belong there. âBut fine, I do need something.â
Mingyu rolls his eyes, shoving another bite of food into his mouth before jerking his chin at you. âThen spit it out already.â
âI need a favor.â
Mingyu groans. âNo. Absolutely not.â
âYou donât even know what it is yet!â
âI donât need to know what it is.â He glares at you. âItâs a no.â
Wonwoo sighs, setting his chopsticks down. âJust let her talk, Mingyu. Weâd like to finish our meal in peace.â
Mingyu gestures wildly. âI would like to finish my meal in peace!â
You pat his shoulder condescendingly. âThis is more important than your third bowl of rice.â
He swats your hand away. âItâs my second bowlââ
âNot the point,â you cut in. âListen, I just needââ
Mingyu groans again, slumping back in his chair, already regretting every choice that led to this moment. He knows, deep in his soul, that whatever youâre about to ask is going to be something ridiculous.
And yet, for some godforsaken reason, he doesnât immediately tell you to leave.
âI need help moving some furniture.â
Mingyu blinks. âThatâs it?â
âYes, thatâs it,â you deadpan. âAre you going to help or not?â
He stares at you. Itâs one of those things thatâd be a given for anybody else. Mingyu was the type of friend who would drive someone to the airport, would help someone move, would cook if someone was sick. Those were things heâd do for someone he was friends withâ something the two of you were decisively not.
âAnd why, exactly, would I do that?â he challenges.Â
âBecause you owe me?â
He lets out a laugh. âI owe you?â
âYes, forââ you flounder for a reason, ââfor existing, Kim Mingyu. Do you know how exhausting that is?â
Unconvincing to a fault. Mingyu is half-tempted to call you out for being a spoiled brat, but heâs not interested in escalating this argument in front of his team.Â
âNot my problem,â he settles on saying.Â
âYouâre the fucking worst.â
âAnd yet, here you are.â
The two of you go back and forth like that, the jabs mostly inoffensive and subjective. Mingyu is vaguely aware of Seungcheol pinching his nose like heâs nursing a , Vernon sipping his drink as if watching a spectacle, and Wonwoo calmly chewing his food, unfazed.
Finally, Seungcheol decides heâs had enough.Â
âBoth of you,â he interjects, voice firm. âCan you stop fighting for five minutes?â
To Mingyuâs shock, you actually fall silent. You roll your eyes but begrudgingly listen, arms still tightly crossed.Â
Mingyu scoffs. âOh, so you can listen to people,â he mutters. âDidnât know you were capable of being nice.â
Your head snaps toward him. âI am capable of being nice. Just not to you.â
âRight, because youâre a little devil sent from hell just to ruin my life.â
âYour life was already in shambles before I showed up. Donât blame me.â
The bickering immediately picks back up, much to the dismay of Mingyuâs teammates. Vernon exhales dramatically. âMamma mia,â he sing-songs jokingly to Wonwoo, âhere we go again.âÂ
You suddenly reach out, snatch a piece of Mingyuâs pork right off his plate, and pop it into your mouth as you ready to leave. His jaw drops; heâs stolen your food a fair amount, but youâve never done it to him. âHeyââ
Youâre already turning on your heel and walking away, not sparing him another glance. âThanks for absolutely nothing,â you chirp.
Mingyu watches, speechless at the petulant display.
âDid sheââ he starts, then stops. His grip tightens around his chopsticks. None of his teammates push, all too wary of the dark look that passes over his expression. Seungcheol promptly tries to change the topic.Â
Mingyu finishes his meal in a foul mood, stabbing at his food with unnecessary force.
He doesnât understand why youâve gotten so absurd with him lately. Every interaction with you feels like a new test of patience, like one day you just woke up and decided to amp up all the ways you could make him miserable. He had almost started to believe, for one fleeting second, that maybe, maybe you werenât that bad.
But no. The night at the reunion was just a flukeâ when youâd danced together and heâd privately thought it was something he could get used to.
You were always meant to be his worst nightmare, and he resolves that heâs not waking up any time soon.Â
âž S01E11: THE ONE WITH THE REASON.Â
The joint family meal is as lively as ever, voices overlapping in conversation, laughter ringing between bites of food. You, as always, have taken it upon yourself to make Mingyuâs life difficult today.
âWow, even you managed to show up on time for once,â you remark as he slides into the seat across from you. âDid hell freeze over?â
Mingyu shoots you a deadpan look, clearly not in the mood for your antics. âNot today, Satan.â
You grin, but thereâs something off about him. He doesnât come back with anything more biting, doesnât engage in the usual back-and-forth. His shoulders are tense, and thereâs a blankness to his gaze that makes you wonder.
Your mother places a generous serving of food onto your plate, and you idly push some rice around with your chopsticks, gaze flickering toward him again. âWhat, got scolded for being too slow on the field?â
Mingyu finally looks at you properly. His frustration is clear. âCan you not today?â His voice is quieter than you expect, worn at the edges. âI had a shitty day at training, and I really donât have the energy for you right now.â
The words catch you off guard. You could leave it at that, let him have his peace for once. A part of youâ one you stubbornly refuse to acknowledgeâ almost wants to ask why, wants to pry into whatâs bothering him and offer something resembling comfort.
Instead, you shove that impulse down. Whatever this is, whatever softening that night at the reunion did to you, needs to be stomped out immediately.Â
So you double down.
You spear a piece of your meat a little too forcefully. âRight, because Iâm the problem here. You always find a way to suck at things all on your own.â
Mingyuâs expression shutters. For the first time everâ in all of your interactions with himâ you feel something unpleasant coil in your stomach. He shakes his head and then goes back to eating without another word.
Thereâs a small, screeching voice in the back of your head that wants to demand an explanation. Not for Mingyuâs dismal mood, no, but for that flicker of disappointment thatâd passed his face when he shook his head.Â
Why would he be disappointed over your cruelty? Why would he expect anything else from you?Â
The rest of the meal passes without his usual jabs in return, and you tell yourself thatâs a victory. It feels like anything but.
As dessert is doled out, your mother calls out to the pair of you. âYou two, go somewhere else for a while. The adults need to discuss business.â
You open your mouth to protest. Youâre both adults already; surely you and Mingyu could sit in, rather than be forced into yet another awkward situation neither of you can run from.
But Mingyu is already pushing his chair back with a grumbled âfine.â The look your mother shoots you indicates that this is not about to be up for debate. You follow Mingyu out, both of you stepping into the cool evening air.Â
The restaurantâs outdoor area has an old playgroundâ rusting swing sets, a chipped slide, and monkey bars that have seen better days. You walk ahead and hop onto a swing, the chains creaking slightly as you push off the ground.
Mingyu stands nearby, watching you for a moment. âDidnât take you for the type to get sentimental,â he snorts, and that slight edge in his tone gives you just a bit of hope that he doesnât completely despise you.Â
âIâm not. I just need somewhere to sit thatâs far away from you,â you say matter-of-factly.Â
He huffs but doesnât argue. Instead, he heads towards the monkey bars. He grips one, testing his weight against the metal. âRemember when you got stuck on these in second grade?â he asks as he free-hangs.Â
âI wasnât stuck,â you sniffle in protest. âI was strategizing.â
Mingyu lets out a bark of laughter. âStrategizing how to fall on your ass?â
You drag the tip of your shoe against the dirt, narrowing your eyes. âIf I recall correctly, you werenât any help. You just laughed at me until my dad had to come pull me down.â
âHey, in my defense, it was funny.â He swings himself onto the lowest bar, legs dangling. âYou had snot running down your face and everything.â
You lunge half-heartedly to kick at his shin, but he pulls his leg away just in time. Thereâs a beat of silence, the air filled with the distant chatter of your families inside. Itâs strange, this reminiscing. The usual bite to your exchanges is still there, but itâs smooth around the edges, tinged with something dangerously close to fondness.
Mingyu exhales, gaze fixed on some nondescript point in the distance. You think heâs gearing up for his next jab about something. Probably your embarrassing high school days, or that one summer vacation you hate talking about. InsteadâÂ
âWhy arenât we friends?â he asks. His voice is quiet, thoughtful.Â
You blink. The question is so absurd it momentarily stuns you. âWhat?â
âI mean,â he shifts, âweâve known each other our whole lives. Shouldnât weâ I donât knowâ be close?â
If you didnât know any better, youâd think he was teasing. But the question doesnât sound rhetorical, and he seems almost wistful.Â
You hate it.Â
You hate him.Â
Your chest tightens, unbidden memories surfacing. There were plenty of reasons. The bickering, the competition. But at the core of it, there was one moment. One day that cemented everything in place, whether Mingyu realized it or not.
You were seven. It was summer, the sun blazing high as the neighborhood kids gathered for a game of soccer. Everyone had been split into teams, and you had waited, jittery with anticipation, as Mingyuâ the fastest, the strongest, the boy everyone wanted to followâ started picking players.Â
One by one, he called out names, grinning as kids ran to his side. You had stood there, heart pounding, willing him to say your name next. You were family friends! Sure, you were a girl, but surely Mingyu could see how fast and strong you were, too.Â
In the end, Mingyu had picked everyone but you. When there was no one left, you had been shuffled onto the other team by default. You still remembered the sting of it. The two of you were already acquainted, and yet he hadnât even seen you as an option.Â
It was stupid. It was petty. And yet, that wound had never quite healed. Everything that came after was just a domino effect after that.Â
If you were a little meaner to Mingyu than you had to be, if you were much more curt and snappy with him than you were with anyone else? It all came back to that. That moment where Mingyu hadnât seen youâ worse.Â
He had pretended not to.Â
You swallow, dragging yourself back to the present. Mingyu is watching you expectantly, waiting for an answer.
âBecause you didnât pick me,â you say at last, the words slipping out before you can stop them. âThat one time.âÂ
Mingyuâs brows knit together. âWhat?â he asks, and it feels like a punch in the gut.Â
The look of confusion on Mingyuâs faceâ you donât know if itâs a curse or a blessing. He doesnât remember. Of course he doesnât. Why would he?Â
But you do. You remember, and you hold on to it for the lack of a better thing to hold on to.Â
Hating Mingyu is easy. Seeing him in any other light takes work, and youâre tired of trying to figure that out.Â
Mingyu opens his mouth. For a second, it looks like he might protest. His brows pull together, his lips part, and thereâs something foreign in his expressionâ something that makes your stomach twist uncomfortably. But before he can say anything, you hear your mother beckoning for you from the restaurant.Â
You stand up and brush nonexistent dust off your clothes. âWell, thatâs my cue,â you say airily, praying to any higher power at all that Mingyu wonât call out the way your voice shakes. Just a little bit.Â
Instead, he remains by the monkey bars, watching you with an impassive look on his face. You can feel the weight of his stare even as you turn away.Â
You hesitate for half a second before glancing back at him. âWeâre probably better off this way,â you say, because you always have to have the last word.Â
His grip tightens around the swingâs chains, knuckles going white. Thereâs a pause.Â
Then, finally, he nods. A jerky, forced thing.
âYeah,â he says, voice strangely even. âProbably.â
You donât acknowledge the way the word sits heavy between you, donât let yourself linger on the way it sounds more like reluctant acceptance than agreement. Instead, you pretend not to hear it at all, turning on your heel and walking back toward the restaurant.Â
Hating Mingyu is easy. Itâs all youâre good for. As you leave him standing alone, you hope it feels a little bit like that day in your childhoodâ when youâd been the name he hadnât called.Â
âž S01E12: THE ONE WITH THE SMILE.Â
Mingyu doesnât get it.
Heâs been off his game for days.Â
Itâs not an injury. Itâs not exhaustion. Heâs been training the same way, eating the same meals, sleeping the same hours. And yet his shots donât land the same. His passes are sloppy. He misses easy blocks he could have made blindfolded.
It pisses him off.
The ball soars past him yet again, hitting the back of the net with a dull thud. Vernon cheers and Wonwoo does a victory lap. Mingyu just stands there, hands on his hips, jaw locked tight. His fingers twitch at his sides, itching to punch the goalpost out of sheer frustration.
Seungcheol, ever the captain, jogs over. âThatâs enough,â he barks, voice edged with authority.Â
Mingyu bites the inside of his cheek. He knows whatâs coming for him, and yet he still tries to protest. âOne more round.â
âNo. Youâre done.â Seungcheolâs tone leaves no room for argument. âGo home. Figure out whateverâs got you playing like shit and come back when your headâs on straight.â
Mingyu has to bite back the retort that heâs not playing like shit, that he does have his head on straight. The numbers donât lie. Thereâs no talking his way out of this one. With a sharp exhale, he yanks off his gloves and stalks off the field, muttering curses under his breath.
As he grabs his bag and heads toward the exit, he runs through every possible reason for his sudden slump.Â
Training? No. Diet? No. Stress? Maybe, but itâs never affected him like this before.
You?
Youâve been distant ever since that night at the playground. The constant quips, the snarky remarks, the way you always seemed to find a reason to pester himâ itâs all dialed down to nearly nothing.Â
It should be a relief. He should be thriving with all this newfound peace and quiet.
Instead, heâs a goddamn mess.Â
Mingyu kicks a stray rock on the pavement as he walks to his car. He doesnât get it. He doesnât get you. And worse, he doesnât get why it bothers him so damn much.
Itâs entirely by accident, how he ends up spotting you. Maybe itâs some form of twisted divine intervention, some cruel twist of fate.Â
Heâs at a red light, drumming his fingers against the steering wheel, when he happens to glance to the side. And there you are, ripped right out of his scrambled brain, standing outside a cafĂ© with a group of friends.
Youâre wearing one of those preppy outfits he always mocks you for, all pristine pleats and crisp collars. Itâs the kind of thing heâd usually say makes you look like you stepped straight out of some rich kid catalog. He tucks away the insult in his mind, filed for the next time you annoy him.
But thenâ
Youâre laughing. Your head tilts back; your eyes crinkle at the corners. The street lights catch on the soft highlights in your hair, the gentle slope of your nose, the flush on your cheeks from whatever ridiculous joke was just told.Â
You look light. At ease. So effortlessly happy.
Mingyu watches, unseen, his grip tightening on the steering wheel.
Heâs seen you smirk, seen you grin in that infuriating, self-satisfied way when you get under his skin. Heâs seen you scoff, roll your eyes, pout. But he doesnât think heâs ever seen you smile like that in front of him.
And whatâs worseâ
Why does he want it?
He presses on the gas pedal once the light turns green. By the time he pulls into his parking lot, his mind is still spinning. He kills the engine but doesnât move, just sits there, glaring at the wall in front of him.
Then, out of the corner of his eye, he sees it. A stray hair tie, wedged between the seats. One of yours.
He stares at it, his brain stalling. The last time you sat in his passenger seat⊠when was that? His mind scrambles, trying to pinpoint the moment, but he comes up empty. The fact that he doesnât know unsettles him more than it should.
Something else comes, too. A stupid, fleeting burst of happiness. An excuse to message you, to return it, to say something anything just to get you talking to him again.
The realization slams into him all at once.
His frustration. His inability to focus. The way your absence has been gnawing at him. The way your happiness without him made his chest ache.
Mingyu slumps forward in his seat, his forehead resting against his steering wheel.Â
Not even the screeching sound of his horn is able to drag him out of the horrific realization that heâs off his game because he likes you.
He likes you, the one person in the world he shouldnât. The one person in the world he canât have.Â
âFuuuck,â he grouses, banging his head on the steering wheel so that the beeps come in sporadic bursts. âFuck, fuck, fuck!â
Heâs fucked.Â
âž S01E13: THE ONE WITH THE PLANNING.Â
You don't know when it startedâ this weird, drawn-out awkwardness with Mingyu.
Itâs not like youâve stopped arguing. You're still giving him shit for his stupid hair, his dumb socks, his loud chewing habits. But lately, heâs... off. Slower to snap back. Not quite meeting your eyes.Â
Worst of all? Heâs barely even tried to make fun of your outfit today.
Itâs part of the Mingyu playbook. Some wisecrack about your clothes, some comment about how you should be running hell in Satanâs place. If heâs feeling particularly inventive, he even deigns to bring your course into it.Â
Today, though, itâs all painfully polite. Curt answers and absentminded nods. You know youâve frozen him out since that night on the playground, but you didnât expect to get the same chill in return.Â
âSo what Iâm hearing is,â you say, tapping something into your phone, âyouâre fine with anywhere as long as thereâs pasta. Are you five?â
Mingyu squints at you like he's struggling to come up with a comeback. He opens his mouth. Closes it. Shrugs.
You narrow your eyes at him. âWow. Riveting. Have you always been this dull or did I finally break you?â
He laughs, but there's no real bite to it. âIâm just being agreeable,â he offers. Even the snark in that is half-hearted, hesitant. âYou should try it some time.â
âOh, don't get all mature on me now,â you scoff, scrolling through the list of local restaurants your parents emailed. âGod forbid you grow a personality overnight and forget how to argue.â
Mingyu mutters something under his breath that sounds suspiciously like âstill better than yours.â He seems distracted, for the lack of a better term. The two of you have the unfortunate task of deciding on the next joint family mealâs venue, and heâs been uncharacteristically civil throughout it all.
Somehow, it unnerves you more than when heâs being an insufferable asshole.Â
âSeriously, are you okay?â you press, a touch of concern making its way into your tone. âYou're kinda giving... robot with a mild software glitch."
âYeah, âm fine,â he grumbles. âJust tired."
âTired or scared Iâll beat you in the battle of wits today?â
âNot scared. Letting you have the spotlight for once.â
âTouching. Very generous.â You know a lost battle when you see one, so you scroll down the list again before turning your phone so he can see it. âOkay, vote: Overpriced fusion place with truffle everything or rustic hipster cafĂ© that serves lattes with art so complicated it should be in a museum?â
Mingyu squints. âThe second one has better lighting.â
â... Lighting?â
He raises his shoulders in a shrug. âFor your parentsâ photos. You know how your mom gets.â
Something twists in your stomach.Â
The fact that Mingyu is considering your motherâs happiness, that he knows how she is and heâs not complainingâ instead accommodating?Â
You feel almost grateful, almost admiring, but you shake it off with a dramatic sigh. âFine. Hipster cafĂ© it is. Letâs go, then.â
âIâm literally only here because you begged me to come.â
âYeah, but I begged louder. So I win.â
There it isâ the ghost of a smile tugging at the corner of his lips. Not quite a comeback. But closer.
It doesnât quite explain why his ears have turned pink, but thatâs a can of worms you decide youâre not ready to open up just yet. Instead, the two of you go to scope the venue, lest your parents call you out for not fulfilling your duty-bound obligation to this godforsaken tradition.Â
The café is aggressively quaint. All pastel walls and potted plants and menus printed in cursive. A waitress greets you at the door with a bright smile and a clipboard in hand.
âTable for two?â
âYeah,â Mingyu says.
She glances between the two of you, then beams. âPerfect! You're just in time for our coupleâs lunch special. It comes with two entrees, a shared appetizer, and dessert for only half the price.â
For a moment, you wish you could see yourself through the waitressâ eyes. You canât imagine a single thing that might give off the impression that you and Mingyu were a couple. Thereâs too much space between the two of you, and the look you two share is enough for you to gleam that heâs equally flabbergasted.Â
He turns to look back to the unassuming waitress. âOh, weâre notââ
The worldâs most brilliant idea strikes you then. You act on it before you can develop a semblance of shame.
âWe'll take it,â you cut in smoothly, linking your arm through Mingyuâs before he can ruin it. You smile sweetly at the waitress, completely ignoring the way Mingyu goes rigid beside you.
As youâre led to a corner table by the window, he leans down to frantically whisper, âWhat the hell was that?â
âA good deal,â you respond cheerfully. âUnless you want to pay full price just to protect your ego.â
He glares. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âYou knew that when you got in the car.â
The waitress sets down your menus and tells you sheâll be back shortly for your order. Mingyu slumps in his seat, looking very much like youâve told him he can never play soccer ever again.Â
âCheer up,â you say, nudging his shin under the table. âIf you play your cards right, I might even feed you.â
His eyes narrow. "You wouldnât dare."
Ah, but you would dare. The moment the pasta arrives, youâre already grinning. You twirl the noodles with your fork; he tries to communicate with his gaze that he wants you dead.Â
âSay ahhh, loverboy,â you sing-song.Â
âAbsolutely not.â
You kick him again. He hisses mid-sip of water. âJust pretend, Mingyu,â you say through the teeth of your smile. âGod, have you never faked a relationship for free food before?âÂ
âI have not, actually,â he retorts. âFuckinâ cheapskate.âÂ
Begrudgingly, he opens his mouth. He at least seems to know that youâre not about to let up. You shove the fork into his mouth; he retaliates by âfeedingâ you some chicken piccata, though itâs more of him forcing the bite into your mouth even after youâve protested the presence of peas.Â
The next half hour is full of increasingly absurd couple behavior. You fake gasp when he offers you water. He pretends to be offended when you steal his garlic bread. You stage-whisper pet names across the table just loud enough for the waitress to hear, coos of baby and sweetheart in between eye rolls and grimaces.Â
And through it all, there are momentsâ brief, fleetingâ when his eyes linger on yours just a second too long. When his smile is a little too soft. When his hand brushes yours and he doesnât pull away immediately.
You tell yourself itâs all part of the act.
But maybe thatâs not the whole truth.
The meal ends as it should. Mingyu foots the bill, and he does it without complaint. On your way out, the waitress smiles at the two of you like youâre some couple to be revered.Â
Pride sparks like a flint in your chest. You douse it as quickly as you can manage.Â
Outside, the sun is bright and the sidewalk smells like coffee and car exhaust. With your joint scoping done, the two of you walk a little slower than usual. Youâre unsure why youâre not rushing to get back to the car.
âWell,â you say casually, âyou make a convincing boyfriend. Color me shocked.â
Mingyu gives you a flat look. âGlad to know my fake relationship skills impress you.â
âWhat can I say? Low expectations,â you chirp, then jab him lightly with your elbow. âNow that I think about itâ you're pretty single, huh. Why is that, again?â
Itâs a jab that youâve delivered far better in the past. Jokes about him being unable to pull. Remarks of him not knowing the first thing about romance or women.Â
Today, though, it comes out as a query of genuine curiosity. One you typically might throw at someone you wanted to gauge interest in, and my God, how damning was that?
Mingyu doesnât make a big deal out of it. He answers your question with frustrating casualness, toying with his car keys as he drags his feet. âBusy. Not looking. The usual.â
You raise an eyebrow. âLame excuse. Try again.â
âWhat about you?â he counters, the attempt at evasion only driving you a little more crazy. âStill turning down anyone who doesnât meet your god-tier standards?â
You tilt your chin up, mock-offended. âAbsolutely. Only the best for me.â
âYeah? What does that even mean?â
Itâs obvious. You know the answer to this.
âSomeone whoâs funny. Smart. A little annoying but not, like, murder-worthy,â you ramble. âTall, but not weird-tall. Knows how to argue without being a total asshole. Kind to animals. Can cook. Probably has nice hands.â
The words come out easily, too easily. You mean to keep it jokey, casual, but the list tumbles out before you can really filter it. Itâs only when you hear it out loud that it hits you.
You know someone like that.
Your mouth goes dry. A beat passes.
You realize, too late, that you've gone quiet. That the silence between you has shifted. Itâs not awkward, but itâs charged.Â
Mingyu bumps your shoulder with his, snapping you out of your reverie. âThatâs oddly specific,â he taunts. âAnyone I know?â
You scoff and shove him away. âShut up.â
From the corner of your eye, you can see him fighting down a teasing grin. You can feel your pulse thudding in your ears, can feel the heat creeping up the back of your neck.
You donât dare look at him.
You hope Mingyu doesnât know. You hope he doesnât realize you just described someone that sounds suspiciously likeâÂ
âž S01E14: THE ONE WITH THE WORST SEVEN MINUTES OF MINGYUâS LIFE.Â
Mingyu knows better than anyone, just how true the platitude every second counts is.Â
He plays soccer. Of course he knows the value of a ticking clock, of a last-minute save, of seconds that tick by arduously slow.
The clock has always been his enemy. But, today, itâs his friend.
Every second that ticks by moves the hands on the clock. Every movement on the clock will end this game faster.
He had this coming, really. When Ryujin dared him to kiss a girlâ any girlâ in the circle, he had known he was being baited. They all wanted him to choose you, to confirm whatever stupid assumptions theyâd made about your complicated relationship.
Mingyu lived to defy expectations, so he leaned over and pulled Chaeyoung into his lap, and he kissed her like it meant something. Did his eyes briefly flicker open to check if you were watching? Did he feel some sort of sick, perverse triumph when he saw that you looked annoyed?
He should have known that karma would bite him back fast. You had the tendency to do thatâ knowing just how to piss him off right back.
Itâs been two minutes and thirty-five seconds since you stepped into that goddamn pantry with Yugyeom.
âSeven minutes in heaven,â Jinyoung had teased when the bottle landed on you, giving you free rein to choose anyone.
And Mingyu knew immediately that it wouldnât be him.Â
Your high school friend group had jeered and laughed and teased when you reached for Yugyeom. Mingyu was not an inherently violent person, but he wanted so badly, in that moment, to wipe the smug smirk off the other manâs face.
You didnât even look at Mingyu as you slinked away with Yugyeom.Â
Mingyu is nursing a new bottle now.Â
Trying to focus on the game. Trying to ignore the empty spaces in the circle. Someoneâs daring something scandalous, a strip tease of some sortsâ
Youâre wearing his jacket, Mingyu realizes. From the little spat earlier this night when yoâ'd spilled rum down the front of your shirt. Before you could throw a hissy fit, heâd shoved his varsity jacket in your arms and told you to suck it up.
The thought of Yugyeom unbuttoning that piece of clothingâ that one thing on your body that might mark you as Mingyuâs, if it mattered at allâ has the keeper clenching his beer bottle a little tighter.Â
Itâs been three minutes and twelve seconds. Mingyu doesnât know why heâs counting it down, but he also doesnât know how to keep his cool.
His brain keeps supplying him with images of what he might do if he were in Yugyeomâs place.
The realistic answer: Youâd sulk, probably. Find a way to blame him for the situation. The two of you would bicker the entire seven minutes and then come out of the secluded pantry in foul moods. Seven minutes in hell, he would say sarcastically, when asked, and youâd flip him off.Â
Underneath the realistic answer, though, is something thatâs close to a fantasy. His hands resting at your sides, his touch warm over yourâ hisâ jacket. Your fingers entangled in his hair. The way he'd have to lean down, to tilt his head.
Would you taste like all the alcohol youâd drank that night?
Would you taste like everything heâs ever dreamed of?
Mingyu shakes his head and takes a sip of his beer, his fingers trembling around the bottle. Eunwoo is stripping as part of a dare; Mingyu tries to focus on that, and not on the fact that itâs been five minutes and fifty-two seconds.
Jungkook lets out a loud squeal. The sound pierces through the pre-drunk migraine that Mingyu already feels coming on. The soundâ
What would you sound like?
In his arms. Against his mouth. Underneathâ
âFuck,â Mingyu cusses lowly, the word spoken mostly to himself.Â
Heâs drunk. Heâs riled up. And youâre just so pretty tonightâ
âOi, lovebirds!â Jinyoung calls out in the direction of the pantry. âSeven minutes are up!â
Mingyu barely registers the sharp ring of the seven-minute alarm going off, or the jabs that everybody else throws out. His gaze is now fixed on the pantry door, the one he has to fight every urge to approach. Every second that ticks past the required mark has his head spinning with thoughts, with ideas that he would rather not dwell on.
Yugyeom emerges first, that smirk of his still in place. You come out right after, looking unruffled as you smooth out the front of your shirt.
You donât waste a single beat. Your eyes find Mingyuâs face, where heâs poorly concealed just how much more intoxicated he's gotten in your absence.
A corner of your mouth tilts upward in a vicious smile. The action you give him next is so brief, he could have imagined it.Â
You pucker your lips.
A flying kiss.
Mingyu has never wanted you so badly.
âž S01E15: THE ONE WITH THE WORST SEVEN MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE.Â
Seven minutes.
You could do anything in seven minutes.
Say something stupid. Say something brave. Let someone kiss you. Let someone else go.
You step into the pantry and it smells like cinnamon and dust and maybe a little bit of regret. Yugyeomâs behind you, grinning like this is just another game. And maybe to him, it is. A dare. A kiss. A story to laugh about later.
The second the door shuts, the world dulls. Muffled cheers and drunken cackles blur into the walls, and itâs just the two of you in this cramped little time capsule. His hand grazes your arm. Your breath catches, but not for the reason itâs supposed to.
âHey, pretty,â Yugyeom greets, and thereâs some sort of vindication in knowing he actually does think youâre pretty.Â
This was an evening of unepic proportions, of high school friends coming together for a birthday party and bad decisions. In your head, thereâs some small consolation to the fact that thereâs not much light in the pantry.
Just the hint of fluorescence flooding through the door crack, reminding you of a loose circle where Mingyu is seated.Â
The thought of him makes your skin crawl. Itâs bad enough that you donât know how to act around him anymore. But then he went in to make out with Chaeyoung of all fucking peopleâÂ
âLetâs get on with this, Kim,â you tell Yugyeom, trying to sound convincing, sultry.
Your voice wavers just a bit on the surname. Wrong Kim.Â
To give Yugyeom some credit, he laughs softly before leaning in. His lips are warm. Kind. And you think, briefly, that he must be good at this. The kind of guy who gets picked in these games a lot. The kind of guy who smiles and means it.
You wonder if youâll feel anything when he kisses you.
You donât.
Itâs not bad. Itâs just not⊠anything.
You try. You really, really do. Your fingers curl at the front of Yugyeomâs shirt; his own hands dance over your sides. Over the jacket, over Mingyuâs jacket, and you wince because youâre thinking of him, of the way heâd introduced himself to the unfamiliar faces with that winning smile and that nickname of his, the stupid Gyu you never get to call himâÂ
âMmm,â Yugyeom hums against your lips. He pulls back, eyes still closed, a lazy grin on his face. âDid you just say âGyuâ?â
Fuck.
You blink at Yugyeom, your brain slow to catch up. âNo, I didnât,â you sputter.Â
He opens one eye. âYou totally did.â
You could say you said Gyeom. You could simply shut Yugyeom up with a fiercer kiss, maybe a little more action.
But itâs there, out in the open, curling in the space between you two like something dangerous and damagingÂ
The slip wasnât just a slip. It was your heart showing its cards. A royal fucking flush you canât even begin to run from.
Your hand falls to your side. Yugyeom steps back.Â
No annoyance, no dramaticsâ just something soft in his smile that makes it worse. âYou wanna try that again? With the right guyâs name this time?â
You cover your face with your hands. âYugyeom,â you groan, because while you canât bring yourself to try making out again, you can at least say the right name. âPlease donât make fun of me.â
âNever,â he chirps. He shifts to lean on one of the pantryâs low shelves, hands tucked in his hoodie. âSo. Mingyu, huh?â
You donât answer right away.
Because what is there to say? That youâve spent more than half your life wrapped in arguments and almosts and the kind of tension that shouldâve burned out by now but hasnât? That the sound of your name in Mingyuâs mouth makes you want to scream or kiss him or both? That he gave you his stupid jacket and youâre still wearing it like it means something?
âItâs complicated,â you gripe.Â
Yugyeom cackles. âThatâs the most girl-whoâs-in-love thing Iâve ever heard.â
âShut up.â
He doesnât. âYou know he was watching the door like a lovesick puppy, right?â
That shouldnât make your heart flutter. It does anyway. âHe was?â you ask, and you could kick yourself for just how giddy you sound.Â
Itâs as close to a direct confirmation that Yugyeom is going to get. You think that he might be grinning, but itâs not something you can be sure of in the darkness. Itâs something you hear instead, bleeding into his words. âPretty sure he was ready to fight me.âÂ
You sit beside Yugyeom. The shelf creaks. Your hands are cold in your lap, but your face is burning.
âDo you love him?â he asks, and itâs so straightforward you want to laugh.
You donât say a thing. Itâs one of those silence-means-yes moments, one of those things that should go unsaid.Â
The sun is warm, the sky is blue, and youâre in love with Kim Mingyu. Â
Despite how much the fact has simmered underneath your skin, itâs something you canât bring yourself to say out loud. Because itâs not that easy. Because itâs him. Because you know the way he isâ impulsive and stubborn and so good at pretending he doesnât care when really, he cares too much.
And so you donât answer Yugyeom. The two of you kill the remaining minutes in silence; itâs almost like your friend is letting you sit with the truth, the realization.
After a long moment, he leans in to press a chaste, friendly kiss to the top of your head.
âWhatever it is,â he mumbles into your hair, âheâs one lucky bastard.âÂ
You let out a watery laugh. You hadnât even realized you were tearing upâ the sheer fear of the reality overwhelming you.Â
Jinyoungâs voice echoes from outside. âOi, lovebirds! Seven minutes are up!â
âCome on. Gotta act like we had some fun in here,â Yugyeom urges. âYou picked me to make him jealous, right? Letâs make it look like that.âÂ
âI owe you my first born child,â you respond, genuinely grateful despite everything.Â
âHopefully the one youâll have with MingââÂ
âLetâs not go there.âÂ
He messes with your hair. You rumple up his shirt. Itâs all a farce, a show, and Yugyeom is kind enough to play along. He throws you a conspiratorial wink as he steps out, that smirk of his slotting right back on to his barely-swollen lips.Â
You take a deep breath, and then you follow.Â
Itâs almost like a magnet, how your eyes seek out Mingyu. He looks just a little more drunk; a feat, considering the fact youâve been gone for only seven minutes.Â
You canât help it. Your mouth twitches in a fond grin. The way his gaze is burning into you, the way heâs clutching his beer bottle just a little too tightly?Â
That might be what compels you. Itâs a flicker of an action, a ghost of a tease. You throw him a flying kiss, giggling to yourself when his face flushes a shade of red.Â
You have never wanted Mingyu so badly.Â
âž S01E16: THE ONE WITH THE âMISTAKEâ.Â
He doesn't want to be mad.
Truly. Logically. On paperâ whatever. Mingyu knows he started it.Â
He kissed Chaeyoung first. He played the game. He played you. And now here you are, sitting cross-legged on his couch in your usual over-the-top family dinner outfit. Like that one night at the party didnât end with him counting down seconds that felt like drowning.
Youâre humming some song under your breath. Youâre so calm, so nonchalant.Â
Mingyu is not. He stomps and clenches his hands into fists and slams his drawer with more force than necessary.
You glance up from your phone. âDamn,â you say with a low whistler. âDid the closet offend you or something?âÂ
He doesnât answer. Heâs pulling clothes out of his dresser like they all personally insulted him. Button-down, slacks, watch, socks. All too formal for something thatâs supposed to be casual, but tonight everything feels like a performance.
He ducks into his room and dresses quickly. By the time he emerges, youâre already standing by the front door. It shoots a momentary panic through him, the thought of you leaving.
But then youâre quipping, âYou said we had to leave at seven. Itâs 6:55. Just reminding you before you start blaming me for being late.â
âIâm not blaming you,â he grunts, padding across his living room in search of his wallet.Â
He can see you looking skeptical in his peripheral vision. âSure feels like it,â you huff.
âCan you not?â
âCan I not what? Breathe in your general direction?â
Mingyu exhales sharply. He should stop. He should apologize. He should not make this worse.
He does.
âYeah?â His tone drips with derision as he finally shoves his essentials into the pocket of his trousers. âMaybe if you werenât so good at pretending nothing ever touches you, I wouldnât have to.â
You laugh; the sound is incredulous, sharp. Offended?Â
âRight, because clearly youâre the one whoâs been suffering,â you jeer. And then, completely out of the left fieldâ
âI forgot how hard it mustâve been for you, kissing Chaeyoung like your life depended on it.â
Thereâs so much to unpack. The way youâre bringing this whole thing up days after it happened, even after you and Mingyu have just kind of⊠bristled at each other a lot more. Mingyu wanted to think your patience was just a lot thinner than usualâ as was hisâ but he hadnât imagined it would be related to that night. Or to Chaeyoung.Â
It makes his heart, the traitor that it is, practically stop in his chest.Â
He knows where youâre getting at. He knows what this could mean. He just has to make sure, and itâs in the way he tries to keep up with his rage when he snaps, âWhat does that have to doââÂ
âWhy didnât you kiss me?â
And there it is.Â
The question cuts through everything. Your voiceâ loud at first, angryâ is suddenly small. Wounded.
Mingyuâs head spins.Â
You wanted him to kiss you.Â
You wanted him to kiss you.Â
His mouth opens then closes. Your face is incandescent, burning with shame. He knows this about you, knows youâve never been able to deny yourself a thing. Youâre an open book, a heart-on-the-platter type of girl. As badly as he wants to try and figure out all the signs he might have missed, heâs more concerned with the fact that youâre already trying to take it back.
Your hand is on the door handle. Youâre about to make a run for it, Mingyu realizes, and thatâs not something heâs going to let happen.Â
Before you can get too far, his fingers are wrapping around your wrist and tugging you back.
When you look up at him, his expression is contorted into a mix of torment and want. Youâre not looking any better yourself; you look caught between desire and fear, like all the years youâve shared are bearing down on the two of you.Â
You look as crazy as Mingyu feels.Â
âI was waiting,â Mingyu breathes, his eyes wide and wild. âI was waitingââ
âFor what?â you bite out. âWhat were you waiting for?â
His sharp response is softened by the desperation edging his tone. âFor the perfect moment,â he snaps.
Mingyu tugs you into his space. Heâs gentle, still, as he snakes an arm around your waist and pulls you closer until youâre chest to chest. He has to tuck his head to press his forehead against yours, and he canât breathe.Â
Youâre holding your breath, too, like youâre fighting every instinct to kick up a fuss at how patient heâs being. He has to be. He has to be, or else heâs going to give you everything when the two of you have to meet your families for the night.Â
His breath ghosts over your lips, which are already parted so beautifully for him.
âBut I guess,â he whispers, his heart in his throat, at your feet, in your hands, âmy shitty apartment is as good as any for a first kiss, huh?â
Mingyu doesnât even wait for you to answer.Â
He closes the distance and presses down into you, enough that you end up taking a step back. When your nails sink into Mingyuâs shoulders to hold yourself steady, he lets out a low hiss against your mouth but refuses to pull away.
He kisses you like heâs thought about doing it for years.Â
And maybe he has. Maybe itâs always been thereâ this prospect, this possibility, and he couldâve gone his whole life just wondering what it might be like.
Now that he has it, has you, he doesnât know if he can go without it.
It might be a mistake. He knows that.Â
Heâs crossed a line youâve both danced around for too long. There's a part of himâ rational and carefulâ that screams this could ruin everything.
But then you kiss him back.
You kiss him back like you mean it, like youâre angry about all the years wasted not doing this. Like you want to climb into the marrow of him and stay there.Â
Mingyu doesnât know how long it lasts. Doesnât care. Eventually, the space between you pulls taut again, and you're both left staring, dazed, stunned, as if the world has shifted under your feet.
His fingers ghost over his lips. Theyâre swollen, just like yours, and he knows thereâs no going back from this. Thereâs no way heâll ever be able to convince himself that youâre some annoying pest instead of the love of his goddamn life.Â
âWeâ we should go,â Mingyu says hoarsely, barely above a whisper. Itâs all he can manage.
And for once, you donât fight him.
âž S01E15: THE ONE WITH THE PROMISE.Â
The bane of your existence drives you to your familyâs monthly lunch in his beat-up car with one working speaker and a half-eaten protein bar wedged into the cupholder.
You complain about the lack of legroom. He snarks back about your giant tote bag taking up all the space. Itâs almost impressive how easily the two of you slip back into the familiar routine of bickering.Â
If someone were to eavesdrop, theyâd never guess youâd made out half an hour ago. That heâd kissed you like you were the only thing keeping him breathing; that youâd kissed him like he had all the answers to the questions youâve been afraid to ask.Â
Mingyu parallel parks like an assholeâ too far from the curbâ and you mutter something under your breath as you slam the door shut behind you.
âYou could say thank you,â he says, locking the car.
âThank you,â you echo. âFor the trauma.â
He almost smiles. The sight of him fighting that back reminds you of his lips, how theyâd been so soft against yours despite the heated, desperate way he moved.Â
Your brain is going to be in the gutter the whole evening. Youâre sure of it.Â
Your families are already there at the vouchsafed hipster cafĂ© when the two of you walk through the door. For a treacherous moment, everything feels like clockwork again. The smell of garlic bread wafts through the air. His mother greets you with a warm hug. His dad already has a story locked and loaded. Your parents give him the same doting affection.Â
Itâs so normal you almost forget whatâs changed.
Almost.
Mingyu sits next to you instead of across from you. He offers you the breadbasket first, tops your glass when nobody else is looking.Â
At one point, you arch a brow at him, suspicious. He says nothing.
Itâs all suspicious.
Conversation flows easily enough. Your families are familiar, loud, opinionated. Thereâs some rapport between you and Mingyu; if your parents notice that itâs not as scathing as usual, they donât point it out.Â
Under the table, something changes.
You feel it before you see it. Mingyuâs hand, careful and tentative, resting on your knee. His touch is featherlight, like heâs giving you a chance to move away.
You donât.
Itâs hidden by the table cloth, and you think you might be imagining it until you glance at him.
Heâs already looking at you.
His expression is half-agony, half-hope.
And thatâs the thing about Kim Mingyu. Heâs always been too much and never enough. Too loud, too cocky, too frustrating. Never thoughtful enough, never serious enough, never willing to make the first move until now.Â
Youâre done keeping score. This isnât a battle of wits, a challenge of who can hold out better. This is a game neither of you will win.Â
No. This is a game you no longer have to play.Â
You lace your fingers through his.Â
Mingyuâs shoulders drop like heâs been holding that breath for years. He squeezes your hand, and you think you could get used to this, to him. Youâll have to talk about it later, to decide; for now, though, the promise of it is more than enough.
You used to think there was no universe in which you and Kim Mingyu could ever get along.
But maybeâ just maybeâ this one will do.

