shakeyourheadandthink.

Marvin | Since 1990 of August | Cebu City - Philippines | life - friends - experience

[marvinzemartian]

[marvinzemartian]

Get this madness out of my head. I want to yell, punch and throw hefty shove at people. I am still trying to control myself though but people are feeding my anger. What to do?

[porshe-deactivated20241017]

How great it is to slowly unravel a person piece by piece.

From the parts we’d like to kiss, to the flaws we gotta love.

For every embrace reserved and the warmth we kept alone for so long.

To the comfortable silences and abandonment issues.

With all the unspoken insecurities and well-deserved assurances.

From our own self-inflicted anxieties and everything else in between.

To finding beauty in the boring and sulking in moments of extremes.

Thus, let us allow ourselves dive into the abyss of discovery.

[marvinzemartian]

You were part of my plans, my dreams and goals. I built a foundation that I think can tightly hold us but I recognized I was the only one working. I saw you fade and the foundation is falling apart. You are now just a dream and a silhouette.

[marvinzemartian]

Paraiso.

[marvinzemartian]

You've caused my eyes to bleed. Without even saying a word, I can hear everything loudly. Day by day, you are ripping me apart. Day by day, I want you to be at my side. I know the pain is worth it and I know someday it will gonna make sense. I forgot everything even my own world as I was so focused in your world. I gave my all but I need to take back a portion of it for my self, for good sake.

[marvinzemartian]

I am raging deep inside. I want to pound my self to bleed to see my own blood rushing down from my face. Perhaps making my eyes blind will make me find peace. Perhaps making my ears deaf will make me feel at ease. This foolish hallucination must end. This time, I will show affection to my own soul and I will take good care at it as if I am dying. This time, I will not allow anybody to wake my soul up from its beautiful hibernation. That is a promise.

 I may not be the best but you can never find someone like me. 

[marvinzemartian]

Greetings lablab!

I don’t know if this is a love letter or a birthday message. Anyways, happiest birthday to you and I hope you are having a good time. I wish you good health, happy life and a genuine happiness with me. Thank you for always understanding your grumpy and moody boyfriend. I will never ever get tired of loving you and give you moral support whenever you need one. I’m always here for you and I am just one call/text away even if already lost my phone.

I apologize if sometimes I made your mind baffle every time I sit in the edge of your bed while staring the sink or electric fan. It just me, thinking about something. I thank god that we’ve transfigured from platonic to non-platonic relationship. I hope and wish that you will never get tired of understanding me and loving me. I never wish for a perfect relationship nor happy-all-the-time relationship, but a strong and bonded relationship and I’d rather embrace the agony with you than to walk the path to happiness alone. Happy birthday!

Yours truly.

[marvinzemartian]

[marvinzemartian]

You never fail to make feel sad, hurt, mad and happy at the same time.

[marvinzemartian]

The sad part is she's thinking about him even if I am with her.

[marvinzemartian]

I am the sun and you are the moon. I didn’t hesitate to share some light to make you bright at night. I always want to be near you but we need decades to pass before an eclipse transpire. I envy the stars; who twinkles to make you smile. I wish the galaxy is as dense as I imagine so I can do the things I wanted to happen.

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[marvinzemartian]

You once asked me why I’m ignoring you and you begged for my attention. Wanting me to say “Hi” for some days is quite confusing and now we’ve been talking almost everyday. We discuss anything under the sun and yes, it makes me feel better and you make me shrugged off all the weights on my shoulder. But as it goes longer, I craved for it. This is something I want to avoid because things between me and you are very complicated but I can’t ignore you again. I don’t want to end up feeling the same way as you did when you confronted me about my actions because I don’t want to feel sorry and hopeless. For now, let’s widen the gap in between.

[wordsnquotes]

I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.

Sylvia Plath (via wordsnquotes)

[marvinzemartian]

I want you but I can never have you.

[ships-of-fools]

[lovequotesrus]

Everything you love is here