for a long time this thing didn't really enjoy ownership dynamics, and a little part of it still feels iffy about it; a whole lotta feelings found their way out, which it will now be attempting to process in lieu of talking to its owners, its friends, or its non-existent therapist.
it doesn't really enjoy ownership as a concept, because it's usually treated as something of an end-goal: secure the submissive's loyalty through kink, play, and training, and after that you don't need to do anything more with it. maintenance play and rewards can be dialled back to a minimum, because the ownership has been secured. it's a dramatic statement, undermined by the realities of everyday life.
couple that with the common dominant urge to expect obedience without investment and submissive desperation to be owned, and what you get is incredibly brief courtships, followed by short intense play, followed by decision paralysis of being able to do whatever, but ending up doing nothing much more. possessive language is the default, and submissives take more than they give, and yet still nobody gets what they want.
but it still wants to be owned. but really it doesn't want to be owned, it wants safety, security, attention, and belonging. being owned is just the mechanism it wants to use to pursue it. it thinks this is true of others, too. ownership (either owning or belonging) is a way of locking someone down so they can't leave. if you own someone you know they can't escape you, if you're owned you know you're not just gonna get dropped unexpectedly.
but attention is the problem. once you've got that security of never being let go, what's next? if being owned is the peak, what happens when you slip and that boulder comes tumbling down? it can say it wants to be the focus of attention, but what attention does it even want at this point?
maybe, it wants others to see it, as it is, without the rest of the miscellany in the way. without it needing to be big, or in charge, or needing to set the rules. maybe it would like, for just a little while, to be something small, cat-like and cute. to have expectations taken from it, and for it to just be, instead of doing. but the work never ends. there is always more to be done. so it will keep going as it is, hope that those it cares for also care for it, and trust them to take things out of its hands when there's too much for it to carry - not to put down or discard, but to carry together.
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