Maybe it's Time for Me to Tell You How I Feel
Maybe it is time for me to finally tell you how I feel about you. I keep thinking back at times when I did had the perfect opportunities to tell you but never did. I’m kick myself everytime I think about those missed opportunities.
You know at first, I didn’t even like you. Everytime you tried to talk to me, the first thought in my head was “Who does this guy think he is?” But, the more I got to know you and the more times I talked to you, I realized I fucked I was. I started to realize how cool and amazing a person you are. That made me start liking you and hard.
And honestly, I never knew how you felt about me because you were just so confusing. We hang out a couple of times and I enjoyed it every time. And the things you would say to me and do made me think that it was possible that you may feel the same way as I did with you. But I was never too sure. I guess that’s why I was too scared to tell you how I felt.
But knowing that timing is never on my side, the potential of being with you right now wouldn’t work out. You decided to pursue your career, which lead you to go away. I am really proud of you for that but at the same time, I wish you were here. You and I could possible had an epic adventure together. But of course, that’s not in our cards right now.
I keep think about the times we did spend together, what I could have done different. What if the time you walked me back to my car after hanging out instead of me just saying good night to you and getting into my car, I gave you a hug goodbye. Or maybe that time we were doing homework together, I should have told you how I felt. Or the time you were standing next to me at school, I just grabbed your hand into mine. I just wished I did things differently and maybe we could have possibly be together right now.
I’ve recently decided to start dating again. Went on dates and even dated a couple of guys. But for some reason, you have always been in the back of my mind. No matter how much I pushed you away, you somehow always came back. I honestly didn’t even think about you for a while. Thought that I finally got over you. But somehow, your name and face ended started popping up again. Maybe it’s because you were meant to stay there. Maybe because I have some unfinished business with you. I honestly don’t know.
Like I have mentioned, maybe right now isn’t the perfect time for us to even happen. Our lives right now aren’t at the right place. But something deep down is telling me, it doesn’t matter. Maybe it’s some wishful thinking. Or maybe I’m just super naive and hoping for something that will never happen. Or maybe I’m just psychotic and reading all the signs wrong. I honestly doubt you would even read this. Or maybe you do and think that I am absolutely insane. I really don’t know but I might as well because I don’t even have the guts to tell you directly. But, I think I’m gonna take my chance and say…..
Hey, I like you and I hope you feel the same way about me.
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