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1. whispers, passenger ( you see all i needs a whisper, in a world that only shouts ) 2. saturn, sleeping at last ( how rare and beautiful it is to even exist ) 3. while my guitar gently weeps, the beatles ( with every mistake we must surely be learning ) 4. request, teyana taylor ( hold me, i can be anything that you want me to be ) 5. you can’t hide, zayn / teddy pendergrass & grandmaster flash ( you can’t hide from yourself, everywhere you go, there you are ) 6. tragedy, bee gees ( tragedy, when the feelings gone and you can’t go on ) 7. aviation, the last shadow puppets ( aviation in the evening, i can feel it comin’ on ) 8. bad girls, donna summer ( bad girls, talkin’ ‘bout the sad girls )

#musing tag tbd.#mari .. what an emo icon .. MFSKKJF #stonetask1

#ooc.#uh ? i have too much time on my hands

HOLDEN !

it wasn’t often that holden found himself in this severe of a piss poor mood. he wasn’t sure if it was the shift he had just worked or the fact that everyone he knew was collectively losing their minds, but it felt as if the furrow in his brow might just take up a permanent residence. his steps were even as he watched his feet hit the concrete, silently cursing every god imaginable for the mortal mistake of forgetting his earphones at home. he was making his way home, brooding so physically that it was surely radiating for all around him to take witness, when he heard his named called; stopping him in his tracks. holden knew the familiar voice before he saw her, and something in him switched automatically. his face softened, eyes widening in surprise as he lifted his gaze to meet a face he knew for memory. it had been two years since they’d seen one another in person, but in that moment it felt as if their summer spent together had never really ended. the boy’s elevating heartbeat hummed in his ears. of course he’d thought about her in their time apart – there had been other girls here and there in new york, but there was something about the girl standing in front of him that holden was never truly able to shake. he’d find himself at 3am, bloodshot eyes typing in the familiar name just to catch a glimpse of her on a screen; she had gotten under his skin. he cleared his voice before speaking, begging his voice to play ball. “mari,” he stated dazedly, “hey - hi.. you’re here.” holden clenched his jaw; idiot. he ran a hand through his hair as he let out a nervous laugh, “shit, hi. sorry, i didn’t expect to see you. when did you get into town?”

her heartbeat could be felt intensely in every area of her body, a modest smile stitched onto her lips as she listened to him speak for the first time in what felt like both forever and just days. he looked the same, if not better than when they had parted, and that lead to a tightening in her chest that she was unfamiliar with. the thoughts came raining in like bullets, each hitting her mind with the same intensity, making her question why she walked up to him in the first place. ‘ what are the odds ? ’ a voice of self-pity spoke quietly within her. what were the odds he still felt something for her ? was it even possible he was thinking any of her own thoughts ? it didn’t take much deliberation, the voice replied to itself - ‘ slim to none ’ - making her weary of what to say next. heart racing like a speeding car, she tried to calm her mind as she prepared to speak.

“just a few days ago,” words flowed from her mouth easily, almost like to when the two were together, “i ... i didn’t realize you were back.” she’d never given much thought to where he’d ended up. perhaps it was always easier for her to imagine him somewhere farther away, somewhere they wouldn’t have had a chance to make it work even if they had tried. she still couldn’t quite piece together why they didn’t try. it was little facts like those that made just standing there feel awkward. everything from the movement of her hand, to when she would shift her weight from foot to foot on occasion felt wrong, so she attempted to stand there motionless - looking at him, doe-eyed and contrite.

#MSDKSN LMS IF UR A LIL DEAD INSIDE ? LIKES MY OWN STATUS ..#MY SWEET BABIES .. THEY'RE SO .. MF AWKWARD ..#my love knows no bounds rn skjdfnsk #interactions tag tbt.#holden tag tbt.

headphones in - that was the way mariposa often found herself walking through stone harbor. melodies pulsing through the buds brought something comfortable to her otherwise unfamiliar walks, and the idea of being able to drown out any noise surrounding her was often welcomed by the girl who could rarely shut out her own thoughts. it had been two summers since the brunette had last wandered those streets. that meant just one year since she’d made her grand mistake, and two years since she had met him. that fact alone produced another outstanding reason for her music - the girl was still so conflicted, everywhere she went she was brought back to another moment of her past, and she couldn’t decide as to whether that was a blessing or a curse. in the time that had passed the two simply hadn’t spoken - if they had, she couldn’t imagine what she’d say. it’d be so long, she didn’t understand how a part of her could still miss him, and yet, there she stood, still questioning if the possibility of moving forward even dared to exist.

her return to work at ‘tie the knot’ could only be defined as taxing. dealing with strangers complaining about the lack of salt of their pretzels would be draining for anyone, but luckily for mari, she found a sense of calm in window shopping and darting through crowds. she’d approach one window, gaze longingly at the display, and ultimately turn her nose up in disgust at the so-called ‘sale prices’ ( she had grown up pinching pennies, little had changed in her adulthood ). a mere three bags in hand, one item held in each, the girl looked up what could only be described as just the right moment. of course, it was hard for her to believe at first. after all, she’d spent the past two years seeing his face in so many strangers she passed on the streets, coaxing herself back down afterwords seemed to become second nature. despite how much more realistic it would be for him to be in stone harbor as opposed to vermont, she still found herself denying her eyes what they were seeing before giving herself the opportunity to approach him. unsure of what she would say next, she walked merely steps before removing one headphone slowly, and allowing a meager sound to pass her lips. “holden ?” / @holdenhmu

#did i proof read ? no #is this too long ? yes #do i have a life ? no #MKSFNSJ #my fav part abt the gif is that she literally says 'oh shit' and that sums mari up rn #holden tag tbt.#interactions tag tbt.#anyway . can u spell 'hung up' ?

trueloveistreacherous

You’ll have to take notes. Do you think you can keep up? Let’s just say I was president of the stenographer’s club in high school for a reason. Was the reason because you were the only member? Yes.

#MSKDKFKGJ MY BABY #musings tag tbt.

joli--coeur

#attire tag tbt.

here’s my gal amy santiago .. coughs .. i mean mariposa chavez !

#ooc.#um .. yeah #amy santiago would NEVER commit the fraudulent activity mariposa did .. how dare i compare the two .. SFKJSN

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