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Second split night in a row. Please let this not be a Thing 😩 think this might have been as bad as the newborn days
Had to reintroduce dairy to confirm A’s intolerance/allergy and my god, the amount of projectile vomit in my life is unreal right now. She’s been happy enough when it’s been happening but she’s definitely reacting to it. Annoyingly, she’s still spitting up a fair amount even when I’ve been dairy free so now I’m thinking maybe I need to cut soya out too 😭 I just really want to get to the cause of her reflux and not just have her on meds indefinitely
reminder to the new mum girlies to put yourself on the priority registers for water and energy
A’s obsessed with these balloons left over from my birthday a few weeks ago, my blood pressure went low after my morning meds today (this is low for medicated and dosages need reviewing - hopefully this means my pregnancy induced hypertension is easing), holding hands (finger) in the car and A’s Eid outfits
Amber Izzo just did a post on the complicated feelings around IVF when you’re “successful” and if it hasn’t hit me right in the chest.
It’s so hard and I really want to have another baby, but I just don’t know about doing another embryo transfer or another pregnancy - very likely to have gestational diabetes again, I currently still have pregnancy induced hypertension so definitely likely to have it again in any subsequent pregnancies but more than that, it’s the anxiety and the emotional rollercoaster of IVF that I’m not sure I can put myself through again. But it is something we have to think about soon… (added complication of having a c section is the “don’t get pregnancy for 2(??) years”) because I’m getting older and we have embryo storage fees to pay (but also we’ll need to save for the embryo transfer costs too). Infertility is truly the gift that keeps giving 🫠
God lads, what a month it’s been. I kept wanting to post and purge but alas it could not be. At the beginning of the month, I’d been having a lot of Feelings because it was the year anniversary of our embryo transfer (A) and even though we’re past the thick of the infertility, there’s still a lot of uncertainty and things being completely out of our control, so lots of Feelings. And then R’s uncle died and there was a lot of customary death related things that had to be done - I had to leave A with my mum three days in a row for full days which was so incredibly hard (not least because of the breast feeding aspect). Then I had my birthday and more dead uncle things, A’s reflux meds being out of stock for a week (hell!), my root canal and then the onlay falling out(!!!) and generally feeling a bit shit as a mum because I hadn’t been able to get her 16 week weight check done because of all the dead uncle stuff (I do have scales at home so I know she’s fine, but wanted an Official “fine” in the red book). I still haven’t managed to do my diabetes blood test (necessary after gestational diabetes because of the risk of type 2) or my sight test (been booking and rescheduling that since I was about 4 months pregnant).
Thennnnnn everything kept breaking. I had the Chicco magic evo next to me crib but it started making this horribly loud creaking sound every time A moved in it, sorted an exchange with John Lewis and chose the Maxi Cosi Iora Plus. Unpacked it when it arrived and then realised that version didn’t have the slide function I needed to get it close to our bed, phoned John Lewis and they said it’s not possible to return because it’s been unpacked so then I had to pay for another next to me. I was not happy….
A’s pram wheel was also playing up, emailed the retailer I got it from and they sent me to the manufacturers only for Mamas and Papas to say they don’t have a warranty agreement with the retailer and I need to take up the issue with them(!!). Went back to them and thankfully they got in touch with M&P who finally confirmed they do uphold warranty claims from that store. But honestly, it took about a week just to get that far and I was spiralling that I’d spent £700 on a buggy that I’d used for 3 months…
Thennnnn my Momcozy bottle warmer lid broke, got in touch with Boots who told me to go directly to Momcozy who tried to sell me another lid for £20…umm bro, I’ve literally had the thing for 2 months, you should be sending me out a free lid!!
I finally got around to sending off A’s nursery forms and paid the deposit today, so she’s all set to start at the end of October which suddenly feels like it’s just around the corner. I know everyone says the days are long but the weeks are short, but for me the days are super short too! I can’t believe I’ve been off work for almost 5 months now and I only have until October with A every day - it really is going far too quickly!!
We’re deep in the sleep regression trenches 🫠🙃
Off to the emergency dentist tomorrow because my onlay over the root canal has just come off 🫠
Me every time All4 bleeps out the swear words on MAFS: oh grow up
R: I’m going to Tesco, do you want anything
Me: grab me some oat milk - any brand except alpro
R:
A few of A’s outfits, baby’s first local election, 16 week vaccinations and a new play mat I was Influenced to buy (it is nice tho)
A turned 4 months at the weekend and I can’t believe how quickly time is passing - even filled and sent off her nursery forms for the autumn (reminding myself it’s still a long way away and she’ll be much older by the time I go back to work). She’s growing so much too - discovering her hands, doing bimanual reaches and getting so much more vocal (doing her vowel sounds but also got a “ma” sound the other day!) she still hates tummy time and it’s still hard for me to get up and down off the floor with her so we’re mostly doing it on the bed and more passively with her on me. She does proper belly laughs now to the most random of things - this morning it was because I made a sniffing face/noise which she found hilarious, other times it’s to the way my messy bun bounces around when I play with her. Truly random the things that entertain her!
She’s able to do longer stretches of independent play/looking so I managed a shower in the downstairs bathroom yesterday (shower enclosure so she could only see me but not hear me) whilst she was in her bouncer with a play arch. She’s also doing this new thing of shouting/screaming in her sleep to signal hunger/displeasure but she’ll do it with her eyes closed so it’s somewhat deceptive if she wants to be woken for a feed or not (this tricks me multiple times a night but slowly learning to just feed her otherwise she’ll settle for a bit and then start shouting again).
Still no real sleep routine as such except that she’ll go down for her night sleep anywhere between 9 and midnight and do her longest stretch first and then the awakenings Begin. Night before last she only woke the once, last night it was 4 times. No rhyme or reason, so we’re just going with it.
I am very tired today but her day naps are the only time I get to myself (if she lets me put her down) so I try to do something I want to get done - whether that’s housework or replying to messages/watching something/eating something less quick/snacky/playing with Theo/life admin.
Speaking of, I’m reminded that I need to sort my car insurance
Iran dropping some bangers with LEGO music videos
What baby monitors are we using lads? And do we like them?
We made use of our zoo membership yesterday and went for a little stroll there. A mostly slept but I got to have a change of scenery on our walks at least. She did start screaming towards the end and I had to find an area where I could feed her - stressful, chaotic but I managed to do it with a cover on so I take it as a win!
Also cannot get over how she’s holding the toy I got her 💕
Oh hello there, 4 month sleep regression 🫠
It’s almost 11 and I’m still making my breakfast so not sure the zoo is happening today