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Title: Would you (still) love me if I was a worm?

Scene: Two lovers

Would you (still) love me if I was a worm?

That depends on different factors.

Lets say you always have been a worm. Then how would what makes you "you" in your current human form translate into being a worm. Would you be a worm with the depth of thoughts and feelings like your current human form? Or would you be a worm with the depth of thoughts and feelings of an average worm? Also would I bee a worm to make it statistically more likely for us to attract.

Now lets say you turned into a worm. Then what makes you "you" in your current human form would be calculated and converted into a worm. This conversion formula is unknown to human kind. We can not know how it reflects the human you in worm form. We can't know if you would be a worm with the depth of thoughts and feelings like your current human form? Or if you would be a worm with the depth of thoughts and feelings of an average worm?

Then again speaking of it as legend says: That two lovers that are truly meant to be, will find each other in any life no matter their form or shape...

Then when the point in the relationship is reached where we know there is no other explanation to our feeling as to wanting to spend the rest of our lives together....

Then yes I will love you "even"if you where a worm.

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I'll count the days I haven't failed as equally as the days where failure hasn't held me back. I'll continue to try. I'll try cuz without trying I will only stay in the same spot.

But If the same spot is what you want or is all you can do then... make it the most comfortable spot you can and enjoy it.

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Times the most valuable good. No matter what you do you can't get it back.

Make the best you can of it and never fret of it hasn't worked out like that one day. There always is another.

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Sometimes Im torn between "do I want to do it" or "I think I might in general dislike it and hate the time wasted".

I mean trying is good. Then you know for sure if you like it or not.

But time is a valuable good.

(Though done things you just know. Like knowing that trying bad food woll hurt. Duh >.>)

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Certain things I like doing with some people but dislike doing them eith others.

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There is not much I regret.

That one time years back at a second hand narket, a lady sold me a doll (ridiculouly) cheap. I gave her 1€ more than the set price and didn't let them keep it.

Also I wish I had more money on me that day. The lady should have gotten way more €. -Feel bad for that, but it's in the past-

Anyways I changed the dolls hair and kept her in the same spot ever since she came home with me. I love looking at her.

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I'm not the one to run after you to tell you I'm there for you. I'm not the one to constantly check on you to be ok. I don't want to be the one to push you over your comfort zone, to do things.

I want to be the one where you know I'll always stick around. I'll always try my best if I see it mutual.

If you need me ask or at least give me a hint when it's hard for you and I will be a bit pushing ;)

Ok!!!!

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If you think you cant, YOU CAN!... Look again!

Yes there are times you won't make it. The times you will make it although you thought you couldn't are more.

I wouldn't have thought I could be good a job that involves being social with people. Look at me now! I am working a job like that. I'm not perfect but I'm good and getting better.

Another time I had an appointment. I thought I could only make it if I took a taxi. Mine didn't arrive. I walked instead. Guess what? I made it with being only 3 min late.

I tried and made it more times than I thought. Other times I made it better or failed less than expected.

Failing won't stop me!! Don't let it stop you!!!

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Social

Had a great time at friends place. Stayed over night.

First I felt a little (really little) awkward in the evening realizing I could have been more subtle when deciding to be the first to use the bathroom to get bed ready. (Maybe they wanted to go first)

Second time was the next morning. I had a hint of a feeling like "when should I leave..." I mean my friends don't mind having me around. Still staying to long is rude but leaving too soon might be too. I know in the end non of my friends over think this. Still the slight hint of that feeling emerging was there.

Third time was after I did leave. I decided to go to the nearby mal to grab a coffee and a bite for my train ride. I felt socially out of place. Just a bit bit oh well. Still do while on the train. It's getting less though.

All that despite me working in physical customer service. That is a totally different game. I know what to do despite each customer being different. Dunno how to explain that but yeah.

I can manage. I believe that you can too.

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Some people : You know not to worry about when you haven't texted in days/weeks/months.

Some others: You try to treat them as the people you know not to worry about but... Your not sure.

They know I'm here for them and I think they'll take my help if needed.

So basically keeping human friendships up esoeciakly in stressful times sucks.

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Finding people who want to talk about life and people as as little to as much as me is great. Can't really say I have or haven't found ones like that.

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Yesterday I fell asleep extra toasty under several blankets.

Sweated a little.

Result: I had suppressed a mild cold with about 4 deep coughs and feeling mildly cold since Monday. It got sweat out to the surface of my body. My body feels more sick with heavier limbs.

Gonna rest now!

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Let's try it again. Let's finish the most I can of all the fun things I still want to finish.

I hope I'll do that and not sleep more than needed or water my time as usual

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Sucks when life gets in the way of even texting with people that you used to text for hours

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Look on the bright side

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My inner clock is wacky! I always leave 3-6 min late.

O trick to fool ot has helped any ideas?

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My inner clock is wacky! I always leave 3-6 min late.

O trick to fool ot has helped any ideas?