- Last Tuesday (May 16) he came over for our last in-person meeting together
- So he picked me up out front and we drove to LCBO because I had a gift card and I would never use it so I thought we could drink together
- We ended up getting peach flavoured ciroc (the big bottle) after much debate and then went to wal-mart to pick up some cranberry-mango juice to mix it with
- it was actually really good and he said that that will be “our” mix
- and then we listened to jind mahi by kulbir jhinjer and zara and there’s just something about driving with him that I loove.
- Then we came home and it was sunny and nice out so he wanted to drink on the balcony and I was like alright even tho I was terrified of bees or other insects and them coming into my apartment
- so we’re out there and we see this cracked egg and I was like should I kick it off? and he was like so concerned saying no and that one of the birds would see and come attack me
- and then a bunch of pigeons are always flying from building to building and it was sooo fucking funny because he was terrified and then came running in when he thought a bird was coming for him
- Then we came in and drank, I had like 3 glasses and was toally buzzed, like I could feel it in my face and I was getting so sleepy
- so he came closer and we just started talking and then held hands and I told him how we were talking about lips and how our grandmas like thin lips and us girls were like why? and that I thought of him because I like his lips and then yeah we started kissing
- I still had my light jacket on and things started getting heated so I had to take it off and then he came on top, and I took off his pants hehehe
- and then he’s like lets get another drink, so we walked over to my computer desk where we had our supplies and I was stretching cuz I was tired and as he was walking to the fridge he like lightly touched my pussy and moved upward to my stomach and I still can’t get over how good that felt and just how sexy the overall movement was LOL
- then he poured a drink and I gave him a blowjob while he sat in my computer chair and then he told me to take off my shirt and he played with my tits hehe
- and then it got even more heated so he like came leaning off the chair and gently laid me on the floor and like sucked on my nipples and we made out and it was so fucking hot
- then we stood up and he was talking to me about how beautiful I was and he grabbed my face and pulled me closer so we made out again and then he rubbed his dick on me and was like he was gonna fuck me so hard tonight and asked if we should take a break to talk or go to my room and we both agreed to talk
- so then we ended up talking for soooo long but it was sooo good, like I don’t think we have talked like that before and I just learned more about him, and also felt a greater connection
- He was sitting up straight and I was leaning on him with my legs across his lap
- so he was telling me about how all of his friends know about me now (cuz someone from his program msged and he said he was in st catharines and i guess they knew he was with me then)
- then he told me how his friends talk about me sometimes and ask how things are and he just says its complicated and how his high school friends were talking about this one guy and how he’s with P’s ex but they were like saying how he has a better girl (me) than the other guy lol
- and then i guess his friends knew how he was coming to see me but one of them had no clue (the one I prank called cuz apparently he’s clueless) so he asked who i was and for him to send a pic of me, but P just said to look me up on instagram and the guy sent a selfie of me in their group chat and P was like yeah that’s her lol
- and then I was like do they say bad stuff? and he’s like there’s this one guy who’s always saying like oh you gonna fuck tonight or something but P just tells him to chill but the rest (I think gopes esp) are respectful, and he said I can even look at their convo to see what he says about me but I didn’t cuz I trusted him
- but he did confront me about the comment I made a while ago of him sending my pic, and he’s like I didn’t take a pic of you in the theatre,and I was like I know but you sent one, and he’s like yes I did do that because they were asking who you were and I wanted to show them, and he said it very respectfully so i was glad that he owned up to that
- And then he told me how his best friend respects me and I’m like probably not, because if I don’t find out about village thing or if i can’t do long distance and we end it, he’s probably going to think I’m a hoe
- and then he explained that that’s not the case because he told his friend how I was a good girl and a virgin and I’m not like other girls. Because his friend just has a bad attitude towards girls and doesn’t trust them, and then I was like omg you told him we did it, and he said yes, but only because he was convincing his friend how different I was and that he wasn’t bragging at all. And then he gave me a deep history of his best friend’s life and what he went through with girls and his own family that made him like that,so yeah that was nice to hear and to have him open up to me like that
- he also said I love you multiple times that night and I loved it but kept saying he didn’t
- then he asked what I even liked about him because he was like I dont even know how I got you, like I consider myself very lucky
- and I was like lol idk, I dont think I answered the question properly or I must have referred to the acrostic I made him lmao
- and then I asked him what he liked about me and he said he loves my attitude (i was shocked cuz he always comments on how he hates it and that it’s annooying) and that loves when a girl tells him to fuck off lmao and how I do it all the time, and he said he likes how there’s always other guys wanting me which is why he loves hearing stories of when people check me out or reach out to me after a long time lol, and then how I’ve stuck by him all this time even through all of the uncertainty with us. And then he just like kissed my hair and hands
- And then he wanted to know more about the guys i’ve liked and why it didn’t work so I told him everything and about how curious george will randomly snap me after months and that last time I did reply because P ended video call with me and I was bored
- and he was like “ohhh so soon as I’m gone you hit up other guys eh” and i was like LOL no i just wanted to see if this guy would address why he snaps me after so long but he didnt and just asked when I was coming home
- and then he did his cute voice which i dont think he notices he does but yeah he was just concerned about me seeing other guys and if i’m going to meet up with that guy and I was like probably not since I don’t like him anymore. And then he told me to at least tell him if and when i talk to another guy or like another guy
- then I was on his lap and he had his dick out because it was hard and so I was just kind grinding on it while talking or like playing with it with my fingers and some pre cum came out and im like aww, so i was playing with it and he’s like would you put that in your mouth and im like hell yeah and how i’ve been wanting him to cum on me for so long so yack an eah I put it in my mouth then we made out and then he like grabbed my boob with his mouth and then like lifted me to take me to my room but i was like no, so he like put me down but like where my back was to him and then he rubbed his dick along the front of my pussy and then to the back and holy fuck it was so hot then he took it off and started rubbing more but then I was like yo i still wanted to talk about more deep stuff related to us and then he respectfully put it away and sat me in his lap facing him so we could talk
- so then I was just like how I was concerned about it not working out and if it does, me not being happy or his family not liking me or something
- and he was like he is in love with me now, i am his love and he wants to marry me and that if we can’t then he’s just going to get an arranged marriage
- then he asked what happened over the weekend that triggered me asking him a bunch of questions (failed marriage of cousin lol) and I didn’t want to tell him all of my family details so I just said I didn’t want to end up like one of my cousin’s cuz he’s so unhappy and he asked me more so I was going to talk about it but I got emotional so I went and put my head in his neck cuz my voice got shaky and I had tears and he was like aww look here but i said no and he asked why i was crying and im like sorry man i just get emotional when i talk about people i care about and they’re not happy
- and then he made me look up and i covered my face and he was just saying how beautiful and pretty i looked even when i cry, and then he made me uncover my face and just looked right into my eyes and said he loves me
- and then he continued the convo about my concerns and he was like you’ll be happy, and that if i like him now that’s how it’ll always be because it’s who he is as a person and he’s been real with me
- and then he was like about his family not liking me, i dont have to worry about that, as long as i respect them they’ll love me and his mom’s already happy we’re talking. And i was like yeah but you and i already fight lots so what if they always just take your side and don’t understand my side or u just make it seem like it’s my fault, and he’s like he wouldn’t do that, plus his mom and sister-in-law are on a team and don’t talk to his brother when he’s wrong, so whoever is right, that’s who’s side his parents will take lol
- and then i was like what about me not knowing how to cook or do anything? and he’s like they dont care about that, the only thing they care about is respect and I said i could defs give it because i have always wanted a good relationship with my in-laws
- then he asked if i wanted to really spend the rest of my life with him, and i shrugged my shoulders,and if i wanted to have his kids and i shrugged my shoulders again and we laughed and he was like if we did they would be little soccer players, with good looks cuz they’ll have your looks hopefully, and I’m like we have to put them in bhangra too and he just gave me a look like uhh maybe lmao and we laughed again
- And then he got all serious again and was like how he really does like me a lot and wants it to work, and how I’ve helped him a lot with stress relief this year and how he loved talking to me, and I said the same and how he actually helped with assignments and stuff
- and then he was like will you ever forget me? and im like lol no because i had all my firsts with you, and he was like oh yeah no one forgets those
- then he was like you remember our first kiss? and i was like lol yeah and he asked where it was and i pointed to the spot on the couch and he was like lol yeah and he reminded me how i was all “idk what to do” LOL
- oh yeah and when i gave him a bj on the computer chair i had major gag reflexes so i asked what would happen if i actually threw up on it and he was like its no big deal we could just clean it up and i was like damn
- and then i wanted to make a snap video for his friend saying hi but he wouldnt let me, so we just took pics of us instead
- then we decided to go to bed and i was like i need to wash my face first and he asked if i had any snacks so i showed him, but when i came out of washroom he was already in bed, and im like yo arent u hungry and he kept saying its ok and im like no lets go see
- so i made him get out of bed because he aint about to sleep hungry on my watch lol so we made him a veggie burger and he loved it
- while it was cooking on stove, he started like hugging me and grabbing my ass and then people in the building in front of me were on their balcony and he’s like oh shit there’s people outside lmfao so he stopped and i was like u pussy cuz i loved that shit
- but yeah then we went into bed, and i went pee first, and then i came to lie down and im like why u already sleeping? and then he pulled me closer and was like all i want to do is cuddle you for the last time! and im like lol, and then we kissed and im like “but i saw it on the night table, all ready” and hes like LOL and hes like so what? and im like lets do it! and hes like do what? so he made me say it and then he put it on and went to work.
- and then after he was done we were lying on our backs and he started playing with my boobs again with his hands and hes like “i love these tits of yours” lmfao
- and then i was still horny so i was like playing with myself while rubbing up against him, and he just slipped his hand down there too and was like “teach me” (i guess how to do it properly or to the point where i climax cuz only i know how) and then it was his hand under mine and we just rubbed it and kissed and it was amazing
- then we fell asleep after a while, well he did but i cried on his chest and had to wipe them off and then i turned around because i couldnt stop thinking about how much i was going to miss him
- idk if he noticed or not that i was crying, but when i moved he asked if i was ok and i just said yes very quickly
- then eventually i fell asleep too, but i’d randomly wake up and then cuddle back up to him
- in the morning i was sleeping facing the opposite direction to him, and then he woke up and turned his body and put his arm around me, so fucking cute
- then i turned around and cuddled him and watched him sleep some more
- then i told him to wake up and that it was a certain time but it actually wasnt because i wanted to just chill and talk before he had to leave
- and then he showered and got ready, then i did and we made tea
- and then we talked more about him finding out and he said he will
- oh yeah, the night before he also showed me pics of his fam in india and they were so cute
- then when it was time for him to leave, we did a long ass hug by the couch and made out
- then when he had on all his gear i started making out with him again, and that one was amazing, like i wont forget it
- i’d pull away to breathe and i’d just look at his lips and eyes and go in for more
- also, i felt it get hard again so we did some grinding while making out and i grabbed it but obvs it was too late for another session lol
- then he gave me the longest cutest forehead kiss and i fucking loved it, like i could have cried cuz i didn’t expect it to be that hard and long
- and then i kissed him on the cheek really hard and he was like have a safe flight back and that i’ll have fun in vancouver and im like no man im gonna miss you, then we hugged one last time and he went :(
- it’s been over a week now since this meeting and i cant stop replaying the events and him looking at me or saying this and hearing his voice
- and i’ve been procrastinating writing this post because i feel like in a way, i didnt want to finalize this as the ending even tho it is.
- i mean we may still talk, but idk when i’ll ever see him again
- and we mentioned perhaps meeting in brampton this saturday if he was available and he did say no guarantees cuz hes busy with schol, will be returning late on friday from washington and that he has to pick up his fam from airport, but that we could try...but yeah i dont think its happening cuz i havent talked to him all week (except briefly on tuesday night after 2 days when he was telling me his presentation went really well and then he went to sleep and said we would talk the next day but he never did message and neither did I).
- so yeah, its thursday evening, hes gonna be driving back all day tomorrow cuz it took him 12 hours to get there so i dont even wanna mention meeting up cuz i just know its gonna be a no, which means i am most likely not going to brampton cuz cousins dont have anything fun planned either and last weekend i was just very emotional there but couldnt express it
- but it would suck if i didnt end up going and he msgs saturday about hanging out (probs not but still lol) and even if i was there i wouldnt have an excuse last minute, whereas if we planned it out then i could have just said i have a birthday dinner to go to
- i miss him sooo much though ughhhh
- also last week my mom suggested that her and his mom can talk on the phone and she can explain that we just want to know if it would be acceptable but that us kids arent ready to get married right away and that if his mom already knows theres no harm in them talking and that they can see how to find out (like if his mom should ask his dad or if she wants my mom to ask), but then he said his mom is ok with it and that there is no point in them talking...and that he would just ask his mom to ask his dad...and im like u better man but i feel like you wont, and he said he would and that he was just stressed that day cuz he was supposed to wake up at 3 to drive to the sates, so then he thanked me for understanding even tho i just said ok but really did want my mom and his mom to talk lol
- then my mom and i talked again yd and shes like what did he say? and im like he doesnt see the point in you talking to his mom and said he’ll just ask himself, but i told her how idk if he will. and then shes like lol just tell him to ask or else she will
- so i still have to mention that to him, but idk how to bring it up, but i hope he does ask his mom right away, and my mom said she still wants to talk to his mom, so idk how thats gonna turn out, but i wish he was more open to that
- ughh hopefully it all works out and im not broken in the end.
