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Hi... i know its kind of been a bit since we've had time to talk really... how is everything with you haha?

- @camtastic-i (absolutely a coincidence hes asking this on the first day of pride month yeppp)

Hey cam :) i’m sorry i haven’t been in touch with any of you guys…. My parents are really keen on making me study more than i used to hahah its also a lot more tiring… pittsie’s given up on talking to me too but i don’t really blame him… but how are you? :)) i missed studying with you :))

Haha that's okay really, if anyone understands that it's me.:) I guess Ive sort of been busy too haha. But things are... okay. I'm just glad that school and finals are almost over, even if it means i won't get to see you over summer quite as much:))... but hey, no more high school chemistry after this year:) I missed studying with you too haha:)

I know you will hahah :)) its been so tiring for everyone…maybe except charlie…but i really wanna hangout with everyone after this, if only we are all actual normal kids with normal parents who goes to a normal school hahah

I think i’d still pick high school chemistry if it means to be able to be in a class as you cam… :)

Hi... i know its kind of been a bit since we've had time to talk really... how is everything with you haha?

- @camtastic-i (absolutely a coincidence hes asking this on the first day of pride month yeppp)

Hey cam :) i’m sorry i haven’t been in touch with any of you guys…. My parents are really keen on making me study more than i used to hahah its also a lot more tiring… pittsie’s given up on talking to me too but i don’t really blame him… but how are you? :)) i missed studying with you :))

Hey, Todd… how are you holding up with everything? I know a lot is going on right now.. and I haven’t seen you in a bit, so I just wanted to check on you..

- @charlie-gotta-be-more-dalton

I... I think I'm okay maybe? I don't know Neil has hardly talked to me. I just wish I could be enough

You sure..? You know I’m here (:

Dont be too hard on Neil.. he’s not the most chatty about his problems from time to time. Especially with something as serious as this.. he’s not likely to talk openly about it- not yet, at least.

Don’t say that, Todd! You are more than enough. You sacrifice so much for everyone, you seem so brave all the time and honestly, you’re a really amazing guy. Don’t talk about yourself that way :(

No I know, I just.. I'm really scared.. And because of everything going on with Neil I don't really have anyone anymore. I'm not upset with him by any means!

I just can't believe I've done this. I've ruined everything, what if Neil doesn't want to be with me anymore

It’s okay to be scared.. really. It’s natural with everything that’s happening.

What do you mean, you don’t have anyone anymore..? What’s going on?

…done what. Todd..? What did you do?

I don’t know what you mean but I can promise you that you haven’t ruined everything- you haven’t ruined a thing, Anderson, really. Come on- it Neil, for chrisssake, he loves you almost more than he loves acting. He wouldn’t not want to be with you if it saved the world, Todd, really. What’s got you feeling like this? Did he say something to you?

Its my fault this happened. I was being too impulse and got in a fight with Hopkins. And Neil stepped in to save my ass since at that point Hopkins was already on top of me knocking me around. He took the blame for me. He went to Nolan for me. And ergo his father was told and this all happened because of me. I've messed everything up. I shouldn't... I should just go and never come back. Thatd be the best for everyone. There's no way Neil still wants to love someone like me, what's the point.

It’s not your fault.. it’s really not your fault. It’s Hopkins’ fault, if anyone’s. What happens wasn’t on you.

Maybe you were a little impulsive- it happens to the best of us. You acted on impulse, who can blame you? Not me- I’ve been there. Neil doesn’t blame you either. Trust me, he doesn’t blame you. He blames himself.

You haven’t messed anything up, please don’t say that- calm down, Anderson, it’s fine.

Don’t. Todd. Come on now. “Go and never come back” don’t you dare, Anderson, come on. Don’t. You know what happened last time someone said something like that. It wouldn’t be best for everyone- it wouldn’t even be remotely good for a single person, not even you. I’ve been exactly were you are, Todd, take my word for it. Take a deep breath and sit down- you’re mot going to do anything, you hear me?

Of course he still loves you. Of course he does- it’s obvious. The point is to hold on until things get better.

Where are you, I’m coming to talk to you.

I just I can't hurt anyone else anymore Charlie. I'm sorry

Todd. What are you saying. What do you mean. You haven’t hurt anyone. Where are you, Anderson. I’m not asking.

Im sorry Charlie I don't want to hurt anyone

Todd what the FUCK

Please tell Neil that I'm sorry

Nonnonkomkkomomo Todd what the hell You can’t do this come on you can’t just tell me where you are we can talk this out it will be okay come on todd come on

We can't talk this out Charlie. Everything is ruined. I ruined it all. Please don't tell Neil please I don't want him to be upset with me

YES we absolutely can nothing is ruined stop saying these things Todd I mean it

Neil knows, you fool, of course he knows! He’s worried out of his mind! We’re both looking for you everywhere- it would make it easier if you’d tell us where you are. Don’t do anything irrational. Todd I don’t want to loose you.

Sure you don't, it would only benefit everyone

Snap out of it, Anderson, just tell me where you are. I’m not playing out here, man. Where. Are. You.

It won't matter soon

I don’t give a shit, tell me where you are or I’m telling Nolan, Hager- your parents, anyone , Todd. I’m not letting you do this. You can’t. Please

Like any of those people have ever cared about me! I've spent my whole life being ignored by my parents, they don't care what happens to me.

Yeah, but I care about you. Neil cares about you. Knox, cam, Pitts, Meeks- they all care about you do much. And those people- your parents, teachers.. they’re the only ones who can help. I’m giving you one last chance to tell me where you are, Anderson, or I swear to GOD

Im sorry Charlie, i don't want to hurt you but I have to do this.

Todd?!?! What-where are you?! Oh my god

fyck rheyre fucking sjck and nobdoy bothered tp tell me abjyt it fyck i cant do thsi angmore imnsorry

Who’s sick? Cam, what happened??

apparrntly thays the only fufking readkn were gking therr jn the first place i dpnt knkw

im fhcking sdared meeksje i feel sjck i wsih i cpuld hug yiu rjght nlw

Breathe cam, breathe. What? I thought its a vacation? Cam thats awful im sorry i wish i coukd give you a hug right now…

im sprry i kjow ghjs is only makign tthings worse plesse jhst make dure everhthjngs okay thrre..,, i dpnt know hkw long jtll be til j see yoi agsjn ahaaha💛

No don’t apologize cam, its not your faukt, ok? But uh i dont think the boys are doing good…i mean i havent really talked to them…what do you mean?…cam? When are you coming back?? :((

Well im sorry im not there for you all anyway, i should've done something i don't know, it just doesnt seem like a great time to go "take a break" while everything is falling apart there... you all are my friends so i should be there when you need me... if you even want me there haha

im still not sure reallt but theyre getting a bit better and I really do have to get back to welton soon so maybe a few days? im not really sure ahaha

i miss you, really, its been killing me nkt to talk to you but my parents told me not to use my phone while were here haha... told them im doing schoolwork right now:)

Its not your fault cam, and pf course we want you back here! Im sorry im not helping at all…we miss you…i miss you…

Well, you don’t have to call it a break i guess…maybe slowing down is the right word?… hahah of course you’re doing schoolwork tgere :) i have been busy myself too…i am here but im as guilty as you are for not being…present.

My parents called the other day…they found out about my grandparents letting me stay with them for a whole week haha. They were pretty furious…but its okay! Im still busy catching up in work and mom’s…checking in me every now and then…making sure i dont miss anything…cant even hangout with the others for a bit haha..

fyck rheyre fucking sjck and nobdoy bothered tp tell me abjyt it fyck i cant do thsi angmore imnsorry

Who’s sick? Cam, what happened??

apparrntly thays the only fufking readkn were gking therr jn the first place i dpnt knkw

im fhcking sdared meeksje i feel sjck i wsih i cpuld hug yiu rjght nlw

Breathe cam, breathe. What? I thought its a vacation? Cam thats awful im sorry i wish i coukd give you a hug right now…

im sprry i kjow ghjs is only makign tthings worse plesse jhst make dure everhthjngs okay thrre..,, i dpnt know hkw long jtll be til j see yoi agsjn ahaaha💛

No don’t apologize cam, its not your faukt, ok? But uh i dont think the boys are doing good…i mean i havent really talked to them…what do you mean?…cam? When are you coming back?? :((

neilnotperry

He knows he fucking knows and he hates me and its all my fucking fault because I can never keep my goddamn mouth shut

I know he regrets calling the ambulance that day and spendinh so mcuh money to keep me alive. I wish he fucking hadnt god ive never seen him look so disgusted, fuck i feel sick

Imagine finding out your o nly son is a fag! Go ask my dad how that feels

ill never be able to make him proud hes never going to be happy with who i am why do j even bother anymore? everything I do is wrong, I'm wrong, why am i even here?

I dont wnant to hurt anymore im ao tired

Neil?? Where are you??

fyck rheyre fucking sjck and nobdoy bothered tp tell me abjyt it fyck i cant do thsi angmore imnsorry

Who’s sick? Cam, what happened??

apparrntly thays the only fufking readkn were gking therr jn the first place i dpnt knkw

im fhcking sdared meeksje i feel sjck i wsih i cpuld hug yiu rjght nlw

Breathe cam, breathe. What? I thought its a vacation? Cam thats awful im sorry i wish i coukd give you a hug right now…

fyck rheyre fucking sjck and nobdoy bothered tp tell me abjyt it fyck i cant do thsi angmore imnsorry

Who’s sick? Cam, what happened??

What the hell is going on….

fyck meeksje jm sos o skrry

i dpdnt even knkw anhmore knox anf chsrlke got jn some fkght and nlw charlie js god kmows wherre

I dpnt know wgat to do anymkre i dont wanns leavr

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Hey hey cam, breathe ok, what is going on? Where are you? Are you with someone?

What the hell is going on….

@meeksandgeeks if you don't mind... I have to head into town this weekend to pick up some things for my trip. Would you like to come with? everyone else I've asked is busy already ahaha :) I could use some company and I wouldn't mind a good talk either:))

#ooc: everyone else he's asked is... nobody lmao😭#<< HAHAHUAHA bro just makes excuses like he really needs to.. as if meeks would turn him down akaoajowaj

I don’t mind at all :)) i’m glad to be of service 😌 i do need somethings too…for something. :))