Distraught
Did I miss the memo on how to socialize? did i miss the memo on how to fit in, i know i know, we’re always provided with this idea that you don’t always have to fit in with everyone and just be your own person. but at some point you find the people that you can really fit well with, i scroll through instagram and twitter and see posts of people i grew up with just having a blast with their diverse friend group just doing typical teenager things that i will probably wont get to do. it sounds absurd i know but it sucks. it really fucking sucks having such terrible anxiety talking to people connecting or even just having a basic conversation. i used to think that it was everyone else’s fault, judging me and thinking i wasnt good friend material but now that ive come to think of it i have absolutely nothing to offer in a friendship, I’m not relatable, i’m not funny, I don’t know how to keep a conversation and I’m so cripplingly awkward that i bring a really negative energy i find. i want to change. i dont know how but i will try













