Cringe to Fringe

CW: 203, GW 1: 200, GW 2: 180, GW 3: 160, UGW: 130 HW: 214 LW: 159 Main Goal: OMAD recovering from alcoholism DNI if: TERF, pro 4n4, minor

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Hm

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I’ve been sober from alcohol since thanksgiving. I’m going strong :)

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If you want muscle and have a binging problem just binge more on protein and incorporate small exercise until it’s a habit

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Gonna weigh myself when I get home. I’ve been bingeing a lot but mostly on just protein. I did drink some whole milk which I hate to do but sometimes my bones really crave the calcium. I’m also lactose intolerant so if I did end up bingeing it usually just comes right out

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I love being disrespected in my own house that I spend my own money on.

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I’ve heard it before but weirdly enough I found that when I drink less it takes more alcohol to get drunk. That’s literally the opposite of weed.

And I swear this is true. I drank 6shots after drinking for days straight and had a whole meltdown and said things I don’t even remember

After 3 days of being sober I drank the same amount and didn’t feel shit.

I really don’t understand the science but what works works I guess

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So we’ve gotten to the point where instead of celebrating great fathers we call them mothers????? If I fucking ever get called motherly just because I’m taking care of children I will say something. Because it shouldn’t be just a mother thing. It’s a deep social flaw that we just let shit fathers take the word from the good fathers.

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Getting rid of horrible friends that love and enable toxicity feels so fucking good. It’s so refreshing. I feel like a new man.

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Feels like I’ll never be able to run away from it. So here we go. Today I drank. I plan on drinking tonight even. I’ll post every day and every time I drink so that it starts to put in perspective.

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Not enough people talk about being fat with anorexia, or any ed in general. I haven't been below 150 lbs since I was like twelve, and I've been on tumblr hating my body for at LEAST that long. My ugw is 120 and I see these (beautiful and worthy!) people on here at like 116 and their ugw is like 90. All power to them, and EVERYONE'S ED IS VALID but it makes me feel so invalid and even more unworthy, because, it just feels like, it's so in reach for them. And for me, it's like, it's been a pipe dream to be thin for as long as I can remember. And I know it's like that for a lot of you guys, too. I love you so much and you are so valid in your eating disorder whether your starting weight is 100 lbs or 350 lbs.

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God I feel so useless. I feel like a bee that lost its stinger while trying to survive and yet I’m still dying no matter how much effort I put in to live.

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I’m about to fucking freak the fuck out. I got recognized and misgendered by a bunch of people when trying to shop at my old job and now I just want to fucking curl in a ball and never wake up. I’m not going to recover from tonight, it’s gonna be one of those moments that I look back on and remember as the fucking catalyst

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I know if I ever do meet my ugw I’ll probably make it lower and I’ll need to do even more, because I already don’t think it’s low enough and I’m worried that I’m still going to be treated like the fat one around all my friends and family.

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Bout to commit sudoku if I accidentally break one more god damn dish or bong

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I’m not a huge fan of other Ed Not Sheeran people in my comments or even just in general being like “hey girlies” or “remember, ladies” “for my sk*nny girls” and completely excluding the men with Eds? Like I understand that most people here are probably girls but cmon :/ men (and nonbinary people) can have Eds too, and maybe, just PERHAPS we also want to be a part of the community??

Sorry if this sounds stupid, it’s just something I see a lot that seems to rarely be addressed.

I’ve literally had people in MY comments addressing me as a girl bc people assume anyone with an ed on this app is automatically a girl?? It just gets a bit frustrating at times ig

- a transmasc guy with an ed

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I’m so fucking sad. I had a really terrible night last night and I just want to fucking never speak or do anything ever again but I’m cursed to always say some dumb shit. And I’m so fucking tired of being an alcoholic. I want to stop so fucking bad. Today is day 1. It has to be. I’m not even slowly hurting myself anymore. It’s getting worse fast. And I don’t want to die like that I want to die of old age with my partner. But I’m deeply terrified now. I think I really screwed up. I’m only 21.

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I was gonna get a burger but I got sushi instead and I’m proud I chose that even though it cost more