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memory anon for @s1m0n-th3-butch3r

[memoryofavoice]

//yall should i draw memory

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

Mr.Grace I’m kinda eepy so I’m gonna be so honest right now

I cried very very hard and very very ugly when you went into space

I locked myself in my closet for like four hours and I didn’t go to school the next day, I wasn’t feeling very happy :(

- Devin/ 🖋️

[Grace is wavering between telling them and trying to protect them, but…]

I didn’t want to leave you guys. I told Stratt — I told her you needed me. I wanted to get back to you. She didn’t… she said that if I didn’t board the Hail Mary, I was condemning you to die. She said that if I didn’t go, I didn’t really care about you. I was just being a coward and hiding behind pretending to want to protect you. 

[Grace takes a deep breath. He needs to be strong and tell Devin the truth without crying. They deserve the truth.]

Devin, I’m going to tell you something, and I need you to not overreact. It’s done now. There’s nothing anyone can do about it, and freaking out won’t help me.

I didn’t want to come up here. They drugged me. I tried to come back, I promise. I didn’t choose to leave you.

[memoryofavoice]

[Memory's mask cracked. Literally. The comedy half had a spiderwebbed crack.]

....They what....?

[fadedwithstars]

…Everyone here has someone… all the gods do

Am I the only one who doesn’t..?

[memoryofavoice]

A family...?

I...don't think I have one.

[Not anymore.]

[What was that?]

...you can come into my headspace!

..y-you're another voice, right?

[memoryofavoice]

Mod:

Btw, the guilt Memory feels is cause their parents were killed in front of them and they couldn't do anything ^_^ they feel guilty for not being able to help others

they can now comfort and soothe others -hence their mindscape- because they needed that before

[memoryofavoice]

GUYS WHAT DO YOU MEAN GODS FEED ON GUILT?

[memoryofavoice]

@y0u-cann0t-h1de hide mentioned!!??

Anyway Memory ref sheet made by @petercanparkacar aka @authorofvisions aka ME

kiddoo

[y0u-cann0t-h1de]

YAYAYAYAYAYAY ART

[memoryofavoice]

YIPEE

anyway i think its really funny that memory's like. "That guy almost killed me. Hate hate."

And hide's like "Who even is this kid?? Fuck did i do to them???"

[memoryofavoice]

@y0u-cann0t-h1de hide mentioned!!??

Anyway Memory ref sheet made by @petercanparkacar aka @authorofvisions aka ME

kiddoo

[practical-hibiscus]

...today sucks.

[eirasnowanon]

you're so right:(

[memoryofavoice]

What happened, Miss Eira? Is everyone okay?

[valyriesmixedbag]

we managed to break into Hide's mindscape.

I think he'll be fine. Nothing to worry about, Memory.

[memoryofavoice]

Oh.

...that's good.

I don't like him, but I don't want him hurt.

Okay! But... are you okay, Miss?

[eirasnowanon]

I'm alright. Just...listening to Or explaining about how guilt works for the gods....useful information to know.

....I'm just glad my friend is alright. I was worried he was....

No. Don' think like that.

[memoryofavoice]

[Memory frowned, handing Eira a little bird plush.]

Here. These- help me calm down. They help with worries.

...That sounds interesting.

[eirasnowanon]

thank you, Memory.

She cuddles the bird plush close.

....do you mind if I keep this?

[memoryofavoice]

[Memory piped up, the little star in their eye sparkling. They flicked their tail happily.]

I don't mind! It's a gift!

[The kid loved helping.]

[practical-hibiscus]

...today sucks.

[eirasnowanon]

you're so right:(

[memoryofavoice]

What happened, Miss Eira? Is everyone okay?

[valyriesmixedbag]

we managed to break into Hide's mindscape.

I think he'll be fine. Nothing to worry about, Memory.

[memoryofavoice]

Oh.

...that's good.

I don't like him, but I don't want him hurt.

Okay! But... are you okay, Miss?

[eirasnowanon]

I'm alright. Just...listening to Or explaining about how guilt works for the gods....useful information to know.

....I'm just glad my friend is alright. I was worried he was....

No. Don' think like that.

[memoryofavoice]

[Memory frowned, handing Eira a little bird plush.]

Here. These- help me calm down. They help with worries.

...That sounds interesting.

[practical-hibiscus]

...today sucks.

[eirasnowanon]

you're so right:(

[memoryofavoice]

What happened, Miss Eira? Is everyone okay?

[valyriesmixedbag]

we managed to break into Hide's mindscape.

I think he'll be fine. Nothing to worry about, Memory.

[memoryofavoice]

Oh.

...that's good.

I don't like him, but I don't want him hurt.

Okay! But... are you okay, Miss?

[practical-hibiscus]

...today sucks.

[eirasnowanon]

you're so right:(

[memoryofavoice]

What happened, Miss Eira? Is everyone okay?

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

Mr. Grace!

I... remember you now. Ironic i forgot , considered I'm called Memory now.

It's not my actual name. I should know that name. I can't grasp it.

I met Devin! He talked to me about you after I talked to him, and I remembered I used to go to your class.

I... can't remember my name yet though. I wish I knew who I was.

@memoryofavoice

-🎭☄️

... You were one of my students, too? I can't tell... your voice, I can't tell who you are. I'm so sorry.

[memoryofavoice]

Don't- don't worry. I forgot you, too. Davin let me remember.

I'm sorry.

I remember I trusted you, though. I remember you cared.

Thank you. For- caring. I can't remember many people I associate that with.

You can just- call me Memory. For- for now. Until I... remember.

[memoryofavoice]

I don't think we've met. Memory, right? I'm Eira.

I'm kinda on mute right now but I can still talk to other voices so uh....I heard you and didn't recognize the voice.

❄️

Uh ....yeah.

I don't- think we've talked before.

are you...one of the nice voices?

yknow. the ones that don't yell.

or- or hurt people.

'M sorry, i'm a bit tired I think? Stuff.

I've been remembering a lot of things- my name is kinda ironic considering how many memories I can't grasp...

[eirasnowanon]

...I think I'm one of the nice ones. Someone them might say otherwise, considering my past and some of my actions lately.

...we can talk later, if you'd like. Rest if you need it. It really is the best medicine.

[memoryofavoice]

Actions...? I think I can.. forgive. Mr Grace said it is good to forgive...

I'm good to talk. I rest when I really really need it.

[eirasnowanon]

ah...alright. would you like some tea?

[memoryofavoice]

Sure! It's like, the warm water that tastes good right?

[eirasnowanon]

Yeah, something like that.

She conjures a small teapot full of lavender tea with honey.

Woah. That was...too easy. What's up with her lately?

[memoryofavoice]

It smells nice- wait. How did you come into my mindscape? Did I leave a portal open-?

[eirasnowanon]

yeah, you left one. Sorry. I can leave, it' no issue.

[memoryofavoice]

Nono- no worries!! Just- I should prolly close it later.

You can sit anywhere!

[Memory vaguely pointed to the ground, which was made of fluffy, blueish grass and had pillows littered around. They suddenly realized they had both their mask on and their head wings covering their face.]

Ah- where are my manners right-?

[They uncovered their face. They looked like a normal kid, except for the trail of star patterns that seemed represent tears. There was one on their neck too.]

Okay, now we can talk!!

[eirasnowanon]

I have headwings too...do yours always hurt when there's danger?

Another kid. Another kid. Why are there so many children in the fucking hell?

[memoryofavoice]

Not that I know of, no... I mean, they glow when Hide is around, but it's just a defense mechanism.

...I don't actually have much against Hide. Logically, I know they weren't hurting me on purpose. It just- I couldn't breathe. It hurt, everywhere. And- I should forgive them. I just can't.

...they were just trying to hurt Mr. Simon. And I know it was- really long ago. But-

[They froze. Their headwings drooped.]

A-ah-! I'm- so sorry, didn't mean to go on a tangent. You- probably wanna leave now. I-I'm sorry. Sorry.

[eirasnowanon]

...Hide isn't near as bad as he seems. I know it. I've seen it.

...maybe try giving him another chance. He might surprise you.

[memoryofavoice]

...maybe. I just- he reminds me of someone.

I don't- know who-? But I- I remember fear.

He scares me for some reason...

I'll try, though...

[eirasnowanon]

that's all I ask.

...I'm upsetting you. I should leave.

And she does, but leaves the rest of the tea for Memory.

[memoryofavoice]

..N-no! Don't worr-

[Eira was gone. They sat down on the grass, their wings pressing at the sides of their head. Alone again. Hm. Memory seemed to be good at scaring people away.]

[...where did that come from? Memory hadn't done anything-?]

[But you said it.]

[They shook their head, going to their drawing corner again and sketching Eira. She was quite pretty, it was easier to draw her. The strokes of the pen were easier.]

[memoryofavoice]

I don't think we've met. Memory, right? I'm Eira.

I'm kinda on mute right now but I can still talk to other voices so uh....I heard you and didn't recognize the voice.

❄️

Uh ....yeah.

I don't- think we've talked before.

are you...one of the nice voices?

yknow. the ones that don't yell.

or- or hurt people.

'M sorry, i'm a bit tired I think? Stuff.

I've been remembering a lot of things- my name is kinda ironic considering how many memories I can't grasp...

[eirasnowanon]

...I think I'm one of the nice ones. Someone them might say otherwise, considering my past and some of my actions lately.

...we can talk later, if you'd like. Rest if you need it. It really is the best medicine.

[memoryofavoice]

Actions...? I think I can.. forgive. Mr Grace said it is good to forgive...

I'm good to talk. I rest when I really really need it.

[eirasnowanon]

ah...alright. would you like some tea?

[memoryofavoice]

Sure! It's like, the warm water that tastes good right?

[eirasnowanon]

Yeah, something like that.

She conjures a small teapot full of lavender tea with honey.

Woah. That was...too easy. What's up with her lately?

[memoryofavoice]

It smells nice- wait. How did you come into my mindscape? Did I leave a portal open-?

[eirasnowanon]

yeah, you left one. Sorry. I can leave, it' no issue.

[memoryofavoice]

Nono- no worries!! Just- I should prolly close it later.

You can sit anywhere!

[Memory vaguely pointed to the ground, which was made of fluffy, blueish grass and had pillows littered around. They suddenly realized they had both their mask on and their head wings covering their face.]

Ah- where are my manners right-?

[They uncovered their face. They looked like a normal kid, except for the trail of star patterns that seemed represent tears. There was one on their neck too.]

Okay, now we can talk!!

[eirasnowanon]

I have headwings too...do yours always hurt when there's danger?

Another kid. Another kid. Why are there so many children in the fucking hell?

[memoryofavoice]

Not that I know of, no... I mean, they glow when Hide is around, but it's just a defense mechanism.

...I don't actually have much against Hide. Logically, I know they weren't hurting me on purpose. It just- I couldn't breathe. It hurt, everywhere. And- I should forgive them. I just can't.

...they were just trying to hurt Mr. Simon. And I know it was- really long ago. But-

[They froze. Their headwings drooped.]

A-ah-! I'm- so sorry, didn't mean to go on a tangent. You- probably wanna leave now. I-I'm sorry. Sorry.

[eirasnowanon]

...Hide isn't near as bad as he seems. I know it. I've seen it.

...maybe try giving him another chance. He might surprise you.

[memoryofavoice]

...maybe. I just- he reminds me of someone.

I don't- know who-? But I- I remember fear.

He scares me for some reason...

I'll try, though...

[memoryofavoice]

I don't think we've met. Memory, right? I'm Eira.

I'm kinda on mute right now but I can still talk to other voices so uh....I heard you and didn't recognize the voice.

❄️

Uh ....yeah.

I don't- think we've talked before.

are you...one of the nice voices?

yknow. the ones that don't yell.

or- or hurt people.

'M sorry, i'm a bit tired I think? Stuff.

I've been remembering a lot of things- my name is kinda ironic considering how many memories I can't grasp...

[eirasnowanon]

...I think I'm one of the nice ones. Someone them might say otherwise, considering my past and some of my actions lately.

...we can talk later, if you'd like. Rest if you need it. It really is the best medicine.

[memoryofavoice]

Actions...? I think I can.. forgive. Mr Grace said it is good to forgive...

I'm good to talk. I rest when I really really need it.

[eirasnowanon]

ah...alright. would you like some tea?

[memoryofavoice]

Sure! It's like, the warm water that tastes good right?

[eirasnowanon]

Yeah, something like that.

She conjures a small teapot full of lavender tea with honey.

Woah. That was...too easy. What's up with her lately?

[memoryofavoice]

It smells nice- wait. How did you come into my mindscape? Did I leave a portal open-?

[eirasnowanon]

yeah, you left one. Sorry. I can leave, it' no issue.

[memoryofavoice]

Nono- no worries!! Just- I should prolly close it later.

You can sit anywhere!

[Memory vaguely pointed to the ground, which was made of fluffy, blueish grass and had pillows littered around. They suddenly realized they had both their mask on and their head wings covering their face.]

Ah- where are my manners right-?

[They uncovered their face. They looked like a normal kid, except for the trail of star patterns that seemed represent tears. There was one on their neck too.]

Okay, now we can talk!!

[eirasnowanon]

I have headwings too...do yours always hurt when there's danger?

Another kid. Another kid. Why are there so many children in the fucking hell?

[memoryofavoice]

Not that I know of, no... I mean, they glow when Hide is around, but it's just a defense mechanism.

...I don't actually have much against Hide. Logically, I know they weren't hurting me on purpose. It just- I couldn't breathe. It hurt, everywhere. And- I should forgive them. I just can't.

...they were just trying to hurt Mr. Simon. And I know it was- really long ago. But-

[They froze. Their headwings drooped.]

A-ah-! I'm- so sorry, didn't mean to go on a tangent. You- probably wanna leave now. I-I'm sorry. Sorry.

[memoryofavoice]

I don't think we've met. Memory, right? I'm Eira.

I'm kinda on mute right now but I can still talk to other voices so uh....I heard you and didn't recognize the voice.

❄️

Uh ....yeah.

I don't- think we've talked before.

are you...one of the nice voices?

yknow. the ones that don't yell.

or- or hurt people.

'M sorry, i'm a bit tired I think? Stuff.

I've been remembering a lot of things- my name is kinda ironic considering how many memories I can't grasp...

[eirasnowanon]

...I think I'm one of the nice ones. Someone them might say otherwise, considering my past and some of my actions lately.

...we can talk later, if you'd like. Rest if you need it. It really is the best medicine.

[memoryofavoice]

Actions...? I think I can.. forgive. Mr Grace said it is good to forgive...

I'm good to talk. I rest when I really really need it.

[eirasnowanon]

ah...alright. would you like some tea?

[memoryofavoice]

Sure! It's like, the warm water that tastes good right?

[eirasnowanon]

Yeah, something like that.

She conjures a small teapot full of lavender tea with honey.

Woah. That was...too easy. What's up with her lately?

[memoryofavoice]

It smells nice- wait. How did you come into my mindscape? Did I leave a portal open-?

[eirasnowanon]

yeah, you left one. Sorry. I can leave, it' no issue.

[memoryofavoice]

Nono- no worries!! Just- I should prolly close it later.

You can sit anywhere!

[Memory vaguely pointed to the ground, which was made of fluffy, blueish grass and had pillows littered around. They suddenly realized they had both their mask on and their head wings covering their face.]

Ah- where are my manners right-?

[They uncovered their face. They looked like a normal kid, except for the trail of star patterns that seemed represent tears. There was one on their neck too.]

Okay, now we can talk!!

[memoryofavoice]

I don't think we've met. Memory, right? I'm Eira.

I'm kinda on mute right now but I can still talk to other voices so uh....I heard you and didn't recognize the voice.

❄️

Uh ....yeah.

I don't- think we've talked before.

are you...one of the nice voices?

yknow. the ones that don't yell.

or- or hurt people.

'M sorry, i'm a bit tired I think? Stuff.

I've been remembering a lot of things- my name is kinda ironic considering how many memories I can't grasp...

[eirasnowanon]

...I think I'm one of the nice ones. Someone them might say otherwise, considering my past and some of my actions lately.

...we can talk later, if you'd like. Rest if you need it. It really is the best medicine.

[memoryofavoice]

Actions...? I think I can.. forgive. Mr Grace said it is good to forgive...

I'm good to talk. I rest when I really really need it.

[eirasnowanon]

ah...alright. would you like some tea?

[memoryofavoice]

Sure! It's like, the warm water that tastes good right?

[eirasnowanon]

Yeah, something like that.

She conjures a small teapot full of lavender tea with honey.

Woah. That was...too easy. What's up with her lately?

[memoryofavoice]

It smells nice- wait. How did you come into my mindscape? Did I leave a portal open-?