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trusting the damn process

they decided to wake me up earlier than planned because i was so far induced into sleep that if they were to have given me anymore i’d have been in a coma. I remember my breathing tube was hurting me and I used whatever capacity I had to point and my throat hoping they would understand. i have my first vague recollection of being half asleep but pointing at my throat from the unbearable…

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full circle

i died they called it clinically dead, the nurses said they couldn’t find my pulse. i’ve woken up blurry eyes with more tubes, cables, cords and bruises than i’ve ever seen. my life was saved, i couldn’t talk or see but demanded my phone and i typed is baby ok. she wasn’t. but i was the doctors come in to tell me i was resuscitated and my beautiful daughter was born sleeping. i had just been…

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natures medicine

a taste of medicine so sweet its as though you can no longer swallow a surrender so deep its as though there is no physical form a heart so deeply cracked open and devoted its as though blood moves & crashes like the hungry sea a breath so shaken and dimensions deep that its almost as though for a moment my lungs fitfully resemble the leaves that merely scatter down the street for if they…

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unconditionally deep

i am surrending to fear and the depths of my emotions the neptunian energy of venus in scorpio is a place of our deep sea anglerfish. in recent teachings, internal reflection at the extreme forefront in a current – literal cyclone. how deep are we willing to dip our toes into the ocean? would we let it take us out into the unconditional deep sea of our love without bounds, the divine in all…

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the piano of my mind is sacred

and boy is it cherished, the ugly and the in-between bits

i love that when i write its like the letters can be the piano notes of the words my mind can barley express, once i began painting again a few months ago, and to let go and not really judge what happens next..

i have realised, if we all want to know what it takes to live the “good life”

its your fucking mindset

sorry to seem…

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Emotional society that makes me feel alive

As humans, we all know – death is by far, very far, one of the most painful things to happen to the living, ive always asked myself “could you imagine what a world we would have if we didn’t feel emotions?” and im automatically thrown back into gratitude.

heres something that started on my matt in childs pose with my head supported by mother earth when i asked “if there was one main thing…

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rolling stone

heart aches but its actually painless

when i found myself saying this

the laws of the universe are not difficult to grasp

if we stay all balled up in the question, the whys, wheres, whats and hows we cannot hear the answer because we are a vibrational match for what we create so regardless of the pain, moments or months of silence

you are a valuable human by pure existence alone

i…

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#awakening #emotions