silk

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[midlifecrises]

guys so i got a new phone and it won’t let my log in on this account bec im a dumbass and i forgot my password so if u wanna continue reading my crazy thoughts… follow me at @afewprayers … this rlly sucks bec I’ve already accumulated so many crazy posts here now i have to begin all over

[midlifecrises]

it’s so over … will give u guys the details once I’m actually over being left on read

[midlifecrises]

me w my three day talking stage… I know i don’t have real feeling for anyone bec i fall for everyone

[midlifecrises]

whats the point of having a talking stage if u don’t get a good morning text everyday that’s like bare minimum

[midlifecrises]

when u want to be with a doctor bec they’re smart but u have to sit thru them talking abt where they wanna train or whatever pls shut up and be pretty and smart … I think I want a man whos already established but I don’t have the credentials for an established person actually I don’t have the credentials for almost anyone

[killyridols]

i had a flashback of something that never existed by louise bourgeois, porcelain plate, 2002

[calleido]

[midlifecrises]

pooping at work to assert dominance … sorry I’m anxious and my tummy hurts

[lajoiedefrancoise]

Curb Your Enthusiasm (2000 - 2024)

[eveninginparis]

[midlifecrises]

I’m so depressed ì just ordered sushi… this can’t be good every time I’m depressed which is all the time I have to order sushi as a pick me up and i never feel good abt it. It’s like I’m an alcoholic

[midlifecrises]

i literally spend the entire week looking forward to the weekend only to end up wanting to smash my head every minute bec theres nothing to do … idk why but sometimes ì rlly want to just self-inflict some violence

[midlifecrises]

downloaded muzz and made a pretty serious profile only to feel objectified and not even by good looking men they’re all repulsive and short … how the hell am i gonna find a husband in this economy… and the only reason i wanna get married is to get away from my family

[midlifecrises]

going to work, TGIT thank god it’s Thursday

[petaltexturedskies]

Mary Oliver, "The Moths" in Dream Work

[midlifecrises]

me today at work my skirt keeps STICKING TO MY STOCKINGS … and the email i sent to my boss has no spaces btwn the paragraphs for some reason so now it looks like i just sent him a fucking block of paragraphs ì fucking hate myself and my coworker blindsided me and sent him an entire draft of her work before she even showed it to me for review even tho all of it was based on my task log

[midlifecrises]

sometimes i rlly wish i had a cigarette or smth… some moments i feel so heavy inside i rlly feel like maybe a cigarette would help take the edge off but realistically i find the smell repulsive and so i can never really smoke… got back to the office today, my coworkers keep talking about the war and all i do is stare at the wall in front of me bec they barely speak to me… and I have to worry abt completing my part in the progress report and we have to mention our degrees etc and I’m so inexperienced ì fear this will get me fired or smth bec my coworker is so accomplished compared to me and it’s more cost effective to have someone w more degrees and experience?…. But I have to start somewhere right? They can’t fire me , right?🤨🤨 right🫣 anyways I’m gonna go cry for a few minutes and stare at my work laptop until my eyelids hurt