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im bored and im andra. welcome to my personal digital diary, I don t expect anyone here but feel free to talk2me ^^ I keep this to laugh at myself when I m older

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hi im andra and i want to share some facts abt myself

im 18 romanian and im bored

i use tumblr because i don t really have friends and someone to talk to so instead i cope with my feelings whether they re good or bad with at least a something if i have trohble communicating with people.

im not trying to pity myself or anything and i actually enjoy talking to myself and use this page as a personal diary since i cant really keep a real diary.

I actually hope and pray no one who s close to me finds this page, i d kms. 😭😭

im really lazy and i don t really knwo what to do in life but i ll figure it out.

i love music and if i wasn t lazy i would maybe even produce it

im a taurus my bday is on april 24th, im a leo rising and a sagittarius moon 😓

i don t really have a favorite food maybe guacamole and tuna or both combined

im 173cm tall idk how to calculate in american metric system and im 50-52 kg

im entering in senior year and i ll graduate in 2027

i can t drive(yet)

i have a cool little sister

i love coffee and sleeping.

i drink coffee with honey milk and cinnamon

im from a small ass town

i try to improve myself daily and try to be better each day.

i like good movies amd good books sometimes

my favorite movie is trainspotting

my favorite animes are berserk 1997, lain, chainsmoker cat, dmcb, jjba, saiki k, apothecary s diary, nge, violet evergarden

my favorite book is tender is the flesh

my favorite singer is cece natalie

my favorite duo is snow strippers

i don t have a fav band but i fucking HATE the beatles

i love traveling

i enjoy making people feel good and laugh

i like listening to people and their lives

i hate raisins

i have like 3 friends

i have a boyfriend of almost 3 years

i want to have a cat or two

i like other cultures and would like to know more languages

i ve self taught the Cyrillic alphabet

i know romanian, english and a bit of french and spanish.

i don t do any sports

my favorite artist is cece natalie

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lowk one of my fav videos of myself

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chrismaaaa

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tb labeled this as mature content 😭

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me and mom had breakfast

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today i went running

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I made this for me and my bfs 1st year anniversary

he said that he liked it but there was no sign of joy in him 😓

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yumuuntjyjntjmyun yi uim ^_^

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i want to watch an old anime

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this was my prime

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i took this and my bf said im a communist but i aint

to me it looks like blue hair and pronouns

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im dead i can t do anything and i barely move

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this was taken a day before i tried to end it, i was about to turn 16 the other day and remain 16 forever.

i woudl ve been rotten rn looking like this

my eyes were lifeless lmao

it already passed 2 years and i can t imagine how it would’ve been if my life ended back then

i am proud of who i am today and that i battled depression without any preconception drug that would ve harm me, it took 2 years of therapy and openness.

i made this post to spread awareness because depression is not a joke, it kills way more faster than cancer does.

reach out as soon as possible to someone you trust and love, because you might take actions you would definitely regret like I did.

I was about to be dead after taking like 50 random pills that I found at home over something so small. I snapped because I didn’t tell anybody how I felt and had suicidal thoughts for years. Even after I took the pills I didn’t tell anybody to not worry them but eventually I passed out and I barely woke up when the nurses slapped me constantly to wake up. I told them what I did and then it all went blank. My mother was there for me the entire time and stood next to me the whole hospitalizastion. My bf was the first person who visited me, even if we were together for 4 months , I broke him and I hurt so many people with my actions, so please reach out. I was saved by a miracle, my heart was about to fully stop and then I developed serotonin syndrome and was sick for 2 weeks, constantly panicking and crying.

please reach out, stay safe.

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i wish i would ve give my blood to Tucu but unfortunately i am not a bunny :(

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yummy

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i want to swim

i want to swim in the sea

i haven t been at the beach for like 2 years :(

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nostalgia