𝓶𝓲𝓵𝓺𝔂_𝔀𝓲𝓼𝓽

𝒻𝒶𝒸ℯ ℴ𝒻 𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝑔ℯ𝓁, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒷ℴ𝒹𝓎 ℴ𝒻 𝒶 𝓅ℴ𝓇𝓃𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇

[milqywist]

I have a brain of a wet seal + rotten tomato

I love ducks and swans.

crying, throwing tantrums, and complaining are one of the few things i'm good at,

if you don't like what i post then please leave.

this is my personal blog for ranting, yapping and basically anything i want to or feel like posting.

i'd love to be friends or moots.

discord- pochacco

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tired, sleep deprived, exhausted, with my comfort/favourite lip gloss watching girl rot movies in my pjs on the living room couch.

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i- I just can't at this point

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ive cried abt my problems to the moon more than my own mother

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ITS FUCKING ONE A.M. N ITS THUNDERING AND LIGHTENING N AAAGGGHHH MY LIFE MAY NOT BE THAT GOOD BUT ATLEAST THE WEATHER IS AT MYSIDE WHHOOOOOOO

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I LOVE CUTE BRAD, TANKINI, LINGERIE, BIKINIS EVERYTHING. I WILL HAVE IT ONE DAY.

manifesting it.

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I WANT MONEY

I WANT MONEY SO I CAN SPEND IT ON MY

- HOBBIES

- CLOTHES

- MAKEUP

- SKIN AND HAIR CARE

- PERFUMES

- JEWELLERY

AND SOOO MUCH AUGFGGGGGGHGHHHHHVBG

[milqywist]

sit naked n stare at the Stars

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dancing in my room with lights off, in my freshly showered self only in a camisole a d panties.

yes.

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LOVE NORMAN FUCKING ROCKWELL

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I love staying up late.

love being awake till 4 or 5.

idk y I feel soo much at peace ig from 1 to 4.

ik I'm ruining my health but I love staying up late to have some peace and quiet.

it's ig way cheaper than therapy.

I love staring outside my window, chin tucked on the bed frame, lana and mitski playing through my earphones as I stare at the far distant cars knowing that someone might be awake at the same rime as me. it just sounds so comforting, sweet like a warm hug.

aaahhh

🛏️ 3;46 a.m.

[milqywist]

how I feel moving back into the home where I was-

♡ abused for 15 yrs

♡ tried killing myself

♡ ended up having an unhealthy relation with food.

[milqywist]

I AM BACK THOUGH IK BARELY ANYONE MISSED ME BUT HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

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my grandma ruins everyone's mood.

her and her blind obsession with her youngest and fav child uggghhh.

I don't have any regrets being firm and setting up boundaries if it makes her uncomfortable.

if she loves her 50 yr old sons a lot then let her take care of them not me.

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I moved back into the home I was raised and abused for around 10 to 11yrs.

I miss my friends and I feel so physically sick and lonely.

I'll throw up any minute.

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i suck at studying

[milqywist]

tbh I like the feeling of bandages on my skin.

or when I accidently cut my finger for like the 10th time cause I wasn't careful.

or when I wear sandals that hurt my feet n give me blisters and peel my skin off.

I like the feeling of smth tight clinging to a part of my skin it makes me feel weak.

or I feel more fragile idk. ig it's just my self harm tendencies acting lol. I'm thinking of purposefully wearing those sandals that hurt my foot tomorrow, and get knew cuts or so.

idk but I hate seeing scars covering my skin, I adore them on other people but on me it's disgusting. like someone forcing me to wear something and dragging me out in front of people as they laugh and make fun of how I look.

like a poorly overdressed platypus in multiple over layered clothes and accessories.

it's ugh.

I like wearing my jacket or full sleeves despite it being hella hot.

idk I love seeing my arms covered.n not thinking abt the multiple reasons I'd give if someone asked about my scars.

I feel disgusting or puking like standing and just sracthing the skin of my body till all I'm left is structure of bones and organs.

ugh I admire them on others but on me they feel like chains.

UGHHH