Some recent paintings Iāve done.
Random personal/life rambles under the cut. Tw:mental health
Recently, Iāve been having a really bad time mentally. Nothing bad has really happened to me personally since January(the first week of the year was ROUGH, but Iām mostly over that now), but Iāve just been spiralling for some reason, and I feel like Iām stagnating and falling behind. Iāve mostly stopped having original ideas, and am also having major creative block. Iāve started doing a painting every day, though, and itās honestly just what I needed, I think.
Doing painting studies from photos has genuinely been a godsend for me, though. Itās relaxing and gives me something to look forward to every day. Iāve also noticed incremental technical improvements. I now consider myself to be on the low end of mediocre. I never thought thatād be something Iād be happy about, but seeing myself progress in at least one small area of my life reminds me that Iām not completely stagnant, and am still capable of growth.
Iāve even been able to come up with some ideas related to my long-term worldbuilding/story project recently, and have started writing it down. Idk yet if itās something Iāll share here, but itās helped a lot to feel at least somewhat creative again, and to actually enjoy doing things. Itās genuinely been so long since doing an activity āeven an activity I love ā didnāt feel like a chore, and I feel like getting at least some of that sense of enjoyment back is a sign that I must be doing at least something right.













