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June 9 , 2018 - 9:33pm

i find myself writing on this page a little over a year ago and finding myself in the same position in as i once was, my mental health poorly managed and hurting the one i love. trying to get better, be better, through trial and error with the only substance to help is in the hands of the wanted.

january 25 , 2017 - 8:51 pm

i was going to write something about you, but as soon as i went to spill my thoughts out through my fingers the memories of you slipped my mind.

january 4 , 2017 - 8:57 pm

i was okay with writing this all down because i need to admit to my issues but as soon as i opened this i'm at a loss for words. i suffer from depression and anxiety. i hate them words "i suffer" it's so degrading but i know i have to live up to it. my depression and anxiety can keep me curled up in my bed for days, i ended my last relationship because of it and i'm terrified to start a new one. i'm not even going to sugar coat it it fucking sucks being sad all the time and not having anyone in your corner helping you makes it worse everyday. i've lost friends because of it, i lost the boy i loved because of it and i'm using "loved" very loosely because if he really loved me i wouldn't be sitting here confessing all of this, but i have to say it feels good to write it all down.

January 1, 2017 - 7:27 pm

why do as i feel as if i am being drawn back to you? laying at bed listening to the countdown with the only thing kissing my lips being the burn of vodka. wanting you to come back into my life so dearly but terrified out the outcome. i never thought i would result to writing here again because i could talk to you but i can't now. i don't have anyone now and i don't know whats more terrifying, the thought of coming back to you or drowning my thoughts away.

december 31st, 2016 - 11:33am

what i learned in 2016 - i learned its okay to step out of your comfort zone and travel across the country - i learned that high school is so over rated and once you graduate you'll never talk to them people again - i learned to speak up and defend myself when people try to criticize me about my life choices. - i learned it's okay to be sad sometimes - i learned that i look fucking awesome with short hair - i learned not to care what people think of me - i learned that if someone really cares about you they will tell you - i learned that i love greek food - i learned that even though change might seem scary it's always for the better - i learned to always tell family you love them because you don't know what could happen tomorrow

december 28 , 2016 - 8:32 pm

i feel as though i am alone in my thoughts with no one to express them too, the feeling of drowning has became more and more evident through out the months of learning how to love myself being by myself and i just can't seem to get the hang of it. wanting to crawl out of my skin and lay in bed feeling numb with all the alcohol flowing through my veins and the smoke incapsulating my lungs.

listaosjecaja

november 27, 2016 - 10:18pm

i need to find someone who loves me for me, someone who is utterly and completely infatuated with me, someone who just wants nothing more then to learn more about me. to not be able to go a day without knowing i'm okay or just to call me pretty. someone who cares. that's all i want, someone who cares.

may 29, 2016 - 9:57pm

anxiety is waking up in the morning feeling worthless and not wanting to talk to anyone. anxiety is having to keep reassuring yourself that no one is looking at you and yore just being paranoid. anxiety is saying goodnight to someone every night because you're afraid they are going to forget about you. anxiety is not being able to have fun when you're with your friends. anxiety is expecting the worst. anxiety is the anticipation of you leaving again. the worry. the sadness. everything.

April 7 , 2016 - 10:47pm

why do I feel as if you don't care about me anymore. our conversations have turned into nothing. I feel like I don't know you anymore. this has been such an awful time and I can't even go to you without feeling like a bother.

aguidetolivingwell

linesx

March 23, 2015 - 11:41pm happy

perrfectly

March 7, 2016 - 2:15am

once again my thoughts come to haunt me making me miss you more and more with each breath. the only time I left my bed this weekend was to go to work. it's happening again, I'm starting to shut everyone out. I can't remember the last time it got this bad I just hope I can keep my promise.

March 2, 2016 - 9:33pm

maybe that's why I drink so much. the burn of vodka slowly flowing threw my veins and the rush of anger overwhelming me is better then puffy eyes and mascara stained cheeks. being so affectionate while intoxicated because I've been without it for so long and only then is my missing of a human touch valid and my sadness is on a bill board for all to see.

February 16, 2016 - 10:16pm

why I dye my hair. I dyed my hair red because he told me not to. he told me I wouldn't look good. I dyed my hair sliver because I was to upset looking at pictures of me with him with my blonde hair and decided I needed a change. I dyed my hair blue for a fresh start. getting away from a toxic boy made me feel as free as the ocean. I dyed my hair dark brown and cut it all off. this was the first time I drastically changed my hair for my own good. not after a breakup. not because dumb boys made me sad. I changed it because I was sad. I was sad at who I have became, a girl who was scared to be herself. now with my hair gone I feel free, I feel sassy, I feel beautiful.

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