Kai Anderson x fem. Reader
Love… it should be a sin, when love justifies actions like his, it should be a sin.
I was in his little group, his cult, I fell in love with him silently, unlike Meadow. I was… silent, observant and obsessed. I followed his beliefs and orders, even when he was a misogynistic asshole surrounded by his minions, I didn’t complain.
Even when he took sides with one of his soldiers over me even though I was the one who was wronged in the situation. Don’t get me wrong I don’t tolerate humiliation I got my revenge on that man and caused Kai to kill him because “He’s a mole, that was why I was arguing with him, Kai”, he wasn’t I was just… jealous.
Jealousy, what a dangerous thing. I was a jealous lover to the point of murder. I would kill out of jealousy, but fortunately Kai never drove me that far.
Did he know about my feelings towards him? Yes, we fucked almost 4 times a week, each time he let me sleep in his bed, in his arms. Whispering sweet nothings in my ear, placing soft kisses on my cheeks and lips.
The Kool aid incident, what a day, he gave me the cup himself, looked me in the eyes and said “prove your absolute devotion”.
Now let me tell you something, I love him, I adore him, but I love myself even more. My heart dropped and I got a panic attack that night, after drinking the sugary colored water, I felt sick to my stomach and puked that night in the bathroom of his room.
He stood outside the opened door looking at me with a hint of tenderness. “You’re pregnant, aren’t you?” I nodded, yes I was pregnant with his baby. 5 weeks, I’ve been carrying a part of him inside my womb for 5 weeks.
You would think his demeanor changed, but no, it didn’t, well just a bit, we still fucked almost every night. He took pride in making me pregnant. And he almost cried because he thought I was losing the baby when he saw spotting on my underwear.
I explained to him of course it’s normal to spot, maybe I got a sensitive cervix. “You should be gentler next time” is all what I said.
Such a shame he didn’t get to see his son. After he was arrested, thanks to that bitch Ally, he didn’t get the chance to see my last pregnancy months. And his murder on the TV by the hands of Beverly. I was breastfeeding my baby at the hospital when the news came out. I was devastated to the point that I wanted to murder everyone.
All I had left was our son, he looked just like him, blondish brown hair, straight nose, he got my eyes, my beautiful honey like eyes. The only remaining of Kai. The only reminder of his existence, the only thing to prove I wasn’t delusional and Kai actually existed in the past.
The love of my life. My biggest sin. Kai Anderson.
