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OCEAN AVENUE

there’s a piece of you that’s here with me, It’s everywhere I go, it’s everything I see, when I sleep, I dream and it gets me by, I can make believe that you’re here tonight… I went to a Yellowcard concert last week.  And of course, in typical me fashion, my thoughts have been swirling.  Nothing frantic, but it feels like my brain is doing a puzzle and I’m watching it find each piece and smile…

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CANTILENE

oh, va bene, ti giuro che va bene, se prego, poi, magari Dio interviene, va bene, ti giuro che sto bene, malgrado le intemperie, e va bene, dai, mandiamo tutto all’aria, tanto, prima o poi, col vento tornerà… There are some things I want to talk about in this post. It might feel a little all over the place at first, but hopefully by the end it makes sense. It’s a lot and I hope you’ll stick with…

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BUTTERFLIES

Handcuff yourself to Rock ‘n’ Roll, dreamin’ Hollywood dreams, protect your neck and save yourself, gatekeepin’ the peace, it’s how you cope, but now you’re chokin’ while you’re prayin’ for some discount Jesus Christ to come save you from yourself… I went back and read some of my old posts today. Different dates. Different titles. Same exact feeling. Every single one of them—heavy. Exhausted.…

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LANDSLIDE (Part II)

well, I’ve been afraid of changing ’cause I’ve built my life around you, but time makes you bolder, even children get older, and I’m getting older too… I’m in the middle of writing another post, catching up on the last couple of months. But this one skipped the line because it felt more important. Things have been heavy lately. The inner work has been heavy. The person I’ve been working on…

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I WISH YOU STAYED

For the first post of 2026, I’m starting things off a little differently. No song today. This is most likely a one time thing, but in case you’ve been reading along and happened to notice, I just wanted to make sure I clarified. I went to a Reiki session a few weeks ago and something really interesting happened in the middle of it. And it’s something that has been the driving force of the last…

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NO HARD FEELINGS (Part II)

when my body won’t hold me anymore and it finally lets me free, will I be ready? when my feet won’t walk another mile and my lips give their last kiss goodbye, will my hands be steady? when I lay down my fears, my hopes, and my doubts, the rings on my fingers, and the keys to my house, with no hard feelings… NO HARD FEELINGS Four years ago, I wrote this post. Reading it again made me sad, but I…

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FIX YOU

when you try your best, but you don’t succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need, when you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep, stuck in reverse… The last three weeks have been incredibly heavy. My last post touched on the subject, but things actually got much worse before they finally started to get a little lighter. The good news is that as I’m writing I am standing on the very…

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Anche Fragile

io non vivo senza sogni e tu sai che è così, e perdonami se sono forte, sì e se poi sono anche fragile… There’s a post in my drafts right now telling you all about my trip to Sicily. And for whatever reason, I couldn’t finish writing it. It all seemed very mundane and blah and I just wasn’t feeling it. Today was a super mushy day. I felt very disconnected from everything despite my best efforts…

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a squarciagola (parte II)

e non vado fino in fondo nelle cose da un po’, come un palombaro, che faccio tutto a caso, un po’ ci riesco, un po’ no, che maleducato, maledetto me che lascio caos dove metto le mani (come?), come gli americani (chi?), gli incendi e gli uragani, volevo questa vita che però non sento mia, mi sento un elefante dentro una cristalleria… alzo il volume della radio, abbasso il finestrino e cambio…

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a squarciagola

a me, che cеrco un segno dentro al fondo di un caffè, che perdo tempo a stare al mondo senza un perché, che manderei tutto a puttane ma non ci riesco, ci metto tutto me stesso… It’s been a while. I don’t really know what’s going on anymore, if I’m being honest. I feel like I’ve lost all abilities to regulate emotions. Looking for signs at the bottom of a coffee cup (as this song says). This…

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THROUGH MY PRAYERS

hard to believe I won’t see you again, we were just fighting when winter began, the coldness of our words competing with the wind from the north, still they make me shiver but in a very different way, the pages of the calendar kept turning away, I have some better words now, but it’s too late to say them to you… my dream of all dreams and my hope of all hopes is only to tell you and make sure you…

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BLACK LINES TO BATTLEFIELDS

like screaming in the air, the sound for all who care, the siren rings in vain, when lightning hits the ground, to all who stand around, the shock of ignorance… I haven’t cried hysterically in 2 whole days. I felt like I should tell you that. And I have been trying really hard to keep it that way. The last few days have been busy, but when I have free moments, or time to listen while I’m doing…

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GRAVITY

something always brings me back to you, it never takes too long… no matter what I say or do, I still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone… I stumbled upon a cover of this song a few days ago. I don’t usually like covers of Sara Bareilles songs. And I think it’s because she sings her songs so beautifully that no cover has ever really done it for me. But this cover? Here’s the link: Raymond…

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ORPHEUS (Part III)

don’t stop trying to find me here amidst the chaos, though I know it’s blinding there’s a way out, say out loud we will not give up on love now, no fear, don’t you turn like Orpheus, just stay here, hold me in the dark and when the day appears we’ll say we did not give up on love today… I’m starting off in a different direction than I usually do. I want to talk about Orpheus, and what this song…

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EMOTIONLESS

the scars run deep inside this tattooed body, there’s things I’ll take to my grave, but I’m ok, I’m ok… I posted the other day. It was a blink and you’ll miss it crash out. I unraveled and it didn’t make me feel good. Giving up on myself and this journey isn’t something I want to do. I had a moment and it passed. I took it down and felt much better about that decision. I’m here today because…

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ISLANDS

it’s like I’m standing on the edge with just a telephone wire, trying to get to you first to say the world’s on fire, holding my breath until I know you’re alright, because the water will only rise… Last night, I broke. I thought about all of the work that I’ve done. All of the progress, or lack thereof, and really wanted to be the champion for myself and say “let’s keep at it!” But the truth is…

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HALLELUJAH...

faith was strong but you needed proof, you saw her bathing on the roof, her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya, she tied you to the kitchen chair, she broke your throne and she cut your hair, and from your lips she drew the hallelujah… The last few days I’ve been processing a lot of stuff, and so I’m just here today to write it out. I don’t even really know how to explain all of this, but I’m…