lost girl

[poetryvrose]

i spent my whole life trying to fit into the box struggling to be the perfect child the perfect friend, the perfect lover never doing things i wanted to do never being who i was a poet? they’d say. that’s not a profession gay? they’d say. you haven’t found the right person

it felt like drowning faking it all smiling through the mask of being what i was expected to be until one day i realised the worst thing that i could do to myself was not being who i wanted to be that was ultraviolence and it wasn’t forgivable at all

[voidlightmoon]

Still true

“then will he strip his sleeve, and show his scars…” Shakespeare. Henry V, Act 4

We all have scars battles won, battles lost Wounds borne with honor though, too high, the cost Bloody, bruised, and broken All we survived every hurt, bloody words spoken Still, we are alive Some bear this pain filled with shame, and fear We are none of us the same but all of us are here No more shame for what we went through We stand: sleeves stripped Bloody, beautiful and true

[voidlightmoon]

Little while

Guess I’ll just close my eyes for a little while Try to remember the last time you made me smile Dancing like a fool singing your song Laughing all the while as I sang along Those were such great times so long ago I’m left with only these rhymes So cold, and lonely Guess I’ll just close my eyes for a little while

[voidlightmoon]

Always means

He was all scars and sublimated pain She was the clouds soft, an ever giving rain Together they were Love holy blood and fire Darkness and Light combined the pinnacle of desire She spoke of forever as he looked on with disdain He knew that always always means never She didn’t complain First flush of love hearts swelling lips telling secrets, and lies Love never ends Love always dies

[voidlightmoon]

We count

Not enough time hope laughter love For all that I want with you for you from you Together we were forever perfect fitted true Never say never farewell goodbye My love and hope are done loss left lost We live to count the cost

[voidlightmoon]

Dreams ripped

Such a struggle between the hopes and dreams of who we are of who we want to be Burdened by every wrong wounds which weep Throat closed no more song Howling in our sleep Love leaking still seeking to be who we always dreamed of Soul incites to passion scars which speak of love We fall so hard, so fucking fast So why do we think this time it will last Hearts that break in the silence souls succumb to the violence Screaming dreams ripped at the seams of this so-called life Gripping and slipping on the edge of a knife

[voidlightmoon]

always less

Last light finds fangs bared holy faces / souls impaired so scared of love peace comes / fiery dove / Apollo lies no help from above soul struck from my frame blood and glass / don’t ask hope is my name / less is always less unless it’s more / no more only pain / ever really knows / nothing is the same / love never comes / to our sorrow / to our shame

[voidlightmoon]

These eyes

These eyes have seen Truth and lies Gather like a storm Building, ever building wonder of the skies A world of fear and harm Stormbringer wound slinger Eat your bleeding heart Agony is near ‘Look upon my works ye mighty and despair’ Everything you are all you ever do destruction is your essence Stare into the abyss He stares right into you

[voidlightmoon]

To you

Come to me

I will hold you true

Open your heart, dear one

feel the love I have for you

Love that sets you free

I believe

believe in love which never ends

I hold fast to the truth

Souls filled with hope again

I believe, though I’ve been broken

Torn, and tempest tossed

these words that you have spoken

Find me, when all is lost

I believe in hope

the coming of the dawn

Shine your light upon me

as this road goes on and on

Come, and see

find me true

I come

Come to you

[voidlightmoon]

Will you

Will you stand when all is crashing down

Will you hold with madness all around

Will you hope when reason is long gone

Will you love with no rights, only wrong

Will you fall into these arms of mine

Will you lie our limbs all entwined

Will you breathe as I give my life

Will you leave my hope, my heart, my wife

[stevenisthatbitch]

More Melanie Martinez Cry Baby songs iPhone wallpapers. If you don’t have this album please buy it, it’s perfect. 

[voidlightmoon]

Soon, or late

See that face, once again

tears stream down

Taste the salt, taste the pain

try to swim, I only drown

Just another unfinished song

off key, and out of tune

Never right, always wrong

praying for help, please come soon

Is there such a thing as fate

is hurt my only destiny

If love comes soon

or love comes late

Please, just let it come for me

[voidlightmoon]

Meant to be

Hold it in, they tell me Not knowing that I can’t do that can’t be that I wasn’t made to just push everything down inside I am of the stars Exploding in a blaze of glory and destruction See me burn, so bright I light your day and fill up your night Put your light under a bushel My light is to be flung across the universe My song is meant to be sung Both a blessing and a curse

[voidlightmoon]

Reblog

[voidlightmoon]

Living and dying

Sometimes words pour out of my heart a torrent of images bursting free

Sometimes the well inside is barren dead landscape mocking me

Sometimes I think of every love I’ve known stoke the coals burning mouths and eyes

Sometimes I know I’ve never had real love ashes coat my tongue painful to realize

Sometimes my heart strains with joy and love singing pours out like rain a life of hope and joy

Sometimes crushed in the depths of despair screaming out all my pain another broken toy

Sometimes I feel everything at once overwhelmed and at a loss crying for respite

Sometimes nothing matters to me underwhelmed and at a loss nothing ever seems right

Sometimes always I keep trying still living, and dying in the dark, and in the light

[voidlightmoon]

Soul strained

How can we love without some kind of grace I see the light dawn from your face Life spills as my heart thrills to you, always to you Eyes stained, soul strained in such pain Beauty pours from those eyes I need you more now than I ever have hurts to realize Dawn breaks your heart too going home this day is just for me…and for you

[voidlightmoon]

Cage

Lived a life of doubt

filled with rage and hurt

Always let it all out

smile when the pain comes

Eating and bleeding, face in the dirt

Demons crowd in my mind

laughing, terror-bright cacophony

Screams everywhere, I find

my demons are afraid of me

I laugh as I weep

eat up all my pain and rage

This hunger is mine to keep

I’m no prisoner…

I’m the cage

[mariposaheart]

Stealth invisibility

Messaged notes Unread Taken photos Unseen Spoken words Unheard Longing heart Untouched

[voidlightmoon]

Don’t we all feel this, at times? Living our lives from a whisper to a scream. Filling others, even when we are almost empty. No matter what we do, or think, or say, sometimes we feel invisible and without worth. I just want to say that you aren’t invisible. You have intrinsic worth, even when you feel like nothing. You are beautiful, a holy fire burning, a beacon in this long dark night. You are seen…and you are loved.