Jameson Rivera (Gang 1)
Basic Character Questions
First name: Jameson.
Surname: Rivera.
Nicknames: Jamie, Heroine, GlooDick, basically anything else sexual themed.
Date of birth: 26 February 1994.
Age: 26.
Physical / Appearance
Height: 197cm.
Weight: 61kg.
Build: Very skinny, tall build. He could be considered unhealthily thin by some, and ideal to others.
Hair colour: Ginger with blond streaks
Hair style: Big fluffy at front?
Eye colour: Forest Green.
Eye shape: Protruding/prominent.
Distinguishing facial features: Beginning of gauntness. Acne/scars. Flared skin under nose. Pupil dilation/distant look. Sores in mouth corners. Perpetual runny nose. Some gold teeth. Set of rounded scars on right cheek.
Which facial feature is most prominent: His acne.
Which bodily feature is most prominent: His weight.
Other distinguishing features: Self-harm scars on his hips and legs. Skin-picking injuries. Unhealthy pallor. Needle tracks on arms.
Skin: Unhealthy pallor. Self-harm scars. Acne/scars. Flared skin under nose. Skin-picking injuries. Needle tracks. Cigar burns on inner arms. Rounded scars on right cheek. Old scalding burn spread across torso. Thin.
Hands: Very soft. Long fingers. Old burns on palms.
Make up: Light eyeliner and eye shadow. Light blush to cheeks. Foundation. Red lipstick often.
Piercings: Triple forward helix. Rook. Daith. Tragus. Orbital. Standard lobe. All black.
Scars: Acne scars. Self-harm scars on hips and legs. Skin-picking injuries. Needle tracks on arms. Cigar burns on arm. Rounded scars on right cheek.
Birthmarks: Brown mark on right shoulder blade.
Tattoos: Heroine on his lower back, with red X’s and a bag of heroin under it.
Physical handicaps: Coeliac Disease. Mild muscular wastage. Brittle bones.
Type of clothes: Black-banded white fedora with feather (eventually given by Elijah). Light pink crop top sweater. Short white skirt. Black fishnet leggings. White leather thigh high platform boots. Black leather garters. White tennis shoes when not working, or bunny slippers. Simple nightdresses to bed. He is cold often, and wears giant woolen jumpers often. Retro pink suit for formal wear, white crop top with handmarks over chest, rainbow bow-tie, simple black dress pants and black boots loaned by Elijah.
How do they wear their clothes: He will start the day looking proper, but will put no effort into keeping it that way.
What are their feet like? (type of shoes, state of shoes, socks, feet, pristine, dirty, worn, etc): White leather thigh high platform boots on work. White tennis shoes while in public. Bunny slippers/bare feet when at home. His shoes are noticeably old, but they are relatively reliant. Blisters on feet. Feet perpetually sore.
Race / Ethnicity: Caucasian Australian.
Mannerisms: Australian accent. Dark sense of humour. Perverse. Nasally voice. No volume awareness at times. Emotional quickly. Joker despite deep unhappiness. Easy to lose track of thoughts. Swears frequently.
Are they in good health: He is a heroin abuser and has autoimmune disorders and deficiencies.
Do they have any disabilities: Chronic HIV disease (untreated). Coeliac disease. Severe anaemia. Bad lungs. Muscles and bone wastage.
Personality
What words or phrases do they overuse: Sexual words and phrases like, “We getting spun as fuck.” He also overuses vines.
Do they have a catchphrase: “Let me be the heroine of your story.”
Are they more optimistic or pessimistic: He is extremely pessimistic at his root.
Are they introverted or extroverted: Rather extroverted.
Do they ever put on airs: He’s self-sufficient and would rather others not see him in a place of vulnerability.
What bad habits do they have: Does doing heroin count lol? Or self-harm? Smoking. Drinking to excess at times. Swearing excessively. Extremely distasteful humour at times. Picking his scabs. Stimming? Over-obsession.
What makes them laugh out loud: Extremely dark to extremely childish. And meme culture.
How do they display affection: Many times he cannot voice it, and while trying to he forgets to physically show it. At other times he is big and boisterous with both his words and actions and it can get overbearing.
Mental handicaps: Mild Asperger’s. PTSD. Heroin addiction. Suicidality. Mild drug-induced psychosis (when using).
How do they want to be seen by others: His conditioning makes him crave being desirable, being sexy. He truly wants to be someone people want to be around.
How do they see themselves: He sees himself as some used toy that will just be thrown out when he stops delivering results in some way, and if he cannot be liked in some way (either as a fuck or a funny face), he isn’t meant to be with anyone. Be useful, or don’t bother.
How are they seen by others: To his clients he is perfection in every sense of the word. To those he works for he is moot. To others, he is the drug addict prostitute who is sometimes funny. To those that matter, he is more.
Strongest character trait: His funny outlook and his truly giving soul.
Weakest character trait: His desperation for approval and use to others that can remove from his individuality and growth.
How competitive are they: He has only ever known being in competition with others, however that may be, and so he will compete to his dying breath to be better than those around him who have always been made out to be more than he ever will be.
Do they make snap judgements or take time to consider: He is extremely rash and will make decisions fast without deliberating them.
How do they react to praise: He grins really big and flaps his hands in what he calls ‘happy hands’. He usually squeals too and jumps around. He does not know how to handle it in a mature manner.
How do they react to criticism: He silently takes it, and he usually disassociates for a while afterwards beyond what can be helped.
What is their greatest fears: His mother. His pimp. Heavy rings. Anything hot. Unfamiliar/unwanted touch.
What are their biggest secrets: His HIV diagnosis. His past.
What is their philosophy of life: You live and you die, try and make someone happy in between.
When was the last time they cried: One of his clients had whacked him across the face while working, and to feel it from someone else made him start sobbing. He had been put back onto the street without pay. This was two days ago.
What haunts them: His childhood.
What are their political views: He is extremely left leaning.
What will they stand up for: Human rights. He especially stands for gender equality, and eradication of homophobia, and mental health stigma, as these directly pertain to him.
Who do they quote: Generally pop culture and memes/vines.
Are they indoorsy or outdoorsy: He loves nature and being outside, he considers wooded areas and open fields as his happy place.
What is their sinful little habit: Heroin/drinking/smoking.
What sense do they most rely on: Touch and sight.
How do they treat people better than them: He grovels and submits generally.
How do they treat people worse than them: He feels no one is worse than him.
What quality do they most value in a friend: Patience and wit.
What do they consider an overrated virtue: Ambition.
If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be: His constant need for usefulness.
What is their obsession: The internet and plants.
What are their pet peeves: Virtue signalling.
What are their idiosyncrasies: Always having to be busy. Night owl. Always alert. His sinful habits having a schedule that he has to abide by.
Friends and Family
Is their family big or small? Who does it consist of: Very small. His mother and him. He does not know anyone else, except for the many men she fucked and forgot about.
What is their perception of family: Maybe if he had been dealt better cards he would have a higher opinion of it. As it is, it’s entirely overrated and he cannot understand why anyone would give a single fuck about it.
Describe their best friend: She’s from a gardening club member who always has sweets for him every week and laughs at all of his jokes. She’s so easy to be around and happy-go-lucky that that cant help but be rubbed off on him while around her. She is always the highlight of his Tuesdays, and he is always extremely saddened to leave her. He feels he owes her nothing but all he already is.
Ideal best friend: Everything his best friend is.
Describe their other friends: He doesn’t really consider his fellow workers as friends, and if they were they would be surface level and wholly supportive of the profession they are in.
Describe their acquaintances: Generally he cannot relate to others and empathise, and this makes it extremely difficult to even become acquaintances.
Who are their natural allies: His fellow workers.
Who are their surprising allies: Some of his clients.
Past and Future
What was your character like as a baby? As a child: He had a childlike innocence while a baby, but he grew up very fast living in the kind of household he was. He acted out often and was extremely bitter and angry from a young age. He didn’t understand what his own brain was, and acted out in physical aggression often as a result of everything.
Did they grow up rich or poor: They had some money, but his mother basically never spent it on anything but herself.
Did they grow up nurtured or neglected: He was extremely neglected and abused as a child.
What is the most offensive thing they ever said: He left his mother a note when he left in the night saying simply, ‘fuck you’.
What is their greatest achievement: He helped another child at school who was going through similar things as him and gave him someone who would listen.
What was their first kiss like: The boy who he had been helping had begun getting attractions to him and vice versa, and they had been walking down the street at night on their way to the boys house after sharing a joint in the park when the boy had stopped him, before thrusting him against the wall beside them and passionately kissing him. It had frightened him at first, but it felt so right and so beautiful that he couldn’t stop. This truly showed Jameson what he was afraid of at the time: he was gay.
What is the worst thing they did to someone they loved: He took it too far with the boy, then being boyfriends, while they were making love the first time, doing some of the things he had learnt from his mother and the many men she had let into the house. He had hurt him, and he had begged for Jameson to stop and he had immediately. Jameson had burst into tears and the other boy was already crying. They hugged it out and the boy had reassured him it was okay, but he never truly forgave himself for it.
What are their ambitions: Ambitions are for the privileged.
What advice would they give their younger self: Do not ever believe you deserve the bad things that have happened to you.
What smells remind them of their childhood: Wood stoves and the dust of the school broom cupboards.
What was their childhood ambition: To be working in medicine in some way.
What is their best childhood memory: His first kiss.
What is their worst childhood memory: There are too many to count, but he would say when his mother locked him in a cupboard when she finally found out his sexuality, shoving only gluten-containing food in and not allowing him access to a bathroom. His coeliac made him incredibly sick from the food and what he did as a result began to fill the space. She was spun during this, and forgot he was in there for at least two days, in which he used the rest of his phone battery to message his boyfriend to get him out. Their relationship was entirely forbidden by his boyfriends parents as well, and the both of them never went back home.
Did they have an imaginary childhood friend: He had many to try and escape his reality.
When was the last time they were crushed with disappointment: When his favourite show ended; a needed distraction from the abstract dystopia his day-to-day was.
What past act are they most ashamed of: When he went too far and hurt his boyfriend.
What past act are they most proud of: His decision to not go home, despite not seeing much reprieve of the horrors life can present.
Has anyone ever saved their life: His boyfriend saved him from dying in that cupboard, and he jumped in front of the bullet that ended him.
Strongest childhood memory: He remembers distinctly the moment one of his mother’s men had been stabbed by her. He had hidden in his room at the sound of struggle, and then had heard his name being called. He had cautiously made his way to her, seeing her out of breath and very obviously tweaking. She had shockingly hugged him, and she had looked down at him and said the following words, “Mummy loves her little boy. Please, don’t ever make mummy mad enough. She just can’t help herself…”
He then remembers being sent to stay at his boyfriends place when a bunch of policemen came to the house, and he later found out his mother had been arguing with the man over her many charged felonies, and about whether he should be taken from her care. Jameson didn’t know the man had cared, and then he was gone. He remembers never sleeping with his back to the door after that, and reading up on in secret ways to defend against a knife attack.
Love
Do they believe in love at first sight: With his mental state, he subscribes more to the notion of latch at first sight.
Are they in a relationship: He was right before the beginning of the book, with his first from school. His name was Sedik Mahlunga.
What is their sexuality: Entirely and unapologetically gay!
How do they behave in a relationship: Each meaningful relationship he has is under critical lens, as he doesn’t trust others to not hurt him. It takes an extremely long time for him to not be cold and hostile to others, and as of yet he really has only had two good relationships with people. He is extremely giving and compassionate with those he deems as good, loving within an inch of his life.
When did you character last have sex: He has sex every single day on the job.
What sort of sex do they have: He does not have any identity of his own on this front; he does whatever the other person wants, and that’s it. This can range from gentle to incredibly violent to labile to kinky.
Has your character ever been in love: He was and still is entirely in love with Sedik, and it kills him that that had to be taken so quickly.
Have they ever had their heart broken: When Sedik was murdered.
Conflict
How do they respond to a threat: He is numb to some threats now, but he always badly disassociates afterwards.
Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue: He has been conditioned to physically defend himself when the need arises, and sometimes when it doesn’t. This is something he is trying to unlearn.
What is your character’s kryptonite: Mention of his mother’s/pimp’s name. While typically doesn’t fully break down, his adrenaline propels him for the rest of the day.
If your character could only save one thing from their burning house, what would it be: From their childhood home, his phone, and the brothel, his boyfriend.
How do they perceive strangers: Fuck or threat.
What do they love to hate: Many religious groups for their discriminatory teachings.
What are their phobias: His mother. His pimp. Heavy rings. Anything hot. Unfamiliar/unwanted touch.
What is their choice of weapon: He uses whatever is available to him at the time. His own fists are only good to defend, and sometimes not even that much, and he must make do.
What living person do they most despise: His mother.
Have they ever been bullied or teased: He wasn’t very well liked by those he hurt in school, but he was never really bullied and he was considered a popular boy.
Where do they go when they’re angry: A wooded area off to the side of a park that’s close to his brothel. He feels calm here, and free.
Who are their enemies and why: The other workers as they are always in constant competition with one another to be the most valuable.
Work, Education and Hobbies
What is their current job: Sex worker.
What do they think about their current job: He enjoys it to a degree, but he also doesn’t know anything else, and he doesn’t know how much he could enjoy other work.
What are their hobbies: He enjoys writing and listening to Broadway plays in his spare time and outdoor activities such as gardening and nature walks. He has not had much time to fully broaden his horizons with all the hobbies one could acquire by his age.
Educational background: He completed Grade 12 and did poorly.
Intelligence level: He doesn’t lack intelligence, but he hasn’t been given the proper tools to let this show.
Do they have a natural talent for something: He’s incredibly good at remembering things and can recite whole movies on the spot with added music and sound effects.
What is their socioeconomic status: He is living in near squalor.
Favourites
What is their favourite animal: Porcupines.
Which animal do they dislike the most: Horses.
What place would they most like to visit: South Africa so he can see his boyfriends home firsthand.
What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen: His boyfriend when he broke him from the cupboard.
What is their favourite song: Soldier, Poet, King.
Music, art, reading preferred: Broadway-style and Singer-Songwriter/cartoony/comedy and young adult fiction.
What is their favourite colour: Yellow, and rainbow~
What is their password: GayRights69.
Favourite food: Anything sweet! He especially likes chocolates, gluten-free muffins and ice cream.
What is their favourite work of art: David statue.
Who is their favourite artist: Vivziepop.
What is their favourite day of the week: Tuesday.
Possessions
What is in their fridge: He shares a fridge with seven other workers, and the only things that are his are the gluten-free items and some of the vodka. Most of the food is provided, but he has to go out of his way with his condition to get safe options.
What is on their bedside table: He didn’t take much from his house, and all he keeps on it is his phone, a picture of him and his boyfriend, condoms, cigarettes, bags of heroin, and the ring he had bought to propose with with his first month’s pay. Most of his pay goes directly to his pimp, and it took him that long not buying anything else and finding one of the cheapest available.
What is in their car: He has never learned to drive.
What is in their bin: General rubbish and condom wrappers.
What is in their purse or wallet: Money, condoms, library card, cigarettes, his dealer’s card, illegal prescription pain killers, pictures of him and Sedik, and his gardener membership card.
What is in their pockets: Condom/wrappers, at least one emergency sweet for when his energy dips, wrappers, loose tips, and his phone.
What is their most treasured possession: His pictures of him and Sedik.
Spirituality
Who or what is your character’s guardian angel: Sedik, but his cynical side says it’s the drugs.
Do they believe in the afterlife: If there is, which he doubts, he believes he’s going straight to Hell.
What are their religious views: He rejects religion for himself personally, and doesn’t mind some religions on there own, but the people and how they advocate for them ruins the entire thing for him.
What do they think heaven is: A lie people tell themselves to justify their sometimes abhorrent behaviour to others.
What do they think hell is: The world we were all set to endure.
Are they superstitious: Not particularly.
What would they like to be reincarnated as: A prophylactic.
How would they like to die: In a timely fashion.
What is your character’s spirit animal: He doesn’t believe in such things.
What is their zodiac sign: Pisces.
Values
What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person: Keep them from being who they are.
What is their view of ‘freedom’: To live unapologetically and love without restraint.
When did they last lie: When he told his last client that he was feeling up to providing his service a day ago.
What’s their view of lying: His whole life has been a lie he’s struggled to keep, and he’s never known that truth is best, so he’s comfortable and content in this way.
When did they last make a promise: A day ago, when he promised his client that they were in for a night beyond what they could ever comprehend.
Did they keep or break their last promise: More or less kept.
Daily life
What are their eating habits: Right now he eats whatever he can that is keeping with his allergies. He relies heavily on sugary foods. He doesn’t enjoy fatty foods generally and eats greens when he has access to them, but sugar is definitely an issue with him.
Do they have any allergies: He has Coeliac Disease.
Describe their home: He lives in a brothel with seven other girls. This is defined as a relatively moderately sized shed in their pimp’s backyard, with seven tiny rooms and a small common area where they all congregate when not working, this including an extremely small kitchen. Any other ‘luxuries’, they have to pay their pimp in ‘favours’ to receive, and they are held in his house, such as watching TV and taking showers. He tries to spend as much time as he can out of the brothel, but he cannot go very much further than the yard most times when not working, and he would rather not be in the yard by himself where his pimp could punish him.
Are they minimalist or a clutter hoarder: He doesn’t own a lot of stuff.
What do they do first thing on a weekday morning: He has a morning smoke and brews some tea.
What do they do on a Sunday afternoon: He likes to take walks once he’s off work, and drinks a hot chocolate once he’s back. He usually rests after this; he never has any energy, and his job, habits, and illnesses take the last of it he has.
What do they do on a Friday night: He gets totally wasted, abusing heroin and drinking until he physically can’t anymore, almost always ending in him passing out in a puddle of his own sick face down on the floor.
What is the soft drink of choice: Creaming Soda.
What is their alcoholic drink of choice: Vodka mainly.
Miscellaneous
What is their character archetype: Jester/Lover.
Who is their hero: Sedik.
What or who would your character dress up as for Halloween: Angel Dust.
Are they comfortable with technology: He is perfectly comfortable and even excels generally.
If they could save one person, who would it be: Sedik, no questions asked. Thus far, there is no one in this world he cares about more than him.
If they could call one person for help, who would it be: Sedik.
What is their favourite proverb: It is what it is.
What is their greatest extravagance: His sinful habits undoubtedly, most of his waning money is spent on these things.
What is their greatest regret: Not doing anything as Sedik took the bullet for him. He was sick from the drugs and what had occurred before, and was barely aware of what was going on, but remembers extremely clearly the sound of the gun, and then Sedik crumpling in front of him.
What is their perception of redemption: When they give no reason for you to doubt their words.
What would they do if they won the lottery: He would leave the country and start over somewhere else, somewhere his mother and his pimp can’t find him.
What is their favourite fairytale: He never learnt any fairy tales as a kid, and doesn’t bother with them as an adult.
Do they believe in happy endings: He desperately wants to believe, and there is some semblance of faith still in him believes it truly can be.
What is their idea of perfect happiness: Being free.
What would they ask a fortune teller: If Sedik is at peace.
If your character could travel through time, where would they go: He would travel to where ‘flower power’ was just coming into the public eye, and aid in the protests and rallies going on at the time.
What sport do they excel at: He doesn’t really do much in the way of sports, but he does take walks.
What sport do they suck at: Most honestly, he’s not a well person.
If they could have a superpower, what would they choose: The power of invisibility.