carter 🐰

he/they, 18 just some gay, disastrous thoughts ! insta is mymelodymlm

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cuddling with him feels like a dream, and it’s my favorite part of each day i get to spend time with him

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HE KISSED ME OH MY GOD

IM SO GAY PLEASE

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i think this might be one of the biggest crushes i’ve ever had on anyone and it just makes me so happy, bc he’s absolutely amazing

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hehe cute boy hugged me around waist brain go BRRR

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cw/tw // talk of weed !!

i stg this boy makes me fall a little more each day. especially when we hangout and smoke together holy SHIT. n he always hugs me when i leave and it’s a long, nice hug and 🥺 AND HE BUYS ME SNACKS TOO ,, and we WORK TOGETHER AND HE ALWAYS LOOKS AT ME AND SMILE AND I JUST GET SO RED AJXFNJSSJ im so gay holy shit 😔 pls be into me PLS

[mlmmymelody]

let’s go on a late night drive, darling. we can watch the stars and talk about what we want to do in the future. and of course i’ll sneak kisses from you every now and then, but i can’t help it. you just look so perfect in the moonlight. how lucky am i to have a boy like you as mine..

[mlmmymelody]

i demand sleepy cuddles w a boy rn or else i will pass away

[mlmmymelody]

oh to waste the day away with a boy. we can stay inside for the day, cuddling. sneaking in sweet, unexpected kisses. making cookies and watching movies. napping together. just a fun, lazy day with the one you love. that sounds pretty nice, i wish i could do that

[mlmmymelody]

this is kinda a sad post, my apologies

have you ever felt so full of warm feelings for someone, but the fact that you can’t be with them crushes you so much? you’ve finally found someone that you want to pour all of your heart into, shed yourself of all form of protective layers in front of them and let them see you. someone who makes you feel happy and excited, someone you’re infatuated with. and dare i say, even in love with? but you know you’ll never be able to call them yours.. your heart always skips beats, you catch yourself watching them, smiling at the little things about them. the words “i love you” on the tip of your tongue when they do something random. but you’ll never get to hear those words back, or experience having that person in your life as someone more than a friend. it feels so heavy on my chest. i don’t like this feeling because, after believing for so long that i would never find someone i would be able to open up to or be comfortable with; here i am. i met you. but my wants with you will never happen. im so close yet so far.. it hurts. and i don’t even know what to do to help the hurt. grieving over someone who was never mine.. how silly

[mlmmymelody]

im so excited to fall in love with someone, be in a long lasting relationship, and have a future with them. im ready. im ready to hold my boy in my arms, ready to cuddle. i cant wait to give him good morning kisses, go on fun dates, and experience life with him. im ready to have someone to call mine for the rest of my life, to call someone my home. just waiting for him to come now though. hopefully soon

[mlmmymelody]

in the mood to make cookies or a cake and decorate them with my partner, i think that would be such a cute date!! and then we can munch and watch movies and just,, have a fun evening

[mlmmymelody]

i am feeling very gay today but i have no one to be gay with. day = ruined, this is homophobia. i just wanna smooch a boy until we’re both out of breath, is that too much to ask for?

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i need a boy that just radiates heat. i get so cold, so easily :( it sucks!!! so i need a nice, warm, cuddly bf please and thank u

[mlmmymelody]

a list of things that boys do that make me melt :

1. exist

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i want matching rings or bracelets or necklaces w a boy that i love bc SJXNDN CUTE

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OKAY BUT 🥺 waking up on christmas morning with the love of your life by your side, you see his sleeping face and smile. it’s nice and warm in your house, cozy. and when he finally wakes up, you two share a sweet kiss before getting up to go make breakfast and give each other the gifts you got. n then you just laze around the house all day, cuddling in the living room watching christmas movies and enjoying being with each other. PLEASE??

[mlmmymelody]

i want to do simple mundane things with a boy. go grocery shopping together. cleaning up our little house. taking our dogs for a walk. making a meal together. simple things that are enjoyable simply because im with him, that’s all i want