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For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive...

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Colorful Modern Apartment Design Uses Space to Beautiful Effect

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The Beauty of Simplicity: Minimalist Interior with Maximum Style

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2018

Common question on your birthday: “How do you feel a year older?” For me, on most birthdays they all ‘feel’ the same, but this past September, I felt like I was hanging on an internal cliff by my fingertips...clinging on to the age of the 20s! And although I make a conscious effort to be in the moment--go all out with everything I do-- there is always more to do... with so little time to do it.

2017:

1. Take 3 dance classes 

2. Choreograph something

3. Visit SF

4. Visit Seattle 

5. Ride my bike to work at least once a month.

6. Complete a V5 in climbing (at Cliffs).

So I only completed half of these resolutions. I took 3 dance classes but didn’t choreograph anything. I visited Seattle but not SF. I completed 6 V5′s at Cliffs! And maybe lasted til June to ride my bike to work, but that goal changed after my career change, so I feel like I get a pass on that one.

I found it very helpful for me to achieve certain things with these really finite, measurable goals, but it left little opportunity for reflection... or I guess I should say, self-assessment/processing?

In 2017, I became bothered again by people who weren’t important: my old boss, who threatened my rights as an employee... my friend’s gf, who was cold to me throughout the entire year for something I had no control over. In terms of career, the negativity my boss planted catapulted my drive toward what I really want to do in OT. With my friend’s gf, I blew up in reaction to the problem haha, but hopefully the problem will be resolved in the coming weeks. But everyone knows I don’t do fake, and I cannot pretend to be nice... I can only be real nice! Other than that, 2017 brought so many great adventures and opportunities which definitely trump the scant negative moments... most of them with my best friend and boyfriend, the rest with great company/friends/family. Firsts: Zion, Bryce Canyon, Half Dome in Yosemite, Whistler/Vancouver, Joshua Tree, Big Pine, Grand Canyon, Honduras, Kauai/Kalalau Trail. Extras: Chicago, Seattle, finally recovering from injury and holding up to finish Honolulu marathon. And probably more that I’ve missed but am so grateful for. I’m grateful that I have supportive friends to further my growth and love for adventure in addition to intellect and deeper meanings. I’m grateful for my boyfriend the same,..in addition to increase my knowledge of love and logic. I’m grateful for the time I could spend at home in Hawaii to connect with my grandparents, parents, sibs, and old friends... along with the time to come back to the ground and reset my intentions.

In 2018, I continue to pursue happiness and be proactive of things in my life that cause unhappiness, negativity, & stress. I want to:

> Think more. Aristo told me last year to make a resolution to stop being mad at him...which I thought was dumb. Sad to say he’s right... although I know with age comes wisdom, I continue to get emotional in situations,..causing anger to cloud my thoughts and lash out on him. I want to make an effort to just try to talk and respond rather than react... because I’m so grateful for him and everything he does for me. I want to see how things turn out if I try to be more level-headed in light of disagreements. 

> Learn more in climbing, running, dance. Some of my current passions which I want to be more knowledgeable about. I began learning to lead climb this year, but I never got certified to practice it for real, so I would like to start that in my free time. I want to be very conscious of my running form and nutrition in order to prevent injury and vomiting during races... it’s a thing of mine. I want to take different dance classes-- my 3rd/3 class in 2017 was contemporary and I loved it and want to get back into foundation/form.

I think that that, built on my past goals for health consciousness and proactivity, will facilitate my growth and values in 2018. I want to learn more about myself, who I am and who I want to become. Here I come.

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2017

2016.. looking back at 2016.. what a year. A year of, I’m sure, frustrations and stress and hardship... but overall I remember positivity and happiness and accomplishment. 

Consciousness of happiness (to fertilize my positivity)

Drink more water daily, stretch, sleep more (even if that means skipping out on other things)

Make time for all my hobbies (climbing, running, swimming, biking, dancing, continuing education), as well as for new hobbies and traveling (whether it may be distant or road tripping).

Resolution #1: I’m pretty sure that goal was geared mostly toward my old roommate, who was full of negativity, judgment, silence, unsupportive... by the end of 2015 I felt like I was tip toeing around my apartment...avoiding being home the same time she was. And I was festering the unhappiness by not doing anything. I became more active in trying to resolve the problem, but in the end the right solution was to make the move to another place. And I love my new place! I wanted more space, more sunlight, more privacy. I feel much more at peace. Going in to 2016, I additionally felt unsettled and unhappy with my personal life.. relationships. I don’t know if I exactly solved the problem actively myself, but life played itself out over time. In reflection, I am conscious of how happy I am now in terms of dating. I also had come into some stress and unhappiness with my job. Having changes and poor management/support kept me in this dark state of mind until I actively sought to change it. Making the solution to drop out of being full time was a great change.

Resolution #2: I definitely tried to make that effort to take care of my body more. And it helped out in the end with how many more things I found I could accomplish, but I could have been more conscious of the stretching.. that got me into trouble by November when I ruined my knee between Chicago and Las Vegas Marathon. :(

Resolution #3: In retrospect, I’m pretty satisfied with how I spent my time. I got to improve my skills in climbing and running, swimming for a bit, biking for a bit. If anything, I still have not brought myself back to dance. I think about it often.. it’s crazy to think how it used to be all of my life, and now a scant appearance. I know I stopped for a while bc I felt like it had sort of taken over all time for other things, but now I find myself craving it but not doing anything about it. 

I look back at 2016 and see all the awesome events that have transpired based on my resolutions. I moved into a new apartment. I aspired to finish the LA marathon, and added 3 more marathons to the mix throughout the year (Big Sur, Chicago, Las Vegas). I finally made a trip to Maui (never been) and adventured through Haleakala crater. I went to Europe for the first time. I won the lottery to hike Mt Whitney and got to bring 10 other friends with me. I started a 2nd job geared more toward what I wanted to do in OT. I spent more time with a friend, who convinced me to see that he could be that and more and evolved into my boyfriend..my biggest support and best friend (of 2016...lol!).. my logical brain to balance out my emotional one. And so many other things, including the people I met and continue to keep in touch with. I am so thankful for this year and how it has turned out. With the foundation of values I have established over the past New Years resolutions, I hope to create more concrete goals for this upcoming year.

1. Take 3 dance classes (I know, just 3? But trust me, it’s become that bad. At least 3 will make me happy).

2. Choreograph something

3. Visit SF - I live in CA and keep telling my NorCal friends I’ll visit, and never make time to. I want to do this more.

4. Visit Seattle - again, another close destination that I have not made the time to go to. My sister lives there and I want to see her dogs.

5. Ride my bike to work at least once a month.

6. Complete a V5 in climbing (at Cliffs).

And Boston qualify. 2017 I’m coming! Be nice to me.

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Enjoy the journey.

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For 2016

A little late, but better now than never. And from 2014, I’ve come to realize reflections from the past year really help to set goals for a new one. Reflecting off 2013 helped me be uplifted in 2014, and 2014 led me to have a great 2015! Let’s keep it rolling.

2015 was about being proactive...

Try more things to find what else I may enjoy in life. There are a lot of things I always say I want to try. Yoga, rock climbing, diving, painting? But I never do them because of what…? I think I end up not trying new things because I make the excuse of time, …or make the excuse that no one will do it with me. But if I hadn’t tried running for my first half-marathon 2 years ago, I wouldn’t have realized I like doing that! So I would like the resolution of more experience in that sense.

Be proactive with my health. I want to do this because, like the first resolution, I put off making appointments due to time. (Maybe I should just make a time management resolution loll.) Anyway, I’ve needed new glasses. I’ve needed to get my hip checked out since before the Honolulu marathon. etc. etc. I just need to get it done LET’S GO.

And believe it or not, with these resolutions as the foundation of moving forward, onward, upward, I believe to have lived a more full life this year. 

Resolution #1: January: I tried taking the LA metro (ended up not liking that so much lol). Swam open water in a wet suit for the first time (got my hand chomped on by what I imagine to be a baby sea lion). Went to a Roots concert--amazing! Tried the whole Bikram yoga thing; not. my thing. hahaha. Tried out my first all-day hike, Mt. Wilson, with the idea that I wanted to complete the SoCal Six Pack challenge. The hikes were absolutely breath-taking, esp with great company and support, leading to a successful completion of hiking all six peaks by the end of the year! March: Went to my first continuing education seminar on KT taping; love learning about things I don’t understand. July: 1st race outside of Hawaii (SF half marathon). August: 1st swim race (Pier to Pier). Tried out rock climbing and ended up loving it! September: Got my 1st bike since I was maybe 8 y/o. October: 1st triathlon (won 1st in my age group!). November: Race for fun (Turkey trot LA...ended up PR-ing my 10K out of excitement). December: Tried out the painting thing finally! I think it turned out well. ----So I didn’t do the diving thing, but I’m still thinking about it because I still have this strong urge to explore the unknown underwater life. Will keep working on that.

Resolution #2: So I did finally address my injuries.. I went to urgent care when I had to for my hip, I went PT for my calf, I got new glasses before the year was up (in Dec ha!), I went to the ER when that dog bit my arm and leg... basically I made more time and effort for the things that I easily had put off before when I thought I was invincible. All turned out for the better!

2015 was a year of new experiences and continuing adventure and exploration (let’s not forget about PERU), along with less recklessness and dgaf-ing haha. And at the same time, as I live my life further in California, I am conscious of the fact that it is more difficult to hold close my roots of Hawaii. I’m enjoying the time and connections I have spent/made on the mainland, but from going back home in June and December, I noticed I feel happier with my community and how I am in HI..in terms of just how settled I am internally. Again, what is happiness? I continue to search for its meaning, or its true form. I just know that the happiness I feel from HI home is different than home CA. What does that mean? Probably the fact that I know HI, I know the people, I know the culture. CA is so vast, so many people, so many personalities, .. I feel like my identity could easily be lost or influenced negatively. 

For 2016, I want to be more conscious of what makes me happy (similarly to 2014′s resolutions, but also different bc I’m in a totally diff place), what makes me unhappy, and to think of ways I may resolve the negativity instead of festering it. For 2016, I want to continue to be proactive with my health...in terms of drinking more water, stretching, sleeping, etc.. and also in terms of my mental health, which ties into the whole happiness thing I guess. For 2016, I want to continue to grow my new passions that I have tried in 2015...climbing, open water swimming, also dance...while also trying new things to continue my adventures. So...

Consciousness of happiness (to fertilize my positivity)

Drink more water daily, stretch, sleep more (even if that means skipping out on other things)

Make time for all my hobbies (climbing, running, swimming, biking, dancing, continuing education), as well as for new hobbies and traveling (whether it may be distant or road tripping). 

Andd I also want to qualify for the Boston Marathon, but I feel that’s more of an individual goal that I just NEED TO DO rather than a resolution. That goddamn BQ time. Alright, here we go!

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to see what you are prepared

CK: Lonely or peaceful?

J: Peaceful!

CK: Well, I am glad. Sometimes we can clear out negativity when there is peace.

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Haven't been in such a funk for a while... Someone get me out of this!

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