enough

playfully distant header about having osdd

[modestmeowse]

he doesnt get it no matter how close i can get to just saying it he doesnt get it

[modestmeowse]

lol anyone else get the glitch where these two do the same thing? haha where they feel the same and kinda act the same and serve the same purpose and feel the same fucking way?

[modestmeowse]

this is such a nice moment i just need to be here when i need to be

[modestmeowse]

im just ruining it for everyone. nobody wants me here. everyone else can kind of be normal i just ruin it

[modestmeowse]

im sorry i dont mean to be like this

[modestmeowse]

i hate us. i hate this cycle. its such a fragile thing and it seeks this recreationally. its all it knows. its all we know

[modestmeowse]

honestly everybody in the dolores fandom owes somebody theyll mever meet a big thank you for not letting us get shitfaced but boy am i trying

[modestmeowse]

i honestly loathe artsy depictions of peoples mental health bc all i see behind my eyes is a mean and empty place

[modestmeowse]

EVERY TIME I WAKE UP I JUST REMEMBER HOW AWFUL IT ALL IS AND HOW AWFUL I AM AND I JUSY DONT WANT TO KEEP GOING THROUHH IT

[modestmeowse]

i literally cannot imagine a time that is different than now every moment of any inspiration for any change is so fleeting. i just want to lay doiwn again but then ill just sleep again and nothing will change. i dont know what to do

[modestmeowse]

MY LIFE IS LIKE A VIDEO GAME:

watch someone make you steal stuff

[modestmeowse]

i really could go back theres just a couple wrong choices. id figure it out

[modestmeowse]

please dont make me lose this job i love this job

[modestmeowse]

i think its reincarnation i really do

[modestmeowse]

i wake up the thoughts hit me in waves until im back there again. maybe i can sleep a little more but idfk

[rhymingwithpurple]

[modestmeowse]

its not cute kill the thought and move on