I wanna make friends, so so here's my little resume :3
Name: Kaede
Gender: man (owo)/🏳️⚧️
pronouns: he/him
Sexuality: Ace/gay :3
Age: 20
Petre species: brown tabby cat!
About me!
Ive been regressing for a few years now but I dont have a lot of experience (ive been embarrassed to do anything ( -'_`-))
I regress as a de-stressor. Its nice to turn my brain off and just be kitty for a while :3
I really like drawing! :D
Fandoms: Honkai: Star Rail, Genshin Impact, Vocaloid, Project Sekai, Sanrio (my favorite is my melody), Minecraft, vtubers (🍸🐍 and 🟢🪽), Love And Deepspace
Favorite games: Minecraft, The Finals, Phasmaphobia
Favorite band: currently Waitress or Bear Ghost
Hobbies: drawing, sewing, working out
Favorite color: PINK!!
I would love to have some petre/LGBT friends, so please interact, thank you!
Cat images from Pinterest, stamps from uhhh I dont remember
Learned that drag king exist, didnt know that was a thing. I decided to try it myself, please be nice, this is my first time doing this kind of makeup and im not good at normal makeup either so
Idk if I'll do this again, but it was fun :3
Idk why i feel like bbno$
Edit: ive had this on for 20 mins and im not gonna lie I feel really hot I dont wanna take it off 😔
Learned that drag king exist, didnt know that was a thing. I decided to try it myself, please be nice, this is my first time doing this kind of makeup and im not good at normal makeup either so
THERES SO MANY EVENTS HAPPENING THAT I CANT GO TO CAUSE I DONT HAVE FRIENDS TO GO WITH AND FEMALE LOOKING MAN + GOING TO LATE NIGHT EVENTS ALONE = PROBABLY DEATH BUT I CANT MAKE FRIENDS TO GO WITH CAUSE I CANT GO ANYWHERE CAUSE I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS TO GO WITH AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH
Im trying to move out of my parents house so I can start transitioning but I realize that this is literally all ive ever known. (For context, Im the youngest of triplets) Ive never had to really think on my own and now in order to be a human being i have to throw myself into that completely blind and alone :(
Wasn't sure about trans tape but going to bed shirtless and waking up shirtless and not having to put a bra on was i think the most gender euphoria ive felt in years
I have actually known I was trans since I was like 14 (kinda long, sorry)
Back in 2021 I got tiktok, which was my first time ever getting unrestricted and unmonitored access to the internet. This was peak lock down so I had nothing better to do. I went from watching fnaf cosplays to joining the furry fandom and from there I learned what bisexuality was and I was like "woah! Girls can like girls?? :0" (I remember the exact video too, it was a girl with a dino mask explaining that being bi doesnt mean attraction to men and women equally)
So I start researching this. At this point, im still very christian but literally nobody told me being gay or Trans was "wrong" I literally had no idea.
I go down rabbit holes and I start thinking and im like woah, i dont wanna be a girl :/
I think the first time I identified as anything different, I used asexual/bisexual/nonbinary. Then I started getting more specific, trying to figure out what fit best, i went through lesbian, pansexual, queer (which at the time I described as "i like girls, but i would give guys a try"), trigender, genderqueer all the micro labels. I was on the fandom page for lgbt identities regularly (still a devout christian at this point)
I love micro labels, theyre all valid, just none of them fit. At this point I knew being gay or Trans would get me disowned so instead of rocking the boat and getting kicked out at 15 I just. Stopped. I repressed everything and got hyperfem. I only wore pink and skirts, I got really into makeup and fashion and finding a boyfriend. While my favorite color is still pink and im technically a femboy, it was just really overkill. I held my body to the super toxic feminine standards (I needed a tiny waist, no muscle, i had to be tiny a petite, i had to be soft spoken and lady-like, i had to be shy and if I wasnt all of those, I would never get married (which i believed had to be my main goal in life))
It was only a few months ago that I realized I wasn't... happy. I still didnt feel at home in my body, I still wished id been born a man. At first I though "well every woman thinks that, its normal". I first decided i would just get this urge to be a man out through vtubing as a male vtuber (still working on my model btw) and that kinda just escalated really fast and look at me now
Ive abandoned the church, im a Trans gay femboy. It all came back around :3
The only trans related things are either for trans women exclusively (which is awesome, im happy for them) or just thinly veiled speed dating/chasers trying to get one night stands -_-
Finally had a conversation with my friend about being trans
Shes a right-wing christian but she was nice about it. She said she wouldnt leave but she wouldnt agree with anything im doing (I told her I was unsure and questioning)
Just made me realize if I want to like who I am I have to give up quite literally everything I have. All my relationships, probably my job (my boss and all my coworkers are right-wing christians), my entire family (theyre all right-wing Christians).
