Is this who you are, not who you want to be?

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[mrmdvxn]

Bc it’s usually onto the next… til I take time to reflect - usually when I’m struggling I remind myself of all I’ve accomplished and what I’m continuously working towards.

[mrmdvxn]

I had a dream someone I love randomly moved to London and I was so upset but happy, I was almost crying actual tears when I woke up bc it came as a surprise and so I guess I was in college? in my dream but was like a soon as I can I’m moving with you there too. It was the weirdest. Didn’t even make sense, bc this person wouldn’t likely live there but I was so ready to just follow through and be there with her. The last bit of it was telling my bestfriend about this move bc she has family there and it was just like weird bc I started walking home and then saw giant carrot roots I took a picture of then continued walking home I guess.

[excitementshewrote]

[mrmdvxn]

I fucking hate when women / girls say no to men’s unsolicited advances, and they have the audacity to ask “but why?” BECAUSE SHE FUCKING SAID NO. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER. Fucking creeps.

[vespertinemusic]

Sedona Legge by Brian Ziff in “I Quattro Elementi” for Numéro Berlin (2020)

[mrmdvxn]

What I disliked about Monrovia feeling so small, I love about Pasadena, because that makes it feel like home. How all generations of my family all know people out there from both my mom and dad’s family and friends generations, to my older cousins to me. The 626 community was truly where I felt not only I did but where we fit as a family and I feel I still belong. I would still be there, if it weren’t so expensive. I wish I could go back and comfortably enjoy it, truly. If I can, I will. I would rather be there if it weren’t for my priorities, but things change and who knows if it should bring me back someday. Perhaps I just needed to experience life outside of where I grew up? Maybe fate could sweep me back up out there or so…

[metamorphesque]

― Margaret Atwood, You are Happy

[salacious-sci-fi]

[catchymemes]

[mrmdvxn]

The fires will be put out please

[amethyst-pendulum]

[mrmdvxn]

My fam isn’t always festive, but we had dinner w my parents & my mum invited my bestie (who’s fam isn’t as festive either), to try my mama’s Yucatán cooking for the first time.

Not quite the traditional holiday gatherings, but still sooo cozy & comfy. Spent the evening after dinner among fellow creative souls (that funnily enough, felt like fam when I met them all too), the vibes are immaculate.

Also, I met a bobcat!!! The cutest cuddliest Chonk w a lil tail!! Bradoaks me was loving it. Really, more about quality time with family & friends, and creative community this year. 🤍

[whiskeynwine]

[mrmdvxn]

Really just sent this to a guy I think is cute

[mrmdvxn]

If he ever sees this it’s gonna be so awkward!

[mrmdvxn]

It’s my 33rd birthday! I have had this account for over a decade I think. Crazyyy so much internet yet such little time too, for some now adult ppl to not even remember a time without it now

I’m not doing much but I at least went to a concert Saturday to celebrate, my friend let me walk in the section infront of the barricade during my favorite song I was pretty stoked he honestly made my night, I celebrate life in general often tbh so maybe I needed a lil introspection. I went a lil too hard last year tbh.

The sunset was nice, chilled with my parents and pet sat over the weekend.

Overall peaceful and extremely grateful. I didn’t have a cake so I set intentions on a pink candle I have had and not not lit yet. So I atleast blew out a candle! Grateful for all the love via various forms of contact.

[vintagelasvegas]

Fremont St, Las Vegas, August 1965

Eddie, Sam & Joe “The Cutups”, Tommy Strange, Gene Dlouhy & His Canadians, Kenny Brewer Quartet at Golden Nugget; Lucky Casino; "Mustang Weeks" at Diamond Jim's Nevada Club; California Club.

[anxietyproblem]

[excitementshewrote]

[mrmdvxn]

This guy called me a witch, like it was a bad thing.. 💅🏼 ✨ tbh he’s already fucked I didn’t need to hex him. Seems someone else already has. 🌚