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#who do queue think you are #other: about spam

@joiesamevans

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#//Hilarious because this literally IS Spencer on top of it totally being Spencer.#who do queue think you are #//Spence has two queue tags and idk why. Lol.

Alright. ...Might be best for me to go back to relaxing then.

Mm, I'm sure Gabe'll be up soon. Let me know if you need anything.

I will. ...Thanks.

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...Anything else?

[Jules sipped at her own water.] Nothing in particular.

Alright. ...Might be best for me to go back to relaxing then.

...Fine.

[Jules leaned back against the headboard again.] Good.

...Anything else?

...So what am I supposed to do about that?

Talk to your OBGYN as soon as you see them next. And probably get a referral for a psychiatrist.

...Fine.

There's two parasites living in my body! [Spencer suddenly snapped.] If I actually expressed my feelings, I'd be in a straight jacket right now!

It's really not as uncommon as you think it is. Some women who purposely got pregnant with their partners have a compete disconnection before and after birth. No one's putting them in straight jackets.

...So what am I supposed to do about that?

My 'body and brain' aren't going to somehow hate this less if I try to trick myself into thinking I wouldn't be a terrible mother.

[Jules sighed and shook her head.] You're not getting my point. Let's take the horrible mother part of it out of the equation if that will help. People who are already dealing with mental health struggles for any reason are even more likely to have post partum depression. And it is a bitch. So what I'm trying to tell you is that you need to take care of yourself and not just shove everything you're feeling into a box like it doesn't exist.

There's two parasites living in my body! [Spencer suddenly snapped.] If I actually expressed my feelings, I'd be in a straight jacket right now!

...Doesn't matter. They're not my kids, [Spencer said coldly. Clearly shutting down.]

We're not talking about them right now. We're talking about you and what you're body and brain are about to go through because they do not care.

My 'body and brain' aren't going to somehow hate this less if I try to trick myself into thinking I wouldn't be a terrible mother.

[Spencer crossed her arms tighter.] ...It doesn't matter.

It absolutely matters. We're going to take care of your mental health same as your physical. No matter the specific circumstances, this is still gonna cause some trauma for you and the babies. We want to do everything we can to get you through that.

...Doesn't matter. They're not my kids, [Spencer said coldly. Clearly shutting down.]

...I'm not doing it either way, so it's a difference without distinction, [Spencer murmured with her arms crossed.]

Only if you're not gonna let it cause you to think less of yourself.

[Spencer crossed her arms tighter.] ...It doesn't matter.

"Fear", "unfit". Tomato, tomahto, [Spencer sassed.]

Those are not the same thing at all. Lots of people are scared to do things they have the potential to be great at. Being afraid you're unfit and actually being unfit are totally different.

...I'm not doing it either way, so it's a difference without distinction, [Spencer murmured with her arms crossed.]

I "place much higher value on my independence than others" and "thrive from a flexible lifestyle without obstacles that slow me down", [Spencer parroted.] Oh. And let's not forget my favorite. How I'm, "creating distance between myself and 'the fetus' via my use of the word 'it'".

Overly-independent selfish bitch that's unfit to be a mother. Just because you can't speak Nikko doesn't mean I can't.

Mm, he may have had a point on that last one. [Jules admitted with a tilt of her head.] But I think that comes from a lot of fear.

"Fear", "unfit". Tomato, tomahto, [Spencer sassed.]

I said basically, [Spencer reiterated.]

Mmhmm, I fear you may be exaggerating a little.

I "place much higher value on my independence than others" and "thrive from a flexible lifestyle without obstacles that slow me down", [Spencer parroted.] Oh. And let's not forget my favorite. How I'm, "creating distance between myself and 'the fetus' via my use of the word 'it'".

Overly-independent selfish bitch that's unfit to be a mother. Just because you can't speak Nikko doesn't mean I can't.