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Maggie Jackson at your service, 24 years old medium. Life can be pretty spooky, don't you think? [RP Blog]

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I like being involved in interesting and creative things. I’d just rather be involved in creating it, rather than being in it. - Karen Gillan

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24 / MEDIUM / MIDTOWN  / LESBIAN 

Warning: The biography below contains mentions/descriptions of: Mediums, Life after death.

THE  O U T S I D E R

Madelaine (or Maggie as she rather calls herself) grew up in South Colorado as an only child, raised by her mom alone as her dad walked out on the family when she was only two years old; this leaving them in a tight economic situation that followed Maggie throughout her childhood. As she grew older Maggie’s mother started worry about her current state as she often found her daughter talking to herself inside her room – conversations that could have been taken for childish games if the conversations hadn’t ended up being about Maggie herself and her mom always described it as she was talking to an old dear friend about her day. When her mother confronted her daughter about these conversations Maggie calmly explained that she wasn’t talking to an imaginary friend but to different people that passed through or lived in their house, but who couldn’t be seen by just anyone. What neither of them knew back then was that she had the ability to see and communicate with the spirits of dead people.

As she grew older her abilities grew with her, together with her thirst to figure out the unknown and the secrets behind the afterlife. Though, as one could have guessed, running around in school trying to brag about the fact that you can see ghosts never end well which was just what Maggie managed to do during her first week at school. Kids being kids some thought of it as “cool” and wanted to know more while some thought she simply made it up to get attention; but no matter what the attitude they all changed their opinion as times passed and Maggie soon got marked as the “weird one who talks to fake people”. The teachers started to think her behavior had something to do with her economical problems at home and often tried to discuss it with Maggie. It wasn’t until the start of middle school that she finally realized there were no use in trying to make people understand her abilities – mostly because they didn’t want to believe it – and because her mom begged her to stop, threaten to send her child off to a freak show unless she stopped pretending to talk to people who weren’t there. She bluntly refused to understand her daughter, finding more troubles in her behaviors and shortly found a way to hush her: she started to shame Maggie each and every time she dared speak up about her clairvoyance, telling her that was the reason her father had left and why no one would ever want to befriend her. It really didn’t take long for Maggie to catch on and a heavy anxiety came to develop as a cause of it, pulling away from people one at the time to assure her mother held no more reasons to yell at her.

It wasn’t until high school that she started to take things more seriously, doing more and more research in secret about psychic abilities, about how they worked and how you could improve them. She stopped listening to her mom’s worries even if she stayed on a low level, knowing rather well that people either believed in life after death or they didn’t. Things did however take a bright turn for Maggie as she met up with another girl named Serina who could view other people’s auras and read their energy. It didn’t take long for the two of them to form a friendship that quickly moved over to something more. Serina and Maggie dated for almost half a year before they had to break up, Serina not feeling overwhelmed by the fact that Maggie couldn’t seem to collect the nerve to tell her mom about her girlfriend. They decided they were better off as friends and stayed that way until the end of school.

Once high school was over Maggie had plans to wander off to college but quickly changed her mind when she stumbled over a medium that was helping out a family get rid of bad energy inside their home. Fascinated by the work he pulled off she started to wonder if she too could use her abilities for good and she decided to book a short meeting with the medium to discuss his career path. The medium ended up being equally as interested in Maggie and offered her a spot as his apprentice, seeing both potential and a driven force for the job. With that all her thoughts about college left her mind and she started to travel around with the medium across America to learn and finally understand her abilities; even against her mother’s demands. Her mentor made her feel safe, like she was whole and as if she finally had a purpose and it was a feeling she loved to cling to as if it was the end of the line.

It wasn’t until she reached the age of 21 that she stumbled over one of the last jobs she would do as an apprentice, helping a family communicate with their lost mother and wife, and it was also there Maggie met the current love of her life – Lola, they both found a connection right away that lead them to take a coffee the day after. At first they decided to just stay in contact over the phone as friends but the more they talked the more they realized they wanted to give a relationship a shot, so Maggie decided to leave the medium behind to start off on her own. As she reached the age of 23 she and Lola were still equally as invested in their relationship, they decided it was time for them to move in together and found a nice smaller apartment in Atlanta where they have lived since. Maggie is currently working as a halftime medium, doing everything between helping people communicate with dead family members or friends to cleanse people’s homes out of bad energy; while also doing her best to maintain a small business on the side focusing on natural body products and herbs. However neither of these two provides much economical stability for the girl and it happens more often than not that she has to lean on Lola for support, which is far from what she wants for the couple. Her dream is to reach far and wide, grow stronger than ever before and overshine her mother’s negative emotions regarding her daughter, but it’s a long way to go.

❝  WE ARE ALWAYS TAUGHT TO FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT - BUT PERHAPS THERE’S MORE THAN ONE WAY?  ❞ 

♢ DRIVEN, OPEN MINDED, HUMBLE  ♢ ♦ ANXIOUS, NAIVE, PULLED BACK  ♦

//FC: KAREN GILLAN  / MUN: SARA

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Hang on, is that a planet out there? You promised me a planet. Five minutes?

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☠ : Are there any recent/daily thoughts they have about death or dying?

As Maggie has a strong connection to the dead (the spirit realm or the other side, whatever you may call it) it’s impossible for her to ignore the topic of death even if she wanted to. It saddens her when she meet those who passed away far too young, those who wander and stay lost; when she doesn’t have the skill needed to reach out and help. She knows she is going to join them one day, but until then she hopes to live a happy life far away from worries. 

☯ : Do they believe for every darkness there is a lightness? If not, why?

No, she does not believe that. Though Maggie is a bubbly girl from the inside out, the many years growing up with her abusive mother and absent father has caused her to always wonder why. She hates when people tell her everything happens for a reason, because that only make it sound as her mother’s actions should be redeemed and she should be forgiven for what she’s done. Maggie knows life has been unfair to her since the start, she deserves better but the only light she really has is the security and love from her girlfriend. 

♥ : Name one thing about the way their emotions work that they despise.

She’s too anxious to fully express anything but happiness. 

☆ : Would they ever wish upon a falling star? If so, what would they wish?

Yes and she would wish for her mother to finally accept her for the way she is and apologize for everything she’s done, give them a chance to start over. 

☁ : Describe how they would spend a stormy, overcast/rainy day.

Maggie would spend it cuddled down next to Lola, probably watch a movie or just listen to her girlfriend rant about something she saw at work the other day. If Lola isn’t home she will spend it crafting stuff for work.

☂ : Storms or clear skies?

Storms, for the very reason up there ;)

εжз : What about nature do they find calming? What about nature do they find disagreeable?

She loves that nature is filled with so many wonders, how no tree or rock looks exactly the same, to be able to breathe some fresh air. She doesn’t like bugs or the fact that it’s too easy to get lost. 

☎ : List three or more people they would call out for during an emergency.

911 and Lola, she wouldn’t dare to bug anyone else. 

☛ : What is their typical response to being given orders?

Maggie would follow along the best possible. Though she isn’t fond of being given orders she doesn’t have the self-esteem to speak up either. 

☢ : Describe a thought or dream that would cause them to have a mental meltdown.

Lola leaving her just because she’s too much for her, her mom finding her or the memories from her childhood. 

✄ : Are there any reasons why they would ever think of self-harm? If so, what are they?

She owns a nervous habit of scratching her own skin to the point of leaving marks, but otherwise no. 

❤ : Describe a physical action that shows complete trust.

She will sit closer without looking tense or worried. 

❥ : Describe a verbal way they would express complete trust.

She can talk about personal topics without skipping a beat or changing the story to something else. 

✗ : Explain how they portray feelings of hostility or dislike.

She mostly just stares at people she dislikes and tries to get out of their way as soon as possible. She doesn’t want to start fights.

⊗ : What is something that causes them to question themself?

Almost anything, really. Maggie doesn’t have the best kind of self-esteem and the wrong comment at the wrong (or right) time is enough to make her back off; she will be stuck dwelling on it for ages. 

☾ : On a sleepless night, what would they be found doing?

She would be doing some craft work, like a candle or some soap she can try to sell the day after. 

☤ : Is there anything about their health they are continuously on edge about? Something they disregard?

Maggie can fall into small fits of depression from time to time and she hates that it ends up being just another burden for Lola to deal with. 

✓ : Name at least two people who can trust them with their life.

Lola and pretty much anyone in the need of help? She has yet to establish more stable relationships in Ashbourne, but her old mentor might also be one. 

❣: Describe a way that will earn affection (whether platonic or romantic) from them.

Stay patient with her, don’t look down on her, don’t make fun of her and show that you care.  

✖ : Describe a way to make them uneasy or apprehensive.

Once again, you don’t have to do much. Maggie’s anxiety makes her uneasy even when she shouldn’t be and all you have to do is laugh at the wrong thing or show doubts.

♆ : Are they prone to violent outbursts or thoughts?

Yes, if you push her to talk about her mother or if you try to tell her she should be thankful for her. 

✏ : What are their creative outlets?

Crafts, she’s quite fidgety and loves working with her hands and smells to calm down. 

✉ : Do they tend to rely on words or actions more?

Actions, she feel like they speak more than words. If someone isn’t feeling well she’d rather pull them outside for a couple of hours instead of trying to talk them into feeling better. She knows talking doesn’t help much at times. 

♡ : Is there a certain scent that brings about nostalgia? If so, describe a memory this scent brings back.

After shave. Her mentor always used a specific type of after shave and everytime she meets someone with a similiar smell around them she can’t help but feel thankful for this man who became one huge chapter in her life. She gave her a reason to break free, to become her own person and if it hadn’t been for their travels she would never have met Lola and found out about Ashbourne. It brings out the memories of the many places they have seen, the people they have met, her training and their friendship. 

۞: Are there any inner demons they can never seem to get rid of? What are they?

As said, her mother. This woman mentally abused her throughout her childhood with most of it being connected to her abilities to talk to the dead. She will never understand her mother’s cruel behavior nor does she want to, but it’s a hard thing to forget about as well. She’s thankful for the support she has at the moment. 

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FEARS;

Like any other person Maggie Jackson has her fair share of fears, though sadly enough, most them have to do with her own mother. Once she settled in Atlanta with her girlfriend, she started to feel a strong calmness she is unable to explain. The place feels a bit magical to her and it’s odd to her to say that she likes it; however she has still to tell her mother about her new home. As of now, she still believes Maggie is out travelling with that old medium she met so many years ago by accident. When you’re 24 years old you shouldn’t have to go to bed, covered by anxiety connected to your own mother finding out who you have settled down with and what career path you have chosen for yourself. But Maggie worries and she is not to stop, praying that her mother won’t find a way to pull her away from the things that makes her happy and safe. Lola does her best to sooth her girlfriend, but it doesn’t always work even if Maggie often pretends it does. She knows Lola means well. 

She also fears making a fool out of herself among people, thus she speaks with care and over analyse her own words before she even dares to open her mouth. Shouting will make her back down as she sees it as her own wrong doing, and she knows better than to trespass into a situation she can’t control or repair. It happens that she ends up pulling the wrong strings, as her high empathy and ability to read a room with the help of spirits, makes it hard for her not to meddle in another’s business. She wants to help others find peace, while she constantly fears losing her own.