And last note, I will mostly not tag people in reblog games because I get anxious from that. Unless you explicitly tell me you want to be tagged, I will not. However, I’ll still participate in those because they are fun.
Chapter 2: Teacher’s Recommendation (Where is it?)
Me getting frustrated at teachers fr. Please fill out my teacher recommendation if I ask you too. I understand if you have a lot going on and several students to deal with. But I catch you at free time, I email you, I talk to you IN PERSON, and yet I see it still isn’t submitted. And now the due dates passed and I feel like crap. And like fam, I put in effort for you to get my stuff in on time, and you can’t do the same???? I swear the only way I can get some teacher to do things is if I sit with them and make sure they do it. And teacher recommendations are supposed to be private.
AND what really bugs me is that I spent hours stressing and completing 4 applications to the best of my ability and now I might not even get considered for any of them because the teacher recommendations can’t get in on time. (I have this issue with multiple teachers). And I can’t lie I half saw this coming from some, but they are teaching in the field the application cares about and what I am trying to go in so now I have to deal with that.
And now if my dad finds out he’s going to start freaking out because he’s also going to share the same sentiment and this is only a junior year thing (at max) and idk if he’ll start speaking angrily or saying “This is bad” in that stupidly harsh tone he says it in like he’s blaming me, because like I did my best. I tried, and I can’t.
And then he’s going to ask me how I am going to do actual college applications in a rhetorical harsh tone because if I can’t do these, how can I do those? Why am I expected to control the actions of other people and make sure they get things in on time?
Why did teacher recommendations become a requirement to get into even anything remotely selective. They literally have at least a hundred kids to worry about. Isn’t a recommendation supposed to idk be something optional, to help people be moved along, rather than a stupid requirement. Actually why am I even trying to get into anything remotely selective? Literally everyone applies seems to have at least an unweighted 4.0 GPA and is the president of at least 1 club and has like above a 30 on the ACT and like at least 12 APS.
I don’t know anymore. I just want a job that gets me enough money to own a 4 bed 4 bath house (with a partner at least), allows me to work from home if I want to, and live comfortably where I can spend money without worrying about the price of anything under $1000 (being reasonable).
My lil place to keep my diary of thoughts and yet release them into the world for anyone to hear and maybe relate, if you do pay close enough attention that is.
Showing off my personal coding projects to my parents is ....
Like don't get me wrong, they're great and everything, but like I wish my projects were more impressive. Like with art, you can use colors and make things realistic and detailed, and people find it cool.
But when I showed my mom one of my coding projects, it took me the same amount of time and effort to do the program, and I made this really cool to do list function that I am really proud of, which is a part of a crucial design aspect of my game I'm trying to make into a final project and maybe a base for a personal project. But like, all she really complimented was the images, which were just simple assets that I didn't even make. Like I spent a while learning a time keeping system and did my best to make it function like an actual game, but all she really complimented was work that wasn't even mine.
And she got into how I could bring Chat GPT into it and how I should use it to code and like yeah, I know that's what jobs want and such, but first, I don't like the unnecessary use of AI, especially LLMs which aren't what I need for this project, and second, I am not doing this just for a job fam, I like coding and making games and you are kind of ruining the vibes.
But like, honestly this is such a non-issue, I guess. If I just talk to her, tell her what I feel, she'd probably reflect on it. She's done so in the past about different topics. But I don't want to make her feel bad, just because I seek validation. Though, I probably should just tell her so that I don't gain unnecessary resentment.
Guys birthday is peak fr. Like i discovered keeper leaks, i got complimented on leadership things, I got application videos done, and I one of my liked YouTuber posted a video when he doesn’t post much and it is a video about a topic I find interesting.
Update, They blocked it like the day after I discovered it before I could do anything at school. :(
I need to find a fool proof way of doing this on a Chromebook. I can’t download any apps and the web extension for Remote Control Desktop for Chrome is blocked. The only way I can think of is using a online school app or an online google app Some egoistical part of me thinks I could code it using python in TechSmart but first, that is super complex and I do not have libraries other than tsapp, pygame, math, and random. I also have code studio, but there are other limits with that, mainly the complexity. Maybe codecademy?
BTW I was using getscreen.me before it got blocked
Ah just looking back at this, remembering when I used to post a lot about KOTLC and stuff. Those were the days. Honestly wish I could post more, but getting older and having actual homework sucks so much.
Yk what I think is somewhat funny but like a little dystopian? I get “join ICE” ads on YouTube. Like bro, I am not your target audience at all. I am a second gen IMMIGRANT, not even a white passing one. YouTube’s ad recommendation actually sucks, maybe for the best that it does.
I was able to do some Keeptober things and I’ll submit these for our monthly project. Basically our assignment was 12 inktober prompts but I asked and I could do Keeptober.
Swan October 3 - black swan monocle in front of fire
Music October 4 - Sophie’s angry playlist on her iPod.
Mourning October 14 - Jolie’s Tree
Crush October 22 - lil note abt Sophie from someone (whoever you think it is)
Memories October 23 - Keefe’s shattered memories of Gisela
Panakes October 25 - Sophie under Calla’s tree.
- 2nd Page (Dates are out of order sorry) -
Headcannon October 16th - Tinker secretly being Jolie
Flowers October 17th - Keefe’s beaded necklace he gave Sophie at the end of book 4 + a bunch of KOTLC flowers.
Burning October 19th - Burning of the Archive book
AU October 28th - Marella playing the guitar
Me as an elf October 30th - Me doing work based learning with Kesler in alchemy.
Halloween Costume October 31 - Flori dressing up as a human gnome
Does anyone else want to make a blender world and idk have vr glasses to explore it, but first doesn’t know how tf blender works and isn’t allowed to have vr.
KEEPBLR !!! due to not being able to reach the original @keeptober mod, especially so soon to the month of october, i decided to post a (perhaps a little unofficial) prompt list for this year's keeptober!
i know it's ultra short notice but i'd LOVEEE to see you participate in keepblr's biggest artist event <3 please tag your works with "#keeptober" and "#keeptober 2025" – and pretty please @ this blog so i can rb your incredible creations over here!
inspired by inktober, the basic vibe of this event has always been to create art pieces inspired by daily prompts. late submissions are totally ok!!
thanks so much guys, hope you enjoy <3 if you have any questions please don't hesitate to send them my way!
KEEPBLR !!! due to not being able to reach the original @keeptober mod, especially so soon to the month of october, i decided to post a (perhaps a little unofficial) prompt list for this year's keeptober!
i know it's ultra short notice but i'd LOVEEE to see you participate in keepblr's biggest artist event <3 please tag your works with "#keeptober" and "#keeptober 2025" – and pretty please @ this blog so i can rb your incredible creations over here!
inspired by inktober, the basic vibe of this event has always been to create art pieces inspired by daily prompts. late submissions are totally ok!!
thanks so much guys, hope you enjoy <3 if you have any questions please don't hesitate to send them my way!
Temporarily got TikTok for a day and personally no offense to anyone who does use it but damn is it could do some damage to mental health. Like the algorithm is so addicting and so endless, that I was looking at study hacks and then got sucked in to this college/internship/scholarship feed and honestly started feeling so hopeless about like everything. And I thought youtube shorts was bad but at least the content topics are a little spaced out. Maybe it’s not TikTok’s fault and just a byproduct of a new algorithm but I am NOT getting that app again.