I should be as strong as a rock. @mushthart13 - Tumblr Blog

Kahit anong pilit mang iwaksi sa isipan, hindi pa rin talaga tuluyang magawang isawalang-bahala ang kalungkutang dulot ng pagkasira ng tiwala sa taong hindi mo inakalang magagawa na ikaw ay talikuran. Ang nakapagpapalala pang lalo, ang kabiguang ito ay hindi nag-uugat sa kanyang maling nagawa, kundi sa katotohanan na ang inyong pagtuturingan ay habang-buhay nang nasira.

Ganoon ba ako kapangit?

kwentoniblack

Lagi nalang maling tao ang napipili kong mahalin. Ngayon, hahayaan ko nalang na tamang tao naman ang pumili sa akin.

kwentoniblack

Sana sapat na ang maging tapat para maging karapatdapat.

mushthart13

Kulang eh. Hahaha

kwentoniblack

May aalis, may darating.

Pero nakakasawa narin.

mushthart13

Nakakapagod.

kwentoniblack

Kahit sanay na ako sa pakiramdam.

Takot parin akong masaktan.

mushthart13

Sanay na sanay na ako, pero ang sakit sakit pa rin pala.

Karma ba ito sa ginawa ko?

Sabi ko, di na ako iiyak. Pero ang sakit pa rin pala. Malaman na di ka gusto ng tao. Dahil sa hitsura mo. Nakakadisappoint. Nakakababa ng tingin sa sarili. Pinilit ko naman ayusin. Hahaha. Akala ko okay na ako, pero never na siguro. Ang hirap talaga magtiwala. Di naman ako nagexpect. Pero ang sakit pa din. Sabagay. It's my fault.

Mas prefer nila yung sexy, maputi, maganda ang mukha. HAHAHAHA. Anong laban ko? E ganito lang ako?

remanence-of-love

I can't live up to other peoples' expectations. I'm so sorry.

mushthart13

Magmamadre talaga ako pagkatapos ko sa Ph D.

mushthart13

Gawin ko na ba?

remanence-of-love

Lord, kung di po siya para sa akin, ilayo niyo po.

maverick-guy

Hi, what's your type of men?

Hi! I think it would be best if I enumerate my preferences and standards instead :) Marami ito though! HAHAHA

Interesado sa akin; not only focusing on themselves

Willing to compromise, is understanding—knows how to value my independence

Knows how to take my negative, reasonable emotions with compassion

Someone who can intellectually stimulate me

Dapat hindi elitista. Dapat hindi mababa tingin sa tao. They should have a grasp on how life works—bakit ganito ang nangyayari sa mundo; bakit may mga taong ganito

Ayoko ng super judgmental. I mean, gets naman na we all have varying levels re: pagiging judgmental pero huwag sana 'yong konting kibo ng tao e huhusgaan agad. We all have backstories. I’ve talked to guys na kasi na judgmental, and I really don’t like that. I always evaluate all possible sides of a story or situation for me to reach a sound judgment(?). That’s why I don't judge easily.

It's a must din sa akin 'yong communicative. No need to update kung anu-ano mga specific na ginagawa, pero would love to know kung saan pupunta, kumusta ang nararamdaman today, anu-ano mga plans for the day. Kung wala sa mood makipagusap, sabihin sa akin. I hope hindi siya controlling pakinggan, but sana you get my point.

Also, knows how to handle my personality. Growing up, I’ve always seen by people as blunt and strong-minded. Determined ako. I know what I want in life. I’m assertive. I always reminded myself I needed to be matured at all times because I’ve gone through plenty of lows at a young age. Had to sacrifice a lot of things that most people my age would normally enjoy. Was a working student. Had to stop schooling. So, I want someone who can understand my views and personality, and if the time comes na I unveil my vulnerable side, they know how to handle it as well.

Lastlyyyy, dapat mabango hahahaha

Ayan anon. Pasensya napahaba :P

mushthart13

Dadagdagan ko. Financially stable. HAHAHAHA. No vices. Thank you..

Ngiting may SRI. Hahahaha