The results of a first meditation
So as mentioned on my question I don't feel a call to my ancestors... I don't have a connection to them, and having asked here, Odin and Loki came with an answer. But first I should give some context.
Earlier this year I was doing a walking meditation as I walked into work - was walking both the real world and one of the ways between worlds, and at this point I'd already raised a question in the past, as my relationship with Loki and Odin felt 'different', felt like it had grown. Loki at this point ... for want of a better word stated that I was his child, and gave me permission (for want of a better word again) to use the surname Lokesbairn. Odin also gave me the title of The Wordsmith. Anyway back to the solution they provided.
My craft has never included ancestor worship as I feel disconnected from my ancestors, I only know my family line as far back as my grandmother, beyond that my great grandmother/grandfather are just faces in photos, stories aren't ever told about them etc. My craft however has always included working with deities, the spirits of the land and the spirits of Hearth and Home.
Both Loki and Odin suggested that I use the stories told of the Norse pantheon, and the myths and legends in general as my starting point and meditate on them. I've just done this as a trial, not specifying any point or anything, but instead let myself fall into meditative state, took my normal visualisastion to set up the wards and space (so entered my forest clearing), from there the first thing I could smell was smoke... that smokey smell from a fireside, and the smell of hay, and damp reeds and an earthy smell. So I 'followed' the smell, and the scene showed itself as very dark, the main illumination coming from a fire in the center of a room, the room distinctly feeling round and closed in. I had a strong sense of 'goats' penned in a corner, and a figure huddling near the fire, mixing a stew. Another figure was there, but upon a knocking on the door went to fling it open.
There was no further visual scene but instead the very strong sense of words flashed across my main 'A visitor' 'Snow' 'Offer hospitality' 'stew and drink' 'warm by fire' 'ginger hair' 'trickster' 'new lineage' mend the rift' 'mischief' 'balance'. I'm -not- 100% certain what to make of this, as I had a sense of familiarity with the visitor.... but ginger hair and trickster is who I'd normally associate with Loki... but the only myth I know of that's widely told would be of Heimdall and the creation of the class system.
I'm open to comments on this - but this is more a personal note on my own practice, as I'm working on paying more attention to my craft now in a more organised manner - and using this for what it's meant for as a long (if only to save me buying more notebooks and journals!). I will be trying to draw what I 'saw' but just a ramble really.
