sup

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If you’re gonna take

a run at the devil

You best

Not miss

!

I can feel it inside of me

Burning embers, a fire breathes

Ripping and tearing and trying to get free

Making a hole in the center of me.

Can’t you see it behind the bones

Reaching and screeching to make itself known

From the cage it was made to call home

And soon that prison will become my tomb

Which one of us belongs there I cannot guess

But if you’re gonna take

A run at the devil

You best not miss

!

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The Last of Us

Part 1: Hardness and fear borne from loss. Hardness softened by love. But love with fear due to being borne from loss.

Hardness from being alone, and fear of love due to being left alone. Finding love increases fear of losing that love. Conflicted due to responsibility.

Love borne from loss leads to terrible acts.

Uncertain what happened. Guilty due to being a subject of what possibly lead to terrible acts, but afraid to know due to fear of losing love and being left alone.

Part 2: Love is conflicted due to uncertainty and guilt. Further hardened due to this conflict, and possibly the latent fear of being left alone. Confliction starts to allow for love and forgiveness. Disaster takes away opportunity for reconciliation.

Loss leads to hardness and hatred. Hatred leads to revenge and a terrible act. Revenge gives way to restraint.

Loss leads to pain and hatred. New love causes confliction. Hatred and seeking revenge blocks love and leads to terrible acts, which leads to failure and pain. Failure and pain gives way to love, but hatred still causes confliction.

Loss leads to further hardness and wandering. Wandering leads to love. Love provides clarity. Clarity leads to living differently. Encountering danger results in disaster.

Loss leads to hatred and anger. Anger leads to seeking revenge, which leads to failure and pain. Pain, failure and anger leads to obsession. Obsession leads to opportunity.

Opportunity resurfaces hatred and blinds from love. Hatred leads to obsession, which leads to danger. Obsession blinds from danger and leads to pain, which leads to success and opportunity for revenge.

Revenge creates danger. Pain and seeing love reminds of love lost and causes confliction. Confliction leads to clarity and empathy, which leads to mercy.

Mercy allows for life.

Hatred, obsession, and seeking revenge blinds from love and leads to loss and pain.

Feeling loss and pain and remembering love allows for clarity and empathy.

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Comics writing

I think I understand why reading comics often feels awkward or un-engaging. And was because I finally got around to reading Marvel’s Alias. AKA Jessica Jones.

In those books the dialogue is interspersed with other actions like images of people’s more subtle movements and reactions, or interjections like saying um and uh, as is more true to a natural conversation.

Sometimes it’s the characters stumbling through their words, but it also acts as a way for them to have responses that aren’t necessarily speaking, or inner dialogue either. Looking at the vast majority of comics and the way that they are written, it seems that these are the 2 main actions that punctuate a conversation, with very little else and so the scenes feel kind of simplistic and abrupt.

Often a whole exchange of lines is done in a single panel, meaning a single image is supposed to convey all of those lines, including the back and forth or other actions that accompany them.

I get what that is for. Visual art can be very expensive and resource intensive, certainly in comparison to the same scene as represented in the written word. Being able to implement all the little moments in between those scenes that could make it read more naturally and dynamically can be difficult to do, or even just to justify.

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Job search details

Diploma of Professional Writing and Editing

Wodonga Senior Secondary College Year 12 VCE, 2013 General health conditions: Significant gut health condition (Symptoms started late 2016, treatment ongoing)

Mental health conditions: Anxiety & Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (Diagnosed late 2017) - affects my response to stressful situations long-term effects of trauma (treatment/exploration started early 20205 - ongoing)  - affects my memory, ability to focus, nervous system regulation, and exacerbates the symptoms of my Anxiety and ADHD conditions.

Neurological conditions: ADHD (Diagnosed late 2023) - affects Executive functioning (working memory, task switching, etc.)

The course was fantastic because over the 2 years (First year: Certificate IV of PWE, 2nd year: Diploma) it covered a range of writing disciplines including writing Non-fiction, Journalism, Short-form fiction, Long-form fiction, Corporate writing, Marketing & Advertising, and Script writing. We also studied related subjects like Proof-reading & Editing, Digital formatting, and Historical Literature.

I learned a lot about writing as a business and an art form, both in areas that I already had an interest in, as well as those that I knew less about. This provided a lot of opportunity for me and my fellow graduates to follow a career in any area of writing that we chose and succeed.

I began the course with the intention of a career in Entertainment Journalism, however I became very interested in the ideas and subjects I learned in the Script writing unit. When I finished the course at the end of 2016, I decided to put more time into pursuing film-making and related fields instead.

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World's Greatest Shave fundraising and live music event

Talk to venue - mitchell river tavern.

positioning themselves as the place for nightlife/live music

or footy clubs as venue

Indoor better than out door

also go talk to/canvas to raise awareness of venue and campaign/

ask places to be able to come in and talk about campaign/take donations at businesses, public events etc. (like the paynesville footy on game day)

Talk to local newspaper for promoting/advertising

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Before the house wakes up

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Outward build gear

Unsuspecting Strength (adds heaps of physical damage, some impact, and weapon doesn't degrade - Basic iron weapons. Iron Mace/Iron Greathammer

Rainbow Hex (speed up and hexes - Cerulean Sabre

Weightless (speed up and half object weight) - Marble weapons

Favourable wind (speed up and ethereal damage) - Fanged, savage & kazite weapons. Kazite pistol 1.0 > 1.1 = increased attack speed?

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I think it's hilariously ironic that the developers who made the games where so many people said,

"It really makes you feel like being batman!"

to the point that it became a meme, is the same one that then made a game where the biggest criticism is that the characters don't play like themselves because they all primarily use some variant of a gun instead of their unique abilities

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I only recently got into reading comics, more specifically Marvel and DC comics, and I am kind of astounded by the writing sometimes.

I haven't read every piece of literature ever created, but I can confidently say that some of the pages in these books have the best translation and expression and of complex and resonating ideas as there can be in a book.

Just the other day, while I needed some support to help pull me out of a funk and found none, it was an unexpected page of a Daredevil comic book that made the difference.

I think it makes sense though. With the way that long running comic books like those by Marvel and DC are made, it is the sheer volume of books being produced and writers, artists and other creatives that work on them (many of them very good at their craft in and of themselves) often changing hands within a single volume that creates such fertile ground for excellence, trash and everything in between.

It's sort of like the infinite monkeys with infinite type writers spread out across nearly a century with all the changing times and an effort to adapt them included, but instead of Dickens it's creating stories and universes with a history and mythos all its own.

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Reddit - Dive into anything

AdeptnessLiving1799

Reminds me of a book I've read based around the idea of power and being an authority. The only way to become stable and secure in your power is your ability to serve others who keep you there must be greater value than your personal gain to stay there, or you will have to fend off others alone.

In other words, the most powerful person in the room is also the greatest servant to those whom surround them. If you lose your support by betraying the vision collaborated together, you will face oblivion.

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how many times must a man say his name

before he might know who he is

and how many times must I scream out in pain

before they will listen to our words

yeah how many more have to sing this refrain

until you might understand our fears

the answer my friend

is blowin in the wind

the answer is blowin

in the wind

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you watch her hop back on the bike

doesn't she know this ride will end as it always does?

She does know,

you can stay at home and avoid the crash

or go for the journey, even if it won't last

life is at its most when you do things that make you feel,

that excite, and can make you think

a break up isn't just a thing falling apart

it's the conclusion of a part

just as the beginning is the start

Who are we to deny the final act?

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Nockonwood

Taeh-ru Marr

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I am nothing like my father.

But I am exactly like him

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All he wanted to do was help to change the world for the better.

But he was stopped by his ego. Not for his own glory, but because of guilt. Ego can cut both ways, and he could never do what he believed in while it meant others were concerned or unhappy about it.

You couldn't accept him for who he is, and now the kind of person that we are all told to look up to has had much of the light beaten out of him.

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It's funny, it seems that people feel more of a need to respond negatively than positive. Because if you don't like something than you feel more need to take action, if you like it you just enjoy the experience.

That positivity is a given and so people need to take action and speak out for negativity to have a presence. I think the issue is that some people equate silence with positivity.

People are more likely to comment on something they don't like, than to share a positive comment on something they like.

But I think that negativity has far more of a presence in the world than the positive. Daily life presents a lot more negative elements readily than positive. It is far easier and more likely to unintentionally encounter a problem or a bad situation than for something good to just happen to you. Good things and positivity require work and intent.

Generally speaking it's true that something that is wrong needs more attention and change than something that works. But the world bends towards negativity and it can be worth speaking up for something you like, not necessarily to change it, but to give positivity a presence at all.

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Evil geniuses or brooding figures who only ever seem to listen to rousing classical music be like:

"I don't want to be told what to feel or hear what someone else thinks!

I want to feel things and think about the weight of the world on my shoulders, or the fact that everyone on this wretched planet will never understand that I am saving them by destroying it and everyone along with it!